#it's just so tiring to want something so badly and being so unequipped to acquire it
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I so badly want to have more people in my life, but holy shit I'm so fucking bad at building relationships
#it's so tiring and exhausting and anxiety fueling#but also i love talking to people so much#i love hearing about what other people are doing and the things they love#it's just that i always feel like im doing it wrong#and it fills me with so much anxiety that i dread doing it even though i want to#like i finally started using dating apps and that shit is so scary#and im in a new place and i still dont drive so i dont know where anything is nor can i even get there#and i want date i want to go out with people but it just fills me with dread#like someone asked me out last night and i just haven't responded bc i have now idea how to???#i hate feeling this way so damn much#i know anxiety is a mental illness i fucking know it#but some part of me really thought that i wouldn't always be this way#i thought that i would grow out of it that it lessen and I'd be able to exist without being in a constant state of panic#which is dumb because i know that's not how this shit works#and honestly im probably autistic too so I know I'll always have issues with building and keeping relationships#it's just so tiring to want something so badly and being so unequipped to acquire it#anyway#life has been weird lately#personal
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