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turtleblogatlast · 9 months ago

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Don’t think I ever quite said what my LGBTQ+ headcanons are for the boys, so these are my current thoughts! Always changing of course but this is what I feel most strongly right now.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #rise donnie #rise leo #rise mikey #rise raph #donnie and leo’s sexualities being practically swapped was unintentional but it works way too well #same with mikey and raph tbh it was a happy accident #anyway I kinda hc raph as the type who doesn’t care about physical appearance just if you fight lol #Mikey’s more than happy with friends and family #Donnie is a BIG romantic but he needs time to sus a person out fully before he gets the hots for them #leo meanwhile isn’t keen on romance unless it’s with someone he grows to really really REALLY trust #I could go on and probably will later (knowing me) but it is late and I am tired haha #turtle art tag #curious as to what everyone else headcanons #the only one of these I’ll defend forever is Bi (female-leaning) donnie and trans leo #all the others can change over time but I really like where they’re sitting right now #I hope these are the right flags too because it was kinda hard to find them #went looking for transmasc flag in particular but I couldn’t find a solid agreed upon version 😭#ngl a big part of why I hc mikey as aro is because of a pun #my phone often misspells aromantic as aromatic and- and you get it- because aromatic herbs and- and Mikey is a chef do YOU GET IT #note that while I hc leo as bisexual (male-leaning) I still think he’s prob closer to demi in that as well just not as far into the spectrum #if that makes sense #headcanons are fun and hard to narrow down at the same time alas #I made this in like an hour can you tell djjdjd #I drew them all from memory so if there’s anything wrong…shhh #and if you’re wondering for April and Splinter #Both are Bisexual (female-leaning) but April is also Panromantic #I almost wanna make Splinter demiromantic too so Big Mama’s betrayal hits just a bit harder

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lunarharp · 10 months ago

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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somegrumpynerd · 9 months ago

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It's interesting to think about how, to me at least, Dust and Killer are like mirror versions of each other.

One who joins a villain enthusiastically, jumps at the chance to leave his past behind and have a purpose again, and the other who has to be dragged in, would rather rot in the consequences of his own actions.

One who needs orders, needs the distraction and the action and the thrill, can't sit alone with his thoughts for too long lest he hear them clearly, and the other who can't bring himself to ignore the ghost over his shoulder, would rather sit in place and listen to his own self loathing parroted back at him than stand up and find a way to drown it out.

One who doesn't associate with his past anymore, that wasn't me and I wasn't him, and cannot stand the thought of going back from where he came, and the other who wants nothing more than to be his old self again but feels so strongly that he doesn't deserve to return to the life he tore down himself.

They both wear their new names like dog collars, but one is a gift given by someone else because he's theirs, he has somewhere he belongs that he's expected to return to, and the other is a choker tying him to a post, warning others of his danger while never allowing him to get out of arm's reach of his past.

And getting them both back-to-back while trying to understand mortals was probably enough to give Nightmare whiplash

#UTDR #UTMV #He kind of expected when picking up Dust that because they were so similar they would get along #And boy did he have a big storm coming #I don't think he and Dream ever fought that much as kids #I feel like they were relatively nice happy brothers for the most part #And having Dust and Killer in the castle together was eye opening #Not that they would have been considered brothers at that point but y'know #Anyway it's day 4 of my week off and I still have absolutely no motivation to draw which sucks #But I am working through cross stitching the lil pixel versions of everybody so that's nice #Also I'm not main tagging this because some people have very strong opinions about the characterisation of these two #and I know I'm doing it wrong just to have fun so

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teddybeartoji · 2 months ago

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i think i always screw myself over by thinking that EVERY piece i write has to be fully fleshed out, with a proper beginning and an end, when in reality it's literally just not true lmao the bi-weekly realization that you CAN write whatever the fuck you want and however the fuck you want is so relieving thanks brain for letting me have this one<333333333

#i have this one thing #well i have more than one #but this One thing that i've been thinking abt so much and i have a lot of it already and i LOOOOVEEEEEEE working on it #but i just didn't know where it should end up #or how to really go on with it #ok i do have ideas for it but i just haven't felt like writing that part #but why am i just keeping that behind locked doors when i could always simply ADD another part #it doesn't have to be a big piece #what i have right now works perfectly fine on its own and #that's literally that #i'm just reassuring myself here lmao #writing IS fun sometimes yayyyyyy #mayor of loserville

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venomouslilith · 2 months ago

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#I struggled so hard today #and for no apparent fucking reason #I struggled with something at work that I've done for the first time while also constantly task switching #and I STILL NOTICED MY MISTAKE #but the fact that I made a mistake in the first place is fucking killing me #I feel like I will be executed for it #it makes my skin crawl #and to know that I'll have to go up to another human being who I respect deeply and be like hey I made a mistake please don't hate me #is the first fucking thing #BUT IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE #part of science is noticing your own mistakes so why is this so terrible to me #I know upbringing bla #yes I was raised to believe that among all other things I'm smart #and I have had this proven to me over and over and over growing up #so when I actually struggle with something I can no longer be smart therefore I am nothing #utterly worthless #and nobody even meant me any harm by telling me I was smart #this is such a STUPID FUCKING problem to have #uh I was told I'm smart #bitch what #yes being yelled at from 10 through 28 by my father for completely unpredictable reasons did not help with me thinking this is terrible #BUT STILL #get your shit together #see and even now I'm beating myself up for struggling with something #URGH #I just want peace and not existential dread whenever I make a mistake that is definitely my fault #personal #so and if you've actually made it till down here I'm giving you a big hug #we'll make it somehow

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langernameohnebedeutung · 2 months ago

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#maybe I was naive before and/or maybe I'm just bonedead tired af and not making much sense (i know I am)#bue the thing is if you had asked me before this night why the USA have never had a female president unlike so many comparable countries #I would have...attributed like 50%-80% of the reason to structural causes and the obsession with male candidates #yes there are extremely regressive and misogynistic regions and subcultures in the US - but that is true for most countries!#it is also a country with some VERY progressive people #and I don't know any country where so many people are so constantly actively and vocally arguing in favour of FINALLY having a female leade #so yeah I attributed it mostly to the general obstacles for female politicians and how elections in the US work and even past candidates #and I guess a big part of me wanted to believe that all this clownery of men saying they feel emasculated voting for a woman #was just a special sub-category of freakishness that gets pushed into the spotlight during the election #but at this point (dead-tired and annoyed as all shit)...I'm at the point where I say the United States have an almost unique problem #with voting for a woman + the idea of having a female president #maybe it's the huge role of the military and the president as leader of the troops or maybe it's the impact of evangelicals on the culture #maybe it is the role of gender roles in pop culture being so deeply entrenched #obviously this election racism and Harris being a woman of colour also plays a huge role #but at the point I am it genuinely feels to me like there's a very specific hang-up in the US regarding female candidates #and I know a lot of people are going to end up saying: 'oh it has nothing to do with it it has nothing to do with gender'#and I would have had that discussion and said that the issue with discrimination is that often you can't prove the individual case #but at this point....specifically with the US I have a hard time being like 'maybe it was maybe it wasn't' in regards to this factor #sorry to say

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aibouart · 7 months ago

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i drew a streamer i started watching recently who was playing LN1~

their name is obakechan !

#my art #art q #cell shading #chibi #misc bg #little nightmares #fanart #in other news i am slowly recovering from the whole like #being possessive of my art and artstyle #after the whole bunsong youtube series of unfortunate events plus dailycelebi #so if you wanted to ask how i do any certain things i am very likely to share now..!#i still say dont heavy ref my art and post it #like u can do that to learn privately #but otherwise idk i am overcoming it #oh and dont heavy reference my commission work ofc thats for the paying customer #anyways this took me like 20 or 30 mins #actually i can check #yeah 21 mins #i should stream little nightmares again #also i recognise my possessiveness of my art was partly cuz like i was not at all used to being seen outside my friends anyways #and my art is a big part of my identity #so seeing someone copy it as best as they could was very unsettling at the time #but after a lot of introspection and breaking down why i felt that way i started to recover after realising that like #people doing that arent stripping me of my identity and wearing it right #they just liked my art #except the users who traced or heavy reffed my shit and didnt credit me nor ask and then sold it those guys dont count #but yeah im still figuring it all out internally #actually making those bases really helped !!

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stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage · 5 months ago

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I'm sorry, but why don't we talk about Witch Hunt more? Seriously, I think it might be my favorite DAO DLC. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the hell out of Awakening. Leliana's Song is good. The Golems of Amgarrak is... eh, bad. I didn't really like that one. The Warden's Keep, The Stone Prisoner, and Return to Ostagar are all amazing and I love them.

But Witch Hunt??? Y'all. I can't. I'm too emotional right now.

I have at least one dynamic from each game that I'm obsessed with. For DAO, it's the dynamic between romanced!Alistair, Tabris, and Morrigan. I've talked before about the dark ritual and stuff in this post, so let's just say that my Tabris, Rose, very much has unfinished business and a score to settle with Morrigan.

Tabris and Morrigan grew so close throughout the entire journey of DAO, y'know? Close enough that Morrigan claimed she thought of her as a sister, and Tabris felt the same way... and then in one single moment, it's just shattered.

There were signs that Tabris ignored, like the way Morrigan dismissed all the circle mages and claimed they should be left to their fates since they "allow themselves to be caged like cattle." Or how she disapproved every time Tabris wanted to help those down on their luck. Or, worst of all, when Morrigan disapproved when Tabris chose to kill the Tevinter slaver instead of making a deal with him to use the lives of the remaining elves to grant her more power... one of those caged elves being Tabris' father.

But she gave Morrigan the benefit of the doubt; she's sheltered and only had Flemeth as an influence and teacher, of course she's unempathetic and selfish, but there is good in Morrigan's heart. She can learn to be more empathetic and to care for others.

At least, Tabris believed that until Morrigan confessed that she's known about the ultimate sacrifice and the dark ritual from the beginning, that Flemeth sent her with the wardens with a purpose that Morrigan intends to follow through with. It's devastating and it broke Tabris' heart.

She just learned that a warden has to die to stop the blight, and that warden could be her or Alistair. Not only are they romantically involved, but they've been through all of this shit together, they're the only ones who fully understand what being a grey warden is like. They carry the burden on their shoulders, and they're probably going to lose each other to the archdemon.

And Morrigan waits until she's at her most vulnerable to ask that of her.

Again, I've gone into more detail about that before, but at this point Rose is done with people deceiving her. She's done with Morrigan... except she's not. It's the betrayal and knowing Morrigan got what she wanted that causes Rose to go searching for her.

To Morrigan's credit, she does give some answers. She claims she didn't thing the archdemon would show itself so soon, and she did what she had to because she didn't wish to see Tabris hurt or die. I believe her, and to an extent, Tabris believes her... but Morrigan still doesn't get WHY it's a betrayal.

Morrigan's right: She will never understand Tabris, and Tabris will never understand her. She can insist it's not a betrayal all she wants, but it absolutely is, and Tabris has never allowed anyone who crossed her to just walk away... except for Morrigan.

Until now.

Hearing that Morrigan manipulated her way into the trust of this Dalish clan so she could steal their book and run is just further evidence in Tabris' eye that she hasn't changed. Maybe it was always foolish to believe she could.

So... she stabbed Morrigan.

She didn't do it to kill her; Morrigan is the daughter of Flemeth and a powerful mage with healing magic, a mere stab isn't going to kill her.

No, it's about what the stab represents: "I am done with you."

And how the scene plays out? It's so dramatic and good, just the way everything slows down, the music, how they make eye contact as the stabbing happens just....

I know it sounds really bad, and this is the part where I remind everyone that I ADORE Morrigan, but the stabbing ending is so satisfying from a story-telling standpoint for my playthrough.

It's so tragic and it hurts and I hate it.... but I love it, y'know?

I love Witch Hunt, like I haven't even talked about Ariane and Finn, or how the circle just has all these books on Dalish artifacts and translations of elvhen, or how other eluvians can be found with a shard from the broken one in the dalish origin.... like you're telling me that Merrill had a piece of the puzzle? If she had the knowledge, she could've found a working eluvian to study?? I'm going to gnaw my own leg off--

Listen, I could gush about this all day.

But now that I've completely finished DAO, it's time to replay DA2.

#dragon age origins #dao #dao morrigan #warden tabris #dao witch hunt #i could write an entire post about ariane and finn like they're such fun companions and so INTERESTING and their dynamic is so good #it's not a long dlc but i kinda wish it was just so i could spend more time with them before finding morrigan #and the reunion with morrigan is just hhhhnnngggggggggg i am feeling too many emotions help #i love morrigan what a great character sorry rose stabbed you but y'know... that's kind of thematic for her #morrigan will be fine... well physically she will but the emotional damage is a big oof #can't wait to hear about it in dai... i can't even remember what she says if the warden stabs her?#something about not parting on good terms or something skskskss whatever it is it's an understatement i'm sure #anyway i'm going to replay da2 and obsess over merrill's arc... i just want to give her the answers from witch hunt and let her go nuts #listen is it too much to ask that warden carver find this info out from tabris and give it to merrill #and the two of them go on a long adventure to find a working eluvian?? hmmmm??? and while they're at it they can steal from the circle #the circle doesn't need all those elven books okay it's fine

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devilsskettle · 2 years ago

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there’s also just Something About female characters who are jealous of the men around them for getting to behave in certain ways that they just can’t. like you can just act like that? you don’t have to maintain a carefully curated and constructed image of yourself to present to the world so people don’t treat you like shit? i’m not gonna universalize but i do believe most women feel this way at least at some point in their lives, i feel it all of the time and it drives me fucking insane

#that’s the thing with kie from outer banks for me like. she just wants to be allowed to act like the guys and just like. fuck around i guess #like just to hang out and to do whatever she wants and like to be herself and still be accepted #like she is tone deaf when it comes to like. complaining about her supportive family and better-than-stable financial situation lol #but she feels so trapped! and so alienated! and she can’t escape this role she keeps getting trapped in!#as a Daughter! or a Love Interest!#and like a big part of that is actually kind of just Bad Writing lol but i will take what i want from this story lol #i am going through the scraps i am scavenging it for working parts i am creating meaning where the writers forgot to etc #anyway aaaaaaaaa

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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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#ganondoodles talks #zelda #also .... does anyone know a simple cheap or free video editing software?#i know of davinci resolve but the full version for 300 currency and they also promote alot of ai stuff #and i kinda stopped reading after i saw that .. is it genAI or just some simple algorithm bs?#anyway i keep fighting with myself bc i also am deathly afraid of the toxicity of youtube and the zelda fandom #bc i KNOW i cant not mention the racism problem .. its a big feature of it and part of why i feel the way i do about it #and also know you dont have to be a racist to immediately blow a fuse when hearing your fav piece of media has problems tm #i guess its also that unpredictability of youtube #grrrrrrrrrr #i have so many rewrite ideas too that i dont know if it would be a waste to work on #AND WHAT IF ITS ALREADY TOO LATE

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xxplastic-cubexx · 11 days ago

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still thinking of my fave marvel rivals interaction where my jeff and i were hanging on the point after knocking out the other team and lil bro sprays the space in front of me and emotes and we both said thank you at the same time like i fear im never forgetting that ever

#marvel rivals #snap chats #i made the strangest delighted sound afterwards dare i say it was wholesome 😭almost cried sorry im a big baby #of course afterwards we had to go back to Murder but still ... ill never forget you my finny friend....#havent had an exp like that since .... i hope to tho ...#closest i got is sometimes my wanda will look me up and down- maybe strafe a lil but thats about it #wait no you know what my fave thing is .. i do love Lowkey babying wandas on my team vaeJLKVJAELKJ i am not sorry #LIKE AS A TANK OF COURSE i try to prioritize the main team but if everyones fine ill usually hover around her #i keep an especial eye on her ok listen she gives me big energy sword i give her magnet shields its MUTUALISM #anyway i wanted to draw the jeff story out but i keep getting swamped with stuff so. alas. youll just have to imagine #if it helps jeff was wearin the dolphin costume and yeah i threw up from cuteness. esp with the lil beach ball ....#Big Ass Scary Magneto and lil baby jeff simultaneous Thank You ... its the little things i fear ...#a part of it helps that magneto can just sound so Polite with these voice lines LMAO #like his 'Hello' tickles me it's so Hello There :) .. like a distinguished gentleman ... like a grandpa who SOMETIMES gives you a casserole #thats his whole vibe tbh i wanted to make a post bout it- how mags def has Father/Grandfather To All energy and i love it #hes not even the oldest in the roster far from it.. lol.. visually he looks the oldest #if i may quote him tho .. Save Perhaps Thor ... He May Be His Equal in that regard AJELKVJAEKLJ BUT ANYWAY #im off to work on a thing #i should have it done tomorrow and i can finally share it (among other joys) with everyone :]

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guinevereslancelot · 16 days ago

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starting to kind of date someone right before christmas is so stressful fr. do i get him a gift or what we've been on two dates but i'm seeing him tonight n it's christmas eve.....but what if he didn't get me anything then it will be weird.....

#i planned to try to find something small enough that i could easily carry around concealed then take it out if he got something for me #but the thing i got ened up being a bit too big for that lol #im gonna bring a big bag of gifts for all my friends maybe and then it won't be weird idk #by some miracle my mom showed me a bag of emergency gifts for the girlies and i was like cool im taking all of them tonight 😂#which was not what she intended lol #but im gonna do it #if i had time i would have gotten him something different but its good enough #he mentioned a book he hadn't read last night so would have been cool the got him that but its too late its a music hat now #if he even got me anything idk #but he specifically told me he was last minute christmas shopping so idk #i am over analyzing this for sure tho #anyway most unrealistic part of christmas romance movies is they're not anxious wondering whether to gift or not to gift #also im lowkey scared abt new years 😳#not that i wouldn't like to kiss him probably but i already have a hard time looking at him without blushing 😂#so that would make it 10000x worse lmao #also idk if i want to kiss him JUST bc its new years instead of waiting for the right moment to just happen? idk i dont wanna rush things #its not for sure we'll be together at midnight on new years idk what his plans are #but we'll see #anyway things are going well but moving faster than expected 😅#also not 100% sure i'm seeing him tonight and def not tomorrow so that might take the gift pressure off but idk #waiting to hear back abt tonight #😐😐😐#also idk why we waited until we were both on break from work to do stuff bc honestly every time we've met it's been after work hours anyway #however it allows us to stay up later than on work nights which is nice #he didn't leave my house until after 11 last night lol #anyway trying hard not to get swept up in all this while its new but fr im like oh this is what it's supposed to feel like 🥺#never been in love before every relationship i've had was awk and forced was starting to think maybe im just not capable of love #but literally cuddling on the couch watching it's a wonderful life last night i was like hm i'm definitely capable of love actually #not saying im actually there yet but it would be soooo easy to fall for this guy which is p scary actually #esp bc im not sure it would work for other reasons

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moregraceful · 17 days ago

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EVERYBODY SHUT UP!!!!!! PAT SIELOFF IS PREGNANT!!!!!

1. Birthday cake from Sierra and Kelly; 2. Gritty soft serve ice cream cup; 3. Sign for Erik Johnson's 1k celebration; 4. Jersey Devil Christmas tree ornament.