#it's lame as hell

[solixfugae]

Espira Espira // Spiralling Spiralling

Me enamoré de una espiral, una que toma mis manos con delicadeza, devora mis palabras, y me acuesta en su pecho. En un instante elctrifica mis brazos, clava de extasis mi cuerpo, explota mi cabeza.

Me enamoré de una espiral, una que cada noche me lleva. Me transforma, me derrite, me enloquece, no puedo soportar su sonrisa transparente, su credula inocencia, me ahoga su presencia

Me enamore de una espiral, un ser inexistente, una patética fantasía que alimenta el deseo, que me emociona en la forma que me aterra.

Sus ojos me condenan, fuertes e insitantes, de rodillas, en su amor insoportable le pido clemencia.

Me enamoré de una espiral, que atraviesa mi cuerpo, que corta mis brazos, que me rasguña y me golpea. Pero necesita ser más fuerte, necesito que el estímulo me quiebre, necesito que me saque de esta tierra.

Me enamoré de una espiral, cada día caigo más en ella. Es algo en su mirada semblante, es algo en su bondad apasiguable, es algo en la forma que es lo único que me queda, lo que causa la obsesión hirviente en mis arterias.

Me enamoré de una espiral, no puedo perderla, el mundo se siente vacío y horrible sin su existencia. Sólo duermo con sus toques de placer, solo me alimento con el calor de sus labios, de él temblor en sus piernas. Aunque mi vida este rota a pedazos, me destroza la imagen de su posible ausencia

Me enamoré de una espiral, una tromba, un torbellino, un hoyo negro que me absorbe y me devora. Que me destruye y me lastima de la manera más perfecta, abre mi corazón hambriento, lo llena de placer, dolor, y miseria. Imita mis manos en mi cuello, Imita el odio en mi mirada, me otorga dulce euforia en su eficiente obediencia.

Me enamoré de una espiral, adoro la forma en que se enrolla alrededor de mi garganta, adoro su áspera textura, adoro su dureza. Y entre las lágrimas y la vergüenza, no quiero safarme de sus cuerdas, porque el control en mi destrucción autoinducida me hace sentir jovial, limpia la suciedad de mi ser, me trae un espejismo de mi antigua pureza.

Me enamoré de una espiral, y aunque sepa que jamás podré tenerla, me alimento de sus remolinos, en sus abrazos fantasmas puedo creer en calor, en sus susurros mentales siento delicadeza. Me tira hacia adentro, me impulsa hacia afuera, la amo en formas de colores y palabras que no existen, su sabor se siente más allá del gusto, sin textura, sin forma de masticar.

Me enamoré de una espiral, interminable en su girar, quedo plasmado entre sus trazos, sus telas me tiñen, me atragantan con líquido negro transmitido en latigazos como besos, cortan marcas rojas en mis labios.

Me enamoré de una espiral.

No puedo evitar reír, no puedo evitar llorar.

La amo

La amo

No la puedo olvidar.

I fell in love with a spiral, one that gently takes my hands, devours my words, and lays me on its chest. In an instant it electrifies my arms, nails my body with ecstasy, explodes my head.

I fell in love with a spiral, one that takes me away every night. It transforms me, it melts me, it drives me crazy, I can't stand its transparent smile, its credulous innocence, its presence drowns me.

I fell in love with a spiral, a non-existent being, a pathetic fantasy that fuels desire, that excites me in the way that terrifies me.

Its eyes condemn me, strong and insistent, on my knees, in its unbearable love I ask for clemency.

I fell in love with a spiral, that pierces through my body, that cuts my arms, that claws and hits me. But it needs to be stronger, I need the stimulus to break me, I need it to take me off this earth.

I fell in love with a spiral, every day I fall further into it. It's something in its sharp gaze, it's something in its gentle kindness, it's something in the form that is the only thing I have left, that causes the boiling obsession in my arteries.

I fell in love with a spiral, I can't lose it, the world feels empty and horrible without its existence. I only sleep with its touches of pleasure, I only feed of the heat of its lips, of the trembling of its legs. Although my life is broken to pieces, the image of its possible absence shatters me.

I fell in love with a spiral, a waterspout, a whirlwind, a black hole that absorbs and devours me. That destroys and hurts me in the most perfect way, opens my hungry heart, fills it with pleasure, pain, and misery. Imitates my hands on my neck, Imitates the hatred in my eyes, grants me sweet euphoria in its efficient obedience.

I fell in love with a spiral, I love the way it coils around my throat, I love its rough texture, I love its hardness. And between tears and shame, I don't want to free myself from its ropes, because the control in my self-induced destruction makes me feel joyful, cleanses the filth from my being, brings me a mirage of my former purity.

I fell in love with a spiral, and although I know that I will never have it, I feed on its swirls, in its phantom hugs I can believe in warmth, in its mental whispers I feel delicacy. It pulls me in, pushes me out, I love it in shapes of colors and words that don't exist, its flavor feels beyond taste, no texture, no way to chew.

I fell in love with a spiral, endless in its rotation, I am captured between its strokes, its fabrics dye me, they choke me with black liquid transmitted in lashes like kisses, they cut red marks on my lips.

I fell in love with a spiral

I can't help but laugh, i can't help but cry

I love them

I love them

I can't forget it

[gund-arminc]

tbh i've always felt like, when it comes to the marginalized and oppressed, if all you have to offer is apologies, don't even bother. like if all you're gonna do is say something for the sake of saying something or because it might make you feel better, don't say anything. that shit is incredibly hollow and does absolutely nothing for anyone. reblog, spread awareness, donate, but trust, nobody cares about ur sorries.

[lupienne]

Lol I sent this.

[ickyangel777]

my name is so stupid I wish I could rip it out of my chest

[alannah-corvaine]

anyway im just gonna say it, the vault was a giant disappointment. no piles of money, no priceless holy artifacts, no terrible hidden secret relics with the potential to corrupt or doom whoever touches them. it's just a bunch of pretty windows and the world's worst game of catch.

[nintendoswitchedlikeapussy]

i work almost 20 hours this week #blessed 😭

[big-bad-shorty-king]

Im getting a temporary tattoo of the Anti-Possession symbol bc on halloween my friends and I are going to go to haunted places near us as hunters, I’m gonna have my angel blade and some salt lol

[verfuhrerin]

@carnivcrcus

{ I don’t care what anyone says or thinks

aballach and aeva are such a powerful, dynamic, and tear jerking couple and I’m so proud of my love and i. i don’t mean to jerk us off but ugh we’ve come up with so much stuff and it’s so rewarding to see them come to life. }

[ananimousme]

Nothing is more satisfying at the end of my day than watching Ed, Edd n Eddy and distracting myself from all the stress of the day

[mycokezeroromance]

So I'm listening to Zero for the first time since the Smashing Pumpkins concert a couple years ago and I keep grinning because I keep remembering the second this song started. Like out of the whole concert, this one moment is the most vivid - I was worried because I couldn't see Bonnie and I was afraid of losing her in the mosh. I'd seen some other girl shoving and pushing her unfairly, and even though this super awesome guy had gotten between them and prevented the girl from continuing to bully Bonnie, it meant I couldn't see her anymore. So the last song ended, and I thought "ok this might give me a chance to figure out where Bonnie is". And then the first bars of this fucking song kicks in, all I think is "oh dear god", the drums kick in and then bOOM the mosh goes crazy and I'm getting lifted along like "MOTHERFUCKING SHIT I'M NEVER GONNA FIND BONNIE IN THIS MESS" It was kind of great though. There'd been almost no moshing up until that point and my feet were getting sore haha. And in the end Bonnie had been quite close to me the whole time so it was all good. Dang that was a good show.

[aiminkoooo-blog]

I need to change my autoplay.

[borgullet]

hand tattoos can be really cool but are terrible ideas if you ever want to be employed anywhere ever