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50 ReasonsWhy we are living in the end times.

By Dr. David R. Reagan

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The Bible says we cannot know the time of the Lord’s return (Matthew 25:13). But the Scriptures make it equally clear that we can know the season of the Lord’s return (1 Thessalonians 5:2-6):

“You yourselves know full well that the day of the Lord will come just like a thief in the night… But you brethren, are not in darkness, that the day should overtake you like a thief; for you are all sons of light and sons of day. We are not of night or darkness; so then let us not sleep as others do, but let us be alert and sober.”

This passage asserts that Jesus is coming like “a thief in the night.” But then it proceeds to make it clear that this will be true only for the pagan world and not for believers. His return should be no surprise to those who know Him and His Word, for they have the indwelling of the Holy Spirit to give them understanding of the nature of the times.

Furthermore, the Scriptures give us signs to watch for — signs that will signal that Jesus is ready to return. The writer of the Hebrew letter referred to these signs when he proclaimed that believers should encourage one another when they see the day of judgment drawing near (Hebrews 10:25-27). Jesus also referred to the end time signs in His Olivet Discourse, given during the last week of His life (Matthew 24 and Luke 21). Speaking of a whole series of signs which He had given to His disciples, He said, “When you see all these things, recognize that He [the Son of Man — that is, Jesus] is near, right at the door” (Matthew 24:33).

A Personal Experience

Every time I think of “Signs of the Times,” I am reminded of a great man of God named Elbert Peak. I had the privilege of participating with him in a Bible prophecy conference held in Orlando, Florida in the early 1990’s. Mr. Peak was about 80 years old at the time.

He had been assigned the topic, “The Signs of the Times.” He began his presentation by observing, “Sixty years ago when I first started preaching, you had to scratch around like a chicken to find one sign of the Lord’s soon return.”

He paused for a moment, and then added, “But today there are so many signs I’m no longer looking for them. Instead, I’m listening for a sound — the sound of a trumpet!”

The First Sign

One hundred years ago in 1907 there was not one single, tangible, measurable sign that indicated we were living in the season of the Lord’s return. The first to appear was the Balfour Declaration which was issued by the British government on November 2, 1917.

This Declaration was prompted by the fact that during World War I the Turks sided with the Germans. Thus, when Germany lost the war, so did the Turks, and the victorious Allies decided to divide up both the German and Turkish empires.

The Turkish territories, called the Ottoman Empire, contained the ancient homeland of the Jewish people — an area the Romans had named Palestine after the last Jewish revolt in 132-135 AD.

In 1917 Palestine included all of modern day Israel and Jordan. In the scheme the Allies concocted for dividing up the German and Turkish territories, Britain was allotted Palestine, and this is what prompted the Balfour Declaration. In that document, Lord Balfour, the British Foreign Secretary, declared that it was the intention of the British government to establish in Palestine “a national home for the Jewish people.”

The leading Evangelical in England at the time was F. B. Meyer. He immediately recognized the prophetic significance of the Declaration, for he was well aware that the Scriptures prophesy that the Jewish people will be regathered to their homeland in unbelief right before the return of the Messiah (Isaiah 11:11-12).

Meyer sent out a letter to the Evangelical leaders of England asking them to gather in London in December to discuss the prophetic implications of the Balfour Declaration. In that letter, he stated, “The signs of the times point toward the close of the time of the Gentiles… and the return of Jesus can be expected any moment.”

Before Meyer’s meeting could be convened, another momentous event occurred. On December 11, 1917 General Edmund Allenby liberated the city of Jerusalem from 400 years of Turkish rule.

There is no doubt that these events in 1917 marked the beginning of the end times because they led to the worldwide regathering of the Jewish people to their homeland and the reestablishment of their state.

Since 1917

Since the time of the Balfour Declaration, we have witnessed throughout the 20th Century the appearance of sign after sign pointing to the Lord’s soon return. There are so many of these signs today, in fact, that one would have to be either biblically illiterate or spiritually blind not to realize that we are living on borrowed time.

I have personally been searching the Bible for years in an effort to identify all the signs, and it has not been an easy task to get a hold on them. That’s because there are so many of them, both in the Old and New Testaments.

I have found that the best way to deal with them is to put them in categories, and in doing that, I have come up with six categories of end time signs.

1) The Signs of Nature

“…and there will be great earthquakes, and in various places plagues and famines; and there will be terrors and great signs from heaven.” (Luke 21:11)

This category of signs has always been the least respected, even among believers. The mere mention of it usually evokes a sneer accompanied by the words, “Come on, what else is new? There have always been earthquakes and tornadoes and hurricanes.” But those who have this attitude forget that Jesus said the signs would be like “birth pangs” (Matthew 24:8). That means they will increase in frequency and intensity the closer we get to the Lord’s return. In other words, there will be more frequent natural disasters and more intense ones.

And that is exactly what has been happening. For example, between October of 1991 and November of 2004 — a period of 13 years — the United States experienced:

9 of the 10 largest insurance natural disasters in history.

9 of the 10 greatest disasters as ranked by FEMA relief costs.

5 of its costliest hurricanes in history.

3 of its 4 largest tornado swarms in history.

And keep in mind that these statistics were complied before the Hurricane Katrina disaster in August of 2005!

2) The Signs of Society

“Realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. For men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God…” (2 Timothy 3:1-4)

This passage sounds like a typical evening newscast today! Notice the three things it says people will love in the end times: self, money, and pleasure.

The love of self is Humanism — the belief that Man can accomplish anything on his own. The love of money is Materialism. When Humanism is your religion, your god will always be money. The love of pleasure is the third love that is mentioned. This is Hedonism, the lifestyle that is always produced by Humanism and Materialism.

But God cannot be mocked (Galatians 6:7). He therefore sees to it that when people chose Humanism, Materialism, and Hedonism, the payoff is always Nihilism — which is a fancy philosophical word for despair.

Need I emphasize that our world is wallowing in despair today? We live in a society plagued by abortion, homosexuality, domestic violence, child molestation, blasphemy, pornography, alcoholism, drug abuse and gambling.

Like the days of the Judges in the Old Testament, people are doing what is right in their own eyes, and the result is that people are calling evil good and good evil (Isaiah 5:20).

3) The Spiritual Signs

There are more signs in this category than any other. Many are evil in nature, but there are also some very positive ones. Concerning the negative signs, a typical passage is the following one found in 2 Timothy 4:3-4:

“The time will come when they [professing Christians] will not endure sound doctrine, but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires; and will turn away their ears from the truth, and will turn aside to myths.”

Some of the negative spiritual signs that are specifically prophesied include the following: false christs, cultic groups, heresies, apostasy, skepticism, deception, occultism, and persecution.

The one that Jesus mentioned most frequently was false christs and their cultic groups (Matthew 24:5, 11, 24). And in fulfillment of these prophecies, we have experienced an explosion of cults since 1850.

But, praise God, we are told that there will be some very positive spiritual signs in the end times. The most important one that is prophesied in many places is a great outpouring of the Holy Spirit (Joel 2:28-29).

This outpouring began at the dawn of the 20th Century, and proved to be one of the greatest spiritual surprises — and blessings — of the century. You see, when that century began, the prevailing viewpoint among both Catholics and Protestants regarding the Holy Spirit was Cessationism. This view held that the gifts of the Spirit ceased when the last Apostle died. In effect, it was a belief that the Holy Spirit had retired in the First Century.

The 20th Century had hardly gotten started when a Holy Spirit revival broke out at a small Bible college in Topeka, Kansas in 1901. Three years later, a similar Holy Spirit revival swept Wales and began to spread worldwide. Then, in 1906, the Spirit fell with great power on a humble Black preacher in Los Angeles named William J. Seymour. The Azuza Street Revival, as it came to be called, continued for four years and gave birth to the Pentecostal Movement.

The Bible prophesies two great outpourings of the Spirit and symbolically pictures them as the “early and latter rains” (Joel 2:23), based on the two rainy seasons of Israel. The early rain occurred at Pentecost in the First Century when the Church was established. The latter rain was prophesied to occur after the Jewish people had been re-established in their homeland (Joel 2:18-26).

The latter rain began with the Pentecostal Movement, just as God began to regather the Jews to their homeland under the visionary leadership of Theodore Herzl. But the rain did not become a downpour until after the re-establishment of the state of Israel in May of 1948, just as prophesied by Joel.

First came the anointing of Billy Graham’s ministry in 1949, followed by the Charismatic Movement of the 1960’s. Today, most of Christianity, whether Pentecostal, Charismatic, or Traditional, fully recognizes that the ministry of the Holy Spirit is alive and well in Spirit-led worship, the continuing validity of spiritual gifts, the reality of spiritual warfare, and the importance of a Spirit-filled life in winning that warfare.

In addition to the rediscovery of the Holy Spirit, there are other positive spiritual prophecies being fulfilled today — like the preaching of the Gospel worldwide (Matthew 24:14), the revival of Davidic praise worship (Amos 9:11) and the emergence of Messianic Judaism (Romans 9:27).

Another remarkable positive sign is the understanding of Bible prophecy. You see, the Hebrew prophets often did not understand the end time prophecies that the Lord gave to them. A good example can be found in Daniel 12:8-9 where the prophet complains to the Lord that he does not understand the prophecies that have been entrusted to him. The Lord’s response was, “Don’t worry about it. Just write the prophecies. They have been sealed up until the end times.”

In other words, the Bible teaches that many of the end time prophecies will not be understood until the time comes for them to be fulfilled. And that is exactly what has been happening in the past 100 years. Historical developments and scientific inventions are now making it possible for us to understand end time prophecies that have never been understood before.

Take Israel for example. All of end time prophecy revolves around the nation of Israel. But how could those prophecies be understood as long as Israel did not exist and there was no prospect that the nation would ever exist again?

This is the reason that Hal Lindsey’s book, The Late Great Planet Earth, became such a phenomenal bestseller in the 1970’s. For the first time it explained the events prophesied in the book of Revelation in natural terms that people could easily understand.

4) The Signs of World Politics

“You will be hearing of wars and rumors of wars… for nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom…” (Matthew 24:6-7)

I taught international politics for 20 years before I entered the ministry full time, so this is an area that is particularly fascinating to me.

The Bible prophesies a very specific end time configuration of world politics. Israel is pictured as being re-established (Ezekiel 37:21-22) and surrounded by hostile Arab neighbors intent on its destruction (Ezekiel 35:1 – 36:7). This, of course has been the situation in the Middle East since the Israeli Declaration of Independence in May of 1948.

Daniel prophesied that the Roman Empire would be revived (Daniel 2:36-41), something many men — like Charlemagne, Napoleon, and Hitler — tried to do through force. But the prophecy had to await God’s timing for its fulfillment, and that came after World War II, with the formation of the European Common Market that has since morphed into the superpower called the European Union.

The Bible pictures a great power located in the land of Magog in the “remote parts of the north.” This nation will menace Israel in the end times and will ultimately lead an invasion of Israel together with specified allies, all of which are modern day Muslim states (Ezekiel 38:1 – 39:16). Russia with all its Muslim republics and its Muslim allies fits this description precisely.

All the nations of the world are prophesied to come together against Israel in the end times over the issue of the control of Jerusalem (Zech. 12:2-3) — a prophecy being fulfilled today.

The magnitude of warfare in the 20th Century is another fulfillment of end time prophecy related to world politics. The 20th Century was one of unparalleled war. Like birth pangs, the frequency and intensity of war increased exponentially. It is now estimated that more people died in wars during the 20th Century than in all the previous wars throughout all of recorded human history.

5) The Signs of Technology

“Men will faint from fear over the expectation of the things which are coming upon the world; for the powers of the heavens will be shaken.” (Luke 21:26)

The development of nuclear weapons seems to be foreshadowed by this prophecy in Luke 21 that speaks of people “fainting from fear” due to the “powers of the heavens being shaken.” The incredible carnage of the Seal and Trumpet Judgments portrayed in chapters 6 and 8 in the book of Revelation indicates that the Antichrist will conquer the world through the use of nuclear weapons. We are told that one-third of the earth will be burned and that one-half of humanity will be killed. Further evidence that this is a nuclear holocaust is found in Revelation 16 where we are told that at the end of the Tribulation the survivors will be covered with sores that will not heal (Revelation 16:11).

As I pointed out earlier, there are many end time prophecies that simply cannot be understood apart from modern technological developments. Consider the prophecy in Revelation 11 about the two witnesses who will call the world to repentance during the first half of the Tribulation. When they are killed by the Antichrist, we are told that their bodies will lie in the streets of Jerusalem for three and a half days, and the whole world will look upon them (Revelation 11:9). How could anyone understand such a prophecy before the development of satellite television in the 1960’s?

Likewise, how could the Antichrist control all buying and selling worldwide (Revelation 13) without the aid of computer technology? How could the False Prophet create the illusion of giving life to a statue (Revelation 13) without the technology of holograms, virtual reality, and robotics? How could an army of 200 million come out of the Far East (Revelation 9) before the population explosion that was produced by modern medical technology? How could the Gospel be proclaimed to all the world (Matthew 24) before the invention of motion pictures, radio, television, and the Internet? The list goes on and on.

6) The Signs of Israel

“And it shall come about in that day that I will make Jerusalem a heavy stone for all the peoples; all who lift it will be severely injured. And all the nations of the earth will be gathered against it.” (Zechariah 12:3)

The signs that relate to Israel are the most important of all because the Jews are God’s prophetic time clock. What I mean by this is that the Scriptures will often tie a prophesied future event with something that will happen to the Jews. We are told to watch the Jews, and when the prophesied event concerning them occurs, we can be sure that the other prophesied event will also occur.

An example can be found in Luke 21:24 where Jesus prophesied that the Jews would be dispersed from Jerusalem and be led captive among the nations. But then He added that one day they would return to re-occupy Jerusalem, and when this happens, the end time events will occur that will lead to His return.

There are many prophecies concerning the Jews in the end times, many of which began to be fulfilled in the 20th Century, but there are four key ones. The first is their worldwide regathering in unbelief (Isaiah 11:11-12). In 1900 there were only 40,000 Jews in Palestine. By the end of World War II that number had risen to 800,000. Today, there are more than 5.7 million who have come from all over the world. Very soon there will be as many Jews in Israel as died in the Holocaust. The prophet Jeremiah says twice that when history is completed, the Jewish people will look back and conclude that their worldwide regathering was a greater miracle than their deliverance from Egyptian captivity (Jeremiah 16:14-15 and 23:7-8). We are truly living in momentous times!

The second key prophecy concerning the Jews is a natural consequence of their regathering. It is the re-establishment of their state which occurred on May 14, 1948 (Isaiah 66:7-8). The third key prophecy is the re-occupation of Jerusalem which occurred on June 7, 1967 during the miraculous Six Day War (Zechariah 8:4-8).

The fourth key prophecy is the one whose fulfillment we are witnessing today — the re-focusing of world politics upon the nation of Israel (Zechariah 12:2-3). All the nations of the world, including the United States, are coming against Israel over the issue of the control of the nation’s capital — the city of Jerusalem. The Vatican wants the city put under its control. The United Nations wants it to be internationalized. The European Union is demanding it be divided between the Arabs and the Jews. The Arabs want all of it.

Summary

And so you have it — six different categories of signs, each category containing many prophecies concerning the end times, all of which are being fulfilled before our very eyes. Let me conclude by specifically listing 50 of those prophecies.

1) Increasing instability of nature. (Matthew 24:7 & Luke 21:11)

2) Increasing lawlessness and violence. (Matthew 24:12)

3) Increasing immorality. (Matthew 24:37)

4) Increasing materialism. (2 Timothy 3:2)

5) Increasing Hedonism. (2 Timothy 3:4)

6) Increasing influence of Humanism. (2 Timothy 3:2)

7) Depraved entertainment. (2 Timothy 3:4)

8) Calling evil good and good evil. (2 Timothy 3:3 & Isaiah 5:20)

9) Increasing use of drugs. (2 Timothy 3:3)

10) Increasing blasphemy. (2 Timothy 3:2)

11) Increasing paganism. (2 Timothy 3:1-4)

12) Increasing despair. (2 Timothy 3:1)

13) Signs in the heavens. (Luke 21:11,25)

14) Increasing knowledge. (Daniel 12:4)

15) Increasing travel. (Daniel 12:4)

16) The explosion of cults. (Matthew 24:11)

17) The proliferation of false christs. (Matthew 24:5)

18) Increasing apostasy in the Church. (2 Timothy 4:3-5)

19) Increasing attacks on Jesus. (Romans 1:18-19)

20) Increasing attacks on the Bible. (Romans 1:18-19)

21) Increasing persecution of Christians. (Matthew 24:9)

22) Increasing occultism. (1 Timothy 4:1)

23) Wars and rumors of wars. (Matthew 24:6)

24) Weapons of mass destruction. (Luke 21:26)

25) Increasing famine. (Luke 21:11)

26) Increasing pestilence. (Luke 21:11)

27) Computer technology. (Revelation 13:7)

28) Television. (Revelation 11:8-9)

29) Satellite technology. (Revelation 11:8-9)

30) Virtual reality. (Revelation 13:14-15)

31) Unification of Europe. (Daniel 2 & 7)

32) Far Eastern military powers. (Revelation 9:16 & 16:12)

33) Movement toward world government. (Daniel 7:23-26)

34) Regathering of the Jews. (Isaiah 11:10-12)

35) Re-establishment of Israel. (Isaiah 66:7-8)

36) Reclamation of the land of Israel. (Ezekiel 36:34-35)

37) Revival of Biblical Hebrew. (Zephaniah 3:9; Jeremiah 31:23)

38) Re-occupation of Jerusalem. (Luke 21:24)

39) Resurgence of the Israeli military. (Zechariah 12:6)

40) Re-focusing of world politics on Israel. (Zechariah 12:3)

41) Russian threat to Israel. (Ezekiel 38 and 39)

42) Arab threat to Israel. (Ezekiel 35 and 36)

43) Denial of the Second Coming. (2 Peter 3:3-4)

44) Denial of creation by God. (Romans 1:18-22)

45) Outpouring of the Holy Spirit. (Joel 2:28-29)

46) Translation of the Bible into many languages. (Matthew 24:14)

47) Preaching of the Gospel worldwide. (Matthew 24:14)

48) The revival of Messianic Judaism. (Romans 9:27)

49) The revival of Davidic praise worship. (Amos 9:11)

50) The understanding of Bible prophecy. (Daniel 12:8-9)

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The Day Marcus Ryser Went Around the Bend

The day was May 27, 2009, when Marcus Ryser was officially “around the bend.” He called me that day in a state of unmitigated panic and despair. It appeared that some sort of obscure mania was prickling at his mind, and while we communicated – a brief yet illuminating conversation – he disclosed to me his troubles through a mixture of stifled groans and uninterrupted dialogue, a total reversal from his everyday behavior, which had me severely perturbed.

When I answered his phone call, the first thing he said to me was this: “I’ve got bad business going on in the brain, Nicholas. I can’t decipher whether the entity that I’m in contact with is benign or evil. They’ve been forwarding me cryptic information for 12 consecutive hours. The transmissions are causing me great fatigue, yet I can’t tune it out. And my fear of all fears is that I may succumb to an eternal torpor.”

“Did you talk to God?” I asked him.

“I don’t know… Could be an oracle. Could be epilepsy.”

“Stay calm – I’ll be right over.”

It was cold that night, and the breeze was invasive. But the brisk air was the least of my worries. Marcus was withdrawing from reality: and soon he would be gone for good.

My mind was paralyzed by the revelation of Marcus going mad. He was a close friend – a friend that I would regret to lose. And despite the obvious symptoms that a man of a feeble and convivial nature could produce, I would’ve never suspected Marcus to suffer such a breakdown. Moreover, I couldn’t bear thought that his sanity had begun to debilitate, and so, out of pretext, I fancied that perhaps Marcus was a medium – yes, a medium. Performing seances. I.e., an acceptable psychotic.

I had arrived at Marcus’ home. While under the unruly impression that my every action had to be carried out with the utmost prudence, I decided to bypass the formalities of “front-door-knocking” and “doorbell-ringing.” Instead, I became an intruder, committing a home invasion: the front door was unlocked. Next, I searched for him, frantically. Where is he? I thought with despair. Shadows loomed and the rooms were ominous. Stillness. Seclusion.

This was unnatural.

“Marcus!” I hollered.

“Who goes there?” rasped a familiar voice.

I turned around and saw Marcus lying on the floor in a heap. Going over to him, I gingerly raised him up from the floor, placing him down on the nearby leather chair. Scrutinizing him, I noticed that his hair was matted down from having his head pressed against the floor. What was also glaringly unhealthy about him was his rather pallid skin, and a pair of eyes that were as vacant as the eternal void. But not another moment later I understood what was going on–

Marcus was undergoing religiosity.

“What’s the first thing,” I said, “that pops into your mind, Marcus?”

And he answered back with a rapid sequence of words, like a machine spitting out a transcript: “Delphic Mysteries. Dancing Gentiles. Draconian Nightmares. Symbolical Ceremonies. Before me now is the definitive heralding of Palestine and the Kingdom of Modernism. Judeo-Christian parables cross-referenced with monotheistic scriptures. The Gnostics; the material creator. But what intrigues me the most is the Eye in the Sky; he can be quite evasive…”

Marcus concluded his verbal musings, and thereupon I gazed at him quizzically, traces of incredulity emerging from my inner conscience. Warily, I said to him, “Can you, humble Marcus, confirm your connection with what is, ostensibly, a connection with the divine? Was there an apparatus or spirit involved, such as a ‘time machine,’ or even, perhaps, the ‘Holy Spirit’? Are you oscillating between separate matrices? Have you taken any narcotics in the past 24 hours?”

“I’ve been administered phenobarbital.”

“Was it a potent dosage?”

“Yes; an ample quantity was described as ‘adequate’ by my examiner.”

“An examiner?”

“Yes; he’s very affable. But anyhow, the effects of the drug have been nullified by you know who.” He twitched faintly, then added, “What’s more troubling is the fact that the nixing of such a powerful sedative by an otherworldly potentiality is hardly the apotheosis of my experience.”

It dawned on me right then that, if it were feasible to placate Marcus, it would require the taxing labors of blind indulgence and excruciating patience. But I wasn't intent on such a dangerous course. Marcus was in peril, and I had treat it that way. However, it's never easy to tell someone they're crazy.

Suddenly, I was very nervous, engulfed by angst. Then I decided that perhaps I should keep on improvising:

“Who or whom,” I said, “has been transmitting the information?”

This seemed to have caught Marcus off guard. “His surname eludes me. Allow me an interval of cogitation.” Marcus bent his head, furrowed his brow. Tiny dots of perspiration were manifested on his neck and cheeks. A desolate expression took shape in his features: there were traces of frankness, disillusion, and mild discomfort, much like a man who’s been jilted at the altar on the day of his wedding. His face was already tattered, which could be attributed to the lethargy he was experiencing; but those droopy eyes alone were perhaps the most convincing indicator of a haggard image. After more than enough time had passed, Marcus finally said, “The man responsible for the transmissions abides by a title known as ‘The Master of Enigma.’”

“What does he look like?” I asked gravely.

“He’s a foppish gentleman – very presentable.”

“Go on.”

“Well…he performed it in a rather bawdy manner. It was quite perverse, to be frank.”

“Give me an example.”

“Er… Ok.” Marcus thought for a moment, then said, “At one point, he may have compared the descending of the Shekinah Glory to that of a ‘sexual awakening,’ as if Christ himself was aroused – in an erotic manner – by his own spiritual prestige in the abode of the Lord.”

“Well I’ll be damned,” I blurted out in a display of mild contempt, committing a faux pas. But Marcus was heedless of my tactless conduct – heedless of everything, for that matter.

“Furthermore,” Marcus went on, “the foppish man made it abundantly known that he expatiates his sins at the ‘Purgatory Palace’; he calls it a ‘stable gig.’ I suppose that, from what I can interpret, the confessing of his depravity is part of a comedy routine.” He suddenly looked at me severely and, somewhat abruptly, said, “What do you make of this, Nicholas?”

An acute sense of dread poured over me. What was Marcus talking about? It all chalked up to nonsense, like a religious crank who prattles on about the contrasting nature of God’s will. It only strengthened my conviction of his sickness.

Yet I continued to dither between alternatives. My instincts betrayed me. What would it take to make Marcus aware of his illness?

But then, quite unexpectedly, Marcus sprang up from and, in a spell of renegade terror, upended the leather chair. He ran into the next room, which served a sanctuary for his philosophical dissections. I made chase for him – I couldn’t let the madman out of my sight.

I entered the room, and before me was an arrangement of textbooks and literature of manifold persuasions. Marcus was retrieving a volume from a shelf on the far side of the room–

“What you got there?” I asked him uneasily.

“My exegesis,” he responded. “Give it a once over” – and he handed it to me.

I opened the exegesis to a random page. Then I turned the page over. I repeated this process. Soon I was leafing through the exegesis. And then it occurred to me: the contents of the exegesis were nothing but esoteric hyperbole. Not a single word could I understand. There was a plethora of sophisticated and theological terms, such as: intra-loquacious dictum, extraterrestrial meta-sapiens, the Unholy Heretical Messiah, etc. It was all beyond my wits.

“I can’t discern any of this,” I said drearily.

“Why not?” Marcus was thoroughly disgruntled.

“It’s too prolix, Marcus.”

“Pshaw,” said Marcus as he snatched the exegesis from me. “You need more spiritual training.” He consulted the exegesis, determined to sway my sympathy in his favor. A diminutive yet luminescent twinkle could be observed in his eyes, uncompromising in its quasi-shimmer. He glared at me – a skeptical expression – and said, “Answer me this, Nicholas: are you an authority of the Humbug Regime? It would break my heart if I were to uncover your dastardly motives.”

“I’m on your side, Marcus.” But I sensed that I was beginning to lose him.

Marcus grunted, evidently dissatisfied with me. But at least he was rational enough to grasp my deception. That was an encouraging sign. However, I wasn’t sure what my next move would be. I felt like an impostor. There simply wasn’t a healthy way to break the news of his condition.

“Marcus,” I intoned, “What other unusual, autonomous phenomena have you been experiencing?

“What do you mean by ‘autonomous phenomena’?”

“Well, suppose that – and I’m just throwing this out there – there are things happening outside of your own awareness, such as catatonia. Or somnambulism, perhaps.”

“Somnambulism?” Marcus found the implication of sleepwalking to be preposterous. “What are you getting at, Nicholas?”

“There's no cause to be disconcerted, Marcus,” I said to him calmly. “This is an informal inquiry. Think of me as a scientist: I'm merely extrapolating.”

“I'm not making this stuff up, Nicholas. I've been inaugurated into a higher divinity via God’s Wisdom.” He pointed at my face, as if I had committed a heinous crime. “I’ve got a firm grasp on what I perceive, and you can't convince me otherwise."

“If you believe me to be throwing dust in your eyes, you are greatly mistaken, Marcus. I interpret your findings with the utmost sensitivity.” But what I said just now was a bold-faced lie. Marcus was a total nutbag; and now, more than before, I was adamant in securing him the proper care.

“Have you not been listening to me, Nicholas? I know secrets – secrets that'll strip our world of all that is mundane.”

“What do you mean?”

Marcus blinked. “You know… Paradise, Elysium, the Firmament. We can undercut reality.”

I was beginning to feel numb and desensitized. The walls were receding and the ceiling caved in. Weightlessness was abounding. This is what happens when you must hurt someone close to you: reality loses its verisimilitude. As I continued to lapse into stupefied remorse, I thought: Why did my friend – of all the people in the world! – have to lose his mind?

I presently said, “You’re in a bad way, Marcus. I can help you.”

Marcus was silent as he brooded over the developing quandary. And in that instant, there was a fundamental change: his presence was suddenly bereft of human qualities. Listless and alien were the descriptive terms that represented the deportment of Marcus Ryser.

But then another change had incurred. There was some squirming and writhing. Bleakness was swaddling him like a blanket. It appeared that I had gotten through to him, but he seemed to be experiencing an anti-catharsis. Equilibrium: shattered.

Marcus spoke: “I can’t believe it…”

I spoke back: “Don’t believe what?”

“You’re a…”

“I’m – what?”

“You’re the Quotidian Monster! You’ve been masquerading!”

“I don’t know what that means, Marcus!”

“Animus! Animus!” Marcus’ head snapped back violently. He clutched his right eye in a frenzy of disturbing apprehension. “Those are the sirens I hear!”

“Get a grip on yourself, Marcus!”

Still heedless of his crumbling sanity (somehow), Marcus made a break for the hallway. I promptly followed after him.

In mid-retreat, he yelled at me: “I had an intuition that you were an agent of the Evil and Villainy! When will the bloodletting ever end!” He turned the corner towards a remote section of his home.

“Marcus!” I shouted back, turning the same corner.

“Godless heathen!”

“Marcus!”

“Don’t make me hurt myself!” He entered a bedroom at the far end of the hallway…

…I, too, had entered the bedroom. “Marcus!”

And he jumped out the window.

A second later I heard a dull thud from outside. The sound itself had a macabre effect on me: Horror began to set in. I was weak and scared. The shock wouldn’t go away, so I waited it out. Time crept along. Then, staving off enough of my fears, I inched my way over to the window. And when I peered out of the aperture, and saw Marcus, inert, unstirred, sprawled out on the ground like a sack of wasteful flesh, I nearly lost it. However, I was able suppress most of my most erratic emotions, albeit with great struggle.

Panic has its catalysts. Things can go wrong at any moment. God inflicted harm on my dear friend – where’s the predestination in that? But I shouldn’t be mad at an impersonal Deity. Some of us are more vulnerable to cosmic condemnation than others.

The good news was that Marcus survived the fall, but not without an aftermath, and a stigma to boot: mental illness. He would go through life with obstacles too daunting to overcome. There would even be a pivotal juncture in his life where the mounting pressures of psychological disorder and excess medication would nearly push over the edge and induce him to take his own life.

Don’t worry. He’s still alive right now.

I vividly remember the moment when the paramedics arrived. There I was, demoralized and mad at universe for manufacturing such a travesty – a distortion of all that was, at one point, unadulterated. I could barely look at Marcus. I cried, plaintively.

And as they were wheeling Marcus away on a stretcher, the little wretch turned to me and said, “Nicholas, Nicholas.” He looked me square in the eyes. “Promise me that you will contact the Master of Enigma and inform him that I found his veiled assertion that Christ had masturbated to the thought of divine prophecy to be a rather penetrating witticism.”

“Absolutely, Marcus. Absolutely.”

I watched as Marcus went away, for good. He’ll be in and out of hospitals until it’s no longer “in and out” but merely “in.” I lost my friend, and from that moment on my poignant thoughts would never cease.

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