#it's complicated!!! and marley is incredibly awful and a bully before that!!! but she doesn't know how to talk abt her feelings

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things I should be doing: sleeping what im actually doing: thinking about the family dynamics in the rhodes household, how min-ah's leaving affects them, and then later how ellie's leaving for korea when he was 15 then affects dave and marley. thinking about how much like her bonus mother ellie is, without realising, and how ellie and min-ah's closeness affects marley, who made her bed and has to lie in it, sure, but some of this is out of her control. thinking about how dave loves both of his daughters so much, but when it's just the two of them in the house when ellie leaves, marley doesn't understand him or his depression and feels abandoned several times over. how marley is definitely not the best person or sister she could be to ellie, but ellie's hurt leads to misunderstandings on top of the real harm already done. thinking about how ellie and dave are able to sort through their baggage, but marley never will because she'll never admit any of her vulnerabilities, how ellie being so vocal about his own vulnerability makes marley feel backed into a corner and act out even and hurt ellie even more,