#it's genuinely sickening and having lived through that albeit in a speedrun cause it all happened less than 3 months after I had my

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i can't put into words how comforting it is that you support non-traumagenic systems. a lot of "big names" don't- this is a breath of fresh air /pos

signed, a traumagenic system that agrees with you

I'm so obsessed with the implication I'm a big name here because I am literally just a little guy ahidofhghgiohdfg anyway thank you and I'm glad that you're able to feel safe here more than anything I just want this place to be a safe space for systems because god knows there's so few of those still

But yeah not only do I support non-traumagenic systems I consider myself one of them. I'm not lying when I say I'm traumagenic (I don't actually like using genic labels but we DO have childhood trauma. We don't know or care if that's what caused the system to exist though. How the fuck would we even know what exactly happened to make us plural when we were five lmao) and honestly in terms of trauma and dissociation there's plenty about our system that fits medical models perfectly. We could (if we ever could get a fucking therapist that believes in systems at all lmfao) get diagnosed with either DID or OSDD extremely easily because we experience literally every symptom except switching (which we experienced as a child but then our system changed to making hosts permafrontstuck til they go dormant to cope with the switching issue)

But we just don't, personally, want to define our system by our disorder and we know one thousand percent that our autism had something to do with it and if we had to pick a genic label that we actually do like and resonate with it'd be neurogenic because plurality IS our neurotype. Our brain is plural. We Physically Cannot Exist as not-plural our brain would not function. In addition to this many of us have past lives and spiritual beliefs all tied up in our systemhood (and why wouldn't they be, considering spiritual and religious beliefs reflect ones life and being plural is at the center of ours. Nothing in our life is separate from our plurality because plurality is us and we are plurality.)

But honestly, I think what really made us resonate with non-traumagenic systems so much is that we had this side of the community chosen for us regardless of our feelings. When we tried to stay with the exclusive side of the community the fact that we had fictives, used pluralkit while cofronting, and mentioned an inworld was too much for the singlet that abused us under the guise of friendship and was for some goddamn reason allowed to lead any syscourse discussions in our friendgroup and he fakeclaimed us multiple times. We were legitimately seriously traumatized by the shit that happened to us as a result and to this day are scared that we're being stalked, in fact the reason we made this blog in the first place was because we couldn't use tumblr anywhere we'd be found out after changing our names but missed the ND community and wanted to post about our autism again.

Like honest to god when exclusionists say the word endo or non-traumagenic they're not even just talking about actually non-traumatized systems (and it still wouldn't be okay if they were, of course) they're including literally anyone they disagree with. No one actually honest to god cared about the fact I had fictives or co-conned or an in world. One of the systems (who was no doubt pressured into/asked to help fakeclaim us by said singlet lmao) who fakeclaimed us for being in co-con and using pk literally regularly talked about being in co-con with their alter on multiple occasions before this. There were fictives in the friendgroup accepted simply because they were characters that the singlet liked and they were trendy enough. I honestly think what pissed the sinlget off enough to fakeclaim me had nothing to do with systems too, it's just that this was the perfect way to lash out and I think all syscourse is like that. It has Never Been About Protecting Traumagenic Systems. It's always been about tearing everyone, Including Us, down until only the ones that let singlets abuse them remain and it's honestly disgusting.