#it's kinda torturous ngl and even knowing that even once DX is secured there is NO support for adults other than online communities | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

rachymarie · 8 days ago

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High-masking mfers could practically beg the healthcare department for help for months with tears in our eyes* and they will still say "soz but you're not suicidal so you don't need help but here's a weekly educational group for an illness you don't even have and u are not allowed to talk about anything but the specified illnesses which you don't experience making you feel more alienated and isolated than ever lolz"

#*loljk flat affect/emotional blunting #tw suicide mention #it's like nothing but suicide violence self harm etc (if even those) ever gets appropriate support #I'm just being honest #havin a mighty rough morning for the first time in ages #undiagnosed autism things #schizospec #schizospec problems #high-masking #high-masking autism #high-masking schizospec #somedays I haven't the foggiest how i am fooling anybody into thinking i am anything other than completely insane #late-diagnosed autistic #still waiting on my official diagnosis too #it must have been months now that I've been waiting since the possibility of a funded assessment was raised #and suddenly I feel like I am.. running out of time?#it's kinda torturous ngl and even knowing that even once DX is secured there is NO support for adults other than online communities #(which means more rambling and embarrassing myself)#hidden disability #invisible disability #actually autistic #autism in women #late diagnosed autistic women #high-masking problems #obv suicide is very serious but i have been doing everything in my power to not go down that road #and it's like they are beckoning me towards somethong more serious just to get any mental health support system back up #like “you are not severe enough 4 therapy” me: “oh that a challenge?” *drops my 7-year remission in favour of psychosis + hospitalization*🙄#tumblr staff like “🙄 oh not this bitch again”.. hey at least i still have my (bad) humour #why is it that the people struggling the most to function in this neurotypical world are the ones w the least financial means for therapy #make it make sense

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