#just bc i really do have a lot on my plate rn I'm so sorry 😞😞😞😞

[miyamoratsumuu]

post may or may not be cringe, but we're rolling with it 🤙🏼

I dreaded having to do this (again) all year long, but guess who's going on a semi-hiatus!!!! hint: me ☝🏻 (I'll call it semi bc I'll prob be lurking around here and there still, lmao)

most of you may know, but I've been super busy with school lately given that I'm graduating this year, sooo I'm predicting it rn I won't be able to write anything for a while 😞

it's not that I don't have free time at all, it's just that everything that's been on my mind lately is shoolschoolschool, and I almost never think of anything else 😭 + I can't find it in myself to have the mental capacity to balance everything I have going on here and aiming to be at the podium once graduation comes around

though I will be posting chapter 6 of push & pull this week, AND maybe a teaser for score his heart?? but idk, we'll see! if I do end up posting both of those, I think that'll be it for a while

I'm so sorry to be letting anyone down, especially those who have been enjoying my ongoing series so far</3 I promise that once I make the time to write in between school and my social life outside of tumblr, I'll be back to writing/posting better than ever!!

I'll just take this opportunity to thank everyone for supporting me and my works this past summer vacation!! I truly believe I wouldn't have been able to survive the summer heat without you all 🤕

thank you all so so much, I hope you understand!! as I mentioned, I'll still be lurking around the app and answering asks/messages if necessary!! I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH, I'LL BE BACK BETTER THAN EVER, I PROMISE!!<33

[cinhomi]

HI RORA I sent you an ask yesterday about how apparently my ask did not get eaten, just my notifs cause i have your notifs on and tumblr never sent the notif about the ask that got answered-

and then tumblr ate that ask. how ironic.

anyways yes! I am so sorry that I've been inactive sending asks, I got a nasty cough and have been coughing my lungs out for the past few days 💀 it's much better now tho! hope uni has been treating you well (on the other hand here uni can eat my ass-)

yeah small update on moot guy: well a few days ago he said that he'd be occasionally online if he had time to reply to me, and then today he sent me this really long message about how he'd be helping out with his prof and his prof would teach him stuff, so he'd be really busy and he was sorry that he'd be leaving me with nothing. said he'd be thinking of me a ton no matter what. I sent a really short answer bc I wasn't sure what to say. he apologized again and said he was sorry and please don't be mad...I think he's having a panic attack as he posted on his blog. 💀💀 I love him and I wish this isn't ending this way but god if this shit isn't tiring atop my already very loaded plate. at the end, I'm a girlie who believes firmly in equal standing, so there's no point if he'll be gone, I guess. if he won't reach out, then I won't come back.

anyways, enough sad updates here! (skzflix broke my goddamn heart) aside from skz, who's your favourite musical artist? I'm curious 👀

- titracha nonnie :3 (literally copying this ask rn in case tumblr eats it again 😩) (second time sending this ask help)

hi sweetie! I did imagine you sent something but it disappeared again, happy to receive your asks again and to know that you're doing better now 😊 and yeah, I got this one twice but it happens often, don't know why! tomorrow I'll take a day to stay home and work on some projects so hmm it's kicking me hard and it hurts but I'll get through it in a way or another :)

I understand caring about someone and all but we all have limits. you're right and you have to treat yourself like you deserve and yes, we have to respect others but when things get to the point where we are stressed/sad/anxious because of a situation we're in it's time to slow down or stop. it's exacly what you said at the end, "if he won't reach out, then I won't come back" you got straight to the point. I'm sorry this is happening... I already said that I've been in the same situation (more or less, maybe a bit more intricate) and it's a saddening experience. hope you'll be good soon.

skzflix was devastating and I could talk about it endlessly because I love skz lore sm, with all the theories and stuff!!

and you know who makes these things too? Twenty Øne Piløts, my favorite band of all times! been a fan since 2016 and no one could ever take their place... they literally saved my life.

but I listen to all genres of music so I have a pretty long list of artists I like... I generally prefer death metal (yeah I'm serious I'm a metalhead lol), visual-kei, and all that hard/chaotic music. it's actually a very difficult question for me, always, so I generally send my spotify account to people to make them understand a bit!

if I really have to choose someone beside TØP it's Diaura, another band. I can't list anyone else or I'd feel guilty and want to say everyone... take a look at my playlists if you'd like, or at my followings!

if you want to know for k-pop, beside SKZ being my ult group I love BTS, NCT (all units) and recently Ateez too... I'm back from a long break so yeah, I'm starting to know them just now haha (as for girl groups I don't like them too much but I enjoy (G)-Idle and LESSERAFIM a lot). fav korean solist rappers are BewhY, Villain and Gwangil Jo!

[sergle]

doesn't nail polish wreck peoples' nails? mine aren't in a good state rn (likely due to diet/lifestyle) despite them being strong so I haven't worn any because I don't want to make them worse but interesting to hear you say that it helps! mine usually grow long and start looking nice for like a couple weeks, only for one by one to chip or get dried out and need to be cut/filed down from constant hand-washing or picking and to keep them the same length:(

Omg I have so much to say about these topics so apologies in advance for the text. SO, yes and no! Using nail polish raw-dog can stain your nails if you're using really dark/pigmented polishes, making them look less healthy. If you use a LOT of acetone, this can also dry out your nails a lot, but that's part of why I mention the homemade nail oil- a little moisturization pretty much takes care of that for me! That's for reg polish. when you describe WRECKING someone's nails, I totally think of gel polish/acrylics. Since they're harder to remove, your nails look pretty raw when they come off, and they can definitely damage the actual plate of the nail, making it more prone to breaking! I've dabbled in gel polish myself, and even though I like how fast it dries, I did damage my nails in the process of taking it off lol. I like that you mentioned constant hand-washing as a thing that makes the nails break, bc that's part of why I like to keep my nails painted nowadays! Having nail polish on (as long as I've wrapped the tip) helps to make a nice waterproof coating on them. Nails (and hair) are weakest when they're wet, so after a lot of hand-washing or after a shower, nails swell slightly with water and they're at a high risk of breaking! When my nails are painted, I've noticed that this doesn't happen nearly as much, even though a LITTLE water still soaks into the nails. You also mention diet and lifestyle! That's the main thing that's going to have impact on the actual HEALTH of your nails, appearance aside, because the actual new nail growth that comes in will be in good condition. Polish can't ruin that! The thing you're describing where the nails grow out and look nice, and then they break or chip or split almost immediately as soon as they're long and they're back to being kind of nubby- that's p much exactly been my experience as well lol. I couldn't ever grow them out before, because my nails are a little bit thin and w my lifestyle, they'd bend or break all the time bc I'm always doing shit with my hands. So this is all to say that I like to keep my nails painted for LENGTH reasons, but it would be super easy to keep them healthy and unpainted if I had a different Ideal Nail Length in mind, but I like them more talon-y! So the tl;dr is: nail polish doesn't damage your nails, but rough removal of nail products (gels and acrylics in particular) can strip your nails, making them weak! I ~personally~ like nail polish because it protects my natural nail from breaks/water swelling, and also lately because I just love love the look it has. Also I think it's calming. I didn't mention that part but I think painting my nails is so so relaxing. In combination with regular filing, and hand lotion / cuticle oil, I think nail polish overall does good things for my nails.* And this is the part where I post a photo!! This is a pic from 2017 on my old phone, where I was like, WOW my nails are getting SOOOOO LONG they're basically claws!!!

And here's a picture I took of my nails a little over 3 months ago, taken RIGHT before I immediately broke them bc I had just taken off a gel manicure!

and HERE is a picture of my nails yesterday, after 3 months of re-growth, back to being long again!

Looking long and sharp! Anyway that's some of my Nail Polish Opinions lol. sorry for the wall of text!!!!

[mstrashmouthsworld]

How the slashers would react to watching Encanto.

this is my first time writing a out them so sorry if it sucks lol

Characters: Michael Meyers, Jason Vorhees, Chucky, Tiffany

Some of them are out of character.

Michael Meyers:

-i feel like he wouldn't care in the begging and he would pretend he doesn't want to be there but really appreciate it that you want to have quality time with him.

-once he sees it's a cartoon he would huff and try to get up and walk away, you ofc wouldn't let that happen tho. bc you would nag him and whine to him about watching it.

-ofc he gives in to shut you up, once he hears the music he will lightly groan in annoyance, but would watch anyway bc he already did his duties today.

-once it gets to the best parts he will get more interested, he won't show it but internally he is at the edge of his seat bitting his lip waiting for what's next.

-he feel sympathetic for Mirabel, growing up Michael didn't have anyone and was left out a lot. and seeing it happen to Mirabel it brings back memories of it all, and it leaves him feeling somewhat better that he wasn't the only one who went through it.

^^^even if it was a cartoon.

-he HATES Abuela and is irritated by her, he thinks that she is a hypocrite bc she doesn't even have magic so she shouldn't be rude to Mirabel.

-he loves Bruno and thinks he's funny when Hernando and Jorge came up. he huffed at the jokes but tried not to show any amusement. (his heart panged a little at the plate scene)

-he thinks Antonio is adorable and loves how fluffy his hair is, he also thinks that Pepa and Felix relationship is comforting.

-over all he liked the movie and would watch it again but ofc you would never know and don't even mention him liking it bc he would walk out the house.

-9/10 just bc he is angry at Abuela but most of the part he's ok.

Jason Vorhees

-this baby boy would watch anything with you doesn't matter (as long as he's not busy)

-but knowing him he would drop everything just to watch it with you.

-he sits down on his makeshift recliner and pulls you in his lap. as you watch it he's interested in all the colors and different people.

-he loves the music he will tap his fingers on your arm and wiggle his foot to the best. (his favorite song is "Family Madrigal" in the beginning)

-he doesn't like Abuela bc it reminds him of the kids when he was younger and sympathies with Mirabel bc he was the "outcast" and Mirabel was the "outcast" as well.

-he loves Bruno, he thinks he's funny and he will giggle at Hernando and Jorge. he thinks the rats are cute. (he teard up at the plate scene)

-he wants a little kid like Antonio, he thinks he's the cutest little kid ever. Pepa and Feliz relationship is someone he wants to have with you❤️.

-in the end he loved the movie so much and 100% would watch it again and again. he loves the music too. whenever he's doing his woods duties he would hum the song. and bop his head a little bit.❤️❤️

-10/10 he loves it so much and it's his new comfort movie.

Chucky

-he would throw a whole fit if you try and make him watcha cartoon. I mean curse words and f-bombs getting thrown left and right.

-he may not show it but he's a big softy for you, so when he walks out the room but sences he made you sad he will com back in and sit next to you.

-"I'm here now so hurry up and play the damn movie already." (Chucky rn 'me as an empathy sences you are sad')

-he doesn't like the music or the colors. he complains about getting a headache and won't shut up about how dumb it is.

-"ughhh doll can't we watch something else it's to childish", "I swear I'm going to get a headache" or "just stop being a bitch and blow out the candle already🙄"

-in the end he's drooling asleep, don't ask him nothing he doesn't like the movie fell asleep like 20 minutes in.

-he tried to stay awake but couldn't it wasn't his cup of tea. don't reccomend watching anything that isn't horror.

-1/10 don't reccomend, waste of time, annoying and all but he tried I mean at least he stayed in the same room as you 🙂

Tiffany

-she was so happy when you asked if she wanted to watch a movie with you. she sat right next to you and y'all cuddled🥰

-she loves the music and colors, she will wiggle her hips to the beat and smile. she also comments here and there about Antonio and about Julieta and Augustine's relationship.

-she HATES Abuela and I mean with a passion, Everytime she came on the tv Tiff would glare and HARD at the tv. (if looks could kill the tv would be up in flames)

-she just wants to squish Antonio's cheecks she loves him🥰. Julieta and Augustine's relationship is top tier to her. (she wants that domesticated relationship)

-she finds Bruno funny, she giggle and kinda pitys him. she feels bad that he was treated that way. Hernando and Jorge are definitely funny to her. (the plate seen had her in tears)

-10/10 really relaxing and therapeutic for you both. you guys now have movie night every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. on those days you watch Disney.❤️❤️

[missmeinyourbones]

Hi, how are you? I'm going through a bad time with my bff (I think she doesn't love me anymore) and I wanted to ask if you can do headcanons of Armin and other aot bots/girls and how they would comfort his s/o in these situations,need comfort right now 😔

im so sorry luvr, friend troubles can be extremely stressful and hurtful. i am sure ur friend loves you very much! maybe there was a miscommunication or misunderstanding, or maybe they just have a lot on their plate rn! either way, i hope you guys are able to talk it out and that everything gets better <3 i just did hcs for armin bc he was the only one sticking out to me in this situation

i think that armin is very analytical and logical. so if you and your friends were arguing, he would try to look at the situation as level headed and unbiasedly as he possibly could. he'd try to give you advice on what your friend might be thinking, or how he would personally handle the situation. he just hates seeing you upset, so he would do whatever he could to soothe your worries, even just a lil bit

however, if its a situation where you and ur friend aren't necessarily fighting but you just feel insecure, like they hate you or something, he is becoming ur #1 hype man

i think he loves in an anxious-attachment way, meaning he needs a lot of validation and reiteration from his relationships (platonic or not) so he fully understands the whole "thinking your friends hate you for no reason" thing

he would let you rant or cry all you needed to, but i think he would be really great at telling you all of the reasons why you are a good friend, a good person, a good lover. he is so eloquent and detailed with his words. he would never let you feel alone with your emotions or insecure about your worth.

he is just so lovely, he would never let you wallow in fear or sadness over something like this. he'd assure that whatever happens with your friend is for the best, and that you'll always have him <3

[olliesart]

ANZU WEEK DAY 5: Reko/Alice

SORRY today's is just a sketch, I'm really tired and I have a lot on my plate rn (|||❛︵❛。) I really wanted to do a full drawing but I didn't have enough time so I'm just like... ok I'll just do a sketch bc I REALLY love this idea sob.... Sometimes u need to wear ur cool best friend's clothes and makeup 😤

[dimpledlavendeer]

I think I'm running out of ideas 🥲

This is again long and suggestive 😩

I love Hee sm 🖤

Heeseung when he has a night off and wants to spend it with you

He had an hectic schedule so it's been a while since you two saw each other

He was available that night and he asked you to spend the night with him since he was off work early

You missed him sm so ofc you accepted his offer

He looked so tired but was saying he was fine

Correction Hee looked tired and gorgeous

I mean you didn't even know what the reason was but Hee just looked so hot to your eyes rn

"Damn it y/n it's not the time for it, He is tired" you thought

But when Hee said he was gonna take a shower your struggle got worse :')

Now Hee was sitting next to you with his long wet hair eating ramyeon while he was the snack to your eyes LMAO

You were supposed to eat with him but you couldn't bc you were so busy eating him with your eyes

Hee was tired but not stupid especially when it comes to well yk ;)

So he realized you weren't eating instead you were just staring

"Are you not hungry baby?"

"Huh? Oh I... uhm I am hun- hungry.."

You were stuttering and you hated how small you sound while answering a simple question just because of the way he looked

On the other hand he was quite amused so he tried to talk with you more

"Then why don't you eat?" He said licking his lips

Ofc your gaze shifted to his lips and stayed there "I...uhm I am ea- eating"

He got closer to you and looked at you eyes staring into your soul

"Really? Your plate is still full tho..." He pushed a strand of your hair behind your ear "and it looks like there's something occupying your mind rn wanna share what it is baby?"

Crap you thought, he caught you

"No no I'm fine really" you managed to say and grabbed your chopsticks to eat

He hold your chin very gently and made you look at him

"You didn't miss me y/n?"

"I did"

"Then why don't you just do what you're thinking about right now?"

"D-do w-what I'm thinking about?"

Hee came close only to peck your lips and pulled off

His stare was on you Cleary expecting a move while he was biting on his lower lip in anticipation

He honestly was so handsome, his long hair complementing his beautiful cheekbones and his lips were just so pink and pretty

So you did what hee wanted being even more daring

You get up from your chair and sit on his lap, making him smile in satisfaction

Pecked his lips like he did to yours and without even giving him a chance for a deeper kiss you just tilted his head

You started to kiss his jawline and then his earlobe

"I missed you so much Heeseung" you whispered while you were still kissing his bare neck

"You did?" He said slightly pinching your thighs

"How can I make it up to you for being so busy and not being able to spend more time with you baby?" He asked in a low voice with a meaning behind it

You knew where this was going but you just wanted to let him play with you like this because you missed him and it has been a while since you touched him like this

"You can kiss me to make me forget how lonely I was" you said in a whispering tone, still kissing his neck

His grip tightened and he hold your hair to make you look at him before saying "as you wish baby"

He just licked your lips and moved on with your jawline and neck getting revenge for what you did to him

He was smelling like vanilla and adding his tongue on your neck, you were about to EXPLODE because of the sexual tension in the room

When Hee finally lifted up his head to look at you already melting under his touch, he didn't hesitate to kiss you

His lips were so soft unlike the way he is kissing you, his tongue invading your mouth, his teeth biting on your lower lip

You let out a whine when he pulled of to say "Is this the way I can make you forgive me baby?"

YES it was but you needed more ;)

"You need to try harder than that" you said with a smirk

You knew how competitive your boyfriend was and you loved it about him

With what you said he smashed his lips onto yours while lifting you up and making you sit on the dinner table

He was in between your legs and he squeezed your thighs before pulling you even closer

One of his hands were behind your back to support you and the other hand was drawing circles on your thigh

It was obvious how much Hee missed you and wanted more although he was trying hard to stay in control

He laid you down on the table

"Stay still" He said with a low voice

When he get down in between your tighs you were about to scream and out of reflex you tried to close your legs

He hold your thighs to let them stay spread open and raised his head to talk to you

"Relax baby, I won't do anything you don't want me to remember?" He said with a reassuring voice

He was kissing your inner thighs using his freaking tongue to tease you more with the wetness he left everywhere his lips touched

His hands were drawing small circles on your outer thighs but nothing was able to calm you down

HE WAS DOWN THERE AND YOU JUST WERE SO NERVOUS

"Heeseung.."

"Mmh?"

You were shaking bc of how nervous you are and he realized that

"Let me calm you down please y/n" he said looking at you with his doe eyes

"Just trust me, I won't go too far I promise" he said eyes literally begging

You pushed his head back to its older position, between your thighs

He carried on from where he left off, moving upper on your thigh and his little kisses and bites got more harsher during the process

You just let out a small moan when he bite on your thigh, sucking the flesh and then leaving wet kisses

Your brain wasn't working at the moment because of him and he lift his head up with a satisfied smile on his face

He lifted you up on the table carrying you to his bedroom

He slowly put you on the sheets and gave you a small kiss on the lips

You pulled him onto the bed kissing him harshly unlike him and that made him smile into the kiss

You dig your nails into his back under his shirt slightly and that made him bite your lower lip

He pulled of and hold your hands on top of your head without letting you move

"Stop teasing me y/n"

"Thank God I'm tired and I can't do more to you Hee"

"Is that a promise baby?"

"Promise?"

"Will you tease me better next time?" Hee said leaving a wet kiss your lips

It made you lift your hips unconsciously, which made him moan

"I swear to God y/n-"

"Yes Heeseung i will tease you better next time" you said, now you were the one who was smirking

You both were tired so you knew he was going easy on you, he released your hands and kissed you softly this time while getting off of you

"You better keep your promise next time y/n"

"You want me that bad huh Heeseung?"

He got closer after your words and you started giggling

"Give me one reason to stop rn, y/n" he said while kissing you

"What if I don't?"

He lifted you from the sheets and made you sit on his lap while you're still on the bed

His hands were ready to lift your shirt up until you stopped him and hugged him tightly

"I love you so much Heeseung, I missed you a lot" you said with a soft voice

A big smile formed on his face and you could feel it while his face was buried on your neck

He let you fall next to him on the bed

"You have no idea how much I missed you y/n"

His gazed was locked on you and it didn't take him long to see how tired you were

He gave you a big "MWAH" on the cheeks "Good night baby, I love you and I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry, I love you too, good night Heeseung"

Thank you for reading and sorry if I made any mistakes with wording, I speak English but it's not my native tongue, I hope you liked it ^^

[violetarks]

100 fr, hc for needy bakugou. like he really wants cuddles and kisses but doesn’t want to ask bc of his pRiDe, and y/n knows this but just won’t do it. so he gives up and jut drAgs himself onto her and refused to move off of her

needy but prideful bakugou

anime: my hero academia

character: bakugou katsuki

summary: bakugou wants your attention but can't tell you that

warnings: afab! reader, she/her pronouns used, headcanons

Okay first off, you've ALWAYS been the first one to initiate any intimate actions

Kisses? You

Hugs? You

Holding hands? You

At the start, it was kind of awkward for you because bakugou would just look at you like you were an idiot

And you thought you were

But then he just stands next to you the whole day with his hand brushing against yours

You get the memo when he starts letting off explosions from his palms every time you pull your hand away from his

So the two of you walk back from the classroom hand in hand

So at this point he kind of expects you to just hang onto him whenever you're free

But at the same time, his friends are open to you as well

He knows you drag them into it whenever he says 'no' to any kind of physical affection from you

"Katsuki, let me hold your hand."

"What? Fuck no."

"Fine,,, Kirishima, are you doing anything right—"

Growl growl growl

"Ugh, fine! Don't be annoying..."

Smile smile smile

From you that is

For some reason today you havent been as 'clingy' to him

You've been swamped with work and training that you haven't had much time

He sees this and understands but he STILL wants your attention

He's in your room as youre doing homework and he's sitting on your bed.

He tries to be subtle about asking for your attention

Because if he downrights asks you to cuddle with him or sit next to him, then he thinks he'll seem too needy or clingy

And he doesnt want to ruin his reputation as the guy who does things by himself

You know better though, you know he needs you sometimes

Which is why he loves you a lot

Cause you can tell when he's struggling by himself when he can't say or see it himself

"whats up with you?"

"im fine, katsuki, im just doing work. Ive had a lot on my plate right now."

"tch. Whatever."

A little minute of silence

And then he goes

"are you done yet? That homework shouldnt takr you that long."

You glare at him,, "sorry let me just actually try now."

"dont give me attitude, moron."

"when you said you'd hang out in my room, i didnt think it meant you'd be annoying me the whole entire time, katsuki."

"i'll fucking leave."

"okay. I'll call you when i'm done."

Nobody moves, you're still reading over your textbook and bakugou is glaring at the back of your head

He doesnt end up leaving the whole entire time and youre taking in all of it

Hes so grumpy that youre not hugging him rn and he wants you to turn around to see that hes mad at you

But you just hold in your laughter and keep going

In the reflection of your laptop, you can see bakugou playing with one of the pillows you have

He's laying down and hugging the pillow to his chest

When you turn around, he throws the pillow to the other end of the bed

And then goes "are you done?"

And you'd go "not yet."

And he goes "hurry up, i've got things to do."

And then you go "then go ahead and do them while i work, katsuki

And he's glaring at you x10 harder now, gritting his teeth and glaring at you

He's just being touch-starved and wants you to at least sit next to him while your work

Once he's had enough, he stomp over to your seat and turn you around

When you look up at him, he leans down and angrily wraps his arms around you

He is grunting as you pat his back and laugh at him, "you okay, katsuki?"

You dont get a reply, only him dragging you up from your seat and dropping you onto he bed

Before you can protest, he just falls on top of you and hugs you tightly to him

"... Katsuki, im not done with my homework."

"i'll help you later."

"aww, arent you sweet?"

"shut up."

His head is nuzzled into your shoulder, feeling your fingers run through his hair

You end up peppering his face with face with kisses to try and get that cute pout off of his face

You have to do this for like 10 mins before he gets a kiss on his lips that relaxes him

He likes having his face dug into your neck/shoulders and your arms around his neck, lips pressed against his forehead

Almost like reassurance

It is like reassurance but bakugou doesnt want to admit

You two end up falling asleep and somehow, he's shifted to the side and has you encased in his arms, your head against his chest

He really likes it when you dont try to escape when he falls asleep

Like,,, it feels much more better to him to wake up with you hugging him back and still in his arms,, instead of him waking up to you at your desk still working

It makes him feel like you care about the time you spend with him and youre willing to do anything with him, even if its sleeping hen you have work to do

Please do this for him, he neeeeeeds it but doesnt want to saaaaaaaaaay it

[iwaasfairy]

anon said: fairy i jus cried four times in a two hour tutorial class on zoom,,,, rly wanted some comfort rn so i came to your tumblr to find some hq love :( if its not too much trouble (i know uve been writing so much and answering so many asks im sorry :c) can i ask for how meian/iwa would take care of us when we’re feeling down? i hope this is cathartic for u too since u havent been feeling too good lately too <3 🌼

i didn't include your explanation bc i wasn't sure if you wanted me to but i'm so sorry you've been having such a tough day :(( it's totally okay to be upset or to cry about what happened, i probably would've too. that all sounds super overwhelming. but it's okay,, you'll be okay ♡ your teacher sounds like a lovely person so that's a good thing, and don't feel too bad about those girls bc you'll forget about them by the end of the day and so will they!

and i'm not great with fluff but i'll give it a try ( ⌯◞◟⌯)♡ hope it helps a little

iwa

you've both been having a really long day by the time you get home

usually hajime makes food himself but he's already got takeout

so when you stand in the hallway for a few seconds and take off your shoes, he instantly knows something's wrong

he quickly puts the plates aside to walk over to you, carefully opening his arms just a little in case you want a hug

and when you slump into his hold and wrap your arms tight around his waist, he'll softly rock you on your feet

"Hey baby," he breathes, pulling back a little to watch you. But you hide your face into his chest, just letting it all out as he rubs little circles on your back. "You're okay, I've got you." After a few minutes of silence he'll kiss your crown. "Here, wanna come up?"

You let him pick you up to his body and wrap your arms around his head, feeling his kisses on your neck as he walks you past the living room into the bedroom. "The food," you mumble, but he just pulls you closer.

'We can heat it later. Let's get you a nice shower before anything else. And while you do that I'll-"

"Stay with me," your voice is small when interrupting him, but it doesn't take much for him to agree when you're like this. So he only chuckles when putting you down on the toilet, and letting out a breath.

"Okay, we'll both take a shower then. You can wash my hair, would you like that?" A nod. "Good. Now come here, I'm not letting you out of my sight for tonight." Even though he's just as tired as you are, the smile he gives you is so genuine, leaning down to give you a few gentle kisses and brushing his fingers along your jaw. "We're cuddling after this."

"I love you, Hajime."

And a little blush still comes to his cheeks and ears when he looks back at you over his shoulder, turning the shower to warm. "I love you too.

meian

shugo comes home at weird hours sometimes, really early or really late if practice ran out that day

it makes you miss him a lot, definitely if you didn't get to call him at all

and when you have a tough day you usually deal with it on your own, though you know he'd love to help he just can't

you're so physically and emotionally exhausted after your day that you just toss your bags aside and collapse into bed, only thinking of a nap

it's not even dinner time yet, but you already want to curl up and sleep the rest of the day away

When you wake up it's to a few kisses to your lips, feeling pressed into the mattress like there's a weighted blanket on you. You open your eyes, meeting your huge boyfriend's pretty ones. "You're sad." It's no use trying to deny it, and a pout comes back to your face when he frowns. "Aw baby, c'mere. Why didn't you call me?"

He shoves the blankets aside to pull you onto him so you can rest on his chest, then tugging the blankets back over you. 'Hm?' he mumbles, and you rest your face into the crook of his neck. "Didn't wanna bother you when you're busy too." You feel the tears at the corners of your eyes again, his heavy hand on your head keeps you in place.

"S'not, I wanna help my pretty girl. 'S easier to deal with when ya've got your big, strong boyfriend to help ya. Unless ya think 'm too old to work and help you in the same day?" A little chuckle falls from his lips, and it makes a little laugh come through your tears too. "Gonna nap some more?"

"Mhm, but I gotta take off my make-up first."

"On it, little lady." He sets you aside in the bed, pressing a few kisses to the bridge of your nose and your forehead, before disappearing into the bathroom. When he comes back he's got all your skincare in his arms, balancing them carefully with his tongue out, and you can't help but laugh at that too. "Okay, instruct me, 'cus ya've got a lot more than I thought."

"Thank you."

"Yer welcome."

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

[crowned-ladybug]

(Same anon here) I'm really happy u liked my idea :D I love finding people with the same/similar ideas I have :> also I love your writing and I like the scenario you mentioned about Joseph and Caesar, that could lead to some angst and fluff :0

Hi I am So Sorry that this is so late, I’m not even gonna list the reasons why, I’m just. so sorry.

It’s so nice finding other ppl who enjoy the same hcs I do and getting to Talk About Them!!!

As for the plot idea - part of me wishes I could make this a proper fic but alas, I already have too much on my plate and no time/energy to write most days. It still ran away with me a bit tho so under the read more it goes!

So this is still back on Air Supplena and Caesar and Joseph are just. hanging out. Caesar is trying to Read but emphasis on Trying actually bc he’s been rereading the same damn line for the past two minutes just not comprehending any of it bc Joseph won’t stop messing with his goddamn clackers and Making Noise and it’s Distracting and Annoying and Caesar is getting real fed up with it

(Maybe if he actually Said something in a civil manner then Joseph would’ve stopped doing that and let him read instead of leaving Caesar to fume without saying Anything just expecting things to change on their own but I digress)

So eventually Caesar groans: “Jesus Christ, why do you have to be so Annoying, just Stay Quiet Already,” and he reaches over and yanks the clackers out of Joseph’s hand. “I’m taking these. There.”

And he’d be ready to just go back to reading with the clackers dropped on his lap and Joseph finally Quiet bc for all Caesar cares he can stalk off to sulk elsewhere as long as he’s Quiet about it

Joseph is not quiet about anything

The clackers, as already established, are his stim toy. His favourite at that. He’s had the dang things for a while now and they’re Perfect and he uses them so often that they’ve become His Thing and since he can use them for fighting also he doesn’t have to feel weird about having them on hand all the time

And he’s grown up with almost every adult besides Erina and Speedwagon, as well as a lot of not-adults, telling him that everything he does bc of his ADHD is weird or wrong or stupid. He’s been yelled at to stay still in school so many times and had his stim/fidget toys taken and told off for stimming (and poor volume control, and memory issues, and infodumping, and so many other things that are just Natural to him) and told to just grow up and stop acting so childish and embarrassing and annoying, that everything he ever does to make himself comfortable and happy is actually gross and immature and should be stopped-

And now Caesar just told him the same thing and it hits differently from all the other times he’s called him annoying, and he took his fuckin clackers too and he’s acting like it’s just Okay to Do and-

Joseph sees red.

Caesar has no time to react before they’re both on the floor and all he can do is try to dodge and block Joseph’s fists as he yells at him to give him his fuckin clackers back. And it’s scary beyond just. fighting someone who’s v strong and knows how to punch (bc ofc so does Caesar), it’s scary bc Joseph is v obviously Genuinely Upset?? This isn’t an impromptu wrestling match on the floor over something dumb and petty that they’ll call truce over in just a bit and go back to teasing each other. No, Caesar has somehow Fucked Up even if he doesn’t realise How nor how to Fix It

This all goes down in the span of seconds btw before Joseph like. catches himself and realises what he’s doing, which is. trying to beat his best friend into the carpet for taking his Stupid Childish Toy that he shouldn’t even Have bc what kind of Idiot gets so attached to some dumb Toy and makes Constant Annoying Noises with it. And Caesar is reaching up tentatively to put a hand on his arm to try to placate him or snap him out of it or Something and that’s when Joseph just Bolts

Like. clackers forgotten and everything, he just. utilises his favourite secret technique and runs for it

“It” being his room. He locks the door and sits on the floor next to it for a while trying to catch his breath and collect himself. Eventually he manages to get up and get his scarf to fumble with it to calm himself better bc the scarf is also Important like the clackers are

He’s fucked up Big Time. Now Caesar knows he’s weird no matter how hard he tries to save face, bc even if he doesn’t Say anything, even if he never gets his clackers back (oh god, where are they, did he leave them with Caesar, oh fuck-) his strong reaction to Caesar taking them will Definitely betray to him that Something Is Up. Caesar is a smart guy, Joseph can’t expect him not to catch on to Something being off anyway even if he doesn’t exactly know What bc it’s already enough evidence that Joseph is Weird and Childish in all the ways that are Undesirable

Caesar goes after him bc ofc he does. He wants to figure out how he fucked up and Fix It and also lbr. if this Was something Joseph would want to just be left alone with, Caesar wouldn’t really realise that until he got punched again. So he takes the clackers and goes looking for Joseph (which takes him some time bc he doesn’t Know what’s going on and thus that Joseph would be in his room where he can dig out his favourite scarf or bury himself under a pile of blankets bc that’s Comforting, and as small as the island is, it’s Full of good hiding places)

But he eventually comes up to Joseph’s room and knocks. “Jojo, you in there?”

“Go away.”

“…do you actually mean that?”

And okay that’s unfair bc even buried under three blankets (pressure is Good but his weighted blanket is at home in New York and he is here in positively Not New York) and feeling like the world is overall a v shitty place, he still likes Caesar. Even if he knows that it’s dumb to want comfort from the same person that hurt him in the first place.

And then Caesar adds: “I still have your clackers.”

And it’s not like. blackmail or anything, more like “hey I wanna give these back tho” and that’s what does it bc Joseph wants his clackers back and so he v bitterly decides that if Caesar thinks he’s gross and weird now then Joseph can just punch him and they can go back to hating each other like they had back in Rome

He hates that possibility tho

He allows Caesar in and sits up in his bed while he’s at it so that he can have at least Some dignity left. Caesar sits on the bed with him tho he does keep a larger distance than he usually does and Joseph Really hopes that’s “I don’t wanna freak you out again” kinda distance and not “you’re just gonna punch me for no reason again aren’t you” kinda distance

Before he does anything else, Caesar gives the clackers back and Joseph just. puts them down on the bed on the Caesar-free side of himself bc he’s Very Consciously trying Not to Act Weird

He doesn’t look at Caesar’s face tho bc that’s a lil too much for him rn

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

Joseph just shrugs. “It’s fine, it’s…dumb.”

“It’s not dumb if it made you upset.”

And that’s so fuckin sweet and Honest and Caesar sounds like he genuinely feels bad for messing Joseph up so much but also Joseph doesn’t know what to Do with that when Caesar doesn’t even Know what he’s talking about, bc ofc it’s Dumb.

“No, it…it is dumb. Don’t worry about it.”

I’d say Caesar operates like 80% on Pure Spite so if you tell him not to worry about something he Will worry about it just to be an asshole but tbh it’s mostly just bc he loves Joseph in this case

“Can I ask why though?”

Joseph doesn’t expect whatever that is so much that he actually looks at Caesar for a moment. “Why what?”

“Why you got so upset. Or why you think it’s dumb,” and when Joseph doesn’t look convinced he continues. “I mean, we fight all the time, sure, but it’s never Serious…right?”

He genuinely looks Uncertain there for a moment and that’s a Big Fuckin Ouch bc of Course it’s never serious, ever since they took turns punting each other into that fountain in Rome none of their fights have been actually serious. They spar for training and they have joke-fights bc it’s fun to rile each other up and gain bragging rights but it’s never about Hurting and in face of real danger they’d protect each other over themselves in a heartbeat

So Joseph just nods, and Caesar carries on.

“But back there you got. really fucked up over what I did and. I guess I just wanna know Why so I know not to do that again?” and with that even He thinks he’s done but then he adds: “You’re my friend.”

And that’s such a fuckin clumsy way to end it bc he can’t say the rest of it, the “I know this here isn’t about comfort but I want you to be comfortable anyway” and “the world is shit and I don’t wanna be another person who hurt you” and “I love you.” So he just leaves it at that.

Joseph automatically wants to go “that’s easy, don’t take my clackers then, dipshit” but like. 1, Caesar is being v v nice so he Won’t be mean in return and 2, there’s so much more connected to his Weirdness that could set him off the same way besides his clackers being taken. So instead he just really appreciates the sentiment and Caesar in general and decides that it’s all a too big a can of worms for him to wrangle and he’d rather just weather the painful parts as they come

“It’s fine, you wouldn’t get it anyway, it’s fine.”

“Why?”

“I dunno, just no one gets it! Whatever, it’s weird shit.”

“If you think I don’t get it, fine, then explain it to me!”

And Joseph doesn’t know what to fuckin Say to that bc no one besides his family has ever asked him to do that. It was always just being told to put his stim toys away and stop moving too much and oh fuck just shut up already, never Why.

He makes a vague noise bc he forgets how to Words for a moment bc of that, and Caesar takes it as a question.

“Jojo, we’re gearing up to fight a bunch of gods with ancient magic so that we can get two rings of poison out of your body, and you really think I can’t handle ‘weird’? Because I can, thank you very much, and it’s You, so I don’t Care if it’s weird anyway.

(He ignores the huge fuckin implications of that and just keeps talking.)

"So, will you explain so that I can understand?”

And he’s Smiling and how Dare and oh fuck when did Joseph even manage to look at him again. He stares for a lil too long bc What The Fuck before he goes “Okay.”

And Caesar’s smile grows into a grin like he really is just. genuinely happy to understand this part of Joseph and make sure he doesn’t hurt him again, and Joseph braces himself for an awkward conversation with Hopefully a happy ending.

(And Joseph ends up being right bc Caesar doesn’t Understand, he can’t really fully understand.

But he Tries and more importantly he Listens and he Learns and is v adamant about the fact that Joseph isn’t Weird and Wrong when it comes to these things. So he doesn’t take away the clackers again and he finally connects the dots about why Joseph always lets him lean too much of his weight on him even if he risks toppling the two of them over and so he keeps doing it. He learns Joseph’s hyperfixations and how to prod him into talking about them to make him happy or distract him from shitty things, and what it looks like when his RSD kicks in and how to act around it.

Maybe he doesn’t Get It but it’s part of Joseph, and he loves all the other parts of Joseph too. And also tbh he’s a decent fuckin human being, even if he didn’t love Joseph so much he still wouldn’t act like an asshole about this stuff.)

[parkerspicedlatte]

(Pt 1) Ugh. Reetz. Can I just like unload how I'm feeling lately on you bc I'm 100% sure my friends are over my complaining at this point. I've been talking to this guy for awhile and he and I have mutually kept things (mostly) platonic thus far. But I have real feelings for him okay, like real real, but that part isn't important rn. I'm gonna have to make a part 2 to this bc I'm running out of room, so lookout for that 😅

(Pt 2) He's been dealing with A LOT in his personal life with family issues, so we've understandably been talking less. He texts me when he can, but I miss him so fucking much. I miss the routine we had, ya know? Like we would text/talk on the phone constantly for months, and the last few weeks we've hardly talked at all. When we do, it's like nothing has changed, but I'm so sad during the in-between parts. I just want things to get back to normal. Ugh. Thank you for reading this mess. Ily 🖤

Hmmmm this guys sounds like he’s dealing with a ton of stuff. Don’t ever feel bad about dumping stuff on me, I always have my ears (and eyes) open for my friends! I just feel bad that I didn’t see this until now.

So if you guys are (mostly) platonic but you mentioned that you two had a routine then I’m guess that you guys know each other fairly well and have spent a good amount of time together. There’s def some details missing from here that I would kill for!!!! lol like how long have you guys been hanging out/texting? how much time do you guys usually spend together? what do you do? what do you talk about? Things, details, like this make a difference. 

If you are friends but you want to take a step forward and become more then I can offer you some advice for sure ( i think this is what you’re trying to say right??). So he sounds like he’s going through some tough stuff and is maybe dealing with drama and being caught in the middle of it, maybe he doesn’t know who to support or idk, a million possibilities, I don’t have the details. This guy also sounds like he needs a good hug.

If you talk face to face somewhat regularly and it’s not unusual for you guys maybe show up at his place with some food, maybe pizza or cookies or something that he really likes that isn’t off his diet (like if he’s gluten free or something like that) and just visit with him. Get him to sit down and have a conversation or go somewhere casual. Then if you get the opportunity tell him how you are feeling. BUT PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT HE’S ALREADY GOT A LOT ON HIS PLATE! You guys are friends, be a friend, a girlfriend or a boyfriend is still a friend. Respect what’s going on and show that you will support him and all of that cheesy stuff. I don’t want to make this post too long but please come and message me because I’d love to help you figure out what’s going on or just let you vent some more. My DMs are ALWAYS open or keep sending me msgs through my inbox.

Have a goodnight and sorry i didn’t see this until now. Hope you figure him out! <3

[postingpebbles]

hi!! i just read omoth and i loved it so so much (i cried 3 times at least) (especially at the end of that last chapter like how dare u??) (and also stayed up probs far too late) (but it was TOO GOOD TO JUST STOP) anyways! i was wondering if you had any sort of update schedule/idea of when the next ch will be up? i'm so so excited!!!

ahh thank you so much!! that’s very kind of you to say and i appreciate your words a lot ♡♡♡ i do apologize for making you cry tho—it was a difficult chapter for me to write bc of that scene ;-;

(also!! please get some sleep!! it is v v important so that you do not become me, who has never slept a day in my life and as a result Is Dying because of sleep deprivation)

as for an update schedule? i have to apologize for this as well, but i’m not entirely sure of the exact time i’ll be able to post again. i know it’s hard bc i left you and everyone else on such an awful cliffhanger with this last chapter, but rl is really kicking me in the butt because school started again two weeks ago and i’m trying to focus on school as much as i can rn since i’m at a super critical point in my education, and i want to be the best possible student i can be during this time. 

so this will mean that updates will be sporadic once again (once again i’m super super sorry about that!!), but i assure you that i will never give up on omoth. it’s become very dear to me as i’ve written it and i’m just as excited as you to be able to continue its story. i hope you’ll be patient with me as i sort through everything on my plate :)

but thank you so much for your kind words—it really meant a lot!! hopefully with you and everyone cheering me on, i’ll be able to update much sooner ( ´ ♡ ` ) and i hope you have a lovely day as well!! :)

[j4ya]

jaya i just had the weirdest interaction with my best friend and am currently questioning all my life choices so i love her with all my heart and i seriously do a lot for her (although i never really get a lot back but i understand she has a lot on her plate with her shitty fam and depression so i'm never complaining). so she's currently moving out and i helped her yesterday and said if i have time i'll help her today as well, so this afternoon my mom tells me the check up my dad had (_1)

didn't turn out as positive as expected. Sth is wrong with his heart and it might actually be very serious. So ofc i write my bff the situation and i'm really in a bad place bc my father beat cancer 5 years ago and she knows that. so her reaction is literally "oh well that doesn't sound that good" and i send her two voice messages talking about the situation and how angry and scared i am and she sends one back that says "i'll listen later. Rn i am disasembling my furniture and no one in (_2)

in my family offered to help me bc they hate me (which IS kinda true). but thanks for helping me i guess you're the only one that's got my back" and i'm here like ???????????????? so me telling you my dad might have a serious heart disease is less important than you disassembling your furniture on your one???? and i'm just so hurt but i can't turn my back on her over this sorry for dumping this off on you lmao

dang sorry to hear :/ first off I hope your dad is okay!!! and I get this, I have friends like this. it’s annoying but it’s mostly just someone who might not have as much empathy and I can guarantee that they aren’t saying these things ignorantly or maliciously, they just don’t GET the emotional importance of things as easily as you or I might. the best thing I do in these kind of situations is just to let it be and/or ignore them for a bit because otherwise i just get mad and then these kinds of people oftentimes don’t realize they’re doing something annoying or hurtful and it turns into a fight over something they don’t really want to change bc maybe empathy isn’t something they usually fret over. And then later on, when things have calmed down/reset, you can bring it up and be like, ‘hey did you get a chance to listen to those voicemails? it was just super important to me and I hope you got a chance to’ and then maybe you can bring up something lightly about how it made you feel to hear what was on her end