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Have a treat, sweetie, this is another piece of a fic for the loveliest @hotgirlstiles

He was done and set up to go. The bag at his feet, the passport in his pocket.

Derek didn’t move.

Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw Peter sigh and fold his arms, though the man didn’t say a thing. He heard Derek’s racing heartbeat. The stench of his apprehension and grim anger soaked every corner around them.

Suddenly, there were steps. Small and quiet, as if the person tried really hard not to be heard.

Derek’s head snapped to the side. His throat tightened at the sight of the omega peeking out of the corner. With his heart beating out of his chest, Derek lifted his hand.

“Come here,” he begged.

Ignoring Peter altogether, Stiles walked briskly towards him and pressed himself against his chest, folding his arms on Derek’s back. He wasn’t crying but took deep breaths where his nose was buried in Derek’s neck.

Derek wrapped his arms tightly around his frame and put his lips against Stiles’ ear.

“Listen to Peter, okay? I trust him. I wouldn’t leave you with someone I didn’t trust.”

“Okay,” said Stiles barely above a breath.

“I’ll try to be quick,” Derek promised hotly.

Stiles tensed a bit, took a deep breath, and extracted himself from Derek’s arms. He didn’t ask where Derek was going, for how long, or why. He just smiled politely and nodded.

It wasn’t his smile, not the one Derek knew. The wolf wanted to take Stiles and shake the truth out of him, to scream and beg until Stiles told him what had happened between the kiss and him waking up.

Do you regret it? Did you forget it? Do you think it was a dream? Do you want more?

Derek stared at him for a couple of seconds, then grabbed his face, and pressed a searing kiss to his cheekbone. It lasted a second, even less. Then, again, eternity would not be enough for the wolf.

Without a word, without a glance, Derek turned around, grabbed his bag, and marched out of the house.

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In depth fandom ask: the last fandom you joined bc I can't remember it now

Well, I guess the last fandom I’ve properly joined --making a few edits, starting yet-another-WIP etc.-- is Black Sails, so. Plus I want to talk about it a little, spoiler-free, in case you decide to watch it ^-^ (I’ll leave that to the s3 post I need to finish...).

Top 5 favourite characters: Max is my number one, without a doubt, and of the rest of my faves Silver has an edge... but the remaining positions are a tough fight between Flint, Jack, Madi and Miranda, and I honestly can’t choose DD:

Other characters you like: Mr. Scott, Anne, Idelle, the Maroon Queen, Billy, Eme, Abigail... This show has a lot of great characters tbh.

Least favourite characters: I still loathe Peter Ashe with every fiber of my being. Alfred Hamilton is obviously The Worst(TM). And though it hasn’t grown into hate (yet), I don’t like Woodes Rogers one bit ¬¬

Otps: Flint/Miranda, and the combos in Flint/Madi/Silver and Anne/Jack/Max (in no particular order at the moment because I just HAVE TONS OF FEELS ABOUT THEM ALL).

Notps: I don’t have strong NOPE feelings towards anything, but I’m not into Eleanor/Max (which is a dynamic I actually really like BUT that I’m glad it doesn’t return to shippiness LOL); Eleanor/Rogers (I might be indifferent towards Eleanor most of the time but I haaaaaate Rogers for her. RUN GIRL), Flint/Vane (booooooooring).

Favourite friendships: Max & Silver (THE duo I swear), Jack & Max, Flint & Silver, Idelle & Max (I might not have said so before but I guess I like a little conflict LMFAO), Billy & Flint (NOT a friendship, but their relationship absolutely cracks me up I swear. “Who’s Billy?” XDDD).

Favourite family: Madi’s family, which is all I can say without getting spoilery. I just. *lies down on the floor overcome with emotions* xDD

Favourite episodes: the problem with binge-watching (okay, I’ve taken s3 more slowly but) is that they all kinda blur together LOL. Hmm. The season finales are all *chefs kiss* so far (sometimes in a very painful way... I’m looking at you s2. Though the ominous Flint/Silver moments in the s3 were A LOT too); any in which I get to see Max & Silver scheming together ofc. And the first handful of eps in s3 were particularly enjoyable to me because I was drowning in PURE ANGST and Flint & Silver feels xDD (I can’t NOT believe the fandom seems to call one of those “the shark date” asñldfjasdfñl).

Favourite season/book/movie: oof. I honestly can’t pick; s1 is probably the “least” because the others include better moments for some of my secondary faves, and because there’s a plot that’s really hard to watch... BUT it has things on it I adore to pieces too. s1-2 doesn’t have Madi (major drawback xD), and s3 is after one of my faves’ death... but frankly they’re all neck and neck so far.

Favourite quotes: “I am ruined over you” always comes to mind DD: “Liked is just as good as feared”; Max combo with Eleanor about sand (typing that down made me think of Anidala LMFAO. The scene itself is very different though! xD) in the s1 finale; “in another time, in another place, they would call me a queen”; “this ends when I grant them my forgiveness, not the other way around”, Mr. Scott’s “No. Only YOU.”... honestly, this show’s dialogue is just too good(TM), I could just quote it all back xD. And of course, I HAVE to mention “WHO’S BILLY”. It’s the law.

Best musical moment: the score is perfection all around, but given that I never skip the intro just to listen and watch it... yeah, the intro xD

Moment that made you fangirl/boy the hardest: well, I *might* have lost it the moment CAPTAIN FLINT COMES OUT TO LONG JOHN SILVER OVER A BONFIRE, IDK XDD

When it really disappointed you: the fact that I won’t get to see a fully fleshed out Mr. Scott-Silver dynamic is MAJORLY disappointing, let me tell you. That Flint’s actor didn’t somehow get his mother (aka Maggie Smith aka Professor McGonagall aka Lady Violet) on the show too ¬¬. LOL.

Saddest moment: character’s deaths of two of the characters listed on “top 5”/“others you like” xD.

Most well done character death: the hanging in 3x09 was well done and served its purpose.

Favourite guest star: for a value of “guest star”... I’m going with Idelle.

Favourite cast member: Jessica Parker Kennedy is the one that I know and love for other projects she’s done.

Character you wish was still alive: THE ONE WE TRAGICALLY LOST IN 2x09.

One thing you hope really happens: I’m cheating because I know there’s some of that in s4, but I want to watch more Flint/Madi interactions pls.

Most shocking twist: well, I wasn’t spoiled for Mr. Scott’s plot in s3 so I was (pleasantly) surprised by that xD

When did you start watching/reading?: a little over two weeks ago; I watched (devoured) s1-s2 and 3x01-3x04 in a few days because I wanted to meet Madi, and then I tragically had to slow down :(((

Best animal/creature: I will always love Treasure Islands’  parrot that Silver named after Flint LMFAO.

Favourite location: Nassau aka Max’s ~domain xD. And Miranda’s house.

Trope you wish they would stop using: noooooone. I love the tropes this show reuses LMFAO. Romantic Betrayals(TM), triumvirates, “good things happen in the dark/away from civilization”, the power of narratives, social climbing and revolt... bring them oooooon.

One thing this show/book/film does better than others: quite a few xD. But one that really stands out to me is the dialogue; both the ~deep and sorrowful type (there were so many quotes where I had to take a break to freak out properly lol), and the humorous ones.

Funniest moments: I know I’m repeating myself, but I recently rewatched the pilot to edit some scenes and I keep remember the WHO’S BILLY one xDD (which I maintain it was Flint trolling him. He could give Abigail a rundown of Billy’s whole life story AND he shamelessly checked him out that one time. Flint knows who Billy is, he’s just an asshole xD). Really, all the scenes between Billy and Flint in that episode are comedic gold lmfao. Billy’s “oh dear I fucked up” expression when he tells Flint the crew has started to think him weak and Flint looks half a second away from murdering him right there, his WTF face at Flint’s antics with the stolen page... Gold, seriously.

Couple you would like to see: I meannnnnn. I would’ve been very happy if the show had decided to go with Flint/Madi/Silver, for one. Bonus if Miranda could’ve been included. Or just explicit Flint/Silver in poly arrangements (THEY ARE IN LOVE, IT’S JUST ~COMPLICATED XD).

Actor/Actress you want to join the cast: MAGGIE SMITH DAMMIT.

Favourite outfit: literally everything Max wears in s3. Eleanor’s s1-s2 outfits were things I’d love to wear too. Flint’s ~dramatic coat. Miranda’s collection of supposedly-puritan-but-showing-the-goods dresses xDD (and ofc her London clothes), Jack’s clothes (he’s Nassau’s fashion icon lbr).

Favourite item: the books!! Especially when Flint gave Miranda “La Galatea” as a gift (given that sometimes he reminds me of my OC Latoya, you might understand the freakout I had when he gave the other member of my OTP a book titled like that xDD).

Do you own anything related to this show/book/film?: no, but I kinda want to. I did have a Treasure Planet computer game I tragically can’t find... it was about collecting money in increasingly difficult scenarios LOL. And I probably have more pirate-y/Treasure Island theme stuff. I had a long pirate phase xD

What house/team/group/friendship group/family/race etc would you be in?: Max’s because I like being on the winning team, thanks xD (though I do ~align more with Flint and Madi’s lbr...).

Most boring plotline: Eleanor and Vane’s ~romance is not at all badly written... but the fact that I find both of them boring kinda ruins the whole thing because I always wish that time went to someone else xD. Also, Blackbeard. Meh.

Most laughably bad moment: n/a.

Best flashback/flashfoward if any: the London flashback where Miranda goes to Flint’s house unannounced to take him to an art gallery, she finds him half-naked and he gets all awkward about it lmao. And then they hook up in the carriage :DDD

Most layered character: we get to explore Flint and Silver the most. Silver’s development in particular is something that never ceases to impress me ngl.

Most one dimensional character: except the one-note characters I wouldn’t really call anyone completely one-dimensional, tbh. Though I do think the fandom attributes more complexity to Thomas than it’s seen in canon? Like, I like what I see; I think he’s functional, he works well, and he adds wonderfully to Flint’s (and Miranda’s) story, but I don’t see him as a full character in his own right. Which is perfectly fine for the narrative so far, but I fear it might fall apart for me at the very end.

Scariest moment: I never know what to say in this... I mean, I guess Flint killing a man with his bare hands in the pilot Like That was scary xD. I understand why Silver freaked out LOL.

Grossest moment: any of Max’s interactions with Vane tbh. Stay away from her ¬¬

Best looking male: Flint has that ruggedly handsome thing going on for him, if you’re into that (and sometimes I do appreciate his ~aesthetics... very sad he shaved his head in s3 though. Like, I get you did it for the Angst, honey, and trust me, I Feel U, but still). I feel like I might be forgetting someone, but seriously, none of the dudes in this show so far do anything for me LOL. I can honestly say I love them for their personalities xDD

Best looking female: I have a weakness for Max, but Miranda, Madi, Anne, the Maroon Queen, Idelle, Eme... all of them are gorgeous in their own way. This show is good for sapphic women’s enjoyment in that sense xDD.

Who you’re crushing on (if any): I could crush on any of the women mentioned above tbh.

Favourite cast moment: I have literally only seen this post about an interview where Flint’s actor says he’s too old to party with The Youth of the cast and just wants to chill on the weekend... with bonus Max and Eleanor’s actress talking about how Vane’s once climbed the side of a building up AND back down. I’m with you, Toby Stephens, you don’t need those shenanigans xDD

Favourite transportation: the Walrus, for sentimental reasons LOL. I liked stolen Spanish warship too.

Most beautiful scene (scenery/shot wise): lots of good ones, though I think my fave might be the one of Miranda sitting by the window in London. Or the one of Charles Town burning down, I liked that :))) (I remember thinking “Flint better go full Daenerys on them”. And he did! It was nice xD).

Unanswered question/continuity issue/plot error that bugs you: n/a, so far.

Best promo: n/a.

At what point did you fall in love with this show/book: I liked it from the word go, but the moment that TRULY cemented it for me was in 1x03, with Max making a decision that I... frankly didn’t expect. It made things worse for her in the short-term, the storyline itself was difficult and disturbing to watch and I still have some mixed feelings about it. But what it said about her as a character and how her journey goes after that... I was in awe of her, and of the show.

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What do you think of Saeran's after ending? I honestly cannot believe he chose forgiveness in such a short time....

(nick don’t look at this one yet it’s spoilery)

oh that aspect was bullshit of the highest caliber. it’s softened a LITTLE BIT because of the sheer fact that 1. papa choi (and rika and v) still does face legal consequences and saeran doesn’t seem to be opposed to that at least, and 2. seven is unceasingly angry with papa choi so at least SOMEONE recognizes the severity of what happened!!! but... oh my god. this turned into a long rant and for that i’m sorry, but oh my GOD.

like, okay, if it was just rika and v, that would be one thing. tbh i’d always thought that, once he was out of mint eye and in a space where he could process everything and recognize how wrong the things rika did were... after working through that, eventually he would have decent odds of sympathizing with her, if only a little. like, not to the point where he’s cool with her, he’s never going to get to a place where he plays happy family with rika and v, or even allows them in his life as occasional ‘friends’ or whatever, no way. they’ve gotta vamoose (to a cell) for the sake of his mental health, i think anything else would just do more damage.

but given the history he has with rika, how much he believed in her cause and how much he just plain cares about Helping People Who Are Hurt... whether it’s merited or not, i can see him forgiving rika eventually, at least to an extent. so i think i’m okay with the broad strokes of saeran’s forgiveness towards rika and v, at least.

(in v’s case, i can’t believe my headcanon that i’ve had for years was validated — the idea that if saeran forgives v, it’s with a mindset of ‘wow you’re pretty pathetic, huh. just... totally spineless. you’re not a mastermind after all, you’re just... kind of an obsessive loser with a martyr complex who consistently picks the most harmful choices. i guess this is the best i could expect from you, so..... i’m choosing to focus on moving forwards from this, too.’ i’ve never thought that saeran would sympathize with v, regardless of whether forgiveness entered the equation, and it is SO funny to see that reflected in the after end. he really does just look at v as a sad, strange little man.)

and i understand that there are times when forgiveness can be much more about the person doing the forgiving than the person being forgiven, and saeran has spent years and years and years being blisteringly angry because the feud rika manufactured with seven benefited her and mint eye. i can see how he might be just........... tired of spending so much of his life and his energy on anger. his dad’s a terrible person, no one’s questioning that, so maybe at the end of everything, he just wants to move on and not be exhausted from always being scared and angry.

.....BUT.

HIS DAD BEAT THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF HIM. NEARLY TO DEATH. MOMENTS BEFORE THE FORGIVENESS HAPPENS WE WERE GETTING SCREENS WITH SOUND EFFECTS OF THE IMPACT(S) HAPPENING. WHAT THE /FUCK/.

like, the concept of letting go of your anger and choosing to forgive, conceptually, is one thing. it’s quite another to sit through that long sequence of SAERAN BEING BEATEN TO DEATH AND NEARLY SLIPPING AWAY and then also having so sit through and SUPPORT (in the dialogue choices) not only forgiving but sympathizing with THE MAN WHO TRIED TO CAUSE HIS DEATH AND IS STANDING THERE WATCHING HIM DIE

at the very least i wish mc’s responses to papa choi had been... colder. she gets one or two lines to emphasize that she thinks he’s scum, but there’s too much “i feel sorry for you.... how empty your life must have been to reach this point.... if only you’d made better choices...... if only you could find love in your heart now.......” no???????? i wish it was at least skewed more towards “listen, you’re a murderous brute and you deserve everything that’s coming to you but i’ll leave it at that since my boyfriend is trying to not let his trauma consume him and i’m trying to not let the injuries you inflicted on him be fatal. you should be groveling at his feet for this saintlike display tho, you miserable sack of shit.”

god i’m so. mad about it. i was even pleased with how cheritz had tackled something similar earlier! the conversation you have with rika and v where the mc learns that rika killed the twins’ mom in self-defense, and rika talks about how even though her own mother never showed a scrap of love for her and was a terrible person by all accounts, the idea of someone doing to her mother what SHE did to the twins’ mom makes her skin crawl, and she knows that despite everything, she’d view her mother’s killer as a monster. so even though the twins’ mom was an abusive shitheel, rika is convinced that saeran knowing she killed his mom is going to drive an immovable wedge between her and him, bc she assumes saeran‘s feelings towards his mother mirrors rika’s feelings. and man, i thought maybe cheritz was finally doing better at portraying this sort of thing because hey, people often DO hold very complicated feelings towards their abusers! rika knows her mom was awful but part of her still craves that love she never got, and if her mom died or was killed, she would still grieve! that’s a decent portrayal of a really complicated and nuanced idea AND it’s another important step for rika to take if she’s serious about taking responsibility!

annnnnd then everything else happened.

like...... i look at it and i can almost understand it. saeran has spent his life in pain and misery and fear and anger, being beaten by his mother, hiding from his father who he knows will kill him if he’s found... and when he sees his father, i think this might be him letting go of the last of his sense of responsibility for this? it’s never been his fault that his parents are shit people. he was made to believe that it was his fault, but it’s not. and now, he can look at his father and realize all his father’s flaws and faults, realize that if, after everything he himself has been through, he can still crawl through the bullshit and make the choice to learn and grow and love, then the fact that his father has not done that is his father’s own choice, and that’s....... pretty sad and empty. and he pities his dad for it. i break it down like this and i start to nod along with it. the pieces SEEM to fit together!

but OH MY GOD HE’S BEEN TRYING TO KILL YOU FOR YEARS AND HE’S ABOUT TO SUCCEED AT KILLING YOU NOW, UNCONDITIONAL FORGIVENESS MIGHT SOUND GOOD IN THEORY BUT IN PRACTICE IN THIS MOMENT IT IS AWFUL

it’s just... bad. and if they hadn’t made mc ALSO embody this saintly, selfless forgiveness, maybe it would’ve been less hard to swallow, but papa choi’s line about how both mc and saeran sincerely believe he can change.......... even tho he follows that up with ‘i mean, i can’t change, that’s utter nonsense, but it makes me sort of wish i could,’ that doesn’t feel like enough acknowledgment bc i just wanted to yell that i DON’T think he’s capable of change and i DON’T think he’s worthy of ANY measure of goodwill and i AM going to punch him in the trachea