#it's so intoxicating and I haven't felt this way in a while 😵‍💫

[quiet-admirer]

My new job has so much less downtime than my last one and I'm being slowly tortured right now as I'm brimming over with horny thoughts and ideas for scenes for the hardcore punk story but I don't have time to write bits down on my phone to email them to myself for later, or or making little doodles on post-its, or even really spend much time daydreaming about them and my brain might explode

[sehodreamsthoughts]

yeah🫠🫠 there’s just something about matthew<333 i also just love a man with tits like he has,,, i love his body he looks like so muscular and also soft?? at the same time?? i love him <333

i saw ur tags about hao.. what do u think about him?? i like him a lot but i just can’t rly see him like that, like this, do u know what i mean?

quickies with hanbin… yes, just domestic life with hanbin, free use kinda? just like spending time together and being intimate with him as just part of your daily routine<333 i love the idea of cockwarming with him too ooh cuz he’d love feeling your walls pulsing around him, comfortable at first but after a while you both can’t wait any longer, he’d be really turned on by your weight pressing against him, he just loves feeling your presence literally and also everything about you is intoxicating to him, loves your skin, your hair, the way you smell, your voice and the sound of ur laughter<33333333

i think matthew would be similar but.. i think he’s only a year younger than hanbin but there feels like there would be a maturity gap, matthew might be less secure, definitely still chasing after you, the type to beg to eat you out, also wanting you to ride his face and wanting to dominate you even though he’s smaller than you are, definitely has a large presence (i think he has a big fat cock too🤭🤭🤭) and overall wants to be in charge most of the time? but i think he could still have subbier moments and is possibly into dumbification with you but also him?? like u just drive him so crazy he’s speechless, just rutting against you and drooling because he needs you so bad :((((

honestly atp.. just all my biases would go for big girls that’s what i tell myself🤭🤭 not like i would have a chance but in my fantasies.. it’s my fantasies so they’re gonna be self indulgent😶😶

- 🥟 anon

I LOVE MAN'S TITS TOO 😭🤫

Oh yeah, that's what also makes me conflicted but... Well look at this link (nsfw) I saw once, and I also have a hard time imagining him with a plus size girly, but somehow he fits with one too? Idk, it's crazy, I'm doing mental gymnastics but that video felt so correct for him 🫠

Domestic life with Hanbin... I'll cry 😭 it sounds perfect perfect perfect, maybe he's the one proposing to move together even because he's noticed that he needs you every day and to have you only when you have time is not enough? He'd start inviting you to his house often, asking you just to have dinner the first times and then to spend the night because it's already too late for you to go home and then the mornings together simply feel so right he can't imagine not having you by his side all the time. AND the morning sex too 😶‍🌫️, he's waking you up with his hands fondling your boobs, or directly with his cock inside you! You wake up feeling the pressure building in your abdomen and a bit unfocused because you were so deep into your dream, to what he murmurs to calm you down "it's okay baby, it's me" without stopping his hips that move behind you.

I ALSO BELIEVE THAT ABOUT MATTHEW!!! 😭😭😭 (We're connected babe) I don't know if it's because of his broadness but he just makes me think of a really thick cock with the prettiest color and the kind to easily leak?? I'm sorry if this sounds nasty but I'm sure it'd jump when he pulls down his underwear and it'd already have some pre cum dripping and shinning even when you haven't touched it at all 🫠. Also that's a bit connected to what you said, I see him more on the sub side, he looks as if he'd get easily overstimulated pretty much all the time you're together and maybe at first he can be Dom but later he becomes your pretty boy toy that humps you like crazy to get your attention 😭

Hahaha I also think the same I think, I mean, of course not that I know any of them, (god this is going to sound too delusional 😵‍💫😖🤪) but sometimes I like some idols just because I feel they would feel attracted to me 😭 (OKAY NOW THAT I SAY IT I FEEL EVEN MORE DELUSIONAL BUT THIS IS MY BLOG AND THE 5 PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW ME CAN FORGIVE ME). Of course I like many idols and I can give an explanation of why I choose my biases (I'm selective to say someone is my bias, and yeah most of the time is related to my daddy issues) but sometimes I like some just because they look like the kind of people that would be into me, like leaders and muscular soft guys (oops, wth that's Hanbin and Matthew). THE POINT IS, DON'T WORRY HONEY, I DON'T JUDGE ANYONE, SELF INDULGENT OR NOT, WE'RE DELUSIONAL TOGETHER 🫂💖