#it's so discouraging sighhhh

[freakruko]

!! kind of a vent !! nothing serious tho just complaining tbh lmao

i am actually so goddamn tired of sharing stuff i made for a less popular ship that i genuinely feel strongly about and put my heart into and immediately being met with something about how someone likes another, more popular ship better.

even if it's something i've put a lot of time and effort into creating, the most acknowledgement i can usually get is "oh people ship that?" or "i didn't know this was a pairing tbh" before it's followed up with something about another ship they like more. and it's always someone i don't even know, like?? this is basic fandom etiquette dawg. i thought we were past passive aggressive ship discourse. i do not gaf if you dont like my stuff !!! i dont even fw problematic shit like at all people are just assholes !!!

god forbid i just don't particularly feel strongly about the most popular ships or headcanons or whatever, and i'm not even saying anything weird ?? it is not that serious i promise. making underhanded comments to talk over me or belittle what i like will not make your life better i promiseeeee. and dude i used to enjoy some of the popular ones that have been thrown at me at least a little in terms of understanding the appeal, but tbh after having them shoved down my throat when i try to share something of my own i cant bring myself to view them the same way. ugh. this is why i cant bring myself to draw mikomappifuu anymore, because i have been told so many times "ohh you should add mikoto and it will be perfect".

implying my art somehow isn't good enough unless it meets your specific taste is immensely disrespectful and i've been trying so hard to be more upfront with this boundary over the last couple months (even though it should be common sense), but somehow i'm the rude one when i express shock or discomfort. im so tired im soooo tired !!!!!

ahem. anyway. i have decided to channel this raw spite into drawing and writing copious amounts of nsfw of my mipys over winter break. the yaouri yields this season shall be abundant and plentiful. such is the will of mappifuu jesus amen

[radioprune]

how about top five beejhawk songs?

nice!!!! thank you abby <3

1. a lack of color - death cab for cutie. if you feel discouraged and there’s a lack of color here / please don’t worry, lover, it’s really bursting at the seams / from absorbing everything / the spectrum’s a to z ok peace on us red party godddd

2. i’ll be your girl - the decemberists. sighhhh but yeah

3. imposters (little by little) - the fratellis. this one’s CRAZY. i can be the one that you just can’t shake till you swear that your eyes go blind...... we can pretend that our fates our entwined / the beautiful lies, the beautiful kind hello???

4. so far away - carole king. i mean, i cry listening to this song no matter what anyway. tapestry is a 100% perfect album.

5. hell n back - bakar. i feel like i talk about this song all the time but literally did you know where my head was at when you found me / me and you went to hell and back just to find peace like britney_nodding_yeah.gif