#it's easier these days for me to treat WTNV like fiction like everyone else does while still accepting the weight of it in my identity | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

petrichorvoices · 2 months

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i used to have a huge complex or whatever about not acting like my source, and you can still see the posts about it on here if you search my tag {which i only tagged with my name because i was embarrassed and i didn't want anyone to think they were from other headmates, i didn't want to do that to them} but these days, like...

i just don't care? i just don't care. no shit i'm different from canon Cecil. the last canon events i remember were in 2017; it's 2024 now. he's experienced things that i haven't and i've experienced things that he hasn't. not to mention that i'm also impacted by, you know, the whole entire other brain of this body i'm controlling now, and influenced by the people here, and the history of this body

i can see why it was such an issue to my past self but in hindsight it feels a little silly, i guess. i was so scared of people telling me that i was doing Being Who I Am wrong

#rambling #Cecil's tag #i was also afraid of people calling me crazy for identifying as a fictional character if i didn't act exactly like said character #but since that time we have not only accepted our psychosis but been diagnosed as schizospec #and that whole general fear of being called crazy has lessened on account of. well. we ARE crazy. loudly so #we've also worked on our fiction issues a little bit and while there's still a loooong way to go #it's easier these days for me to treat WTNV like fiction like everyone else does while still accepting the weight of it in my identity #and memories and other fictive stuff. i have an easier time just. being a fan these days. just another fan

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