#just need to hear back from jobs I've applied for 🤞🤞🤞

[kozidraws]

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[jillaxkalangg]

wow.. i really have a lot of things to share but i don't know where to start. a lot has happened and i don't know if the words i'll say matters. but first things first. i am finally a 4th year student [ yay! ] since i am an irregular student, its really hard for me to accept things especially when i knew i won't graduate on time. it made me doubt my self and my capabilities, i hated myself for it. i pitied myself for not doing like others, for feeling stupid and dumb. gradually, i accepted these things. i realized things will not go the way i want, and maybe its not really for me. and after all those crying nights, doubtful moments, and all nighters, i am finally a 4th year student. well, things will be harder but at least i am a lot more closer reaching my goal.

at this age, i feel embarrassed to ask for money. i am in the age where i am capable to earn money and work on my own but because of k12, i am stuck here. i really wanted to work, may it be a part time job, i just have this urge to earn because i am old enough to earn. plus, the inflation we are having right now is not good. i feel bad to ask money from my parents and sisters whether i need it to buy something for myself, or something i need for univ. do u get me :((( but because i'm still studying and ftf classes will be back this school year, it would be harder for me to have part time job.

one more thing, actually my ult kpop group will have a concert here with got7's bambam & jackson. i've already decided i won't attend, i didn't even bother to ask money from my parents because its not something necessary to buy. second, my sister told me to attend if i'll pay it with my own money. the thing is, my bias won't be there since he's in hiatus and its not their solo concert. but, its their first overseas performance and i want to be there. however, its just impossible for me to attend. altho i have applied for hwaiting lounge, if its not meant for me, then i'll just accept it. maybe its not my time to see them T__T another thing, seventeen will have their concert here on october, and my sister will shoulder the half price of my ticket, so we can attend together. we haven't secured any of the tix yet since ticket selling will be on 13th, but the thought of hearing sk and dk's voice live makes me cry hehe i just hope we can secure 🤞 lol again its too long, got no one to talk about these things lately so yepppp bYEE