#it's going so fast that it hurts
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how long after your partner hits you and sexually harasses you until you stop spending every waking second afraid they're going to do it again? asking for no reason in particular
#i'm crying at work agaib#i don't want to go home i'm scared#i'm gonna have a couple ciders or some of my jack i've been hoarding#like as soon as i walk through the door#that will slow down my heart at least#it hurts#i feel like i'm gonna die#it's going so fast that it hurts#echoes from the void
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she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let
and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment
and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.
and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment
and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?
to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.
and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.
you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.
#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now#writeblr#you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like#u don't HATE their partner explicitly#but ur like. what the fuck y'all#like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic#and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like#frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....''#and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her.#all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it#or ... that it really IS good#and it's just odd to you#tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship#like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend#it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time#around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like#.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond.#so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think#but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something#but knowing you CANNOT#idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person#edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up#PS EDIT: btw i should have said:#the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every#type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''
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Fics rec of the week, and especially if you like well-written Wrecker, is the entire work of @electrikworm on AO3 In order:
The Batch have a terrible day
Human Shield
A peaceful moment
(But go read the others too)
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanfiction#tbb wrecker#tbb omega#again luring you all to suffer with me#hurt/comfort my BELOVED#Some of the best Wrecker fics outa there#go comment on them and all#I already ranted in the previous post so you're free#Slowly illustrating all the fics saved on my phone#Next ones are probably gonna be more angsty tho#I love drawing Wrecker tbh#tho I always fk up his proportions#I'm so bad at keeping proportions TAT#that's why I can't draw fast for s 'cause I check and recheck all the time#and it's never righhhhht#shoulder to head ratio who are you#Trying to give a spotlight to all the Batch haha#impossible#ok time to close (again) tumblr for a week#bye
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have u guys seen that one movie…… i think it was called vash’s moving castle or something
bonus too bc i thought sophie would rock meryls outfit so well And i was right .
#trigun#trigun fanart#vash the stampede#meryl stryfe#vashmeryl#i saw a single clip of howl on twt yesterday next thing i knew these were on my screen#i never finished 2 drawings that fast in my life like#MY HAND HURTS#vash pendragon goes hard actually im gonna pretend thats his last name now#howl the stampede……#like im going insane it works so well … THE BLONDE HAIR TO DARK HAIR GUYSSS!!!! THE WINGS!!!!!
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fallen
#KICKS OPEN THE DOOR. HIIIIIII IM BAAAAAACK. TWIRLS MY HAIR AND STARES UNBLINKINGLY AT U#okay so long story short i need to speedrun if i wanna draw ANY lore art this time#bc i go to NY w no computer for 2 weeks on thurs and i wont have nrainrot anymore after. so i need to draw FAST things#so yea. she um. she. died. sniffles. ngl i thought she was already dead from the prev update so this STUNG#the fuckign GRIEF the way lilia collapses down in mourning her loss. she falls to the humans. i am SICK it HURTS#silver was so devastated in 7.5 without even seeing the death firsthand and being like 'how could i ever be loved'#lilia looking at malleus. the future of the kingdom. the treasure of his two closest friends (loves?)#and is like 'how can i ever love him enough' and proceeds to spend A FIFTH OF HIS LIFE SEARCHING FOR A SOLUTION#dealing w prejudice from humans. kicked out of the army Disgraced. all while mourning. he keeps going out of LOVE#twst#twisted wonderland#lilia vanrouge#malleus draconia#hes an egg he counts#ch 7 spoilers#so yea blah blah blah im not as eloquent as u geniuses i will just draw a silly little dramatic art to capture my misery and move forward#suntails
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My brother died very suddenly yesterday.
He was the kind of person who always had dozens and dozens of friends everywhere he went because he was easy to talk to and funny and treated people with respect, and his friends ranged in class, race, age, social ability, introversion and extroversion--no matter who you were, he could and would befriend you.
He would scold me for not asking him for help when I needed it, and he would mean it. He taught me to tip well. He loved helping people. He played practical jokes on the new kids at work, including getting one guy to "chop flour" because the flour they had in the kitchen was "too coarse."
He introduced me to some of the best food I've ever eaten in my life. He would always help with a recipe that wasn't working. He would tell me what to buy my foodie friends for their birthdays, and he never got it wrong. He loved meat and whiskey but also wine and fruit and he got me to eat beets even because he knew how to make anything good.
Mostly, he thought that people were all deserving of respect and decency. He was outspoken on this. For all that his friends ranged across demographics, he didn't tolerate anyone being hateful around him. But even then, he was nice about it. He would try to get people to come around to his side. He saw the good in people.
And he was happy. He had finally quit chewing tobacco and managed to stay off it for three years. He had a girlfriend he really liked. The pandemic had put him out of work for over a year, but he was back at his job and doing well and he liked it. He was good at it. And it's complete bullshit that he's gone.
#when I think of him#it's him standing in the kitchen beckoning me over to taste the best duck I've ever had#duck that was catering for a special party#but he knew I was around so he saved me bites of all this spectacular expensive food he made#or it's him driving me to the library after our mom died#and I couldn't figure out how to complete a school assignment#and he picked me up and told me I could always ask him for help#or him telling me my car sucked#and when I asked him why he said he wants a car that can go fast#and I told him that wasn't important to me at all#and his attitude changed entirely and he was like oh then I guess your car is great for you then#or just how much he loved his nieces#no uncle has ever doted harder#or when I asked him what knives I should buy for my kitchen because I was tired of shitty ones#how seriously he considered the question#tw death#I guess#honestly he's the kind of person who is so good with other people I always wondered why he bothered with someone like me#a thought that hurt his feelings every time#he was my big brother and that's all there was to it
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AND WE ARE BACK WITH MY TWO FAVORITE GAY ITALIENS!!!
And also how I see this relationship, I think their dynamic is adorable and is especially my favorite 💖💖
I like to think Peppino gave Gustavo a stool for the counter after seeing how many times Gus had to stand on his tippy toes just to talk to customers. Gustavo was very happy when he was informed he would be getting a stool :]]
#Pizza Tower#Guys I’m going to die cuz they’re making my heart beat too fast IM GOING TK EXPLODE- *KABOOM*#My back hurts but that’s okay 👍 Artist pain am I right? 😀#Nah I’ll be fine imma sleep it off.#ALSO I haven’t drawn on my tablet in a while so I was a little rusty drawing these two again 💀 But I still got it!#BACK INTO THE GROOVE LETS GO#also also also. THE PEN 🖊️✨ (God I love this brush so much!!!💖💖💖)#Peppino#Gustavo#Doodles#Hints of Pepstavo cuz why not 🤷♀️
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"can you pose for my instax?" / "polaroid pic for my 20th birthday?" 📸
#louis#louis tomlinson#*gifs#*mine#hlcreators#dailytomlinson#hljournal#tomlinsonedits#hldaily#trackinghome#trackinghappily#louis gifs#maybe it's the way he walks <3 hehe#loml#louis is so so so cute huhu#omg also pls ignoe the sudden change in color in the second one orz josh and his tungsten light hdhshsd#also can we talk abt how fast joni was to move the guy away for a bit to before louis paused on that spot#not an elbow or graze is ever going to hurt or touch him#and its what he deserves <3 bless joni and the rest of his security team
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Was it love at first sight for Mikey and the tots? Did it take Mikey some time to warm up to them? Super cute AU!!
It was kind of hectic when Mikey saw the tots for the first time ever, while also being emotionally stunted, so the warming up is kind of a slow but surely process!
#GOING TO WRITE A BIT IN HERE SO SIT DOWN#SO#in the comics its not really said exactly how long after mikeys death casey marie produced the babies SO its my city now#in the au casey marie was actually planning on creating the tots from way before meeting mikey#so after mikey gets nearly killed by hiroto she just thinks that the babies are their safest bet on a fighting chance and basically#speed runs the creation of the tots ALL WHILE mikey is still healing and bed ridden#so when mikey does find out about the babies and why they were created (by casey happily telling him); hes actually still hurt and not yet#fully recovered from his nearly fatal wounds#again casey marie basically speed run the tots but she still had everything planned (im aware of the fact that ronin mikey heals very fast)#so then proceeds the mikey talk with april and the whole lair getting set on fire bit and consequently mikey running away with the babies#so the first time mikey ever saw the babies he had not much time to process his feelings#and general ideas except for Need to Get Away With Them#peepaw and babies au#doodles#tmnt#tmnt the last ronin#the las ronin lost years#tmnt odyn#tmnt yi#tmnt uno#tmnt moja#tmnt mikey#tmnt michelangelo#ask#my art
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gonna need ppl to cool it with the "what if we see sister daniel on tour" jokes bc this is my fucking seat:
i don't need to see directly up dan's skirt im not trying to go to the dip n pip peep show! thank u!!!
#deadass i think it's a little TOO close my neck is gonna hurt afterwards fs 😭😭😭😭#i didnt even pick my seat assignment tho i was just going so fast i said give me whatever and checked out within 1 minute LMAO#wordvom.txt#d&p#dan and phil
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i think when cherik fuck charles just has to control himself so much that he reaches the point where he gets almost no pleasure because of the efforts and erik just doesn't see that for a long time bc charles is very good at simulating whatever it is so they fuck and erik is happy and cherles is close to tears every time because yeah he had sex but he spent all time of it struggling to remain control of his abilities and he didn't have orgasm and he just doesn't know what to do because he's afraid to tell erik and he's afraid to stop doing that because he thinks he'd project his thoughts and feeling all over the mansion and he's afraid to go on the way he does because it's exhausting and kinda awful
sorry im in the mood for angsty thoughts about charles's telepathy sorry
you jsut gon say this in fronta my salad. ..,
#nsft#snap chats#BUT REAL i love angst with charles and his telepathy so much you dont even know so i am in fact eating this. WITh my salad#speedrun category for how fast this went from funny to sad and im living for it if im so tbh#how fast you think erik catches on. cause im betting my kidney he will catch on at some point details about charles does not evade him#this why they oughta shack up away from the mansion. this why erik gotta kidnap him to Whatever resort they can go to#'resort' and its just one of his '''''evil''''' lairs away from everyone else vjlekjal#modern problems demand modern solutions ... still /having/ to isolate isnt fun#maybe if its a planned event Like A Vacation or somethin but what bout- if i may quote asia- The Heat Of The Moment#what then. what if there Is no isolating option. TRAGIC chat my head hurts#brain just wants them to bone without problems .... the problems make it more interesting tho im afraid brain you gotta deal#i repeat we gotta invest in the anti-telepath room....
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the boys <3 :'))
#i need to light up a joint so bad#genuinely fuck me dead i need to lay in the rain for the next three business days#my head literally hurts from how fast my heart's been going all evening i'll be so real#this is everything to me. may 4 2024 will go down in the history books for me xxx#gotta be normal in the post unhinged in the tags#masters of the air
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i am a believer in the s3 1941 kiss
#good omens#it just makes Sense.#like the way i shot out of my seat when aziraphale said he did the apology dance in 1941... WE HAVEN'T SEEN THAT YET!!!!#my delusional theory: they kiss on the night of the zombies/blitz after their gay little romantic dinner#they freak out about it and crowley leaves#GOD what if aziraphale initiated it then. and then he shows up later in the year (?) to do the dance#as an olive branch cause at this point he's painfully in love he just wants to see crowley again#so he does the dance as like. “sorry for freaking you out here's our joke it's all okay right?”#and then crowley has to watch as aziraphale apologizes for kissing him. yeah that works! slams my head into the wall#that would explain the weirdness in 1960s#would NOT explain why aziraphale said you go too fast but like maybe more things happened in between them.#oh my god what if like they fully dated then during those years but had a messy breakup#and then crowley wants to keep going he's sad they broke up but aziraphale had issues with heaven or something so he's scared#every day i hurt my own feelings
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we do nOt talk about this interview enough bc ;-;
#it absolutely looked like jack was about to kiss alex in the first clip#like he remembered where he was at the last moment 😭#and the way alex was looking at him 🥺#also the way jack was casually sitting in alex’s lap the entire interview#and alex holding onto jack’s leg like that ;-;#the nose boop 😭😭😭#bro do u really expect me to believe that they were just friends#also the way jack responded ‘brothers’ so fast in the second gif#like i’ve seen the original clip and the way he responded so fast makes it seem like he was trying to hide something#like he didn’t want people to think/know that there was anything going on between him and alex#i know it sounds like i’m reading into it but also#i don’t think i am y’know#they hurt me#alex gaskarth#jack barakat#jalex#all time low
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my mom told me I needed to just rest in the fact that I am a good teacher and I don’t need to be constantly on the lookout for improvement at every single second. it really helped tbh.
#I am very driven to get better and fill in all the gaps in my teaching#but also she’s so right. and also I am so often driven by anxiety#and really trying to cover every base so nothing ever goes wrong/I never get attacked#because the job is scary! and vulnerable.#but actually anxiety is not the answer here I do need to kind of just … rest in it and keep doing what I’m doing#I am reaching the kids and they are learning. I don’t need extra force and pressure on top of that.#I think it only hurts! me the kids my teaching#all of it.#have to learn how to let go and trust more#anyway just reflecting#we’re at about 6 weeks in and it takes soooo much energy to get going?#and also my awareness of things and of all the work I have to do has deepened#and that’s a good thing! but it can and has made me frantic sometimes#and it’s just. time to breathe a bit#I teach with the foot on the GAS so much of the time lol#and it’s good! but it also can burn me out fast#anyway just reflecting and repeating myself#so thanks for listening
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Mario protecting Luigi
#mario movie#mario movie spoilers#super mario bros#mario and luigi#super mario bros movie#cherrysip edits#super mario bros movie spoilers#i mean the WHOLE MOVIE is basically protective mario but these are just the clearest examples of it that can be summed up in gifs lolol#(also in the 4th gif it goes by SO fast so it may be hard to see but if you look at the frames mario does intentionally turn and push luigi#out of the way and only stumbles back because of that and i CRY)#had to do it!!! i know i already had a screenshot post going around about this that was popular but WE NEED A PROPER VERSION#protective mario is the wind beneath my wings and i was SO desperate for the movie to incorporate it and they DID even better than i hoped#whenever any situation gets tense you can just see his thought processes about how to keep luigi safe and out of harm's way so vividly!!!#he'll do whatever it takes he'll let himself be hurt and pushed around but do NOT so much as look wrong at his brother#BABY MARIO WAS NOT HAVING IT AND ADULT MARIO ALSO IS NOT HAVING IT#i love him dearlyyyy
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