#its just funny as a Reader completely aware his behavior is not correct compared the MC who is completely deluded into believing he's being

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So I'm a classics bitch

And I'm reading A Sentimental Story from the Diary of Dreamer by Fyodor Dostoevsky

(I haven't read anything by him before though I do want to read Crime and Punishment and Brothers Karamazov at some point. And I'd tentatively say this White Nights and Other stories collection with Sentimental Dreamer in it is a good beginner classics piece.)

But this story is so fucking hilarious to me. It starts out he's all wow I've been in Petersburg for 8 years and have had nothing more than acquaintances and yet I feel particularly lonely, and all the faces have appeared different or gone. (which actually is such a fucking interesting concept because it describes the phenomenon of staying in a place for so long all the faces have changed and you've failed to move forward like everyone else. And how daunting and lonely that feeling is.)

And then he sees a girl on the street at night and she's not paying him any mind. And he thinks it strange, realizes she's sobbing about something, and then gets excited cause he's like aha! I was right her behavior is strange. But he stalls too long and she notices him and immediately starts leaving the area. And then he FOLLOWS her. And so she cuts across a street.

Where he stops following her. And then sees a staggering (perhaps drunk) man and is like he probably wouldn't have bothered her if it wasn't for my good luck. (HELLO???)

And then he goes on to save her from Mr. drunk.

And then they are talking and in his internal thoughts he calls her MY GIRL.

Sir you are deranged. And it's almost comical how absolutely deranged and deluded he is and I love it.