#just as i appreciated everything else about your message you're incredibly sweet!!!!

[stormyoceans]

il mio italiano è terribile, perdonami 😓 mi piacciono tutti i tuoi pensieri su jimmysea sono d'accordo con loro. ma mi piacciono ancora di più le tue sceneggiature per le loro future serie. vuoi provare a scrivere qualcosa? 👀 sei molto bravo a scrivere, monica.

IL TUO ITALIANO È ASSOLUTAMENTE PERFETTO ANON SEI FENOMENALE!!!!!!!

sono davvero felice che ti piacciano le mie idee per ipotetiche future serie per jimmysea e ti ringranzio sia per il complimento sulla mia scrittura sia per avermi mandato un messaggio cosí carino, significa davvero tanto per me!!!!

non mi dispiacerebbe sviluppare una di quelle idee e scriverci un'intera storia, ma temo sia al di fuori delle mie capacità ;;;;;; devo essere davvero ispirata e avere la mente completamente libera per riuscire a scrivere qualcosa di decente, e questo purtroppo capita molto di rado. però chissà, mai dire mai nella vita, magari un giorno capiterà!!!!

nel frattempo ti ringranzio ancora tantissimo!!!!! 💜

[wowcatboys]

aki w a housewife!s/o like a sweet wife he comes home to after a long day at work ! yknow :) someone to help him wind down with a nice home cooked meal <33

Aki

Aki isn't quite sure how he managed to obtain something so peaceful and domestic, but he cherishes you, and the home you two have created, a lot. The first thing he does each morning is roll over in bed and give you a kiss. He likes to wake up before you so that he can make the both of you breakfast (he knows that if he sleeps in, you'll beat him to it and he'll wake up to omurice in bed). Aki pours a cup of tea and you enjoy breakfast on the back deck, chatting quietly about your plans for the day while you watch the sun come up. He relishes this slice of domesticity he gets to experience with you each morning, before work shatters the illusion of peace.

He knows that you don't mind scrubbing the blood out of his button-downs or patching the holes torn in his pants, but Aki always keeps a spare change of clothes at work anyway. He doesn't want you to worry when you see how beat-up he gets at work sometimes. Obviously, he can't hide his injuries, but the ruined clothes—those he can hide. If they're easily salvageable he'll just bring it to a dry cleaner's, but if not, they go in the trash. He comes home with a scraped face but clean clothes, and he always shrugs and says he's just careful if you question it.

Someone gave you an apron as a wedding present and Aki thinks you look just adorable in it. Whenever you're in the kitchen, he always sneaks up behind you and undoes the knot to tease you.

Aki appreciates everything you do for him, but above all else he loves when there's a warm bath ready for him after he stumbles home from a stressful day. If he calls you during his lunch, already sounding ragged at noon, you know just what to do. By the time he's home, you've gotten a lavish bath ready for him--candles, Epsom salts, soothing music, the whole nine yards. He takes a good ten minutes to just soak and decompress, and then Aki insists you get in with him.

It doesn't matter if you're the worst cook on planet Earth, Aki will still eat your dinner every night and swear to you that it's the best thing he's ever tasted. He knows the effort that cooking takes and he's not about to criticize you. (But, if you can't seem to make a boiled egg without...somehow...burning it, he may gently give you a few pointers in the kitchen.)

If you're a good cook, though, Aki lets you know it. There's never, ever leftovers from dinner and he always reaches for seconds or thirds.

Aki will love you forever if you meal prep for him. He doesn't mind eating out, but a home-cooked lunch always tastes better. If you really want to make him happy, include some sweets and a sticky note saying "You're the best! <3".

Aki's favorite excuse for avoiding social events is that you're at home, waiting for him with a nice dinner on the table. "Oh, no thanks," he says, whenever someone asks if he'd like to go for drinks or see a movie with a group of friends or coworkers. "My spouse and I already have dinner plans."

Even though you're at home taking care of the house while he works, Aki refuses to let you do all of the housework. "I live here too, dear," he points out if you protest when he starts wiping down the counters after dinner. "It's not fair to make you pick up after all of my messes."

Aki likes to leave little doodles on the grocery list for you. Typically, it's small things like hearts or short messages like 'Hope you're having a good day', and 'Your husband loves u!'. Once he got especially creative and drew an incredibly lopsided squid next to the bullet point for calamari. Amused, you keep the little scribble stuck to the fridge.

More often than not, Aki brings home flowers for you. It's a signal of his appreciation. Even if a handful of daisies isn't much, he doesn't like coming home empty-handed to a delicious meal on the table and a gorgeous spouse. Surely, he should have something to give in return. Smitten, you put the flowers in a vase and plop them in the center of the table so you can admire them while you eat.

Aki is absolutely besotted with you and will do literally anything you ask. After all, you've given him so much—a home, love, a sense of peace. And that's just the big things; considering the small, everyday gestures of care like clean, folded handkerchiefs, warm ramen, and soothing baths, makes him feel like he owes you the world. You'd like your feet rubbed? Aki's on his knees with a bottle of lotion. You see a shirt you like in a store window? He's already rifling through his pockets for his wallet. You'd like to take a trip with him? Just tell him when and where, and he'll do whatever it takes to get the time off from work.

[choicesfandomappreciation]

Be Kind to HumanKind Week

Be Kind to Humankind Week is an annual worldwide celebration of kindness from August 25th-31st.

A lot of you expressed interest, but since no one gave me any ideas of how they'd like to see it celebrated in the fandom this year, I'm going to keep it simple!

I challenge you (yes, you) to send at least ONE kind message every day during the last week of August. You can send it anon or not. (I personally sometimes like getting anon positive messages because the mystery of behind it means it can be from anyone.) They do not have to be long messages, short and sweet is just as good. You just want to let the person know you are thinking about them. I do challenge you to try to message someone you haven't talked to in a while, or perhaps someone you've never talked to but have seen on your dash. Let's try to spread kindness to as many people as we can during this week!

If you get anon hate this week, delete it. Don't reply. Don't let it get to you. The only thing that matters this week (and always) is kindness! And to everyone who is sending anon hate, I challenge you to take the week off and think about what you're doing. I'm sure you can find something else to do with your time. Maybe even try sending a kind anon message!

You don't need to tag me or anything, this event is really just about spreading kindness, not keep track of anything.

Want to participate, but aren't sure what to send?

Here are some messages that I've written for this as well as ones written as part of my Sunday Positive Messages. Feel free to use and edit them as you like 💛 [I didn't include it, but feel free to add my PS about drinking water to any of the messages if you'd like to put it back😊🫶💛]

★Just stopping by to say hi! 👋 I hope your week is going well!

★ Hey! Hope you're doing well. Remember that you're awesome, and I'm here cheering you on. Have a wonderful week!

★ Hi! This week, may you find inspiration in the everyday moments and discover new reasons to smile and be proud of all you accomplished.

★You are amazing and you matter. Remember that. No matter how your day is going, I hope this makes you smile. You deserve to have a good day. Sending sunshine and sunflowers just for you: ☀️ 🌻🌻🌻 💛

★ I'm so proud of you and everything you have endured and achieved. I hope you know how worthy you are and how much you bring to the world. We are so lucky to have you in our fandom! (Share if you'd like to spread the encouragement, but no pressure) 💛

★ You are incredible and if no one told you this today, I want to wish you the best with whatever you want to do today even if you just want to rest.

★ Just a quick reminder that you are important! You are appreciated! You matter! You are doing a great job! You will get through this. Keep going!

★ You can do it. Even when you may doubt yourself. Even when things may feel overwhelming. Pause and breathe. Remember how far you've come. Trust yourself. You are so very capable and you're going to do amazing! 💛

★ Hi! I know we don't talk much, but I wanted to send a little positivity your way. Remember, even small steps can lead to big moments of joy. Keep going! 💛

★ Hello!Just wanted to drop a quick note to brighten your day. Your happiness matters, and I hope today brings you joy!

★ Somebody thinks you're amazing (It's me, I'm the somebody). Never forget your worth! You are more than enough! 💛

★ You don't need to spend your time proving yourself to others. If someone doesn't appreciate you, it's not your job to convince them. you are enough and you are doing AMAZING! (and I appreciate you!!!)

If you have encouraging quotes or song lyrics or messages of your own, you are more than welcome to send those as well. I just wanted to give people a place to start, hoping it might encourage more to participate!

[the-peak-tmnt]

This is so like not my business but I am so very sorry about your dog, and losing a dog while away on a trip sounds so absolutely awful so I’m just popping in here to say that I do not know you but I’m so sure your dog knew you loved it and felt your presence 💖 that would tear me the fuck up so I just felt pressed to say I hope you don’t feel too guilty about it. Sending love!

I didn't answer this right away, but I read it as soon as you sent it and I really, really appreciate it because it was exactly what I needed to hear at the time.

I was really upset that I wasn't there when he died, but you're absolutely right that he had to have known he was so, so, so loved. He was being especially cute on the car ride to the pet hotel, so he got so many head pats and face smooshes and kisses as we drove there. I know some dogs don't do well at kennels, but he was super popular at our regular pet hotel and he was always excited to go. The staff even let him hang out up front with them because he was just so chill and friendly. As upset as I am that I wasn't there, my other dog was with him in the kennel so he wasn't alone, and he was in a place where he felt comfortable and was treated super well. It also happened quickly (sudden heart failure) so at least I know he didn't suffer or have time to be scared. I could write a novel on how much I loved this dog. I got him in my mid-20s, and he was my only constant as my life went through so many significant changes in the ensuing decade. And I could go on and on about all the things I loved about him, but one of the absolute best things about him was the way he made total strangers instantly light up.

He was a huge and wolfy looking dog, and his doggy DNA test said he was a Husky/Malamute/Shepherd mix. I spent his entire life having to explain to people that he wasn't a wolf hybrid lol. But because he so huge and so beautiful, we got stopped everywhere we went. We roadtripped all around the country and lived in a couple major cities throughout his life, and I swear I had to have talked hundreds of people because of him. One of my favorite memories was when we were camping in Yosemite years and years ago. A tour bus full of Chinese tourists rolled up, and we got absolutely swarmed. I studied abroad in China back in college. Until the recent explosion of the middle class, having dogs as pets in China wasn't super common. I didn't know a single person with a dog when I was in China, and I don't remember seeing any the whole time I was there. So I think for a lot of those tourists, this was their first time meeting a pet dog...and they were absolutely losing their minds. I had forgotten much of my Mandarin by that point, but I remembered just enough to tell them that he was friendly and they could pet him. I swear to god, we were stuck there for like 45 minutes until every last tourist got a photo with him. They asked it they could feed him, and was handing out dog treats for people to throw to him and holy shit, my dog may as well have been a rockstar in that moment. People were cheering and clapping and laughing each time he caught a treat. It was one of the most surreal experiences of my life. I loved every second of it because thanks to my dog, there was no language barrier. Smiles and laugher are universal.

Anyway, that's just a really long way of me saying that dogs are so special because just seeing or meeting a dog can make someone's whole day, and I was so incredibly lucky to have one who did this on the regular for so many people. I will always miss everything about him, but seeing the joy he gave other people by just being big, beautiful, gentle giant is one of the things I'll miss the most. Thank you so much for this message @saladmix, and everyone else who left such sweet comments when I posted about my dog passing.

[buckys-wintersoldier]

Surprise

First of all, thank you to everyone who joined me and helped me with that idea. For finding those nice words, even when she knows that you appreciate her, even when she knows that you love her work. And a special thank you also to @lives-in-midgard, without her, I would not have found the courage to really do this. You helped me when I was just a minute before I threw that all away.

Skittle? @mrsbuckybarnes1917

Finally, you are allowed to know about the surprise. I made this to thank you. I know you already know that I appreciate you, but I wanted to show you that not only I do, but also other people do, and it’s a better way than just telling you.

But thank you so much for always being so kind and helpful. You’re not annoyed, and even when the day isn’t perfect, sometimes it never changes your kindness. Not many people are like you are, and I hope you know deserve all the good and the best and that you’re worth it.

It’s an honor to be your friend and get your support personally and with fics. It's always fun to talk to you about ideas and add details, but it’s also fun to talk to you about everything else. I hope you know that I will always be there for you and support you as much as I can. The moment you started following me and whenever a notification with your name appeared in my notification, it made me so happy because it was and still is such an honor.

And I’m not the only one who thinks like that, so here are some people who think so too. Enjoy their messages for you.

@ellemj: You were the very first writer to ever reach out to me on Tumblr and honestly, I freaked out a little when I saw your user and realized I'd definitely read your work before. It was like I was living out some kind of dream. You're so kindhearted and willing to talk to other members of the community, it's inspiring. I feel lucky that I've gotten to be on the receiving end of your kindness. Thank you for being a friend and thank you for sharing your amazing works with us all!

@lives-in-midgard: Dear Skittle, I want to let you know that I really enjoy reading your stories and always love to see what you came up with! 💗 Beside that I also really love to see you in my notification or on my for you page. Reading your comments on my fics always makes me smile! I'm sending you hugs! 💞

@buckyysdoll: hon, you truly seem like such a genuinely sweet person. the way you interact with the fics you love and reblog on your page is honestly heartwarming, and you can see even from an outsider’s view how affectionate and encouraging it is. keep up your kindness hon, & happy belated new year too! we need more people like you in this world 💛🌻☀️sending love & hugs from a stranger xx

@sergeantbarnessdoll: I love her. She always has something nice to say, even when you’re having a bad day

anon: I love your work, it always puts a giddy smile on my face and brightens my day. When I see a new post I do a wee happy dance in my seat (or bed).

anon: Hi Skittle I love reading your stories! And I always get excited when I see that you have a new one shot!

@rogersbarber: such an incredible and talented person!!🖤

[mo0nfairy]

HELLOOO????? OMG THAT WRITING IS MAKING ME FOAM AT THE MOUTH-, ok, ok, can we take a moment to appreciate the writing about Carlos?, Jill, you're still my baby but Carlos has a place in my dump called heart 😫, the way in which you write his despair at not having Y/n or us idk, it's the same, it's impressive, how he went to the extremes of hallucinating day and night for 6 years in a row, scratching any limits of common sense and preparing us food that probably with the passage of time it becomes moldy and even rots-, the letters, the gifts, absolutely everything, and oh, my God, those lines where you wrote his suicidal tendencies, the crisis, the desperation, it's just incredible, I have no words to describe how I feel, and oh, that necklace, that cute bee necklace, I want one too 😭, as a person who grew up with Disney movies in their childhood it was really nice to see what you added from the movie the lady and the truly romantic tramp although it was definitely tainted by Carlos' obsessive and even slightly perverted tendencies, but okay, okay, I can help him recreate that scene as many times as he wants, besides one of my favorite foods is the spaghettis :D, I can't wait to have how rotten everyone else is, and oh, I'd also like to add something about Y/n or us, can we mention how their mental health is going to shit?, (more than I think I was already-) , right?, nobody? , oww... well, it doesn't matter, it will be for another comment, I really want to write more about your story but my stupid forgetful brain can't retain much even so, thank you very much for bringing us this wonderful work!, please, do not take it attention to those comments complaining that you do not publish "enough", each writer has his personal life, it is necessary to learn to respect it, keep up the good work!, also if you reply to me feel free to correct any errors Whether it's spelling or grammar in my writing, I'm Mexican and I really don't trust Google's shitty translator, apart from my English is too basic to write messages like this, so an apology in advance if I misunderstood any of your writings! Have a nice night/afternoon/day! I love you very much! ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

eeeeeeek you are too damn sweet!!! your comment literally makes me smile so much. thank u so much for the kindness and giving me a good laugh, as well!! and i love your intel of my story cause YES, readers mental health is snowballing into a pit of sheer despair. like it is OVER for poor reader. thank u so so much and i love you, as well!! <3 <3 <3

[personasintro]

hey :)

I'm following lots of Tumblrs now but you're the reason this app's installed 🫶🏼

MH wasn't actually the first fanfiction I've ever read on wattpad but it was the last one😭 it's like now that I know about MH it feels like other fanfictions on that app will never be as good?

anyways, so after reading MH (all chapters) it's then that I decided to install Tumblr and follow you on here 'cause I've seen people saying that you're more active here, and tbh I wanted to know you better

after that I literally read ALL of your works🥹 they're SO GOOD and it's sad that they aren't getting the recognition they deserve 🥲 I can't explain how amazing your stories are and I truly can see your hard work

now that time had passed, I wanted to thank you, mainly for writing MH, because that's the reason I have this app were I made new friends and read incredible stories💜 I discovered amazing writers whom I can see are gonna turn out to be huge someday🥹 the talent is indescribable and I'm truly honoured to have known you🫶🏼

you're an expert at writing. you have many many well-written stories. you have the talent which I appreciate so much. you can make me feel every emotion through your words, and the way of you describing everything, your storylines, your plots, characters, angst, fluff, smut.. they're all perfect 💜🫶🏼

another thing I've been wanting to say.. you're doing this for FREE, you're not getting anything in return so PLEASE don't give away the things that are important to you.. your health☹️ I know. I won't be able to understand the pressure you're under right now, or you've BEEN under since MH started to blow up.. but now that I know you enough to care for you, can I ask you to not care? It's hard I know, these dumb people won't ever stop sending you messages asking for more updates. but if you think about it, who fucking cares? are these idiots more important than you? you have fans now, we all care for you💜 we all wish you nothing but the best🫶🏼 and we'll throw hands when needed💪🏼

you're one of a kind. you're sweet, kind, honest, talented, and a good friend who deserves to be happy. if these people who call themselves fans can spread negative energy just for an update, SCREW THEM. we can wait, we've waited before and it wasn't a big deal🤷🏻‍♀️ MH is AMAZING don't get me wrong but life goes on? updates will come and go just like everything else in this world. and it will someday have a last chapter what about that? what are they gonna do when reading the last one? will they ask you for another fanfiction? they won't stop🤷🏻‍♀️

think about yourself for one moment and tell me, are they worth your time? energy? health? are they worth the exhaustion you feel?

don't EVER feel guilty for any decision you make💜💜💜 you're your own person

I love you <3

Hello!! Wow, thank you! I’m glad I seem to be interesting enough that ppl want to get me better 🤭 I’m always amazed how many readers support me in so many different ways. I’m very thankful in this aspect, I’ll always cherish it!

Honestly, I don’t think I deserve this much love and support. I’ve said this many times but it’s true 😭 I don’t know what I did to deserve you guys! And just to be clear, y’all are not my fans (calling you that just seems ridiculous to me 😭 I’m sorry 🤧). You are my precious readers and I’m just an ordinary girl who’s apparently got a big imagination 🤭

You’re right! There are more important things in this world than updates 🪐 I hope I can continue to be a part of your life and free time no matter how much I update in a month or a year.

Thank you very much for all the lovely messages! I’m always pouting, ready to cry how sweet y’all are to me! It really touches my heart and I’ll be forever thankful! I’ll always remember this part of my life 💫

[milkiane]

so i am feeling incredibly emotional rn so, here’s an appreciation post for my favorite people. (this have been in my drafts for three weeks now) -- so why not post this along with my sleepover <3 sleepover bash

@chokemepansy

need i say more? no— but i will anyway. asteria, my mean cheerleader girlfriend, you are the first moot i’ve ever had, and honestly, i wouldn’t have it any other way. you're my favorite person in the entire world, and pls i am getting so emotional rn, i hate you >:-( i’ve told you everything at my previous letters but i just want you, and everyone else who’s about to read this, to know that you’re my platonic (and quite possibly romantic) soulmate, and my other-third, because pansy owns the shit out of us. love u lots, don’t say it back <3

@accioweaslcy

my favorite headcanon writer 😩 pls alyssa, i’ve had, and still do, have so much fun talking with you. i really, really, love your company, i love your writing, and most especially love you. you were one of my moots that talked to me with such ease and comfort despite being a tad bit younger than you, and it’s been fun ! you’re like one of those seniors who befriends juniors, but still have this amazing (and envying) friendship with each other. not only that, but you being my friend, and me being a dumbass, made our own version of the golden trio with @weasleyyy ! now, this is a story i’ll tell my kids. love u, even if you choose to chomp me <3

@weasleyyy

gHAZAL ! now, are you thankful for me being a half-asleep dumbass who thought you were rose because of your similar urls before, or what ? because i definitely am PFT SJSHSJSHSJN anyways, i’m so happy to have you in my life. i’m a sucker for your chaotic and impulsive energy, and your little thoughts about the hpu. just like rose, thank you for acting just as yourself around me, a smol bisexual mess, because i really do appreciate it, and now you made me a fanclub— which btw, i still cannot get over with. i wheeze everytime i remember it. i love u, madame gazelle, even if you’re a mean li’l fuck ! <3

@amrtxntias

AAAAAAAAH heather, you are officially my unofficial soft british best friend, and no, you do not have a say in this, because you’re stuck with me forever. thank you so much for helping me with terms i need for writing. you’ve been the best, you’ve supported me through every ups and downs with my writings ever since we’ve met. it wasn’t even too long ago ! but you’ve welcomed me like i was a long lost friend of yours. love u, h, the lily to my marlene <3

@buckysbeloved

aliciaaa !! you’re honestly like an older sister i’ve never had. i’ve never had anyone to rant about my marvel fangirlings with, but i am so glad that you were so open with my rants and conspiracy theories. you’ve never judged me or shown any disinterest with my rambles, you’ve been so supportive and you continue to give me the same energy as mine. it’s a very little thing to fuss about, but lish, you’ve got to know that it means so much to me. i’m tearing up— blame the hormones. but really, i’m so grateful for you and your company (and your maxibaby fics). love u to the moon and back ! <3

@acosmis-t

isa isa isa isa isaaaa, pls i love u so much. that’s all i want to say, but ofc, i need to say more. you have been one of my best friends— we clicked the moment we spoke to each other and i was incredibly happy to be your moot. i couldn’t even believe it at first because you’re this rly cool writer with tons of followers and i’m just another user in the crowd but like, everything i want to say is beyond the words that want to come out of my mouth, so i’ll leave it with a thank you for choosing me to be one of your mutuals. thank you for blessing me, and the others, with your lovely fics. never stop doing what you love, i’m here for you always. always was, and always will be. i mean, it should be with the jointed graves and all. love u <3

@reguluscore

SOOOORINNNN. sometimes i question what’s happening inside your head. like one second your posting angsty fics and thoughts, and next thing i know you’re posting a dancing prongs gif. i’ll never understand, i reckon, but that’s alright, i’ll love you just the way you are, even if you break my heart with your angst. tell me who hurt you and i’ll beat them up. i love u so much, i’m still listening to your playlist, because it’s astronomical. sending you some forehead kisses <3

@inks-and-jinx

vivian !! i’m still beyond grateful for you and your artistic and writing talents. you’re such an angel, and i’m so incredibly happy to have you in my life. you’re a sweetheart. you’re every sweet-soft-fluffy nickname there is, because honestly? i cannot speak well, or think straight because i don’t think words can describe how lucky i am to have you. well, i love u, and that’s all i could comprehend <3

@comfortwriting

karis ! you’re honestly one of my fave moots because you never fail to make me so appreciated and loved. your out of the blue messages always make me feel so happy because you’re so wholesome and nice. i’m very, very, glad to have you in my life. thank you for always being there to be my personal therapist and my human diary— who listens to all of my writing ideas, even if i have tons of wips to write. thank you for inspiring me to write again, without you, i would’ve never find my passion for writing again, so thank you, thank you for being the sweetest person there is, i love you ! <3

@krasivayadarling

ANYA ! darling, you are one of the very first mutuals i’ve ever talked to, you’ve welcomed me with open arms when i was new here and i wouldn’t change anything in the world. i’m so glad that you were the first person i’ve ever talked to because you are practically the human form of a squishmallow. don’t question me, you’re my squishmallow. anyways, you’re such a lovely person and i’m very happy to have you in my life, love you ! <3

@cursestothemoon

cHARLY-CHAR !! hehe you are like one of those nice, cool, senior students in school, you never fail to make me so giddy and loved. i’m so happy to have you in my life, and i’m wishing you all the happiness and love in the world because you truly do deserve it, especially when you’ve been nothing but so kind and friendly. pls i feel like crying because i don’t know what i did to deserve you. I BLAME U AND UR AMAZING WRITING SKILLS FOR MAKING ME SOFT >:-( i love you tho <3 — also thank you for that play fighting blurb with fred, i didn’t know that i needed to bite his cute butt until i read it.

@sunflowergirl522

ZOE ZOE ZOE ZOE ZOE ZOE ! I LOVE YOU. i feel so complete when i read your peter fics. i always look forward to them because it’s not everyday you find someone who actually writes him so good, and i know we don’t really interact much, but i feel like i got to know you more through reading your fics. u better trust me when i say that i’ll be your personal hype woman and maxibaby supporter, because i am, and i will forever be ! love u <3

@fives-cup-of-coffee

amelia, you bitch, i love you. to be honest, i've never really expected us to be friends, but ofc, here you are, simping for me and now we're besties. you've been, and still are, so fun to be around with-- only because i get to tease the shit out of you >:-) anyways, thank you for keeping up with my utter bullshit, i'm here for you always, i hope you know that. love ya ! <3

@moonvicake

wAHH-- sasha, hi. pFT JSADHJSAHDJH SORRY BUT PLEASE I LOVE YOU, DID YOU KNOW? it's been so painfully awkward at first because believe me, i'm the most gauche person you'll ever meet if we talk for the first time, but as soon as we grow accustomed to each other, you'd wish that you never spoke to me, because i'm this hot fucking mess, so thank you for keeping up with me. you're one of my favorite mutuals in here. i love you more than puppies and hello kitty pancakes <3

+ my mutuals who’ve been such amazing people, we haven’t talked as much as the tagged moots but i love you all just as equally, you lot mean the world to me, and i’m willing to go on the ends of the earth for all of you <3

@anchoeritic @babyjordy @frankenkyleluvr @ronsbadidea @kc-needs-coffee @nevilles-top @weasleyclaw @sweetnspicysimp @redbullchick @willowbleedsonpaper @weasleysandwheezes @daffodilmoons @incorrectpeterparker @dracosaccount @cedrics-grave @pad-foots @peepeepotter @oldschoolkiddo @spideyspixies @daltonacademia @eunoniaa @love-peachh @george-fabian-weasley @mayonnaise-and-anarchy @darthwheezely @thotbutpurple @l0ttadreamz @daisyyy2516 @prettywhitedoves @band--psycho @widowdays @loveboyhalo @gxtitobxby @fandomvariousness @nothinghcppens (i passed the 50 tags rule, eek— i’m sorry, i love all of you whom i didn’t get to tag, though 🥺)

[imagine-your-love-story]

hey penny!! This is kind of a big one, but you're my absolute favorite f/o blog and I trust you to maybe help with this a bit. I've been struggling a lot with having an f/o lately in a deeper way that's nothing but shame and guilt and jealousy. I'm in a really difficult transition in my life rn and have been struggling in a way I haven't for such a long time, and my f/o's source media has been my incredible safe space for a while now. I love it. It makes me feel excited and like myself and motivated to one day make great art like it. but lately my brain has twisted it (and my relationship with my f/o) into this terrible thing to be ashamed of. I tend to be a fandom jumper, delving into a piece of media for about 6 months at a time, before it fades and I find something else. and I'm TERRIFIED that I'm starting to feel disconnected from this piece of media I feel like I kinda need right now during this time? it's not as long as other pieces of media and I'm scared I've kinda drained it dry of its magic and have kinda experienced everything, and that the honeymoon period is over, and I so desperately want it to go back to that. I want it to be okay to keep enjoying this thing I love, and honestly feel like I need at times (I swear sometimes I'm in full baby needs her bottle mode). but I've been having STRIKING jealousy over other people liking or writing fanfic for him. Not to mention he's canonically married and everyone ships them like crazy-- I personally don't that much, and she kinda looks like me anyway (at times I just pretend she's my s/I and he whispers a combo of her name and mine and lets her hair down so it looks like mine bc he secretly knows she's just my own s/I ;) -- but I still get bothered and hate myself for the first instinctual emotional and physical response to seeing them and seeing other people like him. It's so weird and turns this experience into something I hate, but can't step away from either. I have my own canon a year after the events of my source that I think is super cute and make things work for both my f/o and his (ex- ;) ) canon love interest (and I personally think is super cute, I totally ship her with his brother) but it's hard not to feel like that's wrong or stupid or out-of-character or disrespecting the original canon or experiencing this art in the 'wrong' way or whatever, especially considering how much content there is for them. I told my s/o I needed a break, just a step back, and he was very sweet about it and understood ("I'm here when you need me"). but needed him sooner than I thought, and last night we were just able to cuddle and hold each other without talking or putting a label on it or jumping to a big conclusion about any of it. it was nice. lol maybe I just need to step out of the fandom part of it and just enjoy it for myself in my own special way, and get back to why I enjoyed it in the first place. there's so much self-judgement about it all (I've been here before with a lot of things I love, the fear of obsession, the shame of needing, feeling like I should be more rational and adult about everything, feeling like I HAVE to step away even though my brain instantly fights against it-- and none of those fears have ever come to fruition. I guess it just saddens me that all this deep love will fade eventually. it makes me sad. I just want to make it a happy place for me while it lasts. and I'm sure it'll come back into my life eventually, with only the happy stuff and none of the bad, which is what usually happens) I know this is a lot (my mini novel!! hope you've enjoyed!!) and I originally thought of just messaging you for advice, but thought that maybe even one person out there might relate and need the advice too. your blog and your heart (it shines through even just in your writing) are amazing and I appreciate you being willing to read. even just writing about it helps, especially to someone who I feel might sympathize or understand. escapism and media we relate to are so important, so it breaks my heart when it becomes this overcomplicated, depressing beast--

especially when I feel it doesn't have to be. again, thanks for reading this WALL of text and I hope you have the best, most peaceful, wonderful day. <3

Hello lovely darling!! Thank you so much for feeling comfortable to share with me!! ♥♥♥ I'm so sorry you're struggling and swamped with these emotions! They sound like a beast to bear! ♥

A number of things stood out for me so I'm probably going to write a mini novel in return so buckle up for some reading! :)

Fandom

You mentioned that your f/o and his canon love interest are a popular ship. Because of that, you see a lot of material that makes you feel jealous.

Fandom can be GREAT in many ways, but it can also be a lot to process and/or pretty horrible, depending on the situation.

For one of my f/os, the fandom likes to write really rough explicit fics It doesn't fit his personality AT ALL but it's now the norm for about 95% (if not more) of the fandom to write this content. And A LOT of it.

So of course people assume everyone accepts it as canon. Then they stop tagging things because why bother? EVERYONE likes it! (allegedly) Which makes it really difficult to blacklist.

I couldn't get away from it. Every time I tried finding new blogs to follow, it was one graphic fic after another.

At least three times in the course of the past year, I have fully removed myself from my f/o and his source material because I was getting so anxious, I was edging into panic attack territory.

He didn't make me feel safe anymore. He made me want to run away.

I have *carefully* eased myself back into my f/o's material again. But I do NOT go into any tags related to him. I follow about 2 blogs that I trust and that's it.

Sometimes I think fandoms can form these unwieldy mobs. It can be fun to find other people to share your enthusiasm with!

But the catch-22 is that you can also encounter people who may throw a wet blanket on your enthusiasm and ruin the fun for you.

I believe it's perfectly normal to take a break from fandom. It helps you get back to what YOU liked about the show, rather than constantly assessing what OTHER people think about it and getting overwhelmed with the fact that it seems you're the ONLY person who thinks X while everyone else is all about Y.

I've noticed other self-shippers have mentioned similar problems - feeling overwhelmed and outnumbered by the general majority of the fandom. Feeling like they shouldn't enjoy what they do because a large portion of the fandom hates it.

If you weren't on tumblr, would you still enjoy the thing? Probably!

It might feel lonely and weird at first to take a break from fandom. But try to enjoy yourself and remember why you fell in love with your f/o in the first place! :)

If it would make you feel more comfortable, you could set your blog to private so only a handful of people you trust can see it instead of the fandom at large!

Fear of fading love

You mentioned that you're scared your love for your f/o's material will fade at some point. And it might. Everything in life has a cycle - things shift because we've outgrown it or we want something fresh or we need new horizons to explore and that's okay!

But that love has been a crucial and defining part of your life for a LONG time. That love is permanently etched into you like a tattoo. It helped you grow. It helped you learn to love yourself in a whole new way you never would have had otherwise!

This love has shaped you and given you confidence and support. It has created a safe haven for you, granting you the comfort and freedom to be yourself.

That will stay with you forever. Every time you employ that confidence, you're exercising what that love has taught you. You're drawing on the well of strength it created in you. You're revisiting it and saying thank you and I love you always.

Maybe you won't love it as deeply in the future. But the love will always remain :)

Feeling disconnected

I can DEFINITELY relate to this feeling and it suuuuuucks omg.

There could be any number of reasons why you're feeling this disconnect but unfortunately, the only way to move past it is to hold on and weather the storm.

Maybe it's real life problems creating stress that make you feel blah.

Maybe it's just a "change of season" and you're in the transition mode into something else. But the in-between time is turbulent and a generally yucky feeling.

About 4 years ago, I was crazy in love with Star Wars and super active. I wrote fic like a madwoman (300k words in 1 1/2 years). But the fandom was very heavy on the toxic drama. And too many people were demanding/rude with their "feedback" on my fics.

Eventually, I stopped writing and disappeared because I was completely burned out. I didn't enjoy Star Wars anymore.

No matter how hard I looked, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't find anything to replace Star Wars. And it left me feeling so listless (and kinda bitter, tbh).

I'm finally starting to touch on a few media sources that I'm really nuts about now and it feels amaaaaazzzziiing to get into that groove again.

But it took FOUR YEARS.

I tried to go back, revisit my old stomping grounds, pick up my old username but it felt...off. I wasn't that person anymore. I had expanded into something else that needed more room to breathe.

Looking back, I've realized that I had to sort through a few things before I could reach where I am now.

I had been juggling a number of stressors that were taxing my mental energy, including: family responsibilities, job stress (BIG one), Covid (another BIG one), self criticism (i.e. "this is a waste of time and you should do something more productive, stop being childish"), and burnout.

Eventually something will *click* again! But for now, it sounds like you're sorting through something and until you come out the other side, it might be a bumpy ride for a while (HUGS). It WILL sort itself out eventually though, promise! ♥

Feeling guilty/shame

This is only a matter of how you are treating yourself and speaking to yourself, my lovely!

Everyone has needs. That's not something to be shameful for. When you bury that need because you think, "I shouldn't feel this way!", you only create MORE anxiety.

If you NEED your f/o's source material right now to bring some joy into your life, that's okay!

If you NEED a break from fandom because people won't shut up for god's sake about shipping your f/o with your canon love interest, that's okay!

The best way to battle feelings of shame is be kind to yourself. Talk yourself down from the brink of these volatile emotions that are upsetting you.

DON'T beat yourself over the head and say, "WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU. BE AN ADULT, YOU NOODLE."

DO try acknowledging the way you feel and alter your activity to something that makes you feel better, like, "Hey, I'm not in a great headspace right now. Fandom doesn't seem to be helping, making me feel worse. I know it's fiction but my feelings are valid. I'm going to listen to some music that reminds me of my f/o because I enjoy doing that."

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Anyway, um, WOW that got much longer than I expected! I hope a little of that was useful, lovely! Fingers crossed that things start looking up for you very soon!!! ♥

[mmilkbreadd]

Chapter twenty five: “The End”

Masterpost - Prev.

Warning(s): a bit of swearing ; post-timeskip manga spoilers!!

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Or aka, ‘The Sakusa Kiyoomi Theory’

Act One: “Who is Sakusa Kiyoomi?”

Saturday, 6:23 am, “y/n's home”

“You're late,” said y/n with crossed arms, she was already waiting for him at the door of her house. “I hope this doesn't become routine.”

It was already morning in the streets of Paris. Tendou Satori and her neighbor (and best friend), y/n l/n, were walking towards their famous bakery and chocolate shop, ‘Sweet Strawberries.’ It was a small place with a few tables to sit for tea and delicious things to eat. Also, although it was small, it was quite crowded.

“Woah, how angry you are today, little baker... More than usual, actually” y/n shook her head at her friend's comment. “But obviously I already know why, and it seems that you know why too.”

Y/n decided to ignore what Satori had said, and keep walking quite ahead of him. It was still an hour before the store opened, but they already had several orders that were due to deliver around nine in the morning. A three-tier wedding cake, forty heart-shaped chocolates for the anniversary of a married couple, and of course, the strawberry cake for someone named Sakusa Kiyoomi.

Around a quarter to seven, they arrived at the bakery, and they got down to work to get all the orders completed on time. 

Tendou was more dedicated to the chocolate part, of course, and to serve customers. Despite y/n had advanced a lot in terms of her social skills, she still needed to learn a little about how to communicate normally with a person.

“That 'Sakusa Kiyoomi' has a Japanese name, do you think he is too?” y/n asked, wiping flour from her hands.

“I don't know, they could be. But doesn't that name sound too familiar to you?”  Satori replied.

“That's exactly what I was thinking!”

“Weird.”

“Yeah... Anyway, the customer asked not to make the chocolate so bitter so add more milk to that please.”

“Yes, boss!” Satori made a military signal and continued his work.

Act Two: “Pretending to be Sakusa Kiyoomi.”

8:39 am, “Paris” (?)

Bokuto Koutarou, along with Miya Atsumu and Hinata Shoyo were lost in Paris. They had circled the Eiffel Tower at least five times. But it seemed they hadn't realized it yet.

They were more lost than Bokuto studying math. But a simple city would not defeat them so easily... would it?

“Maybe we should have brought Sakusa,” Hinata said after round number six.

“And hear him complain about how dirty everything is? No thanks,” Atsumu Miya replied, shaking his head. “We don't need Omi-Omi. I, Miya Atsumu, am enough to know where we are.”

Atsumu put a hand on his chest, pretending to be offended. Bokuto and Hinata looked around, ignoring the enormous tower behind them, wondering where they were.

“And where are we then?”

“Paris, of course” he replied. “I can’t believe you’re seriously asking that, Shoyo.”

Hinata and Bokuto looked at each other, unable to believe what their teammate was saying.

“Sure…” Bokuto said, getting his phone out of his pocket. It was time to be the serious person of the trio. “Akaashi, we got lost” and that time was now over. Koutarou was crying as he spoke to his friend, who was on another continent. “No, I can't stop crying, Akaashi. I swear I was following the steps you wrote on the map so we wouldn't get lost, but Atsumu wanted to take the lead, so he broke the instructions, and we don’t know where we are. It's all his fault...! No, Sakusa has not come either.”

“Hey! It wasn't my fault,” the dyed blonde complained, crossing his arms. “And we never needed Omi-Omi!”

“Okay, Akaashi, I'll do it. Bye, love you… As a bro of course” Bokuto finished saying and hung up. “He told me I have to call Tendou. Is the only way.”

Hinata started shaking his head from side to side, while Atsumu slapped his forehead with his hand. Then a message came from Keiji; It was the number of Tendou Satori himself. Bokuto started dialing the numbers that appeared on the screen of his phone, on Hinata's.

“Wait wait, shouldn't I speak? He might recognize your voice” Hinata said, awkwardly taking the phone from Bokuto's hands. 

“He would also recognize yours, Shoyo. I'll do it.” Atsumu snatched the device from him and pressed the call button. “Hello, sir, what’s up? I'm Sakusa Kiyoomi, could you help me get to your store? I'm a bit lost... How did I get your number you ask? Eh– It's on your website dude! You should delete it, some people pretend to be someone else and you should not fall for that...”

Act Three: “If Sakusa Kiyoomi was real, we should have brought him.”

10:04 am, “Sweet Strawberries Bakery and Chocolate Shop”

“I can't believe it took us almost two hours to get here! It wasn't even that far from the hotel” Hinata said looking towards the building that was a few meters in front of them.

“Six blocks. Can’t believe it either.” Atsumu wiped the sweat from his brow. “And now that? Are we going in or not?”

Bokuto went pale. He was going to see you, after so many years without communicating or having exchanged glances. He never imagined that he would see you again after that cold day in Miyagi. He had made a thousand scenarios in his head of how you two meet again: in some distant future you visit your hometown and he visits Hinata, and thus you meet in the park or on the street. You would have your own family, and he would have his. But that would happen in many years, not now. Not at this moment, when neither of you had grown enough... When he hadn't managed to forget you yet. But these weren't Koutarou's inventions, this was reality.

The incredible and stupid reality.

“I don't want to go in,” Bokuto said suddenly and stopped walking. “I’m not ready.”

Atsumu, who was already one step away from the door, turned to see him. Hinata collided with Miya's chest because he was walking right behind him.

“What are you talking about? Let's go in now” Atsumu said walking towards the ex-owl. “We didn't change the whole tour just so you don't go see your little girlfriend… We change it so you do! Don't be scared, do it now or you'll regret it for life. I remember how you talked about her during practice, and I even want to meet her after that! Come on dude, use the little braveness you have left.”

It seemed that Atsumu's words, or Hinata's smile next to him, made Bokuto take courage and head towards the entrance of the shop. 

A bell rang before three pairs of feet echoed through the small place. There was a great smell of chocolate that invaded every inch of the establishment. Hinata paced around the place until the sound of a door opening made the three teammates turn their heads to where the sound was coming from.

“Welcome, what can I offer-- So all of you are Sakusa Kiyoomi, huh?” Satori Tendou said, coming out of the back-room. “You see guys, I never believed this would happen. It makes me think a lot too… So, is Sakusa Kiyoomi even real?”

Atsumu, Hinata, and Bokuto were paralyzed in place for several seconds. The former Shiratorizawa monster stood with his hands on his hips, staring at them.

“Is it Sakusa Kiyoomi? Tell him I'm coming in a minute!” y/n yelled from the back room.

“Oh no, y/n, it’s someone much better!” Tendou replied, holding back his laughter. “You won't believe it even if you see this!”

Then, silence took over the place until a few quick steps interrupted it. A figure appeared through the door, with several boxes in their hands. A pile of boxes so big it covered their face.

“Help me, Satori, I'm going to fall” y/n complained, and after Tendou took out the boxes that covered her view, she saw her friend smiling widely. “What?”

Satori, who couldn't contain his laughter anymore, gestured with his head towards the three statues in the middle of the place. And finally, seeing her friend's face, he started to laugh out loud.

“Kou?”

“A-and Hinata!” shouted Bokuto nervously. Shoyo looked at him and then pointed at Atsumu.

“And also Atsumu!”

“And Saku– shit, we should have brought Omi-Omi after all…”

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Note: I am very very very very sorry for not posting this sooner, but I had thousand of things going on in my life. Now I’m better and ready to finish this beautiful, and crazy, love-story.

I hope you loved it as much as I did. I truly enjoyed it writing, and I’m happy to finish it too.

I’ll appreciate it a lot if you comment down below what you thought about the series. I’ll read you later -Tina.

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Thanks for reading🥰

[sailorvinus]

Hiya! I've been wanting to send you tell you all of this via ask for a while--- I just didn't know how to word all of this up especially while in this depressed state ( hopefully you'll recognize me by... *gestures vaguely* but anyway! ), though seeing the portrayal post, I decided to just Take A Moment To Think over this and okay: So, Virote is honest to above one of my biggest comfort characters, one of my favourite original characters not on this hellsite or any forums I roleplayed on or fanfics I read--- just Ever, period. Whenever I learn something new about Vi, either through your posts or replies to the prompts or our dms, it always bring me a big smile and laughter! Vi is such a wonderful and fascinating and delightful character, and you and him have definitely make my roleplay experiences on this site infinite times more fun and colourful!

I just adore everything about Vi. I love how extremely fun and creative Vi is! So many of his replies were truly out of this world, it's amazing! He got the sparks and sparkles, and aren't afraid to throw them around! I love how he doesn't let anyone underestimate them and does not hesitate to smack them right into official music videos and tear their spines off to use them as jumping ropes snfkNSKFN and I just love how incredibly supportive and wise he is with children and those who would face their problems everyday. There's always so much to learn and see about him and I love love love it so much.

You know, every time I would see mentions ooc or ic of Vi's terrible experience with That Guy who got him into the mental hospital and a whole other things with his mental health, my heart deeply aches for him. Though Vi is such a powerful individual who's just trying to get through his days doing his jobs and hobbies and being with friends or partners despite all of the hot mess, and I don't know, I just find it very admirable and I respect him a whole lot. I always love reading Vi's advices and supports to other muses; they in some way comfort me, and truly, I just wish only the best for him. He's amazing and deserves only the best.

In summary: I adore Vi so much and I will always love and appreciate whatever you do with him. I get this may sound silly when you're just on here to vibe, but he does mean a lot to me and I'm always beyond grateful to have followed you to have my dash and especially life be a bit more brighter by your and Vi's presences. Just! Thank you for taking the time and energy to share anything with Vi on this hellsite. You and him definitely make it a bit more tolerable to handle and you two will always have my love and support! <3

LEMME SETTLE IN AND ANSWER THIS REAL SWEET MESSAGE WTF

first off im pretty sure i kno who this is.... i luv u tf thank u!!! second omg ur comfort character :( thats... this trainwreck??? who woulda thought huh..... esp since hes

you know

Himself™.

anyway yeah hes just... some guy! alien royalty aside he really is just some guy and hes not gonna pretend to be anything else. and he has his fair share of trauma... victories... losses... he takes the good, he takes the both, he takes em both and now u have the facts of life!! and as much as it pains me to see him get flattened down to like 1 or 2 traits sometimes, i at least kno in my heart of hearts that he has so much going on. so much he cant and wont talk about with just anyone.... like u rly gotta make him open up.

the downside to that is yeah. he sometimes might get flattened down to a couple of traits that don’t even make up his core personality. vis capable of being full of love for the world, but also capable of being horribly cruel to those that deserve it!! and yeah his temper is shown more because thats mostly what’s brought out of him. i do love when he gets to be tender....... im sure uve seen it too....

:””) so thank u so much for having you know....... a good grasp on who he is and what he struggles with. really its just him, his career, his seventy-five-thousand mental illnesses, and ambition.....

hes just some guy.

virote is really just some guy. just that guy that dresses way too well, somehow sitting outsid a gas station eating a hot dog, smoking a joint, and reading over emails from event coordinators hes working with or some shit ;lkfmdgfjkd. 

and for all his messiness, he really is brilliant. highly intelligent. but he’s not gonna flaunt it.... that just seems like a waste and for him people who are truly smart dont gotta shove it in everyones faces. so yeah! hes here to act a clown, enjoy life, get over pain, and maybe punch a person or fifteen thru the journey ya never kno :))) hes just someone livin life

and i think thats pretty dope...................... so thanks i luv this so much tf....... very glad to see ppl actually remember facts about him like his previous relationship and how badly it hurt him and all that stuff........ makes my heart aflutter!!!!

[luna-is-on-mars]

Hello, Luna my dear💖🥰

I'm just passing by to check in on you. I miss you lots🥺😭 How are you, darling? How is everything? I apologize to you again for being so inactive lately. But I think of you very often, always hoping you're doing well💓💓 I really hope you are taking good care of yourself and that the heat isn't doing too much to you and your health. I'm worried about you... Please don't forget to drink enough water, use sunscreen when you go out and take your meds for your allergies etc. (if you use any). I am sure your Hatter and all the other F/Os you have are taking good care of you💗 Once he notices your glass/bottle is empty, I'm sure he'll bring you new tea, preferably your favorite flavor or maybe even ice tea for the heat. He would really do anything to make sure his one and only is doing well🥺❤️

Also, I don't want to give too much away, but I started working on a little birthday present for you this morning😊 Hopefully, I'll manage to get it done in time. I apologize to you in advance if I don't make it. But then you'll definitely get it in the next few days😌

I love and appreciate you so so much, darling!! Please stay safe and well. I'm sending you lots of love and hugs🤗💜

I hope that you're aware how incredible much you mean to me? It's actually quite frustrating that I'm never able to do your incredible kindness and attentiveness any justice! I always become so overwhelmed and speechless (in a good way of course) when reading your sweet messages and all I can think of are the same words and sentences every time again... But THANK YOU! Interacting with you is honestly always such a joy and never fails to brighten my day and make me smile ♡

And please don't apologize for being more inactive recently, because I fully understand the reason(s) behind it and I'm actually so sorry that I don't know how to help you! But please don't forget that I'm supporting you, always, no matter what. I'm there for you, should you want to talk, ramble or anything else (although I'm terrible at giving advices, I would still try to be of any help). YOU'RE NOT ALONE!

You absolutely don't have to worry about me! There's already so much on your mind and I really don't want to be a additional reason for dragging you down, I'm really not worth that. I still thank you for caring for me, that means so much to me!

This week has been exhausting to me and that's probably even played down (though, that wasn't only due to the heat/sun). However, I've been told that it has been the warmest week of the summer, so it should hopefully be bearable for me from now on?

Thank you for reminding me! I actually find it hard to remember to drink enough, especially in summer. I LOVE tea, but surprisingly only two types of iced tea? And yes, Jervis took good care of me and kept me lovely company (most of my other "F/O's" are actually rather fond of the summer?) ♡ Talking with you about my F/O's is such a wonderful feeling, I absolutely love it ♡♡♡

Oh, you really don't have to do anything for me! And even less should you put yourself under pressure because of me or even something remotely similiar! My birthday isn't that special to me anyway, it never was, it has always been a day like any other. Since I never had any real friends and hardly any family, my mom had no money for gifts and mostly had to work anyway, we never really celebrated my birthday (although I always get a small, delicious cake!).

I'm sending you so much love and hugs right back! I greatly value and love you too! ♡♡♡

I wish you a beautiful day ♡

[milaswriting]

hello darling💙 i just wanted to gush about you for a bit because i totally understand how you feel. when i write something (which is usually just sad stuff that comes from my tiny little brain 😌) or have an idea,i usually hate it or find some fault w it because i don't think that we can ever genuinely look at our work objectively. i mean maybe some people can but i know i can't,what i know is that usually our minds make everything 10 times worse than it actually is. so i'll hate this thing that i wrote and then come back to it after like 3 days without thinking about it and read it agan and i'll be like: huh...this actually isn't as bad as i thought it was? i also struggle w perfectionism so i know how horribly disappointing it is to create something that feels bad but that's just it - you have to have bad ideas and bad writing to be a good writer. once you process all of those things you adjust and correct and open up space for better ideas. golden is honestly an amazing wip and you're doing so great.LIKE THIS IS YOUR FIRST ONE ARE U KIDDING??? i'm so incredibly proud of you because you were able to create something so wonderful that's going to make people happy. not to mention how brave you are for actually posting it and HOW TALENTED YOU ARE. DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED. anyways so sorry for rambling but i just wanted to let you know how appreciated you are. 💕💕

Ahh, this is such a sweet message to send! And it’s comforting knowing that someone else suffers with perfectionism.

Thank you so much for your kind words about Golden not only today, but when the demo was released too - and I love your blog so much! It’s literally one that I check daily

So thank youu for your ask and for being your amazing self, darling 💛

~ xXx

[thedeviljudges]

i know you're a fic writer, so i was wondering if there's anything you've been working on recently or thinking about writing? i really loved your jjp proposal fic, i thought it was incredibly sweet ❤️

also i'm so sorry that you've been struggling mentally recently 😔 i've been through very similar experiences and i know how draining and debilitating it is. i really hope that you're able to talk to someone if you can, and that you feel better soon!

hiiiii, yes!!! well, kinda sorta. 🙈 i've started a small ficlet for the devil judge with jinyoung, but i haven't had time to finish it. i feel so guilty bc i was so excited to write it and put it out before we got so far into the show, but ahhh work. i do have another thing in mind for jjp, but idk if i'll ever get to it. mainly bc it'd actually be a continuation of someone else's story, and i think the author is private on twitter, and i just don't have the guts to reach out to them and ask if they'd be okay with that. but i have like a whole plotline and everything just bc i loved their little universe they created a lot and ofc i was like... more!!!! but yeah i don't want to be disrespectful either.

but thank you for reading my fic!!!! i don't really know if people liked it or not since i didn't get much feedback so that makes me so happy to hear that you liked it!!! 💚💚 i appreciate it so much esp since it's the first longer fic ive written in awhile.

and also thank you for the kind words. i've dealt with what i've thought were pretty bad mental health issues in the past, but the whole thing with my co-worker in april just kickstarted me having to work more than i had to make up for that mess, and i haven't had time to process it either bc ive been in go-mode. normally i feel like i'm pretty good at managing my depression/anxiety but i think everything's been pushed to the back the past 3 months, and my body is physically and mentally fighting it now. :/

but again, thank you for your lovely message. i really appreciate it a lot. i hope you're doing well, and you're having a lovely week!!!! 💖💖

[citrinekay]

since you made a post saying you're thankful for the mindhunter fandom, i want to thank YOU for writing such amazing stories. just this morning i was reading your latest piece and i was once again marveling at your talent. seriously, you're the only writer i read everything by. everytime i get an email saying you uploaded something new, i get incredibly excited and immediately start reading. you are just wonderful and i cannot thank you enough for putting so much work and effort into your work!!

Thank you so much!! See, this is exactly what I mean about this fandom. I have never encountered anyone who is mean or rude. I get these kind of wonderful messages that encourage me to keep creating no matter what kind of shitty day I’m having. I seriously have never stayed in a fandom this long because I never felt the kind of connection to other fans that I do here. I appreciate you and anyone else who has ever supported me, or stopped to leave a kind review or just a few sweet words. I love my tiny fandom 💕

[kachulein]

Dear Han Jisung,

It has reached my ears how you're feeling about yourself. In all honesty, I've feared all along you might have a low self-esteem and many insecurities despite the confident appearance you always make.

That's why I've decided to write down everything I can think of that makes you a wonderful and beautiful human being, in order to show you my unconditional love and affection, in hopes it might reach your ears and make you feel loved.

Dear Han Jisung, this is For You❤

Let me start with your appearance first. Even if you do not believe it, you're beautiful beyond measure, not just in my eyes, but in the eyes of every STAY. You know I've realized you rarely post selfies on your Instagram account and it makes me sad, thinking you might feel too insecure or bad about yourself to bless us with your pretty face.

Take a look at your eyes. I've never seen a pair of eyes that reflected so many emotions in such a strong sense and they're sparkling as if they're holding whole galaxies within them. Your eyes are truly beautiful and I could get lost in them in no time.

Solely from the look in your eyes, I can feel the emotions you are conveying.

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But not only do your eyes contribute to your beauty, it's your whole face, your whole being, that makes you as beautiful as can be.

You have the fluffiest hair and I'd love to run my hands through it.

You have the cutest frame and I'd love to hug you.

You have the cutest nose and I'd love to boop it.

You have the cutest cheeks and I'd love to squish it.

You have the cutest smile and it's so contagious I can't help but break out into a smile myself whenever I see yours.

(© gif credit @sstraykids)

Your smile has helped me through so many hardships already. When I see your smile, it makes me feel warm on the inside. I catch myself thinking of you, wondering how you're doing and if you're taking good care of yourself. I keep wondering whether you have people surrounding you who make you feel loved and appreciated because that's what you deserve and so much more.

Your smile has made my day so many times and no matter how sad and broken I may be, your smile is so powerful that it makes me smile as well. And I'm truly thankful to you for pulling me up when I've fallen down with as much as a simple yet genuine smile.

(© gif credit @167crn)

Have you noticed how your lips always break into a heart-shaped form whenever you smile? It's as if even your smile wants to tell us STAYs how much you love us.

Your lips are beautiful and I love seeing them curve into a smile because I want to see you happy, I want to see you enjoying life because that's what you deserve.

You are so precious with the most precious smile.

I hope you will continue to bless us with your beautiful and loving smile, in hopes you'll never lose it.

(© gif credit @lovemaill)

Even though I love your appearance wholeheartedly, I must admit your personality is even more beautiful and shines brighter than all the stars in the universe combined.

At first glance, you seem like a fun person and a happy-virus, the one member that talks the most and is the loudest, the one member that never fails to draw attention to himself by being cheerful or screaming. Some may think this is an immature and silly behaviour but those people don't know what else you got up your sleeve.

You can be loud and talkative, but this includes being supportive and funny as well. You are the happiness in my life and I miss your screaming every day I don't get to hear it.

Your aegyo and your jokes are also underappreciated. In my opinion you are the cutest little bean and I honestly love your acrostic poems, they aren't just random, funny sentences, they make sense and are sweet.

Not only are you a moodmaker but you are also a very caring, helpful, kind and sweet human being.

You are always there when another member needs your help.

You are very attentive and notice when another member is struggling

You are quick to help and stay by their side

You are very empathetic and caring towards your brothers

Your whole being is just so loving and caring that I can only say, everyone needs a Han Jisung in their lives❤

Here's a gifset of you noticing Hyunjin is shivering and warming him up to visualize how much of a caring and sweet human being you are.

(© gifset credit @jeongin)

And now let's talk about your talents and your position in the music industry because you genuinely blow my mind.

You are only 18 years old and yet you've come so far and I'm so incredibly proud of you (and you should be proud, too💞).

First of all, you are an insanely talented rapper who can spit fire

Your raps are either very powerful and aggressive

or sweet and comforting, with your lyrical rap style

Not only are you a great rapper but you're also a very talented vocalist

You are able to reach high notes and your vocals are stable and either powerful or sweet and dreamy

Your voice is beautiful, so so so beautiful (and I don't want to discredit vocal line here, I just want to point out how much I love his singing voice)

You have a certain tone in your voice that makes me feel safe and happy, I could listen to you sing all day long and I'd never get tired of it.

Apart from your singing and rapping voice I also want to point out that I love your speaking voice as well.

And this might get overlooked but wow, you are such a great dancer? or is it just me?

(again, no shame to the dance line ofc)

But I'll never get bored of watching you dance

There's something about your moves that captivates my attention and it's hard for me to tear my gaze away

Your dancing is so smooth and you're doing it with such ease, I can only admire you

And as if it couldn't get any better, here you are, at 18 years, producing bops after bops with your fellow 3RACHA mates.

Apart from your incredible producing skills, you're also a very talented lyricist and you touch my heart with the lyrics you write

(© gif credit @godhanjisung)

Following up on you writing deep and comforting lyrics, I'll come to my next point, which is pointing out how mature you actually are.

Yes, your happy-virus, loud and fun-loving personality may make you seem a bit immature, though that is not the point at all. You've proven to us over and over how thoughtful, mature, serious, sincere and considerate you are.

With your 18 years of age, you are already so knowledgeable and deep, seemingly understanding the complexity of life and giving us advice on how to overcome hardships and deal with them.

Every time, you surprise me all over again with how wholesome you are and I honestly couldn't be prouder.❤

Please don't let the hate get to you. It's only a reflection of the character of those who sent it your way and not of you, yourself.

Please know, that even if you feel like you're lacking or not good enough, you are so much more than enough for the entirety of the STAY fandom.

You are a blessing to us and we don't deserve such an angel like you.

You've set your own expectations so high, to a point where you can't reach them anymore, but the thing is, you don't have to.

You are enough as you are. And nothing less.

I know, I shouldn't say someone is perfect because no human being is, but you are very close to it, my love.

Dear Han Jisung,

I love you with all my heart and I wouldn't know what I'd do without you in my life.

Thank you for being a wonderful and amazing human being.

Thank you for giving us love and stay by our side when we need you.

Thank you for existing and blessing us with your music and messages.

Thank you, simply for being YOU.

(© gif credit @godhanjisung)