#ive lost count how many times i've drawn him

[itsybitsybatsyspider]

the daily Peter sketch, feat. trying out new brushes

[mochidoie]

all i see is you - lee haechan

listen to: you by dj regard and poison by nct dream genre: fluff, hopelessly pining badboy!haechan wc: 720 warning: none, written in lowercase only

a/n: i felt very inspired by poison's track video, i can't stop thinking about the lyrics too ive been waiting for dreamies to do a rnb song for so long!! read part two!

"you're so bad for me." you push playfully at haechan's chest and god, just how he melts at how cute your smile looks under the night sky.

haechan leans against the street lamp post and smirks devilishly at your comment, hooded eyes eating up how prettily your attire fits you tonight. "if you mean bad meaning good, then i agree."

there goes your sweet laugh again, "very funny." your sarcastic response is typical, he could read you like an open book. spine against a table, pages flipping by the edge of his thumb.

"i'm serious, y/n. when are you gonna give me a chance to take you out?" haechan butters you up just like how you like it. his finger twirls the end of your skirt flirtatiously, causing your heart to race in your chest.

you can't stop the shy smile that appears on your red painted lips. "in your dreams, hyuck. i'm in no place in my life right now to be dating anyone." scoffing, you cross your arms.

you're goal driven, hardworking, you weren't going to let some sleazy guy distract you from chasing your career. despite all his efforts, you genuinely had to consider how haechan would actually throw you off track. your lifestyles are too different to meet a compromise.

he drops to your feet, noticing your shoe had been untied for the past two blocks. without a word or shift in conversation, this man obediently wraps the string around his fingers and brings the knot to a complete bow. this kind gesture never fails to swoon you.

"so don't date me. let me take you out from time to time, treat you nice and right. when you want to sleep in someone's arms at night, give me a call. i'm here at your disposal." haechan stands and hovers over you, polite hands hovering over your lower waist as he closes the distance between the two of you.

the way you blink at him with wanting eyes has him spiraling, he wants you so bad. just one glance and he's swept away, wind picking up his feet and has him tumbling.

"that is unfair to you."

"it's sweet to know that you care about me." haechan meant it, but the playfulness in his tone seems unserious. he isn't sure how only you can make him this way. it becomes hard for him to really express how much he dreams about you.

"of course i care about you." your eyes drop to his lips momentarily and his chest feels tight. it's almost criminal how good you two would be together and how happy he could make you.

slowly, you're drawn into him even more until his breath is against your cheekbone and you can hear the beating of both of your hearts in the silence of the night.

"you want me to be honest?" his voice is feathery and raspy, like he's trapped in your trance due to the proximity of your warmth. "i've lost count of how many times i've wanted to kiss you."

you call his name, pulling away slightly. a tinge of sadness and guilt in your tone, but haechan isn't having it. he shakes his head, "i know. i shouldn't be so selfish.. but you don't know how many times i fall to my knees just thinking about you."

your eyes meet at the end of his sentence and the desire intensifies between the two of you. lightning bolts zapping in the gaze, you can feel the blood rushing to your face.

something about how desperately infatuation haechan looks sparks a burning flame in your abdomen. how all he sees is you, his reflection full of your figure. how his plump lips are itching to touch your own.

his usual confident, playfully flirtatious personality is nowhere to be seen. you've never seen this expression on him before and it shocks you how much he has been holding himself back.

"pick me up at 8 tomorrow. no exceptions." you say firmly and with that smile he can't get enough of. backing up from him, you walk toward your door.

his ears are perked up, noting your words very clearly and not wanting to let this chance slip away from him. he smirks coolly and shoves his hands into his jean pockets, "you know i won't let you down."

read part two!

[caelumsnuff]

Oh the reason im the number 1 Caelum fan??? Because im the only one who's every truly understood him.

Nobody else gets him like i do, nobody else is willing to acknowledge and explore the depth of his character. Everybody sees a dumb little sweetie (he is) but that's not all he is. He's extremely emotionally intelligent and kind to the core, he knows the darkness that swirls around in the human mind, the evil that mankind (and D(a)emonkind) is capable of but he still holds hope and compassion in his heart. He believes in you, and me, and everyone with a childlike wonder not born of ignorance but born of experience and boundless hope. He's the light that we all need in our life and hearts, the ideal we should aspire towards. He's the sweet daemon-therapist-caretaker-friend that we need in our darkest days. He'll wake you up with hugs in the morning and tuck you into bed at night with bedtime stories as he strokes your hair. He'll bake cookies with you when you need a break from life, he'd make art with you to calm you down and relax together. He'd cuddle you on the couch and watch your favorite cartoon with you. He's empathetic and forgiving to a fault, but he never holds it as a grudge towards the world or those who've hurt him, he looks inwards to help himself to that he can help you. He even demonstrates to us how to reach out to those around you, to those you love and trust, for help in your darkest hour, and that there is no shame in doing so. It's okay to need help, and its okay to ask for it when you need it. And none of this is born from stupidity or naivety or ignorance or immaturity, but by choice and by the force of a pure golden heart.

He's my love, my life, my favorite little blorbo that lives in my head rent free. He's my barbie doll that i thrash around for fun, and at the end of the day i patch him up brand new and tuck us into bed together and he tells me stories until we fall asleep.

I've written him a dozen times, drawn him so many times ive lost count. I made a sim of him way back in 2021 and have routinely updated him since.

Night and day I think about him, I yap about him.

In my partner's dms i have mentioned him by name 70 times, she's not even in this fandom.

In a single server, 85 times

In the inbox of a best friend who also isn't even in the fandom, 31 times

He's me. I'm him. We are one in the same.

Undeniably, I am THE Caelum fan. I am Caelum Nation.

@plaqying :3