#it's ok to date someone u don't love ig. i mean. I've done it before. you can make yourself like someone after a while. but idk if i.
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Rereading ayaka is in love with Hiroko senpai!!! Last time I read it I don't think it was finished/I didn't finish it but ack. Now I also want to be in love 😭😭😭
#i want to say i want to be someone like ayaka but in reality im probably more like hiroko#i used to be someone like ayaka. i was really tunnel visioned and i didn't consider much aside from the person i was interested in#but it's been years now and there's a lot more to consider and it's. hard and im even more scared now.#i think there's someone who im currently talking with who's trying to figure out if im into women or not and if im available or not#but it's that sort of thing where there's just. a lot in my shoulders and a lot to consider. i want a relationship eventually but.#there's just so much to consider right now. in the past i thought that as long as i could make my partner happy a rx is just btwn 2 of us#but when i did actually get into a serious long term relationship i realized that most people. do expect getting to have in laws.#people for the most part want to be loved proudly and not have to hide it. and i do too. but at the same time. i just. there's so much on me#i almost came out to my dad the other day while trying to console him. but maybe that news would just be the last straw for him. idk.#i just can't really afford to have my life be shaken up much more right now when i just rebuilt some stability.#especially when my parents are having a midlife crisis and both of them are leaning on me. my health worsening also stressed them out too.#i really thought I'd be braver and have less to worry about the older i got and the more independent i became but. ig not.#in my teens i told myself once i reached adulthood I'd be free to be myself and pursue happiness. in my 20s i tell myself after med school.#maybe once I'm finally out of med school and etc I'll have the opportunity to live my life. or maybe by then there will be another reason.#it's a real concern. i mean. sure I've never wanted kids I've always been ace and I've always liked women but. the societal pressure.#to other queer people the gaydar goes off easily but to the cishet audience i've mostly. been able to go unnoticed.#and when you're younger not having a bf or ppl you're interested in and being focused on your studies is a thing your parents are proud of#but as i get older. it's just been harder. i don't know how much longer i have before i have to conform or have the cat out of the bag.#i don't even get it sometimes. i really don't. the expectation of family and marriage is wanting happiness for your child right? but somehow#idk. idk. i really don't know. sometimes maintaining an image. might be more important than your child's feelings.#and i really can't be certain that between ego and saving face compared to me that. I'll come out on top. i really don't know.#idk. idk. i know there are ppl interested in dating me. but idk. i really need some time to process things through.#sometimes i ask myself how i would feel abt it and i really can't figure out how i feel at all.#it's ok to date someone u don't love ig. i mean. I've done it before. you can make yourself like someone after a while. but idk if i.#idk i just. i think im just really scared. and I'll need at least another month or so before anything is back on the table.#it's honestly just me running away from having to deal with sorting out thoughts and feelings 👍👍👍 which i eventually will have to face ig#but if i do fall in love ik i have it in me to sort those things out quickly i think. if im not too scared to let myself fall.#ig i just have to get more used to ppl being interested in me again ack 😭 it's easy to ignore it when dating someone but. now.#and it was fine in the summer bc i wasn't really around too many ppl my age. but. ugh. unfortunately. i do have. a face and a personality.#delete later
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Group Chat: Jason's girlfriend
Heyyy long time no write. It's been a while since I've fully written something and i still have drafts but here's a little shitpost i came up with because my dispensing exam is finally done (and I'm happy cause i got the 2nd highest score).
It's just off the top of my head so i hope y'all don't come after me too hard. Also i initially personalized this for me but eh what the hell, here you go.
Indented lines are in your perspective
DEMIS 🧡💜
______________________________
Piper
I'm sorry but are we going to talk about the fact that Jason says "my girlfriend" on his bio??
Leo
Hol up
WAT
Jason
Guys
Leo
Jason
You have a GIRLFRIEND???
Jason
I'd really not rather talk about this right now :(
Why not? I hear she's cute :>
Jason
Really, y/n?
Piper
Who is sheee D:
Do we know her?
When will we know her?
How did you guys meet?
Annabeth
Ok pipes chill, give the guy some space
Percy
But also
Who is she 👀
Jason
PERCY >:
Will
How do we not know this?
Nico do we know this?
Nico
No
Shame man
Jason
REALLY WILL AND NICO??
U guys are like, the first ones who knew
Percy
Uhh i thought that was me n annabeth
Annabeth
🤦🏼♀️
Piper
I'm sorry but AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW?
Leo
Don't forget me pipes
Hazel
And me
Frank
Ngl i thought you and jason were still dating
Piper
Nah we broke up almost a year ago
We didn't really make a big deal of it
Frank
Oh, okay
Leo
@Reyna hermana are you seeing this?
Reyna
Uhh yeah?
In anticipation of your question, I had no idea that Jason was dating someone else
Piper
Y/n?
What
Piper
You know about this?
Jason's gf thing?
Yeah, i do
Jason
Wow, gf thing? Really?
Piper
Omgs sooo?
Sooo what?
Piper
Wellll who is she?
No comment
Leo
Oh come on D: pleaaase y/n
Is this because you're still mad at me
Gods leo not everything is about you
Leo
Right, sorry
Anyway, fine
Yes, i know her
No, i won't tell you who she is
Piper
Cool cool cool cool cool cool cool no doubt no doubt
Not hurt at all at the fact that leo and i are the only ones not involved on this information ig
Frank
And frank
Hazel
And me
Reyna
Me too
Frank
Ok hang on just a recap
Percy, Annabeth, y/n, Will and Nico know
Me, Reyna, Hazel, Piper, Leo don't?
Pretty much, yeah
That's pretty evened out i wouldn't be mad by those statistics
Jason
We just got this group chat and the first thing we do is hyperfixate on my love life?
Pretty intriguing if you ask me 🧐
Piper
(2)
Leo
(3)
Frank
(4)
Hazel
No idea what's going on but i guess I'll say (5)?
YES OMGS HAZEL YOU'RE LEARNING
I'm so proud
*wipes away fake tears except they're real because i can cry on queue*
Will
Wow, not so subtle there
I'm talented an i know it william 😌
Jason
*Message unsent*
Piper
HOLY SHII WHAT WAS THAT??
JASON WAT U SENT?
Leo
What the heck is going on?
Jason
Nothing D:
Piper
I think jason may have sent something meant for his gf but he removed it before i even saw it
Booooo
Resend!! D:
Jason
Y/n what are you even complaining about anyway :((
You already know
I know it's just fun to antagonize you
Hehe
Jason
You're mean
Frank
👀
*Insert anime butterfly meme caption: is this playful banter?*
Yes children
Give in to the meme culture
Jason
Should i be concerned about this
Please this is basic level meme culture
Y'all are yet to dive in to the random screenshots and emoji memes and revisiting 90s-00s cartoons
These are the classic popular ones
Jason
How the heck do you know so much about memes?
Percy
Counterargument
How the heck do you NOT know so much about memes?
Also quick survey but how do you guys pronounce memes
Hazel
Uhh, mee-mees?
Nico
^^ what she said
Omg i am trying so hard not laugh at Nico's response right now
Please stop me
Nico
Uhh what?
Will
It kinda sounds like you said "that's what she said" without the "that's"
Nico
And that's funny because
Annabeth
It's like a verbal meme for when someone says an accidental innuendo
See even annabeth is hooked on the meme culture
Annabeth
Percy's my boyfriend and you're his sister, plus your my friend
How can i not know this
Touché
Anyway, we have strayed from the topic at hand
Jason's unsent message
Jason
Y/N!!
Leo
Why are you being so elusive about your girlfriend jase?
Jason
Please don't call me Jase
My girlfriend calls me that
Piper
👀
Leo
👀
Frank
👀
Nico
👀
See, emoji memes
Hazel
Okay but don't you want everyone else to know how great she is and how much you love her?
Jason
I do but
I don't know, it feels kinda early
You're honor, let the record show that this boy has been dating his girlfriend for 5 months now
Jason
You're so mean to me :(
And yet you love me
Piper
HLOY--
HWAT????????
Leo
DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME OR???
Jason
Nice going y/n ):
What, can't two friends love each other platonically?
Will
Smooth
Leo
EXCUSE ME
BUT
Piper
I'm sorry BACKTRACJ PLEASE
Leo
ARE JASON AND Y/N DATING?????
Percy
👀
Annabeth
👀
Reyna
The timeline makes sense
Will
👀
Nico
👀
Why does everything about love have to be romantic
Why can't i just love my friends without being judged D:
Frank
That was a little random tho
Have i really never said before how much i love you guys
I mean really
Is it really THAT random?
Piper
She has a point
She's very affectionate
Thank you piper for validating my affection
But even if i hypothetically were dating jason would it really be so bad
Frank
Sooo you're like what, extra affectionate to jason
I'm just naturally affectionate, Frank D:
Piper
Gurl are you and jason dating or what
What do you think?
Leo
I think that I'm getting mixed signals here
Haha that's what Jason told me before we started dating
Piper
HOLY SHIT
Leo
AND THERE IT IS
Jason
Are u guys happy now
Honestly i would've expected you to be happier, Jase
Or can i not call you Jase cos that's reserved for your girlfriend 👀
Jason
You ARE my girlfriend D:
And i am happy :>
See, i taught him how to use that smiley
The :) smiley is too passive aggressive
Percy
See @Annabeth i told you that's the passive aggressive smiley
I don't make the rules
Annabeth
Okay fine, seaweed brain, i trust u
Aww look at that, they're being adorable
Jason
As adorable as us?
No we just did a big reveal no one can top that adorableness today 😌
Nico
Ok stop it you all are being too cutesy
Will
Oh please you're one to talk
Leo
In all seriousness tho, I'm really happy for you guys
And I'm just happy y/n and i are friends again
What do you mean again
This is the first time we've been just friends
Leo
So we weren't ever friends before?
No, we started dating-ish when you arrived so that's not "just friends"
Then we broke up and we weren't talking
And now we really are just friends
Leo
Wow, you make friendship sound complicated
Either way im just happy that we're okay
Piper
Yeah, I'm glad Jason is with you
You can finally knock some rebelliousness into him
Believe me, I'm trying
Reyna
Is he finally done being everyone's golden boy
Frank
Is he finally done trying to please everyone
Well he hasn't stopped pleasing me that's for sure 😏👀
Will
OH MY GODS HAHAHAHAHHDHSHSSH
Jason
I am both pleased and uncomfortable at where this conversation is going
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