#just let us be delusional. we've been called that for 15 years we're used to it

[clairenatural]

seeking out posts with opinions you know you won't agree with, to add long additions on why they're wrong, is widely seen as impolite and even combative on Tumblr. You're going to be met with hostility because people see it as a hostile act to begin with. similarly, it's considered rude to tag your hate of a ship or fandom content with the tag of that ship or content. Tumblr is structured to allow people to tailor their own communities and most people won't like you barging in going "actually, you're wrong." Most posts, unless actually specified, are not invitations for debate - building upon ideas, yes, and even asking questions is fine, but not "you are wrong." The culture is that we're doing our own thing over here, and you can stay over there, and coming into our spaces just to tell us we're wrong is rude. And embarrassing.

[redge]

【推しの子】 Final arc thoughts (WIP)

I decided to write this after reading chapter 161 and while everybody is already giving up on the story, I want to trust Akasaka-sensei and read on until the final chapter. Please Akasaka-sensei let's end this beautifully

Chapter 152 - Interview

One of the reasons why I am completely not sold that Aqua is *redacted* is because of the interviews from volume 1 that started showing up for this final volume. Which means that the other interviews will need to appear in 165 or 166 and in those interviews, Ruby and Kana both mentioned Aqua. Call me delusional but yeah, I am (and very hopeful please Akasaka-sensei I am begging you prove us wrong) .

Chapter 152 started with the interview session with the director I'm rereading the chapter as I am writing this and oh that Gotanda-Kaburagi conversation 😭 I mean are you telling me that this volume started this strong only for it to blow off like that?! Prove us wrong Akasaka-sensei!

"Unless I get my revenge on you, we won't be able to move towards the future."

I mean?! Why would you write this character strongly talking about the future on the premise that you are going to *redacted* this character like why?! It just doesn't add up 🤡

Chapter 153 - Fiction

It's so funny how this controversial kiss scene was only addresed in this chapter and just as a part of the movie, nothing more 🤣 It's a bizarre world we live in 🤡

Oh Hikaru Kamiki. How much of your statements were lies and truth? You are one confusing character 💭

"I loved her from the bottom of my heart, after all."

"I'm glad I could finally talk to you."

Send help 😭 No like why was this conversation so different from their conversation in 161 like just why where did all those dark feelings came from I don't understand 😭

"I heard the sound of the world collapsing"

💔

Chapter 154 - 15-Year Lie

Will I really read chapter 154 again? This chapter was heartbreaking 🥺

I won't say much about this chapter here anymore because I think I poured my heart out when I wrote these thoughts on chapter 154.

Just skimming through the pages and I am still really really sad about this chapter ugh

"This movie is a timeless love letter from Ai to you"

And then we get a story where the son *redacted* the father and the son *redacted* in the process?! Like come on. Give Ai a break! She did not risk giving birth to these twins just for that to happen?! Like Akasaka-sensei are you out of your mind?! No please come on sensei not this ending I beg you.

Chapter 155 - Happy End

This chapter was so beautiful like everything from this point on was full of hope, a serene future ahead so why?! 🙃

Yes we're not forgetting Yura we've been remembering her since the chapter she died only to still not know anything about her death hahahahaha gosh the mixed feelings this manga is giving me 😂

Chapter 156 - Mem

And the final arc even included a Memcho chapter where she's talking about the future! Everything is leading towards future and dreams so why are you making that character sleep forever I don't understand the more I write this the more I get furious hahaha

"I'll remain in the gray and swim through it brilliantly."

Oh Memcho ~☆

Chapter 157 - An Ordinary Day, A Wonderful Day

And you keep on showing us that Aqua is studying for medical school, have this ordinary day at peace with his twin sister and then what?! 🙃

"As long as you're here with me"

Good grief Ruby would be crushed if she would know that Aqua is *redacted* more so if she would know that he did it to secure her future like why would your twin be happy going on a future without the most important person beside her like come on make it make senseeeeeee

Chapter 158 - Jewel

There are arguments in the fandom that the reason they can't ride that Ruby suddenly became this brilliant idol was because it lacks foundation. I guess it does but even from the first few chapters, it was subtly laid down to us that Ruby would become a brilliant idol some day. When she auditioned, though Aqua tried everything to hinder Ruby's auditions, she was still scouted. When Kana was having secknd thoughts when Ruby recruited her to become an idol, she says she sees potential in her. So I was not surprised that Ruby would become this brilliant idol.

Why would you give us a panel saying that Kamiki is asking Nino to surrender to the police only to show on the latter chapters that Kamiki had already gone beyond saving like is he really just a manipulative asshole how much of these were truth and lies?!

Oh that last page 👀

Chapter 159 - Resonance

"I'm wearing a..."

I feel that everything went downhill from this chapter so if given a choice I'd skip this chapter until chapter 164 and just read the last two chapters. Because I have full hope that Aqua is not *redacted* and that will be shown on chapter 165 or 166.

I will keep on asking how much of Hikaru Kamiki are lies and truth because I am honestly so confused on what they want to project him like what is he even?

Chapter 160 - Eye

"You tried to kill Ruby, didn't you?!"

But why is the expression of Hikaru like that?! Was he really meant to confuse all of us?! I mean apart from knowing, believing that Aqua is not *redacted* what about him? Is he? Is that it? Ugh this is giving me headache.

Goodness that's one crazy art. Mengo-sensei, I respect you.

Chapter 161 - Future

So since crow girl is the one doing the narration, does that mean that Hikaru is really just that plain asshole? That after all those flahbacks in 154, he is destined to actually kill his daughter? So that time at the temple, was he really planning to push Ruby? Like really? He has sank down that low? That after growing old without Ai, watching over their twins, his ultimate goal was to... harm them? I can't find the core in this character portrayal it's so difficult to comprehend Hikaru Kamiki's character 🤡

"You already have plenty of reasons to live"

Right?! I mean why did we have to resort to this?! Nino was taken care of. We could have dealt and handled Kamiki differently like see the light at the end of the tunnel or something I don't know it just doesn't add up this conclusion does not add up at all make it make senseeeeee at this point I'm just basically ranting hahaha

Chapter 162 - Aqua Hoshino

"I could've felt you more if I had killed Ruby"

I will never understand 💭

And why Aqua?! Why?! He suffered enough. Sacrificed enough. Felt guilty all his two lives and you give him this?! This was so unfair and how would you really think Ruby would feel after knowing that you sacrificed your life to protect her like really?! I don't understanddddddddd

"Thank goodness. This time..."

Are you even sane Aquamarine Hoshino?! Are we?!

Chapter 163 - You

For some reasons, I like that this chapter because once and for all, it made it black and white that Goro and Aqua are two different person. That Aqua has always been Aqua.

"Was this actually the wrong choice?"

Yes Aqua. So for the sake of our sanity would you please make good choices come on you're better than this. Also, crow girl he was asking a very valid question why would you answer him like that you're not helping at all what's the point of your existence all along?!

Why is this panel so reminiscent of that panel with Kana when she's telling Aqua that she'll curse at him and forget him in not time it's curious.

And why why whyyyyyyyy

Chapter 164 - Finale

"I want to live"

Then go ahead Aqua go on! Akasaka-sensei why do we even have to go through this?! If the gist is so that we could separate Goro and Aqua as two different individuals then yes we know they're different so can we now skip to the good part?!

This was so wrong. So unfair to everyone. To Aqua. To Ruby. To Kana. To Akane. To Miyako. To Ai! It was so unfair. And so poorly dealt with. So what are we trying to show here? That the world is cruel and unfair and not even fiction can save us? I am in utter shock like this was more dumfounding than Ai's death. Akasaka-sensei, really, what was the point?

[lovekelletaylor]

Hi! My name's Quelle, and I'm unhealthy.

That was a big sentence for me. I mean, I've known I wasn't healthy for a long time but I've never just said it out loud before like that. I think I was letting myself be delusional because my blood works always been good, I'm not pre- anything (diabetic, hypertensive, anything like that). But last year I had a wake up call when it came back that I had non-alcoholic fatty liver disease and some cirrhosis on my liver.

That scared me pretty good and I gave up alcohol, which wasn't difficult because I was never much of a drinker. But I did have to face a very real addiction/dependence on energy drinks. So I gave up those too in the hopes that my liver would go back to normal.

My blood work came back about a month ago nearly clearing me of having liver disease so those were good steps to take!

Then I had to come to terms with how little I was exercising and generally moving around. I got a therapist to help with my ADHD and anxiety and his main recommendation was to find a supportive active community. So naturally I got into crossfit.

I LOVE crossfit. I feel accepted and welcomed every session and we're always doing something new or different. And believe me, I've felt pretty out of place and rejected at a lot of gyms so imagine how amazing and refreshing it is to go somewhere to sweat disgustingly and no one's judging you because they're equally dying from the workout.

Then after 2 months I hurt my back at said crossfit.

I've always had a pretty weak back and I'd slipped a disc pretty bad back in 2018. I had to go through PT and learn to live with part of my foot and leg always being slightly numb. This time around it was just a strained back muscle so it mainly needed to rest but a relaxer and prescription tylenol had to be ordered.

It's been a month of no crossfit so my back can get better and hopefully I can go back either this week or next week.

All this being said, I've always wanted to lose weight and get healthy on my own so I can prove to myself (and any other enemy I felt I had in the world) that I could do it. The topic of weightloss surgery has come up between my doctor and myself, by me, but I've always said no in the end and that I'll try something else first.

But now, I'm uncomfortable around my sister. She's lost weight by changing their diet due to my nephews numerous food allergies. They eat very healthy and are setting amazing examples of taking care of themselves for the boys.

I love my sister and we've never had the traditional relationship of sisters because there's a 15 year gap between us so there was no "need" for rivalry or fighting. I've also never been compared to her or vice versa.

Except now by my nephew, who very bluntly and in front of a lot of family members including my sister pointed out how Aunt Quelle is so much wider than Mommy is.

I don't know if my sister heard him cause she was wrangling my younger nephew but I just kind of said something to the affect of "yeah we all know" and went about helping with lunch. It kind of felt like a slap in the face cause if anything, I've always been told how much I look like my sister and now all I can think of is how much wider I am than her.

So, this is me. At this moment and in this time period. I'm unhealthy and I can't keep ignoring it because now it's more than just a number on the scale or size in clothes. Now it's how much I want to look like my sister again and be a better version of myself and not worry about other kids saying kid observations. Kinda shallow for a breaking point but everyone's different I think.

The first step is admitting you have a problem. So now I got nowhere to go but up.