#it's shit like this that makes me glad i have the ability to do shrooms

[l-cereta]

another day another dollar

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aug 29th 2022

im currently on shrooms and im having a bit of a weird high. things feel heightened in a way but not in a way i particularly like it. its a weird high. i dont understand how my friends like this shit compared to edibles. i love the way edibles make me feel but these shrooms are fucking strong and they make me feel down or like stoic so im gonna stop taking them from now cause they dont serve any purpose for me anymore im afraid. i get nothing from them. im glad im documenting this so i have a record of this shit cause i feel like this will help me not go back to these ever cause i seem to always have a weird time with them. they used to make me feel good or at least ive had one good experience or maybe two but the rest of them have been weird. this is weirdly therapeutic in a way. just journalling my thoughts like this. not being afraid to say what im afraid of may be a power in and of itself in a weird way. my belly hurts. and my head hurts so im wondering if thats just a thing that happens whenver i take shrooms but whenever i take them eddys i feel GREAT. feel like i can take on the world. its not even like i feel lost or anything. i know im me and i know im destined for great things but this current feeling is bad. i wont say terrible cause its not but it is a bad feeling considering what it is. but maybe this is a psychedelic that is telling me that im just not ready for it yet. its not something you can take like an edible and think you’re gonna get the same results. it doesnt work like that. im on facetime with saffrah at the moment. its silent. i kinda like it like that. im sure she can hear me typing away but i really enjoy the sound and flow of my typing. saffrah just hung up on me. i dont know how i feel. for a moment i felt lonely and then i had the thought that i have to be brave and now im here. present with the world and my thoughts haha. bethlehem is messaging me. i feel like im in a stable mood somewhat. im not good, im not bad but kinda in a limbo and thats not where you wanna be on a shroom. i wanna feel the euphoria but you cant search for a feeling you just have to feel whatever is available and let it pass. the good thing about all of this is that it will pass. and im blessed. God blessed me. i can overcome anything if i have the courage to take a leap of faith. i think i hear myself or a varation of myself screaming in my head or at least crying or some sort. its weird but now im a bit emotional. im like an hour and a half into my shroom trip. its 23:34. 23:51 listening to kanye west’s 2007 performance and i just feel good. mum wants me to pray with her. i feel good. im in a good mood. typing is a good asmr sound that i like. stronger just came on by kanye and im in a better mood. i understand why they say just feel the feelings when youre on these drugs. i have a nice face.the shrooms are kinda working now. i feel good. i feel very good. my care for things is gone again. i feel like im in my optimal. touch the sky. im gonna pray with lauren and probably call saffrah back. im listening to all of the lights at the larry hoover concert. mike dean really did his fucking job with the synths!! do you hear those synths?!??! man thats godly! i feel good. my head hurts less but i feel something. i feel like the more expressive i am the more expressive people are around me haha how pretentious of me like bruh come on man. but then again. currently listening to lil wayne’s dedication series (dedication 4). cashed out. i have to say lil wayne is the greatest rapper alive. he has it all man. cadence. wordplay. versatility. storytelling ability. 1:11! just saw another angel number. 1:37am listening to 50 cent many men. idk why but im just feeling things and thats okay. just messaged Honey to ask if shes okay cause she said she disassociating for a while but im here for her. and i love her. so theres that. i think im gonna end this here for now and start a new thingy but i really like hearing my typing which is why im still typing like cmon man. i feel good . listening to lets get blown by snoop and im gonna sign off there. God bless. love uri xx 01:43am 30th aug 2022 tues

[ofcloudsandstars]

hi! i have a question about paganism and witches and everything in general (sorry if i'm saying it wrong). i've never really learned about this at all and i'm really curious about it and intrigued, because i stopped believing in magic and spells a long one ago, but i really want to believe that they're real. if you could perhaps help me understand it better or link me to some posts that explain? if you can't, thanks anyways! have a lovely day :)

But you did believe in it at one point? What drew you to it in the first place?

In my honest opinion you can’t believe in something like this and chasing a belief would be ingenuine to your practice. You kind of have to know it’s there and just do it. Beliefs are just theories but they are uncertain. There’s a difference in believing in an entity versus believing in your own power cause sometimes entities can hide themselves or work in mysterious ways so you might not be completely certain of their presence, where as your own power is something you wield. It would be like believing you could walk in a park or believing you could cook some eggs. Like, you KNOW you can do these things, so it would be weird to believe you could (unless if you never cooked before in your life or have physical impairment to hinder you from walking but that’s another scenario..) Have you practiced magic before? If you’ve seen results you should know you have power.

I myself have a million theories to how things might work but theories are just ideas. I know my magic works because of the cause and the effect of me casting spells and the spell happening. (It’s not to say that I don’t doubt myself sometimes but that point will be further explained later.) That’s why many witches including myself would advise for a magical practitioner to keep some kind of journal to document when they’ve casted a spell to see results. Yeah a lot of spell work results might seem like coincidences but the thing is the universe has to flow all together like clockwork. One of my theories is that everything has energy to it and the planets are one of the largest beings with powerful fields of energy that keep us bounded together like clockwork or a dance, which is why planetary movements/astrology has such an influence over society. Then not to mention the will of individual people, animals, plants and spirits, the pulse of the earth etc; there is a lot of energy simultaneously existing together so that when we cast something it’s like our fate can be portrayed by a river with many branches, with currents influenced by rain, jagged rocks, wind but magic would be us riding that current to the direction we want, or using the tides to fish something closer to us. Sometimes we cast a spell and because of all the other energies we are coexisting with, the current isn’t right so the spell might take longer to manifest. Sometimes when the current is right, the spell happens immediately but it just seems like coincidence because the odds were too much in our favor already. 

I sometimes doubt if something I casted actually happened because of me because things happen so smoothly that it seemed it would have happened if I hadn’t done it anyway, yet at the end of the day I ask myself why it matters? I casted something and it manifested whether it seemed highly coincidental or not. I would get more skeptical if I kept casting spells and none of it manifested but that hasn’t happened to me before unless if its something way out of my influence (like me gaining a position of empress of the world- since that would influence a vast number of people and such, but honestly I wouldn’t even want to cast that to try cause the universe has a funny way of going about stuff so I wouldn’t want to end up in some dreadful position with a lot of power and extreme stress and regret it later.)

To practice magic you really need to be intuned with your own energy and if you’re not honestly nothing will happen. That’s the first step. My sister was super athiest (like having the belief nothing existed except for the things we could see) and she respected my practice though she was skeptical until she has had her own mind bending experiences. Since she has done so much work to get herself in contact with her deeper subconsciousness and opening her mind, a lot of psychic stuff has happened to her and she’s going through a spiritual awakening. She felt sad cause the only experience with feeling other peoples and her own energy she had was on really good MDMA but I told her that its possible to achieve without it and so she’s been doing some really cool shit to help open her mind to get in tuned with it and I am glad she’s doing that cause watching her footsteps it’s helpful to advise other people closed off with themselves on how they can achieve that. I see the brain as a muscle and everyone has a body of energy but its something that some people might be born with a little stronger and some people might have it more diminished. Like how some people are really good runners naturally while others have to train to get to that level. It’s not impossible for someone with no connection to their subconscious, energy body or magic to have psychic/out-of-body/magic experiences but they have to do more work to get there as opposed to someone who might be luckier genetically*.

Lets say if you are completely cut off from those aspects of yourself (which you do not seem to be because you once believed in it and are working towards it), you first need to open your mind. It might feel impossible to someone with no connection to their energy body or who has never had an experience like that yet things like shrooms can help (though individually a person should be aware of any mental health issues they might have that can get triggered to become worse by the usage of natural drugs). Yet certain substances like psilocybin can help you explore your inner self and experience energy in a more tactile way. Many indigenous people around the world use certain natural substances like mescalin, peyote, ayahuasca as aides to deeper introspection or to open up themselves. Of course please see this as a form of intense medicine and shrooms is a lot more chill than the other drugs I’ve mentioned but shrooms can still be dangerous and so as a disclaimer I will say to take this bit of advice like you would from any other stranger off the internet, with a grain of dust. If you are interested in it, do a lot of research on it and on yourself as well to make sure you will be ok doing it, medically and emotionally. Drugs like shrooms can also open closed doors deep in our psyche where our traumas lie and can trigger mental illnesses we already have so be aware of it’s effects. Especially for someone with no experience dealing with their deeper selves, it’s like a muggle not believing in magic getting hurled into platform 9 ¾ except on the other side is the triwizard tournament and they have to fight a dragon, plunge into a murky lake and navigate through a labrynth. My point is that it can be a violent jump start and has it’s dangers so I really can’t advise it to everyone and people should do their own research and make their own conclusion with this.  

Anyway, to continue, second part now that you are aware of your deeper self is meditation and becoming familiar with the many levels of yourself but also learning to control it. Zen meditation is a good start where you just sit and ‘be’. It’s an exercise where you observe the world around you and are present and you will have thoughts going across your mind but you have to learn to not engage with them, and just observe them like clouds passing by. My short blurb might not be sufficient to fully describe how to go about it so I suggest looking it up lol. Then you can go into other forms of meditation like focusing awareness on different parts of your body. I feel like this is a great way to get in touch with your energy body. You will feel your energy more potently. The goal of meditation is to help you learn how to focus your mind which will help in the next step.

From meditation comes energy work and learning how to gather and control your own energy. Meditation helps to focus your mind so when you want to visualize a spell you want to manifest or focus energy into something, your mind won’t waver and your desire will manifest more concretely. I have a tag on energy work you can browse through if you wish.

Then final step now that you are aware of your body, energy and levels of your mind is listening to the quietest parts of your mind like your intuition. The more you listen to it the stronger it gets and it will help you to know when is the best time to cast something because it helps you be in the flow of the universal current and it will help you pick up vibes, avoid certain situations or people, draw yourself to good situations and people and improve your psychic abilities.

All these things take practice and even as someone practicing magic for years I and many people have fallen out of magic and have to find our way back in. It’s a CONSTANT practice. What makes someone a witch is practicing witchcraft and if you stop for a very long time, it takes a moment for many to get back on the train. Practices to help get back on the train is meditation and energy work.

All this is also based off of my own experiences so it really might not apply to everyone, but I hope this helps you!

*I do believe some of these things are genetic since we do have a physical third eye (pineal gland) that can work like a radio signal so some people might be born with one that is more alert the same way some people are born with really good eyesight or a very strong heart. I don’t know all the elements in someone’s body to help them be more intuned with magic and energy, but I do know we all have it, its just some people are born with it a little stronger than others and we have to work at it to get better like the way if we want stronger muscles we need to lift weights/do yoga etc. In my experience a lot of people in my family have similar psychic experiences to me and I’ve spoken to my dad about a lot of this stuff and it’s happened to him naturally too, and I hung out with my niece recently and she’s very witchy though she doesn’t practice magic, she’s just intuned with it so I think it might mostly come from my French family but anyway, everyone has these things physically its just some have to work a bit more at it than others.