#just thinking about how many muses on here would have different text color if TUMBLR WOULD ALLOW IT

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An open letter to three people

I would write this (and post it) on some other social media platform, or even write it out in a google doc, but that all feels either more vulnerable or impersonal than I want this to be. I understand that posting about my Feelings on tumblr isnt really all that private, but here all I am is what I say I am, and that matters more than anything really.

Anyway

This is going to be really long.

Five years ago, when I was 15, I identified as agender and pansexual. I was struggling a lot with feelings of "greyness" accompanied by intense bursts of anxiety, and both would make me cry. I cried a lot. I cried a lot for years. I still cry fairly easily but thats beside the point because I dont cry As Much, now. I dont cry as much as I used to, and it's not as painful as it used to be, because I have you three.

I was 14 and scared of myself when I met my first real best friend, at a mutual friends birthday party. I used to struggle with accepting a lot of things about myself, before I met her. Before I met you, I was disgusted by the way I looked. Not because I thought I was fat, though I struggled with that some, no, the main reason was my skin. I was raised believing the darkness in my skin was something to be ashamed of. Not ever directly, my grandmother would never ever tell me, her perfect granddaughter, that her skin tone was shameful. But it was in everything around me, from the age of 8 to 12, that taught me that being Half of something that's supposed to be Opposite of another, is wrong. The distinction between Right White and Black as Sin.

You helped me see past that. You helped me be able to look back at pictures of myself from when I was in elementary, middleschool, yesterday, and not have to look away. I was a really cute kid, looking back. I dont have to fight myself when my mom posts pictures of me from years ago on Facebook anymore. I know I'm not ugly. I know I never was. Now.

It struck me when I was 14, a year after getting to know you, that I didnt think my skin was ugly anymore. That I could like features about myself again. I cried when I realized that. I started to explore myself in other ways, after that, because I could finally look past how I Looked into what I Am.

I tried out genderfluid for a while, scared to admit I wasn't a Girl. At 15 I tried out agender, and like I said above, that was probably a product of my hormonally increased depression. It was also because I was scared to admit I Was A Boy. It's easier to say I'm nothing than it is to say I'm something.

It's hard, learning to accept one aspect of yourself only to struggle immediately after with another.

I dont remember much about this stretch of time in my life, and my timeline is incredibly blurry. I remember when I first met my two best friends, but I dont remember when I first met my girlfriend. Probably because we just weren't very close at the time. It was middleschool, after all. We met through a mutual friend and never really got to spend any time together until highschool. Anyway, back on topic. I think I was about to talk about how I learned to Love again.

For a Very long time, I was scared to even say the words "I love you" out loud and in a coherent manner to another human being. Saying "I love you" felt like a weakness, something vulnerable that once said, would be used against me. It had been, before, but not by you. Which you? All three of you.

Love, too me, used to be something sacred and delicate that could be ruined if I said it to freely. To say it would be to give someone the opportunity to hurt me, and no matter how many times someone said they loved me, I couldnt say it back. I was like this for so long, and it hurt so much.

Love, too me now, is still something incredibly special, but also something that should be said freely. Love is a feeling best felt shared. Love isnt just Romantic, and it never has been. I love flowers in fall, I love the feeling of summer rain, I love the color pink, I love the Concept of goblins, I love my hair, I love my girlfriend, I love my best friends. I love being able to say "I love you" without feeling like I'm pulling rocks out of my lungs. I love being able to say "I love you" without feeling the blood grow heavy in my skin and fear suplex my heart.

I love knowing I'm loved just as much as I love them.

I love knowing no one is going to fight over who I love more. Knowing I love you all differently and just as passionately. Knowing I dont have to be scared of being abandoned.

When I learned how to love without being scared, and how to trust in others, I was able to accept more about myself. I was around 17 when I accepted the fact that I'm a man. I'm not a girl, I'm not nothing, I am genuine to myself. I struggled a lot with accepting that. I was scared of myself.

Before I came to that conclusion, and went a little bit wild, I met my other best friend. He helped me find peace in myself.

I was not in the best place, when I was 16. I almost did a lot of things when I was 16. I dont think I tried to kill myself, but I also dont remember a lot of my teen years. He would know better, the kind of place I was in at the time. He helped me get through it.

Sometimes, when you catch yourself in a rut and cant seem to find a way out and just end up digging yourself down deeper, you need someone to call you an idiot. You need someone to go "maybe instead of resigning yourself to pacing back and forth forever, you could try and climb. You could try and dig into the walls and climb. Just stop trying to pretend it's okay, and ask for help."

I decided from then on out that I was going to treat myself better. That I wouldnt seek out self deprecation, and I wouldnt dwell on things that made me feel bad. It was hard, and it Still Is, but I'm better now. I'm better than I was. I still have the screenshots of the texts he sent me. They're on a blog I used to Write my Woes onto, but now its just an archive.

I am no longer my Own Worst Enemy.

When I first got with my girlfriend, I was kind of in the middle of losing my mind, and I ended up breaking up with her. Awful decision, really, but it needed to happen. I needed to grow as a person, into someone who deserved her even a Little Bit.

I still dont think I'm good enough for her, not by a long shot, shes a better person than I'll ever be. But she loves me anyway. Shes seen me when I looked my worst, when my brain was at its worst, and she still loves me. I dont think ill ever measure up to be what I think she deserves, but I try.

She motivates me, more than anything, to keep trying. To keep going. I almost didnt make it past 19, despite everything I still almost gave in, I almost gave up. I refuse to hurt her like that though. I can't hurt any of you like that.

I cant give up now, not when I have a future to look forward to, and that above all else is what she gives me. Its what you give me. A future to look forward too, to want to earn, to achieve.

I have never really had any solid idea of what I wanted out of life as I gotolder. Usually I'd go for more vague things, like "I want to be an artist and make money from my crafts" and "I want to be a therapist for tweens and young teens, to help them understand themselves." But besides that, I had nothing. What kind of life would I lead, outside of these Career Paths?

Now, I know I just want to be yours. For as long as you'll have me.

I'm 20 now. I am a man, and I don't really want to bother much with a label for my sexuality besides saying I'm queer. I have two best friends, one like a sister another like a muse, and my girlfriend. I have a cat named chelly and a dog named princess.

My life isnt where I want it to be, but I'm a better person now than I was before.

I'm better at Being a person than I ever have been.

Because everything I am now I had the potential to become, and everything I will be I have to potential to become.

There are a finite amount of resources in me, and the more I learn the better I am at using them.

I still get upset just as easily now as I did before, I can still spiral just as badly. I can still cry just as quickly. It's just that now, I know what to do to calm down a little quicker. Now, I'm nicer to myself. Now, I know how to redirect my emotions and my thoughts.

I'm still everything that I was before, just with more experience. The same parts, just rearranged more effectively than before. I'm as quick to comfort myself as I am to comfort others.

And it's all thanks to them. It's all thanks to you.

Thanks you.

I love you

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      INTERVIEW THE WRITER // accepting !

what color do you associate with your muse?

It’s a toss up between green and blue, but generally green.

do you have any advice for other writers?

I’m not multitalented like a lot of people (I can draw a little, I can train doggos, I can paint, I am passably okay at video games) so writing is the only thing I have that I know I’m good at and actually enjoy doing. Some people are very easily dismayed by their talents (or, as they see it, a lack thereof), and myself being someone who hates failure of any kind, I get that. If you’re having doubts about your writing, I can tell you that, for one, you’re really not as bad as you think you are. We all write differently, we have our own Voices, our own styles, and looking at other people’s writings, ofc you’re going to be dismayed. But you have your own style and Voice, too! It’s just like everyone has a different method to completing a task; that doesn’t mean your method is worse! Maybe you need to tweak something, sure, but don’t we all? Rather than letting it beat you down (which I totally understand is NOT easy and I would never expect someone to be able to flick that “switch” with ease), take it as a learning experience! Or inspiration to try something new (without plagiarizing or being a prick obvi)!

For two, I always tell people to read a lot (if you can/are able to). Reading has been the primary thing that has gotten me where I am today (that and consistently writing for years on end) and I’m still nowhere near AMAZING, WONDERFUL. But then you’re exposed to other styles of writing than what’s on here. Because tumblr’s RPC is ripe with people who generally (not everyone ofc) follow an invisible, strict code on how to write. It feels fake and choppy and Not Right. Like the same over saturated filter everyone pastes onto their photos.

JUST DO YOUR THING. WRITE HOW YOU WANNA WRITE. Don’t feel compelled to do something a specific way JUST because the RPC is doing it (do you know how long it took me to actually transfer to using icons??? Or small text? lmfao a long time). Obvi staying “relevant” is a portion of the reason people make promos (I have ‘em too), but who you are as a person, how you write, how you portray your character, etc is what gets to them to STAY. Is what makes them build a relationship with you. I have so many long time RP friends because of this and we’re all open and accepting and loyal to each other and it’s awesome! Everyone should have that!!!! SO YEAH SORRY THIS WAS LONG.

favorite book?

Oh boy. I read a lot and, because of this, I have a ton of books I really adore. Most of Zadie Smith’s works are in my top five. “Alias Grace” by Margaret Atwood is another favorite. “The Devourers” by Indra Das is brutal and detailed, but it’s sooooo good. “The Luminaries” by Eleanor Catton has left an impression on me, so that means it’s good. Also have always adored Gregory Maguire’s “Wicked”. Oh, and, forever and always: Bram Stoker’s “Dracula” (I was a history major in college and Vlad the Impaler was my one true love).

ghosts or monsters?

I joke around a lot that I am a ghost, but I’m actually kind of fucking terrified of them, so I’ll go with monsters.

mcdonald’s or burger king?

I used to be adamantly opposed to McDonald’s for years and years and years, but my workplace is right across the street from one so I’ve learned to like them again. I love BK, too, though, they’re just more out of the way. Were the two right by work, I’d probably frequent BK more tbh. Now, my one true love is Arby’s.

[madestrcng]

tagged by: @dcputyrook​ tagging: whomest ever

BASICS:

Name: Bee ;w; Age: 22 Pronouns: they / them Sexuality: Gay Zodiac sign: Capricorn  Taken or single: single pringle Four Things About This Blog: ✘ I originally made it to be a John Seed blog while I was still playing through the game, but after considering and playing more of it, I decided on Staci instead.  ✘ Partly why I decided on Staci was because he was similar to a muse I use to play that I missed, and mostly because I found @badwclv​‘s blog in the tags while I was on my personal and I just ???? wanted to have a reason to write with them and I hadn’t seen any blogs for Staci when I looked. So I was the first to write him on here. ✘ uuuuuuh, a lot of Staci’s backstory is based on previous characters I played from other fandoms that I thought were similar, my own personal experience (see below), and some fanfics I had read about him. His secondary verse (cult verse) is heavily influenced by a fanfic actually. Embarrassing to admit haha I just found the story concept and Staci’s development interesting and I wanted to see where I could go with that. ✘ I write Staci as being Native American and had grown up on the Rez. Mostly because I myself am Native American and grew up and lived on an Indian reservation all my life before moving for College. I decided to do this partly because of how Staci looked (nonwhite, dark hair, etc), and also based on the general area of where this might all take place. Montana is home to a lot of different Indigenous tribes, like The Cheyenne, Crow Nation, Bitterroot Salish, Blackfoot, just to name a few. I decided on Blackfoot because their reservation is North of where Hope County is supposed to be set. Idk if that is really that interesting but I just ??? wanted to do it, because not a lot is known about Staci before EG, and I found it as a way to build his character and connect to him more personality. Like, if he and I shared experiences even if they were mundane and small, it would make writing him more real to me?? Idk f that makes sense, but point is that bc of this I created like 5 other FC5 OCs or Other Characters (Wheaty) on my multi who are also Indigenous and I get to thrive??? writing native characters??? Thanks I suck lmao

Three Mun Facts: ✘ I will go the fuck off about character theories or headcanons for the most minor characters ever. I only really do it on discord because I fear being annoying and spamming but, I got some deep ass metas in my head. ✘ I wanted to be a filmmaker since I was 4 years old, and I made some short films in middle school and high school. So when I graduated I moved across the country a month later and went to film school. I graduated with a degree in film & cinematography, and every time I watch Inside Eden’s Gate or any of the shorts made for Far Cry, I cry because I wanna make some shit like that. Super wild. ✘ I can play bass guitar and use to be able to play piano like a mf but I stopped and now I’m really rusty. Anyway, hire me to be your bassist in your punk band ;3c

EXPERIENCE:

How’d you start: I rped Naruto over texting with my best friend in Middle School. Platforms you’ve used:  I pretty much jumped right into tumblr after that, never did the forums or anything. I think for awhile we used skype :0 but I only really rped over skype, email, facebook, and texting on and off for awhile with her. But I found uuuuuh, a Durarara!! rp group randomly like two years later and was like oh???  Anyway, so I’ve used skype, email, tumblr, aim??, facebook, and I now RP on Discord a lot more. Best experience: honestly hard to say, I think when I just met people I really hit it off with and we just meshed well is always the best. But if I have to be specific uuuuh, I once joined an RP group about Gods or something, and I eventually got my best friends to join which is what got them into Rping. Also through it I met another girl who became like, my best friend online for YEARS after that, from age like, 13 to age 20?? And also bc I was a big gay, I fell in love with her which uuh, didn’t end well but point is that, the best part is just making friends who you love and adore who stick with you even after the group or fandom you were in together dies.  Worst experience:  fuck ok honestly, I had someone who would hound me to ship all the time, and would follow me every time I moved blogs. They would constantly hound me to write smut with them (even tho I was underage) and if I said no they would just be like oh well too bad and would start writing their character doing some shit with mine and get really fucking mean to me if I didn’t reply. Also would constantly bug me to reply to them and guilt trip me, even if I wasn’t home to reply or if I was at school, they would get really mean and vicious about it. And would post horrible shit about me on the dash and stuff when I wasn’t home to reply to our threads.

And they would constantly like, play if off like I was the bad guy and the abusive one and was overall just really toxic and super mean to me and my friends? Pushed away my other shipping partners, forced me to tell my best friend I cant ship with her anymore or else??? And we were all like, 14 or 15 at the time when we met them, and they were like, 36 and had a kid and was married. I didn’t get away from them until I was like, 18 :))) and they had made so many people dislike me and shit because of the dumbass stuff they said about me, so I had to leave tumblr for awhile. Anyway when I came back like, months later a bunch of people had come out of the woodwork who I don’t even remember to apologize to me and be like wow some shit went down and this person showed their true colors and everyone kinda realized they were toxic and a liar bc I guess they tried to do it to some other people. It was wild.

MUSE PREFERENCES:

Original or canon: Canon usually Favourite face: oh geez uuuh, i guess Rami Malek since I’ve used him A LOT, or Erin Richards. Least favorite face: idk man, I guess people who use FCs who are dead irl makes me uncomfy. It just feels weird to me :/ Or people who use White FCs for nonwhite characters, sometimes its up to interpretation though like a video game character or something. But when it’s super obvious a poc and they use a white fc it’s super weird for me. Multi or single: both, but I have trouble maintaining a multi.

WRITING PREFERENCES:

Plots or memes: plot usually, sometimes I don’t know what to do with memes or I don’t know what the other writer is comfortable with. I like to hash things out and make a game plan so I don’t screw something up. Best time to write:  I usually write at night, but sometimes I crank out replies during the day if I have time or if the muses suddenly strikes. Do you like your muse(s):   I love all my muses so much it hurts wowie How long (months/years?): uuuuuh, started in 6th grade so uuuuh, 11 or so years now?? Something like that, I feel like my writing peeked in high school but then again, if I look back at it, it was probably all cringy and dark bc I was a little edgelord.

[tribblsrp]

Name: Draco! (Marta)

Pronouns: She/her

Selectivity:  Not much, I guess? Unless a mun makes me uncomfortable or I’m super uninspired for a certain thread or interaction, I’m pretty open to roleplaying with everyone.

Favorite animal: When I was a kid it was the ocelot, but nowadays my answer is much less fancy. Dogs. Puppies. Good boys.

Favorite muse you’ve had so far ever: Fushimi Saruhiko. He’s a fairly complex character who has an interesting balance of insecurities caused by past traumas and terrible life choices that still can’t be completely justified by them.

Muse you kinda wanna pick up: The long list or the short one...? I’d love to add more KH muses once I’ll replay the games, namely Saïx, Xigbar, Roxas, Naminé and Xion. I guess what’s holding me back the most is mainly that I’m kinda missing years of headcanons since I’m fairly new to the fandom. There’s Ardyn, too... and I’m also rooting for Markus, Kara and Connor from DBH.

Most identifiable fictional character: Rokudo Mukuro. It’s been years since that, but back in my day he used to be my favorite muse to write and I would pick him up in as many rp forums as I could. I was even nicknamed after him and even my irl friends back then had a running gag with me and pineapples.

What color your aura is/think it is: No idea, but I’d go with light blue.

Personality stuff you agree with (astrology, mbti, Hogwarts house, etc be as specific as you want!):  All of the mentioned, actually. I’m a libra (leo rising), INFP and Ravenclaw.

Do you think you’re a good driver:  I don’t know, but my reflexes suck so I’ll just stick to public transport.

Favorite minor discourse (pinapple on pizza, what color is the dress, etc):  Pineapple on pizza. I love, most of my friends hate it.

Favorite vine and/or meme: I’m a huge fan of alignment charts, text post memes and incorrect quotes, if that counts.

Why did you choose this muse: I’ll just answer this the other way around. I made this blog mainly for my video game muses, because writing fics about them is too much work.

Favorite rp memory: My girlfriend is not much of a roleplayer, but I had the chance to roleplay angsty 14-chapter ignoct with her months ago. It was my first time writing Ignis, and also I hadn’t yet played ep. Ignis (while she had). Some time later I played it when she was staying at my home and I was sUFFERING SO MUCH BECAUSE (spoiler) i was like focusing A LOT on Ignis’ hopes of having Noct back at least but he knew about Noctis’ fate all alongnhajgfdse

Favorite thing you’ve written, in rp or not: I DO HAVE A FAVORITE THING, and it’s this FFXV post-game fic. Not only I really enjoyed writing it, but also I made at least four people literally cry including myself. An achieved life goal, honestly.

A line/lyrics/quote/etc you like or that means a lot to you: “Different universe, but somehow the same people had a way to find each other”

Give a shout-out to someone: I always suck at these, but:

@inchvins: VVVVVVVVVVVVVVV me alegra mucho que volvieras ;; cuando me hice el blog nuevo apenas seguí a gente del anterior, y la mayoría se había cambiado de urls y eso así que era todo un desastre y no sabía quién era ni dónde estaba nadie, pero no te veía por el dash y DDDD: y luego vi que el otro blog también estaba inactivo, así que fue hello darkness my old friend. pERO AHORA ESTÁS AQUÍ y tenemos que rolear mucho de nuevo 👀 aunque apenas tengo aún OCs nuevos porque casi no he tenido inspiración para esos, pero como pLOTEAR CONTIGO ES TAN FÁCIL Y BONITO seguro que en ná estamos en ello (?)

@lordofblacksand: One of the things that I like the most about tumblr rp community is the great variety of characters one can find here, especially since I’m a huge fan of crossovers myself, so when you first followed me I was losing my mind over seeing someone roleplay Mozenrath. It’s great to read you and write with you, really.

@hollowrage​: Can’t say I’ve roleplayed a lot within the KH fandom, so it’s not like I’ve seen many different Saïx muns but he’s a character I love and I really, really like your portrayal of him. I tend to feel like I get too carried away in our threads but tbh they’re playing a huge part on how fond I’m becoming of Axel.

@royalbestie​: yOUR PROMPTO IS THE CUTEST??? He’s a huge dork, I love your portrayal of him and I’m really looking forward to roleplaying more with you. Also, you seem like a really nice person, I simply enjoy seeing you in my dash.

@crowncoded​ Even though I write lots of muses myself, I kind of admire how you can pull off different muses and do a great job portraying all of them and capturing their essence, it’s just nice to read you. Also you and your fiance are really cute.

Tagging: Everyone up there except for Allen bc they were the one to tag me.

[flamingmirrorbookish]

Tag game: 100 Questions

Thanks for tagging me @i-breathe-therefore-i-read

1. What is your nickname? Flamingmirror

2. How old are you? Younger than I'll be in a month

3. What is your birth month? July

4. What is your zodiac sign? pizza

5. What is your favorite color? purple

6. What’s your lucky number? 17

7. Do you have any pets? Frog the cat

8. Where are you from? Estonia

9. How tall are you? 160cm

10. What shoe size are you? I think US 8

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Not enough

12. Are you random? ?

13. Last person you texted? My mother

14. Are you psychic in any way? Heh... I thought so once but no

15. Last TV show watched? Brooklyn Nine-Nine

16. Favourite movie? The Holiday, While you were sleeping, The Gods must be crazy 1 and 2, The emperor’s new groove, Men in black 2

17. Favourite show from your childhood? You won't know them. They're from here

18. Do you want children? no

19. Do you want a church wedding? No

20. What is your religion? none

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? I worked there so... I get it, I get it. As a patient, less than 10 times (everything is in the hospital so I go there regularly but I assume this means staying there)

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? No

23. How is life? @!#

24. Baths or showers? Showers

25. What color socks are you wearing? pink

26. Have you ever been famous? No

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? No

28. What type of music do you like?

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? .........yes

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2

31. What position do you usually sleep in? Lying down?

32. How big is your house? Not big enough to get 3 more cats

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? Ding! Was that the microwave 34. Have you ever left the country?Long term? no

35. Have you ever tried archery? No

36. Do you like anyone? doubtful

37. Favourite swear word(s)? MF

38. When do you fall asleep? Around 11

39. Do you have any scars? Yes

40. Sexual orientation? something

41. Are you a good liar? I don't like to lie

42. What languages would you like to learn? Spanish

43. Top 10 songs?

Goldfrapp – Ooh la la

The Cranberries – Zombie

Marc Anthony – You sang to me

Earth Song - Michael Jackson

Rod Stewart – Sailing

Supermassive black hole - Muse

Kiss from a rose - Seal

Rain - Madonna

Wonderful tonight - Eric Clapton

Linkin Park - Waiting for the end

44. Do you like your country? I have this thing where on one hand, I think it's a hellhole but on the other, am very patriotic

45. Do you have friends from the web? I hope so?

46. What is your personality type? INFJ

47. Hogwarts House? Hufflepuff

48. Can you curl your tongue? no

49. Pick one fictional character you can relate to? I'm copying Jenn and saying Cath from Fangirl

50. Left or right handed? Right

51. Are you scared of spiders? No, yes, maybe

52. Favourite food? Pizza, fries, risotto, food?

53. Favorite foreign food? Pizza isn't foreign enough?

54. Are you a clean or messy person? Clean-ish

55. If you could switch your gender for a day, what would you do? Just walk around the city. And never for a moment fear for my safety

56. What color underwear? white

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? Depends on where I'm going. Could be 10 minutes or an hour (weddings and stuff)

58. Do you have much of an ego? yes

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? both

60. Do you talk to yourself? It happens

61. Do you sing to yourself? All the time. I don't even notice it

62. Are you a good singer? Good enough

63. Biggest Fears? Losing a loved one, snakes, suffocating

64. Are you a gossip? yeah

65. Are you a grammar nazi? I'm not a nazi but I'm a grammar nerd

66. Do you have long or short hair? It's short right now. Not for long. My hair grows very quickly

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? no

68. Favorite school subject? cultural history

69. Extrovert or Introvert? Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? No

71. What makes you nervous? Everything

72. Are you scared of the dark? More yes than no

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? Depends who and what mistake

74. Are you ticklish? yeeeees

75. Have you ever started a rumor? No

76. Have you ever been out of your home country? Yes

77. Have you ever drank underage? Yes. My worst drinking days were when I was 16-18 (heavy depression+bad company)

78. Have you ever done drugs? no

79. What do you fantasize about? A different life

80. How many piercings do you have? Ears count? Then 2

81. Can you roll your R’s? idk

82. How fast can you type? With my broken computer and an on-screen keyboard – painfully slowly. Normally still slowly but with much less swearing

83. How fast can you run? Sports... blech

84. What color is your hair? reddish brown. More red

85. What color are your eyes? gray

86. What are you allergic to? Idiots. And onions

87. Do you keep a journal? kinda

88. Are you depressed about anything? always

89. Do you like your age? Doesn't bother me

90. What makes you angry? People, when things don't work like they should (technology)

91. Do you like your own name? It's fine

92. Did you ever get a foreign object up your nose? Excuse?

93. Do you want a boy or a girl for a child? I think I already said that I don't want kids

94. What talents do you have? Breaking things, overreacting

95. Sun or moon? Moon

96. How did you get your name? My grandpa heard the name on the radio, liked it, and named me before my mother could&something she didn't even like („oh, how I cried when I found out“ she says)

97. Are you religious? No

98. Have you ever been to a therapist? No

99. Color of your bedspread? White and green

100. Tumblr Bestie? @maddie-mux , @i-breathe-therefore-i-read , @bibliophilecats

tagging: @lilymaidofgallifrey , and the people I just mentioned (minus Jenn who tagged me)

[ravenclawravings]

Tag Game

Hi all! Recently we have been tagged in a bunch of those tag games. So instead of clogging your newsfeed we decided to combine a bunch into one post.

Here are some of you who tagged us! (I tried to find you all but, we get a lot of notifications and Tumblr makes it very hard to sort through them)

Tagged by: @headcanonsandmore 

@fuckitup-in-style,

@acciohermionejg

@iamskylorsaurus

@unusuallyzealousburgette

Gender: Both of us are girls.

Birthday: Zoe: March 28th. Alex: March 11th

Last movie seen: Zoe: Dunkirk Alex: Star Wars: The Last Jedi

What do you post/reblog: Zoe: A bunch of random crap. Alex: On this blog we post #relatable content. On my personal I just shitpost

Last thing you Googled: Zoe: “List of apex predators” Alex: “how do radiators know when to turn on”

Favorite blog: Zoe: No idea. Alex: @myendlessparade has some dank content ;)

Dream job: Zoe: Writer/ youtuber but I’m bad at both Alex: YouTuber or a paid/professional internet content creator

Dream trip: Zoe: I don’t know, I haven’t been to Japan before, I guess Alex: I really want to go to Germany but, I’d love to go anywhere in Europe. Or anywhere outside the US. Or anywhere really.

What would be your first entry in a new diary: Zoe: I don’t diary Alex: Probably something really random, a random thought perhaps. All of my past journals are filled with weird shit like “Tap Dancing Cat Play” with zero context

Top 3 things you love about yourself: Zoe: Why is this so hard? Can I say things I love about Alex instead? 1) She’s smart and funny and a great person to be around. 2) She’s creative and works so hard on the things she’s passionate about. 3) She’s supportive and understanding and all around a great friend. Alex: d’awwwww <3 turning the tables now - here are three reasons I love Zoe: 1. She’s a very accepting, patient and understanding friend. 2. She’s full of good ideas and the reason we started this blog. Also partly convinced me to pursue YouTube seriously (speaking of we need to do something about the gaming channel) 3. She has a very dark and dry humor, we can talk and laugh for hours

3 things you wish you knew how to do: Zoe: 1) Drive stick, 2) speak a different language (I’ve tried, I’m really bad at it), 3) manage my finances Alex: 1. Make gifs, 2. play an instrument, 3. drive??!?

Something you wish you had discovered/invented first: Zoe: I honestly don’t know. Alex: I asked Jake what to say and he said “submarines.” So I guess submarines

3 qualities you like in a person: Zoe: 1) their sense of humor, 2) intelligence, 3) creativity Alex: 1. taste in media, 2. humor, 3. uniqueness

3 qualities you dislike in a person: Zoe: 1) Cockiness, 2) overly defensive, 3) when someone talks over someone else and especially when they don’t stop and listen when the first person tries to keep talking Alex: 1. Selfishness, 2. carelessness, 3. when they walk slowly in front of me

Favorite planet: Zoe: I guess technically Earth because I live here, but viva la Pluto! Alex: Mars! Mars has such a vast history for such a barren planet.

A resolution you make every year: Zoe: I don’t make resolutions. Alex: I don’t really make resolutions but, I try to be less hard on myself each year

Something you’re better at than most people: Zoe: Um... writing? Alex: Video editing

Something you’re worse at than most people: Zoe: Talking to other people. Alex: Making friends

Favorite thing about tumblr: Zoe: Memes? Alex: MEMES and cute animal pictures

Least favourite thing about tumblr: Zoe: The entire way that this site is set up is like someone threw darts at a board and went “so this goes here, and uh, I guess that’s how we do this...” Alex: Dear god, this website is designed poorly for blog runners! There is no clear way to sort notifications, you either get them all or none at all. Also there have been times when a queued post just doesn’t post or tags just delete themselves while you’re typing them.

Weapon of choice: Zoe: Knives or a bow and arrow (I’m actually quite good at archery) Alex: Uh, none...

Something not many people know about you:  Zoe: I was going to be in a production with my dad trying to break the world record of most roller coasters ridden in a day, but the plans everything fell through about midway through, so it never happened. Alex: In middle school I used wear one ankle sock and one knee high because...fashion...?

Favorite means of transport: Zoe: I like driving, but if I’m going into the city, I’m taking the train. Alex: God, I hate all means of transportation. It’s all bad. Let’s just learn how to teleport already

Favorite story: Zoe: Harry Potter Alex: A New Hope

Chicken or egg: Zoe: Dinosaur Alex: I was going to say chicken but, Zoe’s answer is the really the best one

Something that always makes you laugh: Zoe: Cats. Alex: When Zelda yells around the apartment at her toys

What is the strangest thing about you: Zoe: You should see some of the texts I send Alex. Alex: just who I am as a person

You get to switch places with someone for a day, who is it and why: Zoe: Can I switch places with my cat? Alex: I’m stealing Zoe’s answer. Fuck yeah! I’d love to be Zelda for a day!

Name: Zoe Alex

Nicknames: Zoe: None Alex: Weasel

Height: Zoe: 5′7″ Alex: 5′3″

Orientation: Zoe: Hell if I know Alex: straight

Nationality: Zoe: I’m a US and UK citizen. Alex: ‘murican

Favorite Fruit: Zoe: Banana? Alex: Oranges

Favorite Season: Zoe: Fall Alex: Fall

Favorite Flower: Zoe: Roses Alex: Blue Roses! (only people from high school will get this joke and none them follow me....)

Favorite Scents: Zoe: Burning wood Alex: Most any candle

Favorite Color: Zoe: Purple Alex: Purple

Favorite Animals: Zoe: Cheetah, wolves, sea pancake Alex: Zelda!

Coffee, Tea or Hot Chocolate: Zoe: Depends on my mood Alex: All of the above, please

Average Sleep Hours: Zoe: 6 Alex: 8?

Dog or Cat Person: Zoe: Both Alex: Love both but, I really like cats

Favorite Fictional Characters: Zoe: Oh god, Aragorn, Harry Potter, Sirius Black, Gandalf, don’t make me choose, I could keep going. Alex: Han Solo, The Master, Mac, Michael Scott, Squidward (??), I don’t know man!

Number of Blankets You Sleep with: Zoe: Anywhere between 1 and 4 Alex: Normally one but, if it’s real cold, two or more

Blog Created: Zoe: This blog was created a little over a year ago, my personal blog was created something like nine years ago I think. Alex: Mine was made like 6 years ago?

Number of Followers: 48,100

Random fact: Zoe: When people are hanged, they die from lack of blood flow to the brain. Alex: Most female cats are right pawed

Star sign: Zoe: Aries Alex: Pisces

Hogwarts House: Take a guess

Why I made this account: Zoe: I made the account because I wanted something to do, and then I invited Alex to be a part of it with me. Alex: What she said ^

Reason for url: Alliteration is cool?

My favorite writer: Zoe: It changes all the time. Alex: Dr. Seuss

My favorite book: Zoe: Harry Potter? Alex: I have no clue?

My favorite movie: Zoe: Lord of the Rings Alex: Oh dear, I don’t know... Ed Wood (1994) ?

Time: Zoe: 15:46 Alex: 9:58pm

Favourite bands: Zoe: Queen, The Who, FOB, Muse, a lot. Alex: Fall Out Boy, Imagine Dragons, Panic! at the Disco

Favourite solo artists: Zoe: No clue Alex: Uh none? I don’t really listen to music besides the three bands listed and movie soundtracks

Song stuck in my head: Zoe: Right now, it’s “I’m Only Joking” by Kongos Alex: “Champion” by Fall Out Boy

Last show I watched: Zoe: NCIS Alex: I don’t really know. It’s between The Punisher, Black Mirror and Peep Show. I watch so many things I forget when I last watched it

Do I get asks: Zoe: Not really. Alex: We get asks here pretty often. I never get any personally - except spam

Lucky number: Zoe: 13 Alex: 3

Instruments: Zoe: I played the clarinet ages ago, and I sorta learned Violin for a little bit, but if you asked me to play any instrument now, I’d probably suck. Alex: I am not talented enough

What I am wearing: Zoe: Plaid and leggings. Alex: Grey and black sweater, leggings and draped in a blanket 

Favourite food: Zoe: I want pancakes right now, so let’s go with that? Alex: I’m so bad at picking favorite things! I just love food!

Last book I read: Zoe: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (it’s tradition for me to reread all the novels every year, and I was late last year, so I only just finished it in time) Alex: The Disaster Artist

3 favorite fandoms: Zoe: Oh, god... Harry Potter, LotR, and i guess certain youtubers? Alex: uh, that changes depending on how I’m feeling. Right now, probably, Star Wars, YouTube and something else?

[jooheonies]

nawar lover no.1 aka user shwhyuk uwu

bloodorangeki said: the lady formerly known as hyuccwoo, shreknu if u will,

send me a tumblr url and ill tell you what i think of them!

hhhhhh ok before i eben launch into this full love essay. i jst wanna say tht u truly are the light at the end of my tunnel sejung,,,,u make me so happy !!! Like i remember when i was losing my mind off of like three sips of pineapple cider and i legitimately felt like i was gonna throw up but then i was like … damn i can’t forget to text shannon and tell her about all this. and then i talked to u for a full hour or so while u called me a liddle babie nd i continuously whined…either way you truly have me under your spell you demon!!

okay so not to be. dramatic but youre so dreamy and pretty you remind me of rain and soft kisses on the cheeks and rose gardens and bouquets of flowers and soft sunlight on flower meadows and like! that feeling you get in your cheeks when you smile too much for too long and you get that permanent blush across your face! god that’s probabaly nonsense and not very cohesive but you have the same sort of colors…soft orange and light pink….you’re like a sunset on the beach right at the start of spring when theres barely anyone on the shore and the whole world feels really big and wide but even though youre all alone you don’t feel lonely because it still feels like the whole world(you) is poised right at the edge of your fingertips.

hhhh that also probably made very little sense but i dont care i love you so much and im very bad at expressing emotion (blame my virgo moon who hasn’t felt any feelings in over 18 years) but i still feel like always showering u in that sweet love and affection, despite the fact that im horrible with words and i have absolutely no consistency. I feel like it’s really rare to meet someone who literally changes your entire perception of the world but … damn here we are!! tlkaing to u is literally a part of my daily life its a part of who i am at this point :/

Anyways, friendships don’t really come naturally to me because I have a very weird perosnality where like. im simultaneously suffocating whilst also being very detached and it turns people off so quickly but..god we mesh so well i truly love you so much. i also tend to not write a lot whenever i make these posts bc im the kind of person who continously says how much i love you throughtout the convo (even thoguh ill ghost most ppl for a few days) so whenever i get around to writing these im like :// but what else do i say :// but this time!!! oooo i have so much to say i can never go into full loving hours with you bc you always turn things around and get me to start talking abotu myself and pretty soon we start talking about how i used to raise rocks as a kid instead of talking about how hot you are :/

so anyways firstly . those were just the intro pragaraphs im finally getting into my loving sejung essay :(( helloooo one of my favortie things about talking to you is how easily the conversation always flows ….us talking about shownus asshole and the questionable consumption of expired jello and orbeez at 3 am is most likely the more demonic things weve done while simultaenously being the more tame things…my head still aches when i remember that giagntic bruise i got from looking at that wonho+tentacles/changkyun+black hole sketch u made… god we somehow always go from topic to topic with absolutely no regard for cohesiveness and yet neither of us ever question it…we’ll spend hours discussing absolutely nothing …like that one night we stayed up for like three hours on rabbit talking about all the different mx stans and which member has the most stans internationally versus domestically and why….icons of developing complex sociocultural theories at 2am while occasionally mentioning “oh wow its late u should go to bed >:/” god its just that I always lose track of time whenever I talk to you…its like im so focused on that I Love Her mood that I don’t even realize its been 4 hours until I look down at my pile of unfinished homework and then back up at my laptop like. This was a Valid choice why would I pick ib math when I have a whole entire sejung talking to me. hhhh its just that talking to you comes so naturally and I always tell you all these quesiotnable things to which you always respond by first calling me a demon and then laughing about it and encouraging my stupidity. it’s also so so endearing that ill tell you about the dumb shit im doing and your first response is always to nag at me to be safe and take care of myself as if ill actually listen to you and clean a cut with alcohol, risking legitimate Pain… anyways sejung? queen of making me feel loved and noticed? MORE LIKELY THAN U THINK!!!!

hhhhh ok moving on now I get to talk about how. sexy u are damn….i remember back when we were first starting to talk and you sent me those pictures of yourself in that button up and I literally. I quite literally almost passed out in the starbucks while the barista was handing me my strawberry lemonade I truly almost lost it…nd right before that I was encouraging you to talk to the boba girl nd flirt nd be all spicie…but then u sent me those pics nd I was like for what reason would she have to impress boba girl when im right here … mouth open so wide in love that all the bobas are spilling out of my mouth :( not to be dramatic yet again when I know ive mentioned those selfies before but damn…those were so hot u unbuttoned like two or three of the top buttons and u looked so hot truly. raw me vore me behind each and every single boba store location hewwwooo u look so intense nd powerful im truly putty in ur hands not only would I lose my mind for u, I have already lost it

hhhhh im very much rambling and making very little sense rn bc its. 2:30 am and im sleebie nd I blocked all social media sites so id do homework bt I kept thiknning abt u so I was like hm the universe clearly wants me to write about sejung more even though ill have to post this in the morning bc tungle is blocked until then :// bt anaywas that also means I get to go into all the other thigns I love about u and all the things u remind me of :(( hhhh its so wild that I never actually aunch into full loving shannon mood bt I talk abt u so much w my friends theyre all. suspicious ,,,,

them: nawar u don’t actually like romance and u hate talking about people r u perhaps dating this girl??me, w hearts in my eyes laughing at smth ure saying on my phone: what

HHHH DJHFKSJDHF TAHST TRULY ME,,,,ALWAYS THIKNING ABT U,,,ALWAYS BEING BIG HEART EYES FR U,,,at any given moment I could be reminded of u :( I see a piece of paper nd im like huh I should do work then again is work necessary to live perhaps not but sejung is necessary to live,,,,me thinking abt u as I procrastinate every single thing ive ever had to do :D Like, ive never understood when people say that they hated a zodiac sign at one point, and then they met one person and they were like oh my god nevermind this sign is perfect but truly,,,I love geminis now ,,,I used to hate them almost as much as cancer nd now? geminis are all good ure so wonderful nd loving nd sweet u being a gemini saved geminis collectively,,

ill also neber stop talking abt how now matter how much I whine and demand attention, youre always jst,,,supplying it without any question like at one point people usually get annoyed, no matter how endeared they were by it at first, bt youre always calling me a baby (even though im older) nd giving me that sweet Love and Attention,,mmmmm my libra sun thrives under ur care :( hhhh also I feel it is important to point out I love. all of u,,,,like I don’t even usually care much for peoples voices or anything unless its like so deep it sounds like the grim reaper bc that’s wild u ,,bt anyways the first moment I heard ur voice I was. breathless I was so shocked like ur voice is so soothing nd warm its like. if the aesthetic of sunlight and honey and warm pies had a voice,,,hhhh im also not the type to really believe in things like fate nd destiny and soulmates and stuff bt that’s kind of what u remind me of ? in a? not weird way hhhhh so I feel like youre just so naturally in tune with people like nothing really catches you off guard and you roll with peoples different personalities and quirks and you always jst. mesh so well with everyone ure like the minhyuk of the internet,,,,nd like!! theres smth abt u that reminds me of balance and maybe its my libra sun always seeking peace and harmony in life but I always feel so relaxed nd steady whenever I talk to you its like . idk how to explain it!!! its jst so comforting!!!

I was originally gonna cut myself off at 1k but its too late for that now and im gonna put this under a read more anyways and its 3am now so I feel like. go Big or go Home!!! now im gonna launch into a long analysis of u! and ur smile!! first of all,,,its so rare nd wild to find someone who likes validating people more than being validated,,,,u finding my libra antics cute???hhhhh tahts so wild,,,,I could pout for hours nd u would call it cute,,,validating!!! nd the fact that you’ve read my writing,,,,excerpts from my demonic wips and youre stil friends with me?? you still talk to me?? damn that’s like. never to be expected any time I make someone read that tangerine fic they ghost me for a good month but I sent you pieces of that tentacle fic and YOU FUCKCING SKETCHED OUT THE LOOK,,,,,MY MUSE,,,nd also you tend to always steer the convo around to focus on the other person n dim a FOOL who almost falls for it every time,,,before I remember and make u tell me thigns…god ive told you so many obscure things from my childhood like that time I tried to eat a brick and yet you still,,,,talk to me,,,,who are u,,,,hhhh ure always so cute nd giving nd caring I feel like I could genuinely truly look like shit nd send u a selfie nd you would still be like WOW GORGEOEUS YOU LOOK SO GOOD THAT’S HOT!!! u,,,going out of ur way to make ppl happy :( anyways im a fool in love w u ,,,also not to be like. one of those old white boy text posts from tumblr but ,,,,hey girl,,,ladie,,,wamen,,,did u know? ur smile lights up my world? ,,,did u know? theres no such thing as u being anything less than perfect,,,why? because its impossible to be anything less than the essence of who you are. hhhh that’s the dumbest thing im ever written im cutting myself off that was too much this is like. 2k words so far and in all honesty I could continue but then id get gushier than that last line and nobody wants to see That,,,hhhh

this started out with. somewhat decent grammar like I used periods and I think I occasionally capitalized the first letter of the sentence but at this point its incoherent rambling it’s the inside of my brain every time I see u or hear frm u its like when spongebobs brain was on fire and all the cabinets and computers were going up in flames and all the little brain spongebobs were losing their mind that’s me right now losing my mind over you I wrote exactly 2k words in that whole essay,,,,im so fucking valid,,,,ananywas I love you if you couldn’t tell nd iim . somewhat satisfied at being able to vent all this love,,,smoochie,,smoochh,,SMOOCHIIE

[beaniegara]

I was tagged by @demonsandthebois​ & @demonproofboi​! thank you, beautiful people!! <3

Rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last

1. drink- water.

2. phone call- something work-related, I think? like, I answered the phone at work.

3. text message- a friend answering my “why are you online at 6″ message to her lol (it was too hot to sleep, she said.)

4. song you listened to- currently listening to summertime sadness by lana del rey (totally on a lana del rey high these days).

5. time you cried- I don’t.. remember? it must’ve been a few weeks ago, maybe a couple of months? but I did get teary-eyed watching some episodes of hannibal these days.

Ever

6. dated someone twice? nope.

7. kissed someone and regretted it? nope.

8. been cheated on? nope. 

9. lost someone special? I mean, I lost my grandma when I was 4 and she was raising me? but I don’t really remember anything, my brain deleted everything from that time, so I’m gonna say no.

10. been depressed? clinically, 9 years ago. on and off since then. 

11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nope.

Fave colours

12. orange.

13. lime green.

14. purple? pink? I can’t pick one kmgfkdjgfks

In the last year have you…

15. made new friends? yup! 

16. fallen out of love? technically, yes.

17. laughed until you cried? many times.

18. found out someone was talking about you? not that I can remember?

19. met someone who changed you? not to sound like an ass but I think every person changes me in their own way!!

20. found out who your friends are? I kinda already knew. didn’t change much. 

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list? nope.

General

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl? probably not even 1/3, I keep unfriending people from school kkkkdjskgfdjk and I’ve been talking to people online for the better part of my life so there’s a lot of internet friends there! 

23. do you have any pets? nope :(

24. do you want to change your name? I wish I could take out one of my last names (I have two). hate that part of the family.

25. what did you do for your last birthday? uhh, spent some time with my mom and aunt? I don’t really celebrate my birthdays but they do so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

26. what time did you wake up today? 6-ish, almost 7am.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night? I think I went to bed around that time, after lots of reblogging gifs of the bfu episode kjfdsfdkkg

28. what is something you can’t wait for? can’t wait until I’m well off and don’t need to study/work doing stuff that makes me so uncomfortable (ie, dealing with people).

30. what are you listening to right now? 1cm pride (live) - mamamoo.

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom? uhm, don’t think so. we don’t get those here. 

32. something that’s getting on your nerves – politics. can’t stand the state of things right now. 

33. most visited website- tumblr but twitter is a close second.

34. hair color- brown, auburn-ish.

35. long or short hair- mine is currently short but that’s ‘cause I don’t have the patience for long hair, because I’d rather have mine long.

36. do you have a crush on someone? starting to. big time. (you know who you are!!)

37. what do you like about yourself? almost nothing but uhhh... I guess I could say I try to be as polite/kind as possible to people? D:

38. want any piercings? yesss, I miss my industrial piercing :c 

39. blood type- O+. I think. it may be negative.

40. nicknames- naluh! most of my friends call me that. but two of them call me kagami, forgot to mention it last time I did this :D

41. relationship status- single.

42. zodiac- gemini! the best sign!!  

43. pronouns- she/her.

44. fave tv shows- sherlock (quickly dropping, but for now..), dollhouse, the lizzie borden chronicles, the librarians. <3

45. tattoos- none, but I already have two in mind. I just need to hate my body a bit less lol

46. right or left handed- right.

47. ever had surgery? nope. 

49. sport- I used to dance, and I still want to go back to it, but for now... none. I do like watching football (US soccer) though! 

50, vacation- wish I could go overseas, maybe visit the UK? scotland, ireland, england? 

51. trainers- I have (1) and that’s more than enough. 

More general

52. eating- just had bread and cream cheese since we skipped lunch today lol

53. drinking- water.

54. i’m about to watch- trying to decide if I should catch up on a show or continue watching thelma.

55. waiting for- inspiration/muse. writer’s block sucks ass. 

56. want- self-esteem and/or money, I’m not picky. 

57. get married- maybe? I mean, it’d be kinda nice, but I’m not fixated on it. if my s.o. wants it too, then sure! 

58. career- I’m a translator but I’m having my midlife crisis at 23 and I’d love to be something else like idk, a film director? a screenwriter? dana scully? can I be dana scully please.

Which is better

59. hugs or kisses- hugs.

60. lips or eyes- hmmm, eyes? maybe? [both_is_good.gif]

62. younger or older- you mean which one I prefer? makes no difference to me, I think? [both is good intensifies]

63. nice arms or stomach- uhhh, idk kkfdkdgjdkk stomach I guess?

64. hookup or relationship- relationship. but hey, whatever rocks your boat.

65. troublemaker or hesitant- these are so widly different, I can’t pick one ???

Have you ever

66. kissed a stranger- nope.

67. drank hard liquor- nope.

68. lost glasses- nope. I mean, I may have lost sunglasses? but it was one time, iirc.

69. turned someone down- yep. but I mean, drunk people at parties doesn’t count, I don’t think?

70. sex on first date- nope. 

71. broken someones heart- I think I did, sort of.. I was in such a bad place that I walked away but she may have been way more into me than I thought at first.

72. had your heart broken- lil bit but nothing I couldn’t survive after months of moping around.

73. been arrested- nope.

74. cried when someone died- yup. 

75. fallen for a friend- I mean, who hasn’t lol I had the biggest and gayest crush on a friend from school and to this day I haven’t told her (but I think she knew, I was pretty obvious - and dumb). 

Do you believe in

76. yourself- nope. working on it, tho! 

77. miracles- kinda? I mean, I do believe unexplainable things can happen, I just don’t think it’s thanks to a higher power.

78. love at first sight- nope. attraction at first sight, however... I’ve been there.

79. santa claus- kfsdgkfnfh lol no.

80. kiss on a first date- if both are willing, why not?

81. angels- nope. but I like the idea.

other

82. best friends name- jenny! bruna and dani would probably skin me alive if I didn’t mention them so yeah, them too.

83. eye colour- light brown/honey.

84. fave movie- chicago!!!!!!!!!!! and the babadook, and captain fantastic, and le fabuleux destin d’amélie poulain.

85. fave actor- I’m going with gillian anderson these days but I really like viggo mortensen, christina ricci, and amanda abbington too! <3

tagging @i-am-ghost-proof-baby​, @thatmademadej​, @ghoulboi​, @heytheredemyons​, @yaboibergara​, and whoever wants to do it! (it’s fine if you don’t, tho.)

[krixwell-liveblogs]

Interesting. Sharks said he’d give it to me only if I asked, and I did, so let’s take a look at this.

I did skim the top of it when he sent it to me, and I have to say, I wasn’t expecting the format.

"Well," Hagrid said. He seemed a bit put out, but he wasn't in a position to say so. "Well. I've never seen anything take to, well, anything quite so fast as Fluffy there's taken to you."

Welcome to the official Worm Hogwarts AU, it seems!

I love the idea of Rachel and Hagrid bonding over their appreciation of monstrous dogs, and Fluffy taking to Rachel.

Even with her stocky build, which was closer to Hagrid's body type than the average eleven year old's,

Hehe. Reminds me of that one Tumblr post that tried to make sense of how Hagrid was described... hang on, let me see if I can find it.

Ah yes, here it is.

(Bear in mind the smaller figure is Harry, who’s small for his age.)

Rachel struggled to keep her feet as three massive heads fought for her attention. A tongue licked the side of her head, and her hair, which had already been sticking up in virtually every direction, was left even messier.

D’aw.

"Uh huh," Rachel said. "Good boy. Boys. Whatever. You can stop now. Gotta- Unf. Gotta get to my room, or the stupid painting won't let me back in. Stupid older kids yell at me if I sleep on the stairs."

This was written before Deathly Hallows came out, right? The Ravenclaw common room doesn’t have a painting on the door, it has a knocker that asks you a riddle.

...

I imagine that would infuriate Rachel so much.

Hagrid eyed the girl's house colors dubiously.

...or maybe this was actually taken into account and Rachel is trying to pretend she’s a Gryffindor?

She reached up, scratching the beast's jowl, rubbing it against its teeth. The other heads knocked her this way and that, fighting for the same treatment. "He needs bones."

"What?" Hagrid asked, surprised.

Ahh, Hagrid’s being out-dogownered.

Yeah, sure, that’s a word.

"He needs bones!" Rachel said, very loud.

"No, lass. I'm not deaf, though I might be if you keep that up. Why are you saying he needs them?"

"His teeth are bothering him."

Chew toy!

He gave her an appreciating look, which was just about the only thing he could do, without either giving up the secret to handling Fluffy or making the girl's situation worse.

Honestly, I feel like Rachel might figure out the secret on her own.

I mean, not by accidentally playing music nearby Fluffy (not really a Rachel thing to do, it seems), just by her innate understanding of dogs.

"Aye, girl, you're right. I'm just surprised you figured it out. Hard to get anything big and strong enough for a creature like him."

"Whatever. Oof. I need to go now. Help me make him stop?"

Hagrid sighed.

Maybe the girl wouldn't figure it out.

Nah, if you actually do it in front of her she’ll notice it immediately, I think.

"Cover yer ears," he said.

She managed.

He did the usual, humming the same song he'd used to lull Fluffy to sleep when Fluffy had been just a pup. 

He expected to have to explain, curious looks, or something of the sort. 

Instead, the girl just collected her scattered things, wiped her spit-slick hair down, and opened the door to go.

Hah! She doesn’t care.

(Doesn’t mean she hasn’t figured it out, though.)

"Don't get so turned around again, y'hear?" Hagrid said.

Kinda sounds like this happened as she accidentally wound up in the Fluffy room and Hagrid happened to be there. Or arrive there later to find his pet being affectionate with one of the first-year students.

"Uh huh," the girl replied. "Bye Fluffy. See you soon."

Hagrid blinked a few times. By the time he processed the idea, the girl was already gone, feet clumping on stairs.

Hehe, of course she can’t stay away.

He poked his head out the door, ready to tell her not to, but his heart wasn't in it. He had his fondness for animals, and as Dumbledore had mused, the only thing that might hold an equal space in Hagrid's heart might be his desire to pass on that fondness.

Yeah, it’s absolutely something Hagrid can relate to.

He'd been a little caught off guard, seeing the girl, but talents were talents, and the House prized individuality. Little Rachel Clegane was definitely an individual.

Rachel Clegane? That’s interesting. Why would she have a different surname in this AU? Hm...

He saw her stop at a fork in the hallway.

She turned around, clearly irritated.

"I know my way around a city, or outdoors, but this stupid place is a stupid maze," she said, her voice too loud, carrying all the way to him.

Hehe, yeah, Hogwarts is kind of a terrible place for people like Rachel, who get easily annoyed by unnecessary complication. It’s not even just a stupid maze, it’s a stupid ever-changing maze.

"You want to go right, lassie," he said.

At least today.

She looked one way, then the other. 

She raised one hand, counting on her fingers. 

"Point," he said. 

She pointed down one hallway.

Does she not know her right and left? Or are there too many ways to the right?

"Yeh," he said. "You'll find house Ravenclaw that way. Don't get turned around now."

Easier said than done.

And there’s the Ravenclaw bit. At this point, the text seems to switch to more direct commentary by Wildbow:

House Ravenclaw is defined by the element of air. Rachel is itinerant, free ranging, definitely an individual. The house favors individuality, and tends to take good care of eccentrics, of which Rachel is one, even if she's less a mad scientist eccentric and more an oddly shaped peg demanding an oddly shaped hole to fit into. She's dedicated and deeply interested when it comes to her particular pursuits.

Hm, yeah, I can get behind this. It’s a different approach to house sorting than what I was working with, but equally valid. Honestly makes more sense, really.

Houses tend to get pigeonholed, but just like Neville and Ron weren't really archetypically brave (though they came into their own with the right company), the Ravenclaws don't have to fit a bookworm archetype.

True that.

They don't all get top grades in every class, but rather, each finds their individual areas of expertise - for Luna Lovegood, it was the esoteric stuff. For Rachel, it's the care of certain magical creatures. Given a chance to grow, and the right group, she can relate the care of dogs to the care of other magical creatures, she can find her niche in the group, when the Ravenclaws gather in study groups to learn, and they gather the best students in each given area, Rachel is an automatic invite.

I’m very much liking this take on Ravenclaw House and Rachel.

How does the hat sort? It looks to the student's wishes. What does the student really need? Neville needed the right people to grow as a person and get over his deeper traumas (the loss of his parents foremost among them), while Rachel needs acceptance, with Acceptance being one of Ravenclaw's chief virtues.

Honestly, Acceptance also seems to be a Hufflepuff thing, at least if you go back to the founders. According to the Hat, each founder wanted children with specific virtues, and while Hufflepuff also had core values, she was willing to take anyone who didn’t fit in the other houses too. And while the Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs sort of blend together for me in my memory of the books sometimes, I seem to recall background Ravenclaws often being more judgmental? I don’t know, maybe it was the other way around.

Still, Acceptance being a Hufflepuff thing doesn’t prevent it from also being a Ravenclaw thing, and maybe it’s more in the forefront for sorting into Ravenclaw.

Anyway, yeah, I do really appreciate Wildbow’s take on it. I’ll have to keep this kind of thinking in mind for future house assignments I do.

[spriterpt]

Hello Liss. This is Fairy Godmother. I am gathering information on behalf of King Ben to all Heroes, Villains, and their Descendants; asking them what they think of Auradon University. Could I please ask you for your opinion on our establishment, so that I may take notes on how we can better improve it? Thank you.

AN OPINION FOR: auradonurp.

Please keep in mind that all statements below the cut reflect only my subjective opinion.

THEME: I’m not sure how I feel about the color scheme here. It works for me in the graphics, but the theme looks like it clashes. I would maybe consider more grey and less blue, or change it up and make the background grey or blue and the accents red. This theme is pretty basic and not the most eye-catching to me personally, but I’ll talk about how the graphics play into that below.

GRAPHICS: The graphics are nice, and spice up the theme. I particularly like the custom-made admin GIFs. They make the posts look neater and tie the page together. I also like the header. I don’t really recognize anything that’s in it (I’ve never seen Descendants so maybe I just can’t pick it out), except for the people to the right, but it just looks nice. The colors are pretty and the red is perfectly scattered throughout the image. I’m not as big a fan of the sidebar graphic. It doesn’t hold as much substance to me, and rather than the red being sprinkled on it like in the header, it’s all in one very aggressively red spot. I don’t think it’s necessary for both of the graphics to have the roleplay name on them, and I think it makes more sense for the header to have it. I also don’t like the font used for the roleplay name. I think something a little bit neater would look better. Similarly, I definitely think the navigation graphic having the roleplay name is overkill, but I like the graphic itself. It also has the red peppered throughout and each part of it looks pretty. As for the skeleton graphics, they all look really nice on their own, with their little pops of color. Together, they seem a little bit disjointed, but it’s not bad since they’re all so different. I would reconsider the graphic for Mal, as the green text doesn’t match anything in the picture. The character pages look nice, some nicer than others based on how well the colors work together. I actually like that each character has their own color scheme. The graphics for the dorm rooms are nice too, but the text isn’t properly justified. The text should all either be centered or all the way to the left or right. The app count graphic is one of my favorites, simple but very pretty and interesting.

DESCRIPTION: I like that the description includes basic information about the type of RP and age requirements so that potential applicants can know right away if this is the right kind of RP for them. I would personally put the info that you have in the first chunk of your description at the end, and have your ‘actual’ description come first. The description seems to succinctly explain what the premise of the RP is and what makes your RP different than other Descendants RPs.

NAVIGATION: I like the navigation. I like that the partial navigation fits perfectly into your theme. It includes the most important links, and it seems like someone could apply without having to go to the full navigation at all. The full navigation includes a lot of good extra information, though. I will say that in the ‘after acceptance’ section the blockquote is broken and the line shows up in pieces instead of just being one smooth line. I don’t really know how to better describe it but you should be able to see what I mean. All of the links work and lead to the proper page!

PLOT IDEA: I’ll preface this by saying I’ve never seen Descendants, I don’t know what it’s about or anything about the characters. But this seems like an idea that probably hasn’t been done. I think RPs that are based around something Internet-related like this can be really interesting. The plot also gives writers the opportunity to delve into the character in a completely new way.

PLOT WRITING: First off, I feel like each word in “bringing it down” should be capitalized. The sentence about King Ben doesn’t make sense to me. It says he’s caught up with “this learning”, but I don’t know what “this learning” is. You also have the word ‘villain’ capitalized only some of the time–consistency is key and makes the page look neater. Otherwise, I think the writing is good. The second paragraph is sort of lost on me since I haven’t seen it and am not really into Disney, but it seems to explain the situation well. The summary brings up something about the king taking courses, which isn’t mentioned in the actual plot and doesn’t make sense to me, probably because I haven’t seen it. Beyond that it provides important information. The only other change I’d make is putting a period at the end of the very last sentence (the link).

GUIDELINES: First of all, these rules are very long. I would try to shorten them. People are likely to just skim them, and since the password is right at the bottom, they don’t have to read carefully to get it. On multiple occasions, you mention that muns under the age of 18 should not participate in NSFW plots or interactions. However, you also state that muns must be 18+, so that rule is irrelevant. I would take it out to shorten up the rules a little bit. I think it’s a little weird that you’ll allow face claim changes for certain characters but possibly not for others because a certain admin chose them. I don’t think players should be limited only to icons, as many people prefer small GIFs instead and can find more/better resources that way. I know you have a resource blog, but there are still many more options if you allow regular GIFs as well. You link to xkit in the rules with no explanation. Maybe say something like “Please cut your posts! If you don’t know how, download xkit and come to the main with any questions you may have!” I’m not sure your reasoning for not allowing sideblogs, but I would reconsider that rule, personally. It makes it much more difficult to remain active on multiple characters. Your shipping section is very long and could probably be shortened into just a few sentences. All you need to say is that no canon ships are canon in the RP, no canon ships are required to happen in the RP, and forcing ships is against the rules. The NSFW and triggers sections could probably be combined into one, as self-harm and depression are triggers. There are also two misspellings–”before hand” should be “beforehand”, and “insure” should be “ensure”.

APPLICATION: First of all, I love that you guys have a site you can use to apply??? I think that’s so cool. But it’s also cool that you allow people to just apply through Tumblr if they prefer that. I like that you let applicants put whatever they want as a writing sample, whether it be a bio or a para or whatnot. It doesn’t make sense to me to say “No reason why they’re (positive traits). It would make more sense to me to say “No reason why they’re (negative traits). It’s unusual to not allow a muse to be any older than their faceclaim. Most RPs implement a 5-year difference rule, which allows more flexibility for muns. The app goes from asking the mun questions (“what is your muse’s biggest fear?”) to asking the muse questions (”what high school did you graduate from?”) without any warning or separation of the sections. It doesn’t change anything, but makes it seem kind of inconsistent. When you ask for the major, the wording is kind of confusing. I would maybe say “What is your major? If you’ll be double majoring, please place both of your majors here.” Asking immediately about double majors makes it seem like you’re only asking about double majors. I think it’s kind of strange to have muns write out connections to characters they haven’t plotted with yet–it’s almost like godmodding? What happens if the person who takes up one of those characters doesn’t want that connection? There’s also one small typo where you said “ship” instead of “skip”.

CHARACTERS: I like the character pages a lot. They’re really cute and the different color schemes give each character a bit of, well, character. The connections section is helpful and the social media section gives a little personality. The theme of the character page itself is very basic, which is great because that means it doesn’t look way different from your main theme and clash. It also makes everything very neat. I just checked and it’s actually pretty mobile accessible, you just have to zoom in.

OTHER PAGES:

FAMILIES: The first thing I noticed was that both ‘heroes’ and ‘villains’ are spelled wrong on this page. I’m not sure why the page lists so many people that aren’t available characters, but I may just be missing why that’s important because I’ve never seen it.

APP COUNT: I normally wouldn’t even bother bringing up the app count page, however I think yours is really cute! I would avoid labelling the characters by gender here, though, since someone could apply for a character and change their gender to non-binary.

CLASSES: It doesn’t make sense to me that Algebra is available only to juniors and seniors, when a lot of people come into college as a freshman already starting at a higher level of math than that. There’s also a couple of classes under ‘general’ that should probably be under ‘magic’.

MAJORS AND MINORS: I think there should be a wider selection, or at least a note stating that muns can choose a major or minor that isn’t listed. There are two typos–no space between “Voodoo Magic” and “Or an emphasis” (this could also be made into one sentence if you wanted), and “there focus” instead of “their focus”.

BLOGROLL: You have two ways to follow everyone in your navigation, and both of them are inconvenient. You should use your /followed/by/ link instead so that muns can just go down the line and follow everyone instead of opening up each blog. I know you link to that in your checklist, but it should be in the navigation, too.

DORMS: This includes the most important basic information about what the rooms are like. I think it’s pretty unrealistic for a college dorm room to have two separate bathrooms, but who said a RP has to be realistic?

OVERALL: A couple little things that didn’t fit into any of the other sections–only some of your pages have titles, others don’t. It makes the pages look inconsistent. I personally think the pages look a lot better with titles than without, so I would add titles to all of the pages. I also see you’ve been tagging your posts with ‘appless RP’--this isn’t an appless RP and shouldn’t be in that tag. Anyway, moving on! I don’t know much about Descendants RPs, but this seems like an original idea, and a fun one to write about. The graphics overall look nice and consistent. I think the pages you have up include a lot of information about the RP and are easy to follow. I love that you have both resource and inspo blogs to help applicants and muns, and again, I adore the application site! The admins seem very active, which is key to a thriving RP. There are a few tweaks that could be made, but I think this is a pretty strong RP!

[joannalannister]

hi, fisrt i would like to say that i love your blog, its very informative and your metas are excellent. i was recently reading some of cersei's chapters and she constantly references wanting to be jaime and hating being a woman, or how much better she would be at being tywin's son than her brothers, and it got me wondering, do you think its possible that cersei is trans? or is it just that she sees herself as "tywin with teats" and resents the gendered limitations of being a woman?

I personally don’t interpret Cersei as transgender, but I know that other people do and I think that’s also a valid interpretation. 

When I say “valid interpretation” I mean “this interpretation does not explicitly contradict the text as it is written.” For example, saying Jon Snow has blue eyes directly contradicts what GRRM wrote and such a statement isn’t valid. 

The way I was trained in literary analysis / criticism was to treat the text as my Bible, and to give paramount importance to whatever is actually written in the text. (tbh this might be why it’s so difficult for me and feels so disrespectful when I condemn certain aspects of ASOIAF … almost as if it’s sacrilegious.) “Text-as-Bible” is why I’m usually throwing large chunks of text at people whenever I’m interrogating a text, and from that I identify themes and narrative structure and all that jazz.

However, people often look at the same chunk of text and interpret it in many different ways. Interpretations of stories are ultimately very personal, and a single story can have many valid interpretations. For example, some readers interpret the character Jay Gatsby as a white-passing black man, while other readers don’t; I think both interpretations are cool, and both add to the cornucopia of meta-textual commentary surrounding The Great Gatsby. 

Bringing it back to ASOIAF, when I read Cersei’s chapters, I never interpreted Cersei’s dissatisfaction and anger and unhappiness as being directed at her own body / at herself. In my opinion, she seemed rather disparaging of the male body, hurling criticisms likes stones from a trebuchet about how ~men think with their cocks~ and therefore aren’t as dangerous as she. 

“Perhaps I’m dangerous too. You, on the other hand, are as big a fool as every other man. That worm between your legs does half your thinking.”

She thinks men are fools. This didn’t come across to me as someone who wanted to be a man. It came across as a woman who wanted to be taken as seriously as men, and to be seen as just as dangerous, imo. (Even fandom dismisses Cersei as unintelligent, which I don’t think is the case.)

Cersei seems to take pleasure in her sex:

Cersei found herself remembering all the times that Jaime had knelt where she was kneeling now, planting kisses on the inside of her thighs, making her wet. His kisses were always warm. The razor was ice-cold. When the deed was done she was as naked and vulnerable as a woman could be. 

To me, it seems that Cersei equates womanhood with vulnerability, and it’s vulnerability that Lannisters hate and try to guard themselves against. (see also: Tyrion’s ”wear it like armor,” Jaime’s caustic comments as cutting as his sword, Tywin’s entire existence, and the ancestral Lannister stronghold as a giant invincible rock - there’s a big anti-vulnerability theme here.) So I don’t think it’s being a woman that Cersei hates, it’s her position in society as a woman, assumed to be weak, vulnerable, undervalued, unintelligent, non-threatening etc. 

Also, I think Cersei takes great pleasure in having Jaime’s babies, in being a mother to them, and nursing them at her breast:

It is beautiful, she thought, as beautiful as Joffrey, when they laid him in my arms. No man had ever made her feel as good as she had felt when he took her nipple in his mouth to nurse.

That didn’t suggest to me that Cersei was angry/resentful/uncomfortable in her body.  

Even as a child, when Cersei dressed as a boy, it was because of how she was treated so differently, not because she expressed a desire to be a boy:

Though he was ten years her junior, he wanted her; Cersei could see it in the way he looked at her. Men had been looking at her that way since her breasts began to bud. Because I was so beautiful, they said, but Jaime was beautiful as well, and they never looked at him that way. When she was small she would sometimes don her brother’s clothing as a lark. She was always startled by how differently men treated her when they thought that she was Jaime. Even Lord Tywin himself …

She resents the way that grown men sexualized her pre-teen* body (and everything that went with that), but it doesn’t seem to me like she was upset with her body in and of itself? And she was “always startled” that everyone treated her differently even tho she and Jaime were the same, identical, “alike as two peas in a pod … well, except between the legs.”

 (This clothes switching probably would have been before she was even a teenager, because Jaime was then sent to Crakehall to be fostered.)

So to me, Cersei’s issues are external, derived from how society views her and treats her and dismisses her, rather than internal issues of self identity. Like, for me, Cersei has a very firm, very strong idea of self - she knows who she is, or at least she knows who she thinks she is. (Cersei would do very well in GRRM’s short story, “The Glass Flower”. tbh, now that I think about it, the narrator of the Glass Flower might be a precursor to Cersei; I have to give this more thought hmm.) 

But yeah, I think Cersei’s problems are with society, and how a misogynistic society treats her unfairly as a woman.

Like, think about the FeastDance, how AFFC and ADWD were originally supposed to be one volume, and how GRRM bookends Cersei’s narrative:

Cersei I, AFFC (first Cersei chapter):

She dreamt she sat the Iron Throne, high above them all.

The courtiers were brightly colored mice below. Great lords and proud ladies knelt before her. Bold young knights laid their swords at her feet and pleaded for her favors, and the queen smiled down at them. Until the dwarf appeared as if from nowhere, pointing at her and howling with laughter. The lords and ladies began to chuckle too, hiding their smiles behind their hands. Only then did the queen realize she was naked.

Horrified, she tried to cover herself with her hands. The barbs and blades of the Iron Throne bit into her flesh as she crouched to hide her shame. Blood ran red down her legs, as steel teeth gnawed at her buttocks. When she tried to stand, her foot slipped through a gap in the twisted metal. The more she struggled the more the throne engulfed her, tearing chunks of flesh from her breasts and belly, slicing at her arms and legs until they were slick and red, glistening.

vs 

Cersei II, ADWD (last Cersei chapter)

When the deed was done she was as naked and vulnerable as a woman could be. 

a smear of grease and blood down her thigh.

Halfway down Visenya’s Hill the queen fell for the first time, when her foot slipped in something that might have been nightsoil. When Septa Unella pulled her up, her knee was scraped and bloody. A ragged laugh rippled through the crowd

Her heel came down on something sharp, a stone or piece of broken crockery. Cersei cried out in pain.

They were at the foot of Aegon’s High Hill, the castle above them. [high above them all, where Cersei is at the end of ADWD]

Cersei’s AFFC dream comes true at the end of ADWD. 

In the dream, it’s not that she dreams of being a man, it’s that she dreams of power, of strength (Tywin’s kind of strength), of respect. We talk about a lot of irreconcilable desires w/r/t the FeastDance, but I’ve never seen anybody talk about Cersei’s irreconcilable desires, namely to hold Tywin’s kind of power and to be a woman. 

Look at the AFFC dream again. Look at it. Look at the blood running down her legs (strongly associated with womanhood in Westeros - see Sansa’s pov). Look at how the throne attacks Cersei’s breasts, butt, and her stomach/womb. “the more she struggled the more the throne engulfed her” - the more a woman fights gender norms in Westeros, the more she is beaten down, berated, shamed, engulfed by societal expectations. Her foot slips on the throne – maybe this sounds fake deep but it’s a metaphor for the uneasy path Cersei must walk, trying to balance her womanhood with her desire to rule, something that Westeros will not permit her to do. 

So that’s why I personally interpreted Cersei’s story as a woman who resents the gendered limitations of Westeros. 

Also, on a different note, Cersei is such a violent, abusive murderer. There are many harmful, negative stereotypes about transgender people being violent or abusive or w/e, and these stereotypes are totally wrong, and I have no desire to perpetuate these negative stereotypes in any way, so that’s another reason why I personally don’t feel comfortable labeling Cersei as trans. 

However, as I said in the beginning, I think opposing interpretations are also valid! It might be better to get the perspective of someone who is transgender to answer this question. I would love to hear other interpretations! 

Whatever you interpret her as, Cersei is at the crux of a very interesting discussion of sex and gender and gender identity in ASOIAF.

There are some posts on @asoiafuniversity about Cersei being trans that might be of interest to you:

Discussion of Cersei, Brienne, and genderqueerness

Further discussion

“Musings on Cersei”

Discussions outside of tumblr:

(Reddit) “Is Cersei trans?”

(Westeros.org) “Absence of transgender characters?”

(Westeros.org) “Sympathy for the devil? Cersei and gender”

[jourple]

blame @kfoops

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: pepsi

2. Phone call: ordering pizza

3. Text message: 'shouldn’t be too long’ to mum when asking if the pizza was going to be ready to pick up

4. Song you listened to:  currently ‘who we are’ from Imagine Dragons

5. Time you cried: Probably a few weeks ago. I haven’t had time to cry recenty :’)

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: nope. Only ever dated once to lmao

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nope. Actually, probably

8. Been cheated on: I hope not

9. Lost someone special: do cats count?

10. Been depressed : isn’t that just assumed at this point?

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: can’t throw up if you don’t get drunk ayyyyyyy

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14. 3 shades of blue.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yeah, I think so

16. Fallen out of love: twice

17. Laughed until you cried: pfft, yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yes, and not great things -.-

19. Met someone who changed you: ...probably?

20. Found out who your friends are: it’s normally easy to tell who’s a dick

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: idk what a fb ‘list’ is but if its just a friend list then obvi yes - @kfoops, same 

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all except 1. we talk a lot and plan on meeting though

23. Do you have any pets: my (not so little) cat sammy

24. Do you want to change your name: I wanted to be called Hayley, so pissed when I found my parents almost named me that 

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: saw wonder woman. Good shit 👌

26. What time did you wake up: 4am, 7am, and kind of at 9am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: 'trying’ not to fall asleep on the couch but actually falling asleep on the couch

28. Name something you can’t wait for: GETTING A WORKING CINTIQ FUCK ME

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 20 minutes ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: have some security about where and how I’ll live in the future instead of at home

31. What are you listening to right now: Now up to psycho - muse

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes, not recently though

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: I would say my cintiq but I’ve mostly given up on it by now

34. Most visited website: facebook

35. Mole/s: yep

36. Mark/s: yup

37. Childhood dream: of growing up? Becoming the tooth fairy. Actual sleeping dream? No idea, but weird shit happens in dreams

38. Hair color: Brown. So much brown

39. Long or short hair: Medium? Just past shoulder length

40. Do you have a crush on someone: ye 😅

41. What do you like about yourself?: I’m gaining arm muscle from work but probably not anymore since I don’t climb as much for work

42. Piercings: Ears

43. Blood type: A+ 

44. Nickname: Nic, nikki (I don’t normally respond to those though)

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac: Cancer

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV Show(s): firefly, rick and morty, brooklyn nine nine, the list goes on

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: None (for 20 years running ayyyyy)

52. Hair dyed in different color: was purple, was red

53. Sport: Taekwondo, climbing, footy. I am not fit it’s not great

55. Vacation: Going to europe in a few months 😍

56. Pair of trainers: Yes I have to wear them for work

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: chocolate :3

58. Drinking: water, like a cool kid

59. I’m about to: draw more shit

61. Waiting for: an actual break from life

62. Want: more cats

63. Get married: maybe? Need to find someone first. The law is stupid and I can’t marry myself

64. Career: graphic / communication design. Fingers crossed

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs. Kissing is strange

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes

67. Shorter or taller: Shorter

68. Older or younger: idk

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: stomach

71. Sensitive or loud: probably sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship?

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: I know I’m hesitant...

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: Nope.

75. Drank hard liquor: Nope (wow my life is exciting)

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Hard to lose when you don’t have any to begin with

77. Turned someone down: fuck yes

78. Sex on the first date: maybe

79. Broken someone’s heart: Yep. Needed to be done

80. Had your heart broken: Yep. Probably needed to be done

81. Been arrested: Nup

82. Cried when someone died: Fuck yes

83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: sometimes

85. Miracles: Great when things work out, could be considered a miracle, wouldn’t trust for it to happen though

86. Love at first sight: I think so? I think it’s more lust than love

87. Santa Claus: ...sure

88. Kiss on the first date: I guess

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Shout out to the people who know ( @kfoops, @pineapplepond5 and @being-of-rain (stop changing your name)) but also a shout out to Norina and Jess who aren’t here

91. Eye colour: Brown/grey-greenish?

92. Favourite movie: please don’t make me choose

Tagging; @being-of-rain in case he hasn’t been tagged, @itshummingyay and @bigbadboombox if he ever returns to tumblr (rip)

[brokenbones-tellstories]

I’m bored.

BEtter 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Andrew 2. Are you outgoing or shy? I can be a bit of both in certain situations. 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? So many people. Andrew, my mom, my sister.. 4. Are you easy to get along with? I think so. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? He would and has. 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Tall, kinda slender, gentle, patient, funny, attentive... 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? I don’t see why I wouldn’t be. 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Considering all the questions about him, Andrew. 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Not as of late. It used to. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Twin? I think... 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? ”I’ve heard all of them.” 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? --Reckless Love, Cory Asbury --Don’t Let It Get You Down, Johnnyswim --Madness, MUSE --Hourglass, Steven Fiore --Better Than I Used To Be, Mat Kearney

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Absolutely. It’s one of the best feelings 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I believe in miracles. I think luck goes with coincidence and I don’t believe things are ever coincidental. Everything happens for some reason or another. 15. What good thing happened this summer? LAST summer I got to take a cross country trip to California for the first time! 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Of course. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I don’t discredit the possibility. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Nope. 19. Do you like bubble baths? I take one nearly every night :) 20. Do you like your neighbors? I don’t really know any of them. The guy across the street is weird. 21. What are you bad habits? I procrastinate a lot. 22. Where would you like to travel? Everywhere I’ve never been. 23. Do you have trust issues? Not exactly. I still get anxious over certain things, but I’m not immediately distrustful. 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Getting in my bed at the end of the day. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My stomach/hips. 26. What do you do when you wake up? Daydream about getting back in my bed later on. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Just a tad darker. 28. Who are you most comfortable around? Twin and Keegan. 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Yeah. 30. Do you ever want to get married? Yes! 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? It’s in one 90% of the time so yes. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? I wouldn’t. 33. Spell your name with your chin. sierrabn 34. Do you play sports? What sports? No, lol. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Yes.  37. What do you say during awkward silences? Nothing.  38. Describe your dream girl/guy? I’m with him and I’m lazy, so if you wanna see, go stalk my FB or insta or something. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Altar’d State, Francheskas, Victorias Secret, Forever 21... 40. What do you want to do after high school? Well I wanted to go to college, but I currently manage a Starbucks and I’m okay with it. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? Either I’m in a new place with new people, super tired, really annoyed, concentrating on something, or upset. I’m a quiet person by nature. 43. Do you smile at strangers? Some. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer space. I wanna prove these flat earther’s wrong. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? The paycheck I get for showing up at work. 46. What are you paranoid about? Nothing really. 47. Have you ever been high? No. 48. Have you ever been drunk? On numerous occasions. 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? A couple things, unfortunately.  50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? I’m wearing a black UNCC hoodie. 51. Ever wished you were someone else? Sometimes. 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I just wanna lose a little weight. 53. Favourite makeup brand? Urban Decay. 54. Favourite store? Altar’d State, 55. Favourite blog? Oh man, Tyler Knott Gregsons 56. Favourite colour? Cerulean 57. Favourite food? Meatloaf (It’s strange, I know) 58. Last thing you ate? Chicken Pot Pie 59. First thing you ate this morning? Savannah Smiles girl scout cookies. 60. Ever won a competition? For what? Yes! I can’t remember! but I have lol 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Never. 62. Been arrested? For what? No. 63. Ever been in love? Currently am. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? eighth grade formal. First boyfriend ever. Two is Better Than One by T. Swift and Boys Like Girls is playing, we’re slow dancing. He kisses me. I literally run away. 65. Are you hungry right now? I’m peckish. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? No. (Sorry guise) 67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook generally, but twitter when I need to be honest and rant about political things. 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr 69. Are you watching tv right now? I don’t watch TV 70. Names of your bestfriends? Ciera, Keegan, Corey, Greyson. 71. Craving something? What? Water. 72. What colour are your towels? All of the colors. 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Five. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? A few here and there. 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Hundreds (Not even exaggerating) 75. Favourite animal? LLAMA 76. What colour is your underwear? Hot pink and black 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Ben and Jerry’s Chocolotta Cookie Core 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Black 80. What colour pants? Not wearing any 81. Favourite tv show? Greys Anatomy 82. Favourite movie? August Rush or The Greatest Showman 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21 Jump Street 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Kady 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory 87. First person you talked to today? Lori 88. Last person you talked to today? Andrew 89. Name a person you hate? I really don’t. 90. Name a person you love? My momma :) 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Not really, no. 92. In a fight with someone?  Nope. 93. How many sweatpants do you have? One actual pair. 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? at LEAST 30 95. Last movie you watched? Valentines Day 96. Favourite actress? Emma Stone 97. Favourite actor? Chris Pine 98. Do you tan a lot? Not at all 99. Have any pets? No 100. How are you feeling? Stressed, depressed, in a little pain. 101. Do you type fast? I think so. 102. Do you regret anything from your past? Not exactly. I often wonder how things would have turned out if I did a few things differently, but I know they lead me to where I am now and I like who I became. 103. Can you spell well? Well. 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? A couple of people. 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Yes 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes 108. What should you be doing? Nothing at the moment 109. Is something irritating you right now? A few things 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? More times than I would like to admit. 111. Do you have trust issues? Yes, but I don’t let them show very often, if at all. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Andrew. 113. What was your childhood nickname? Pumpkin, sillah, sissy, sister, seester... 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Many times. 115. Do you play the Wii? Not as much as I used to. 116. Are you listening to music right now? No. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? My favorite :D 119. Favourite book? Looking For Alaska 120. Are you afraid of the dark? I’m afraid of what is in it. 121. Are you mean? I have the potential to be 122. Is cheating ever okay? No. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? I can try 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Nope. 125. Do you believe in true love? Yes 126. Are you currently bored? Yes 127. What makes you happy? Lots of things 128. Would you change your name? No 129. What your zodiac sign? Scorpio 130. Do you like subway? It’s my second to last choice 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? In the past I’ve been known to date them so............ 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Michelle 133. Favourite lyrics right now?  ”The overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God. It chases me down, fights ‘till I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine. I couldn’t earn it, I don’t deserve it, still You give Yourself away....” 134. Can you count to one million? Yes 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? OHHHH man I don’t even know  136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?  Closed 137. How tall are you? 5′4″ 138. Curly or Straight hair?  Straight 139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette 140. Summer or Winter? I’m finding I miss summer more these days than I did in the past 141. Night or Day? Night 142. Favourite month? December 143. Are you a vegetarian? No 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark 145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee 146. Was today a good day? It was decent 147. Mars or Snickers? Mars 148. What’s your favourite quote? ”Never regret anything because at one point it was exactly what you wanted.” 149. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? ””He stood without expression in front of the entrance, his muscles heaving beneath a shirt that looked like it was about to burst. He was primed for ass-kicking.” (via catscuddlingandyou)