#ive sorta prepped beforehand anyways so i'm kinda ready? but i'm still a little anxious anyways

[elegyofthemoon]

life stuff

just (shaky hands) idk im kinda excited and a little scared because the first step into my new life is kinda starting today?

i have a job interview in a few hours that i'm trying to prep for and i'm really hoping it goes okay that i can get it and then be set for at least the 6 months (and more as i hope)

i mean, i have all these other ideas as well if this one doesn't work. one door closes, another one opens, i repeat to myself over and over again.

but it feels so weird now. like being trapped in a room for too long that the world beyond feels so vast and overwhelming.

but i have to prove that i can handle myself. that i'll always find a way somehow.

it's not exactly a job i'll be enjoying, but it's at least something that can propel myself forward with whatever else i decide to do.

i'm taking a step into a life for myself. it feels strange to make my own decisions. maybe last summer was just a trial of what these next months would be like bc if it feels much the same. but if i found myself enjoying last summer, then maybe these next few months will be a blessing

i hope so anyways.