#just kept singing 'baby she's awesome baby shes worth it' while looking at these gifs

[fearlesshealy]

It’s been a week already since I saw Dulce María’s concert for the fourth time. I must say it was her best concert I’ve ever seen. She was dancing more, singing more. Such a good setlist. I think this time she was the very best or not, we can’t possibily know, right?! All I could think of was she worked her ass off to make this a special one and she made it. I’d like to thank her in person, but it’s not that easy! I’m so happy ‘cause I went and I almost lost it. I had no money and something goes on to make me wake up to go and no regrets. I was a bit nervous ‘cause I’m not used to go to a concert without the ticket, you know.. to get it there at the time. It makes me feel really nervous, but usually I’m changing it on me, I enjoy it but it’s not safe. Also, I’d see my ex and she and I were so weird with each other that it made me feel I wasn’t suppose to be there. It was wrong, but I have my way to deal things calmly. The thing was she was not that good with me being there and even talking to her. It got all sad in a peculiar way. She made things I’ve never thought she’d do. I don’t even know for sure if she hang out with someone else, but I’m not thinking on it at the moment. For me, the worst thing was the fact that she “gave” me a place in the line, but she had to pick up her friend at the subway station so I offered to stay there while she’d do it. She didn’t even say thank you, in fact, the only thing she said was “when I get back you’ll be gone”. I couldn’t believe she said that to me, that way in front of people. She said she was kidding, but come the fuck on, nobody else had strengh to joke at that moment. I was like wow and waited them for almost an hour or so it looked like. The minute they got back, I had already made a few friends to make the time goes fast. I was with my game Uno there, and we decided to play. They arrived and barely said hi. She didn’t introduce him to me, I mean, he’s her best friend. I swallowed and kept things ordinary. They left at the same moment, they did not stay there with us waiting for the gate to open so we could enter and wait for the concert to start. It took an hour for them to come back and stay there for maybe 20 minutes before living again. I tried so hard to talk with them, most of all with him, he talked a little bit, but both of them wouldn’t look at me. It made me so angry I could just leave right there, but I stopped to think I shouldn’t give a fuck about them and I did. Later when they got back I didn’t look at them and didn’t try to talk, fuck’em. I just waited for a few more minutes and they opened. When we were going to get in the place, I said to him I wouldn’t be inside with them to watch the concert and stuff, he said, “Why not? We got together in the line” WHAT? I mean, wtf man?! What a fucking lie! I just said, I don’t want to be near her ‘cause she messed up. I tried, but this is it. I got in and found my place to be and stayed for the entire concert. Dulce was late some minutes but it was worth it. She nailed it and all I can say is “her best concert so far”. I can wait for her to come back with the same tour ‘cause I think she will and take one of my babies: James. It will be awesome like always whenever he is. I thought a lot about going there to look for her to stay together a little while, but she did not deserve it a bit. So I watched it, it was awesome. I left and was very happy. Just very disappointed with her, but does it matter? I should have just think of how much I’d like to see Dulce and that’s all. I love you, Dulce. Keep on! 

- A