#it's the opposite of last year's annual post hahah

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Turns out, that was the best Snoggletog ever. That year, I gave my best friend a pretty great gift. But he gave me a better one!

HAPPY SNOGGLETOG EVERYONE!

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Annual Post #11

Hello! Sooo here we are, at the beginning of the year, we may say. But actually, same shit different year, I guess? *bitter laugh

Getting older really makes me this kind of sarcastic I think. Maybe because the world is getting cruel dude, especially 2020. Tapi ya kita bisa apa yakan, emang kaya begini namanya kenyataan :) Hahaha I’m really used to it (re: life).

I was gladly strike-through all my 2020 checklists :D Literally all the lists. I didn’t get a chance to go to another country this year, I didn’t send my writing to any journal/magazine this year, I didn’t sell any tote bag this year, and I didn’t buy swatch in the end of year ahaha. Tapi ngga papa.. 2020 is year of exception, isn’t it? 

Masih bisa ketemu Bapak Ibuk Delin Debag lengkap kap kap gonna be my greatest blessing in 2020.

After that, my friends, I dooooo really really grateful about them, always do. Despite anything happen tahun ini yakan :”) 

And lastly, I do really proud of myself for getting through this year. I re-read my last year annual routines, and surprisingly it written there!! To be able finding myself and standing up for myself. Oh my God merindinggggg... 

What I wrote last year :)

On January 2020 I wish that I could finding my self through the year, and standing up for my self. Because I felt really lost back then. Annndd I did.. I truly did this year. Hahaha. Wow. Alhamdulillah :”> It was actually need so much courage and so much pain. Again, thanks to Mbak Sisi for helping me earlier this year and thanks for all my friend whooo actually already pissed off with me crying and bawling for the same thing over and over again hehehe. 

Good things about 2020 (beside I can fight my own self) wasss I can get really close with my siblings, thanks a lot Kukis Adik. We worked hard, we fought hard *yes literally, miss communication is the things*, and we laugh super hard just because of this tiny little cookies. Another good things about this Kukis Adik are: I can meet my childhood friends, I can know new people who loves KukisAdik that much *I still can’t understand tho*, and I can meet Kak Puty in person!!! :”> Back in 2018, I met my girl crush alias Kak Alanda, and this 2020 I can meet my another girl crush, Kak Puty Puar (plus Antariksa)!!! Huhuhu beyond happoyyy.

After all, my 2020 was kinda super upsss and super downsss hehe. Padahal lebih ngga kemana-mana dan lebih ngga ngapain-ngapain, tapi sungguh gejolak batin dan pikiran malah jadi sangat berasaaaa beb. Gladly *again*, masih bisa ketemu teman-teman yang bahkan mungkin intensitasnya meningkat di tahun ini, dibanding dengan 2019 yang penuh dengan koass normal yang hidup seperti zombie heu. My friends are the one who held me up. Evennnn when they don’t really know what my problems are and what’s actually going on, but yeah, cuma duduk bareng atau cari makan bareng was the simplest way I am grateful forrrr!! Demi apapunn aku anaknya ngga muluk2 :”) And catching up and hahahihi ga jelas and saling mengirim memes were the best way to keep me sane through this 2020.

Oh wow njir panjang juga nih post untuk 2020 nyaa bunda. Last, one more value for this yearrr adalah... Life is sucks man hahah. Yaa beautiful sometimes but overall, it sucks :) This 2020 things mengajarkan bahwaaa beberapa hal bisa berubah dengan cepat, super cepat. Ngga ada jaminan, if you doing things and work for it, the result will going on your way. It sometimes the opposite. So, being mindful, being legowo, being pasrah after all the works that have done gonna be my motto for 2021 yah... I should keep my expectation low, but still, doing things toward the goal :)

Many says 2021 is gonna be 2nd version of 2020, apalagi di Indonesia yakan:) Lagi-lagi ngga bisa berharap banyak kak. But, one thing for sure, I hope this 2021 gonna be the year of focus. Fokus untuk hal-hal yang perlu diselesaikan dan perlu dicapai. Fokus untuk “kembali ke dalam”, lagi-lagi untuk menilik diri dan menjadi dasar untuk berkembang :) Cheers, everyone! Happy New Year 2021!

Annual routine yang sebelumnya: 2014 2015 2016 2017 2018 2019 2020