#its not terrible but i also don't rlly like how some parts are written

[prettyboykatsuki]

extended authors note ; how to be a dog.

WELCOME TO MY TWISTED MIND MOTHERFUCKERS.

that is a joke. i speak in jest. this fic has taken me almost a year to write. it was requested of me in july of 2022 and its currently april 2023. i want to give my highest regards ever to the most lovely and patient human being in this world miss ame. your kind words through updates kept me pushing through the very end and i hope this fic is everything you could want

ok. onto the talking about it stuff.

this fic is pretty dark all things considered. though my scale for that is kind of fucked and since this is my tumblr audience - you people are well-aware it gets bad but its... still pretty graphic. there is a lot of truly henious shit in here and its in the perspective of that guy.

tldr ; don't read if you think it will give you the heebie jeebies. u are not obligated and i am not your mother nor am i a public executioner. if this is the one fic u skip out on no hard feelings at all. i mean this.

this fic is one of Those Fics where writing it did something to my brain. i have never, ever in my entire writing career been so challenged by a single project. every single element of this fic has been run through a million things. the last time this happened was my big deku fic but that fic rlly feels like a cakewalk in comparison.

all that to say, because it has simply been seeing my eyes only for months with no input from anyone else - i have no idea how anything worked out. no beta no meds just balls to the wall insanity. i can only measure my own work so much and i have bar zero expectations for this fic just to save myself some sanity.

i ask very kindly that if it sucks u just dont tell me. and if it doesn't and u want to be nice that'd be cool too. but know that a lot of my heart and soul went into this and i hope in the very least - you are able to discern that in its makeup.

a lot of the stuff ive worked into here is related like. to plot and motif and actual development. the dog motif is a huge part of the story as is the religious imagery. i want this fic to feel like a fall from grace in a sense. it is a character study as much as its anything else. where there's always something wrong and one day everything goes to shit. i think gojo is that kind of sicko.

i also do like. love gojo so much. this fic is written with nothing but adoration for him in mind.

i dont have much to add (said after this absolutely disgusting wall of text) because my tumblr homies r very aware of what shit im up to and this fic is not a surprise to anyone.

but i hope you enjoy it if you do read and even if you don't, thanks for sticking around despite it all. i have been thru the trenches and i will need a bit of break to recuperate once its in the world for good so i hope u can be kind

i am terrible with comments and asks and tags bc it all scares me but i am so genuinely and so unfathomably grateful for all of it and i hope im finally out of my insane writing dry spell.

thanks. lots of love. sincerely yours,

fang.

[athenadcvell]

Anyone else got that one fanfic they started writing like two or three years ago, and it’s kinda cringy and not really good but you keep updating it every couple of months because there is a tiny group of like four people that still reads it and enjoys it? Because ya, same. 

[tartagliaxx]

lol i'm also wondering where this is gonna go bc i'm already planning the ending, its getting to the ending that's annoying.

i think the hardest thing for me is to write exactly how ppl get closer. bc you don't get close automatically, you experience and go through things together and that makes your bond stronger. i do believe that it's better to experience stuff first hand so it's easier to write, but i don't rlly have first hand experience of stuff like that so i'm just basing it off of other ppl's writing and what i think is a good bonding experience. and in tartaglia's case, it's apparently fighting lmao

also, do you ever feel bored or smth of your writing? bc yes. ik ppl say that it's bc we've read through our works hundreds of times, so yeah it'll be boring to you, but it may be a new experience to others. i read through some of my older works like when i was in 6th grade, and i was surprised by my writing. it's not terrible, but i can definitely see how it can be improved, like a lot. i do like some of the premises of my stories though, i was way more creative when i was younger lmao

— r. anon

'i'm already planning the ending, it's getting to the ending that's annoying.' THAT. THAT is me. istg that is me in almost every thing i wrote. writing the ending is swell, everything else is pain.

i get what you mean. it's precisely why almost everything i write has an established relationship. skip the hard part and go to the fun, magical part. like personally i dont even remember how i got close with my friends bc it just happens but when you write, it doesn't just happen, you have to make it happen. once again, all i know is pain.

bored? hmm... it's less about being bored and more about being insecure ig? like, i see so many other talented people around and i'm like goddamn, couldn't be me. but ultimately, i'm proud of every single one i made (although i do have favorites) and i enjoy rereading them when i finally forget about them.

the fact that you recognize what could be improved means that you've grown a lot as a writer. the same goes for me. i do admit that the concepts i had were much better when i was younger but i would never have written them as well as i would right now if i did it back then.