#it's been especially bad since my bf's mom died in july :( like i KNOW i'm fine but it's like intrusive thoughts that i can't stop | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

winter-hoof · 2 months ago

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My dad has finally been buried, by the way. I feel a little guilty for not being there & being with my family, and it's like was me falling last night & injuring both ankles a punishment for not going? lol. But for my mental health, I really really needed to avoid yet another death-related event and his demon wife. This weekend in Grand Rapids was such a fun relaxed good time, I really needed it and I feel a million times better omg

#it's pretty much been since my dad passed that i started having a lot of panic attacks & anxiety that i'm also dying #it's been especially bad since my bf's mom died in july :( like i KNOW i'm fine but it's like intrusive thoughts that i can't stop #i just really needed the whole 2 parents dying at the same time & dealing w/ their funerals + burials + memorials etc to be over with #i've completely felt like i've been losing my mind that my dad's burial got dragged on for 9 fucking months after he died #like thank god i can finally feel some relief that the entire situation is actually over with & i can move on with my life now #i really needed to get out of town & have a good fun chill time to take my mind off of all the death & depressing shit #i haven't felt like a person for the last 4 years and i'm finally starting to feel like i used to again #p

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