#it's not just the bitterness of queerbaiting and bromances but also just how much I don't trust

[trashquisitor-shirozora]

y'all.... i fucked up. again. 1:46AM and I got work at the fucking office tomorrow yet here I am once again brainstorming a thought that's more a vibe called "cotton candy 80s sunrise". what i need to know is WHERE THE FUCK ARE ALL THE SCREENCAPS HIDING AT.

my brain is just geralt uttering a single, perfect, "Fuck" every 10 seconds. fuck. FUCK. just... get it out of my system, get it all tf out i mean holy shit is this how it feels to have everything i ever wanted in a piece of genre fiction????? anyway.

[keagan-ashleigh]

Just started watching Being Human (UK version) and after ONE minute in I thought “oh no, not again, I’m gonna ship them hard and suffer because this will never happen for real, isn’t it? yes.” This is about George and Mitchell - I mean they’re so fucking cute and adorable together this is deadlier than their “condition” I tell you. But it’s making me real mad too because it’s not gonna lead anywhere. And also I think Aidan Turners smile is slowly and efficiently killing me, that is also true, this guy is radiant. But that’s not the point.

Now I’m gonna scream a bit (metaphorically, I’m not gonna scream my lungs out at 4am). This is gonna be a massive rant, you’re warned.

can show please stop selling me fucking bromances I WANT LOVE AND HAPPY PEOPLE LOVING EACH OTHER OK I’ve been spoiled, I know who dies so I’m already pissed by the fact it’s not gonna happen. I know it’s not gonna happen, I know it’s two blokes sharing a flat and having “gay moments” and everyone literally telling them they’re gay but this is just for a good laugh. I know it’s not gonna happen because to spare me the pain of hoping like I did before I fucking Googled it. YES. I KNOW. AND I’M PISSED. LET SAME SEX PEOPLE LOVE EACH OTHER FOR FUCKING CHRIST SAKE I’M SO DONE I like the show. It’s a good one, it makes me laugh and I like the story. And I know I’m gonna love the little moments between them and I’m gonna love Mitchell looking so desperate because George literally screams in pain and he can do nothing about it and I’m gonna love the big deadly smiles he gives him because he loves him no matter how. I’m gonna love those moments between them and I’m gonna smile like an idiot because it’s so damn cute, because it’s all about the beautiful chemistry two persons can have. But I know this is a fucking joke to them. Just a joke. “They look gay but they are not! what a gimmick!” I hate them. I hate that I smile and laugh and roll with it, thinking about how cute and adorable they are. This is a fucking joke to them. Just like apparently it was a joke in Sherlock, and in so many shows I love for the beauty of a good chemistry. Is this SO unimaginable to present male friendship without turning it into a “everyone think they’re gay” joke, with people LITERALLY shouting “gaydar!” at them?? and to have two men just plainly loving each other without it being a joke? IS THAT SO FUCKING HARD? DAMN are ALL the shows I’ll be watching be about two men sharing a flat and loving each other but in a bro way ? Thankfully there was some good ones like Sense 8 but none of them are gonna last more than two seasons and a special closing ep “offered” to calm people down amirite - well there’s at least one or two exceptions I know and watch and enjoy but let me be bitter right now.

I’m so done. FUCK. Do I needed that so soon after Sherlock finally unravelled as the English King of queerbaiting? hell fucking no because it’s just salting an open wound you know. I didn’t know what Being Human was about but if I did knew, I would have waited to see it. It’s just so much like Sherlock, the only difference here is that there is no surprises, no expectations, no hopes - it still hurts, but not in the same way, with Sherlock I had hope. I read a lot of metas and theories and even write some in the hope that I can find it again, but it’s not working that great, it still hurts, especially when I hear people around me who don’t see the problem. Maybe I fooled myself for four years is what I tell myself sometimes when I hear them saying that I basically imagined stuff, even though I know it’s not true, and it hurts that they don’t understand and wave it off with a “there is nothing there about romance, there is no problem, why don’t you accept that and see things for what they are?”. And I hate myself for staying silent, I wish I could find the way to make them see, and to make them understand it’s not about me or what I wanted, this not my pain even though I feel at pain; but I can’t, I’m tired of arguing so I say nothing and cry when I’m alone instead. This isn’t gonna heal itself easily, it seems, and I’m so frustrated that I can never share this with my friends, because they don’t understand and only see me overreacting, nor with other people close to me who would never understand why a tv show can make someone feel so bad. Sharing it with you matters to me because you understand but it’s not the same as someone you’ve known since forever telling you “I’m with you. I understand you’re sad and angry.” without a “but” following. Doesn’t alleviate the loneliness to shout it here.

This is silly isn’t it, that an old show is reviving this pain. I’m gonna swallow the tears and finish it though, because it’s too late, I’ve started it, I like the show in general, I love their chemistry, I will like rewriting their story even though it’ll make me cry that this isn’t the real story, that it never is, and when I’m done I’m gonna cry a little bit more and even more so until someone finally makes things right and stops treating queerness as a running gag while throwing an actual gay character in the middle of it in a shitty attempt to discharge themselves of being accused of homophobia.

[burning-waters]

That 21st century Sherlock Holmes fic everyone is watching

this is going to be a Sherlock-hate-stemming-from-unfulfilled-Johnlock rant and im sure most of my small amount of readers doesnt give two craps about this so be glad i learned how to hide text. also some spoilers maybe? carry on with your dashboard if you will. 

(main spoiler is that Johnlock didnt happen onscreen, but im sure tumblr has already made you aware of that.)

but imma rant here a bit because i’ve got nowhere else to do it and no one else to direct it to. also people are still hoping for more episodes that will make Johnlock a thing, but until that happens (if it happens) this is what i have to say about it.

first off im hoping you arent using the word “canon” to refer to anything more than just the BBC Sherlock rendition of these stories, since you cant make Johnlock Holmesian Canon because ACD never explicitly made it a thing. (as of now ACD Canon will be written so and BBC canon will be written so).

Mofftiss were all about trying to put a twist to the original stories but still keep the basics intact. sure they took their own spin on things, particularly with season 4 ep 3, but im glad they tried keeping to Canon and that they made references to it. they address many different things, like The Woman, three-continents Watson, Mrs Hudson’s missing husband, G. Lestrade and so many other loose ends that ACD didnt give a flying fuck about because he wanted Sherlock dead. fans were the ones that literally brought him back from the grave.

there was also the fact that at the time ACD wrote the stories, bromances were more commonly accepted (i dont see any old newspaper clippings being outraged with their relationship as being unbiblical so im kinda assuming). people can yell from any rooftop they want that the fact that Holmes and Watson -- in Canon -- go out for a walk “arm in arm” or that Holmes tells Watson at one point “quick, man, if you love me!” and Watson does what he asks, or that Holmes is ready to kill a man for (possibly) maiming Watson means that they are gay for each other, but that doesnt mean its true. you can argue that it is exactly what that means until you turn blue, and i will argue that it is exactly what it doesnt mean until i die too. 

if Canon is why Moftiss didnt feel like they should make it canon -- because they saw that this was a time period thing and nothing more -- then let them have it. no need to get red-to-the-face upset at them for not using this opportunity to give the LGBT community some representation. they never promised you that (pretty sure like they promised the opposite), the show was never about romance, and you can find that elsewhere. you can argue that they did queerbaiting (hell the originals have queerbaiting too if you read it in this generation), and they might as well be if you want to look at it like that, but these men are professional trolls. bad analogy: i could complain about them baiting us about Moriarty being dead or alive until the bitter end but that doesnt change what happened. again, profound apologies that it is an awful analogy because a character’s state of being is not on the same level as queerbaiting, but it proves my point: these men are trolls and we knew it from the start. some people probably kept watching because they hoped for a glimpse of Moriarty, with the cliff-hanger and all. but i wasnt caught off guard about the resolution of that loose end, just like i wasnt caught off guard with the fact that they never made Johnlock a thing. im thinking thats because i read the books and i had enough faith in Mofftiss to hope that they would do the right thing and respect the stories. 

now, did they possibly throw in subtext and Arty cliffhangers in there for the sake of baiting fans? heck yeah they probably did. the first like 10 minutes of TEH was all about pretty much mocking the fans in a loving way and then still making people question the solution they did give at the end of the episode. people are upset about that one too. did the final montage of Sherlock do that with all the ships? heck yeah. Johnlock was an open door, Sherlolly was an open door, even Mystrade was! MorMor was never rejected either, people. come on. 

if they didnt ship Sherlock with anyone in the end, it might be because they dont want to lose fans and so left all ships open for interpretation. most of all i think they wanted to keep Canon intact, and so they didnt mess with that friendship or with Sherlock’s sexuality -- i personally think if anything he is ace, from the stories themselves, but i digress. i commend them for leaving all of that open. theyre douchebags, i get it. but if you hate a show because of that, then you werent watching it for the show. you were watching it hoping it would become a romance, when in reality all it ever was advertised as was a crime show. 

if you want to watch a rendition of Sherlock Holmes where the stories are defenestrated and anything goes, have fun with Elementary -- they are lots of fun to watch if you imagine its pure fanfic, cus those writers didnt give much of a flying fuck for the stories. again, i feel like Mofftiss felt like finally doing their own thing and tying all loose ends their own way with the latest episode, but i feel like at this point they had the right to. they created enough of their own canon loose ends. by resolving those, they made me feel deeply for characters that never existed in Canon. and they made me appreciate old characters even more.

i will also say that people have been shipping Holmes and Watson since the dawn of time. Johnlock isnt a new 21st century thing. it’s been there. for FOREVER (dont quote me on that). and what have people done about it? wrote fanfic. write a tv show that will give you the representation you think you deserve. or find one that already does that.

but please don’t hate. Moftiss can be dicks at times, im not denying it. they have reacted poorly towards fans before. but its their story, not yours. a little respect would be nice. they respected ACD and still managed to do their own thing -- BBC Sherlock is literally nothing more than their Sherlock fanfic put to television and shared with the world. they just happen to be making money off their fic. 

no one is hating on your fic. dont hate on theirs.  

P. S. also, please, if you want to hate on them for season 4 (i want to hate on them for season 3), do it because of bad storytelling, plot holes, and loose ends, and mostly for making that episode the love child of Saw and Bond. i was not prepared for that. i’m at peace with it, i think -- it was brilliant, it was awful, and it was everything in between. what they promised us as good writers was to not make those mistakes that i mentioned above that you can hate them for. (i for one am all about suspension of disbelief and enjoying the ride for what it is. but like, seriously, how often do TWO genius kids come from one family???).

P. P. S. Jeremy Brett will always be my fav (sorryBennynotsry).