#it's me I'm the one searching every sentence for subtext and studying every possible shred of truth behind what Bill says

[the-gay-prometheus]

You get it!!! You understand!!!!

Or, well, it's not Euclydia per se - it's what was left behind when Euclidia was straight up erased from existence. Energy cannot be created nor destroyed so when an entire dimension is torn out of the multiverse by force, something has to be left behind. That something would reasonably be a chaotic, lawless mess of energy floating in the hole that exists where a dimension was supposed to be. But the multiverse demands an equilibrium of sorts, so of course soon (give or take a couple million or billion years) after it comes into existence it begins to decay and become part of the literal void of nothingness surrounding every other dimension.

Somebody asked Alex during a book signing "What does Bill need?" And Alex's whole answer is fantastic btw (15:05-17:15 of this video) but the biggest clues are (paraphrasing) "He needs things that he can't have - he needs to be able to undo things that can't be undone" and "Being Bill's therapist would be like trying to piece together the truth from all of the different versions of his backstory that he tells" and "He needs to be honest with himself, and I don't know if he's capable of that."

I think all of those things really paint my own picture of what's going on with the whole Nightmare Realm situation because at the end of the day, what has he been desperately trying to do this whole time? He's been trying to merge the Nightmare Realm with a healthy dimension (if he really just wanted to 'hop into another dimension' he would have literally done that already), likely because maybe by merging it with a healthy dimension, there could be enough order to stave off the coming decay, and also still enough chaos for he and his friends to continue their fun. Point is, though, he cannot, for some reason, let this specific place go, which seems incredibly sentimental of him even if he tries to make it sound as unsentimental as possible.

I think that he thinks he needs to undo the things that can't be undone in order to heal, but the real truth behind what he needs is: he needs to learn how to let go. He can't accept endings, so he'll tighten his grip on whatever it is he can't let go of, regardless of the damage he causes to others, to himself, or to the very thing (or person in one case...) that he's holding on to.

Rotates in my brain the way Bill says his dimension was burned out of existence and the way that the Nightmare Realm is described as smelling eternally of burning hair. Which is probably just coincidence and was just the most obnoxious smell that Alex could think of but.

I am thinking about the Implications.