#it's been a hectic last few weeks lmao

[onceuponanaromantic]

come home (I never left)

(Written for @flashfictionfridayofficial​‘s prompt: FFF206 Sink or Swim. Not related to anything else I’m working on at this point but set using some of the Hell worldbuilding. CW: grief, near death experience, implied major injuries. Enjoy!)

A dreamer must wake or die.

 That’s the second lesson anyone with any affinity for Fate learns. The first is that Seeing is more burden than blessing, but you learn that on your own.

 If they apply to affinity, they apply even more so to the designated heir of Fate, her Child.

 In a silent cave in one of the regions of Hell, a demon drops to her knees as she removes her armour at a bedside. She peels off her vest, braces, masks and removes her boots. She tangles her fingers with her best friend’s, clenching and unclenching the cold hand. She lets go, just long enough to close the curtain separating them from the rest of the world and then returns to the bedside.

 She’s never needed words, but she needs them now.

 “The fungus is taking well to your bones.” Her voice is hoarse as she tries to will warmth and movement through the hand. “It’s healing the breaks. Noctern told me that.”

 Her voice cracks. “I think I did well, pretending I can go on. Ani offered to impersonate me if I needed to leave, but she’s—she’s done enough for us. She’s the one who figured out the throat damage, you know? And she says it’s your mind. So. She’s trying to see if she can meet you inside your own mind safely.”

 Her fingers tremble and she raises a hand to brush a stray strand. “I was the one who argued for you to be moved here. Time passes more slowly here, as you know, because I figured you would want to get back to your duties as soon as you get back. But I want you to stay.”

 “I always want you to stay, but it’s okay.” She shifts her weight to lean against the bedframe. “I love you, even if I don’t say that enough. It was—it was horrifying—finding you. Just… just floating in the River. In the shallows, at least, but—but still.”

             “Hello, Nyx.” She lets go, knife flying to hand as she turns, eyes cold at the new voice.

             “What are you doing here?” She spits, blocking the newcomer from stepping forward. “Haven’t you done enough harm already?”

             Fate looks back at her, pupilless gold eyes meeting hers. “Can I not visit my Child? You’re not the only one who has a claim on her.”

             “She died for you.” Nyx spits, “She died. Because. Of. You.”

           Fate looks at her steadily. “You seem to believe so. Why?”

             Fate glides forward, silver cloak gleaming in the dim lighting of the glow worms, and angles Her head forward as She settles at the foot of the bed.

             “Don’t you dare. I had to—I was the one who found her body there. I was the one who walked in and pulled her out and managed to get her in the time frame to pull her close enough to life to get her soul to stay. Okay. So, don’t you sit there. And- and pretend she doesn’t mean anything.”

             Fate pushes off the hood from Her head. “I don’t defend myself to you, Queen Nyx of the House of Night. Koya’s choices were her own.”

             “Don’t call me that.” Nyx hisses, claws extending as she steps forward. “Koya wouldn’t have done it if you hadn’t given her the Sight. She died because you messed with her mind enough that she needed to know what was true. So she stepped into the Void.”

             “And?”

             “Don’t give me that. It’s sink or swim, that’s what you all say. You and Time were the ones who told her about the Test in the first place. You were the ones who made her feel like she needed to walk through it to be worthy.” Nyx spits, one claw close enough that she would have taken Fate’s eye out of She was mortal. “She was always worthy!”

             “I see. Thank you for telling me.”

             Nyx recoils. “What is that supposed to mean?”

           “I felt Koya fall into the River, because the River is moving water of a sort, which I can feel.” Fate tilts Her head. “Hasn’t being her friend taught you anything, Queen Nyx? Fate cannot affect anything that it knows directly. She is my Child, I cannot even see her.”

             “Then how did you find this place?” Nyx demands.

             “It took some searching.” Fate opens Her hands and rises. She steps forward, looking upon Koya’s face. “She will breathe again. It is not her time.”

             “Frankly, I do not give a single flying fart if it was.” Nyx says, “I am not yours, and your rules do not apply to me. I will do anything to get her back.”

           “You spend a lot of time defying me, Queen Nyx of the Night.” Fate notes, “Or at least, you try to.”

           “Got a problem with that?”

           Fate waves a hand. “Oh, certainly not. Koya chose well, but she’s always had good Senses even before I named her my Child.”

             Before Nyx could retort, Fate runs one hand over Koya’s hair. “I’ll take my leave for now. But know that someday, I will catch up to you, Queen Nyx. And you may not like the consequences when I do.”

           She glides to the curtain, Her cloak floating behind her, and Her pocket watch clicking as it swings from between her fingers. It clicks twice as Fate reaches the curtain. “Oh yes, and she will wake. Make of that what you will.”

             The curtain sweeps close behind Her. Nyx settles back, heart thumping, claws receding back into fingernails.

             “That was something, huh?” She whispers quietly.

             And then she pauses. Her hearing is sharp enough that she doesn’t need to do this but she needs confirmation.

             She rests her ear against Koya’s wrist.

             And she hears the steady beat of a heart again.

[gunnerfc]

Baby Fever | Steph Catley x Matildas!Reader

Summary: having young children around during camp has you and your wife thinking about the future 

Warnings: just fluff!! Which is the complete opposite of my last steph fic LMAO

WC: 1.3K - a tad short but wanted to have something posted this week! 

AN: two steph fics back to back…. Just love her very much i fear 🤧

Being in camp with some of your closest friends and your wife was always a fun experience. You were thrilled to be back in camp, playing the sport you loved with the people you loved. However, recently there has been a specific thought in the back of your head about you and Steph expanding your family. It didn’t help that two of your teammates had adorable kids that usually came to camp with them.

Here you were, sitting with some of your teammates after a long day of training watching Kyra and Charli playing with Harper. The small girl’s giggles filled the room as she tried to escape Kyra’s grasp. You watched from your spot on a couch with a fond smile on your face at their interactions. 

“You and Steffy are next then yeah,” Caitlin’s voice pulled you from your thoughts about what it would be like seeing Steph play with your kids.

You turned to face the forward, offering a light shrug in response before mumbling a “maybe.” You and Steph have talked about kids before you were engaged and it was something you both wanted, you just weren’t sure when. With it being an Olympic year, you knew it wouldn’t be any time soon and that was fine and you knew this was a conversation that needed to be revisited. 

The next few days before the game, it seemed that no matter where you went, you saw parents with their young kids having the best time. It was like the universe was trying to make your baby fever worse than it already was. You had decided to bring it up to Steph the next time you two got a moment to yourselves, which with the hectic pre-game schedule wasn’t until you were sat next to her in the locker room after warm-ups.

“My love,” you started as you leaned closer to her. “I think we should have a baby,” your voice was low enough for only Steph to hear but with the loud chatter and music filling the room, you could have spoken normally and no one would have heard you.

Steph, who is in the process of retying her boot, jerked her head up and almost hit you. Her eyes were wide at your words but before she could form a response, Tony was ushering the team into a huddle for a quick speech before walkouts.

Was telling Steph you wanted to have kids right before a match your brightest idea? No. but if you didn’t say anything soon then you were going to go crazy. Your words stuck with the defender throughout the match and she tried her hardest to shake them, needing to focus on the game.

Steph wanted kids with you as well, and she’d be lying if seeing how much the team loved Harper and Harley didn’t make her want kids more. She just was not expecting you to say that right before you walked out onto the pitch for a game. The Matildas came away with a three-to-one win over New Zealand and as the final whistle blew, you were jumping in her arms, celebrating your goal that she assisted. 

“I’m so proud of you, pretty girl,” Steph swooned, her arms tightening around your waist. 

Your arms tightened around her neck as your face flushed at the pet name. It didn’t matter that the two of you had been together for years and were married, every time Steph called you a cute pet name, you felt the same as you did when you first started dating.

“Couldn’t have done without you, baby,” you whispered in her ear as you pulled back slightly, your eyes locking with hers. Normally, you would have been hesitant about bold PDA moves but in that moment you didnt care as you pulled your wife into a kiss.

Over the loud cheers from the crowd, you could hear Kyra and Charli mocking you and Steph and the teasing comments from Caitlin and Hayley to “get a room.” You giggled into the kiss before pulling away and subtly flipping off your teammates. 

You heard your name being called by a staff member to come do a quick post-match interview and you groaned into Steph’s shoulder, you didn’t want to let go of her.

“Go, we’ll talk back at the hotel,” the defender smiled as she lightly pushed in the direction of the staff member. You took a deep breath at her words, knowing she was referencing what you said before the game. 

You weren’t expecting anything bad but you were nervous about the big step you and Steph would be making soon. The interview went by quickly and you were once again in the locker room, this time freshly showered and in comfortable clothes. Steph had waited for you to take a shower and change before you two joined your teammates on the bus. 

The ride back to the hotel was quieter than normal, everyone feeling the effects of long training sessions mixed having played over ninety minutes. Your head was resting on Steph’s shoulder as your eyes fluttered closed from exhaustion. “Sleep. I’ll wake you when we get there, pretty girl,” Steph whispered as she gave you a small kiss on the top of your head.

A few minutes later, the defender was lightly shaking you awake, whispering that you were at the hotel. You blinked a few times to wake yourself up before light stretching your arms as you waited for your teammates in front of you to move down the aisle. Taking Steph’s hand you exited the bus and made your way through the lobby. Before you could reach the elevator, Steph pulled you towards the hotel's indoor pool, she figured it would be a relaxing way to talk since you weren’t roommates this camp.

As you two reached the entrance, a family exited the pool room laughing. You were sure the universe was just teasing you now. The indoor pool was empty after the family left, which made things a bit more peaceful for you and Steph. The two of sat on the edge of the pool with your feet in the cool water.

You sat in silence for a few minutes, enjoying just being in your wife’s presence. Steph was in an intense staring contest with the reflections in the water, her mind racing with similar thoughts to yours.

“I know we’ve talked about kids,” you started, breaking the silence. Steph turned her head in your direction, giving you her full attention. “But, seeing the team, and you, with Harper and Harley this camp has me thinking about us, and when we will be parents. And, it's like the universe is trying to tell me something because every time we leave this hotel, all I can notice are families having the best time and I want that,” you rushed out, taking a deep breath when you were finished.

Steph watched as you rambled with a small smile on her face, she was over the moon at the thought of starting a family with you. “Obviously, I know it can't happen now, we have the Olympics and the rest of the season to focus on but after, maybe we could start then,” you offered when Steph hadn’t said anything.

“I want nothing more than for us to have a family. I couldn’t tell you the number of times I've watched you with kids, picturing you with our kids,” the defender mumbled as she thought about it again. 

“After we win the gold medal and the league, we’ll start then,” Steph confirmed your earlier statement with a promising tone. Your face lit up at her words as you scooted closer to pull her into a deep kiss.

You pulled apart when air became an issue and leaned back with a content sigh. “I know you’ll be great with kids, my love,” you said before a teasing smirk that Steph knew meant you were going to say something unserious. “Plus, you’ll also be a milf!” you smirked, watching Steph roll her eyes at your words.

You two had some time to figure out everything about expanding your family, but for now, you were going to live through your teammates who brought their kids to camp, knowing soon you and Steph would have your own kids to love and adore.

[f1daydreamers]

𝐀 𝐖𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐫 𝐓𝐰𝐨 [𝐋𝐒𝟏𝟖] 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝟔

photo credits: Pinterest

Pairing: Lance Stroll × Fem!Reader

Summary: Asking the driver of the team you work for to attend a wedding with you as your fake date is possibly one of the dumbest ideas you've had ever.. but also one of the best.

Warnings: angst, lottssss of fluff cause u guys deserve some, lots of mentions of alcohol, basically a party lmao

A/N: I’ve got ideas for a mini-series with Lando and one-shots with Max but I need to finish this off before I get carried away elsewhere!! ALSO, super sorry for the late update but it’s been a hectic last few weeks with weddings (summers are BUSY) but yep, finally dialled down and ready to post!

Listen to 'Ho Hey' by The Lumineers during the dancing part, it's such a feel good song :')

Word Count: 3.4k words (12 mins reading time avg)

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"Ow." You say monotonously as Lance rewraps the elastic bandage, then loosens it amidst your very nonchalant way of expressing agitation.

"The bruising's little better, you just gotta try and keep it straight." You nod, turning your attention to your sister who slid her chicken off of her fork by her teeth.

Lance turned to face his body forward again, tugging the sleeves of his blazer down. He watched as you directed your gaze towards your knee, carefully adjusting the bandage a couple of inches higher to prevent any itchiness.

"Can't believe you hurt it the day of the wedding." You shrug, fiddling with the hem of your dress and stretching your leg out, being careful as to not collide it with someone else's foot beneath the table.

"Just my luck," you settled on an answer and took a sip from your wine glass which desperately needed refilling if you wanted to let the thoughts of your damned knee waft out of your mind.

As if on cue, the waiter who was serving your group tonight popped open and poured a few inches of content from a fresh bottle into your glass. You refrained from asking him to hand you the entire thing. Once he'd began tending to someone else, you spared no moment in taking another sip, though this one was much longer than the previous one.

It didn't slip your notice how Lance leaned in, his words laced with a faint concern.

"You do know alcohol slows your healing down." You only give him a side eye, your lips touching the rim of the glass. Maybe you paused for a brief moment to register what he'd told you, but it didn't matter because you resumed consumption of the liquid seconds later.

He chuckled, shaking his head. His lips parted as if he wanted to say something else but his eyebrows raised in attention as his head whisked to meet your brother.

"Try some of the sushi mate," he prodded hospitably, but Lance brought a hand to his stomach, "I'm not a fan of it. I'm sure it's been well-made but I've tried it a few times in the past."

"Ah." He paused before your mum cut in, she was dabbing her napkin to either side of her lips. "Y/N, you should've told us. I would've asked for something else to be made." You really wanted to roll your eyes, she definitely wouldn't have. In fact, had she known, she probably would've asked for just seafood to be made.

"No harm done." Lance smiled, seeing the impatience with your mom already bubbling up evidently on your face. "Do you cook?" Your mother didn't stop there though as she recaptured his attention.

"I do sometimes, yes." His response took you by surprise, you'd never pegged him as the cooking type. Yet, the revelation only added to his allure in your mind.

"What, tea and toast?" She covered with a laugh though you knew it was a subtle dig, it didn't seem to occur to the man besides you as he only breathily laughed with her, assuming lightheartedness but there was nothing lighthearted about her.

"He can make plenty of things." You added, injecting a touch of seriousness into the conversation. Lance's eyes briefly flickered towards you, his eyebrows furrowing in a slight downward motion.

"Oh?" She sounded surprised, he was quick in interjecting to downplay the sudden admittance. "Y/N's hyping me up," he smiled then continued, "um no a-a couple of things sure. Just practical stuff."

You tucked a strand of hair behind your ear, noting his growing nervousness as he struggled to comprehend the atmosphere surrounding the conversation. You could sense the tension in the air, a feeling that lingered.

Releasing a sigh, you made a conscious effort to ease the growing awkwardness, forcing a smile as you lifted your gaze once again. "A man of many talents," you commented, aiming to lighten the mood.

Lance smiled at your compliment, remaining modest as he nodded appreciatively in your direction. It was evident that he was grateful you didn't let your mother's remarks affect your mood.

...

A few of the guests were beginning to leave the dinner table, the party now beginning to bleed on to the dance floor. You were slouched in your chair, going through your Instagram when Lance stood up.

"Where you going?" You asked him, though soon to be regretting it when his smile widened. "To dance. And you're coming with me."

Your eyes widen in horror, "I don't- no. I-" He doesn't let you finish your sentence, already tugging your hand up as you slide your phone flat on to the dinner table.

"My knee." You say in a matter-of-fact tone but you know it's not nearly as bad as it was earlier, the compression doing wonders for it.

Lance sees right through your lies because his grip on your hand doesn't loosen, "I'll be careful." You quickly join the assumption that he wanted to dance with you, not just have you up there to lessen his own embarrassment.

"I-" He tuts, "come on."

"Go have fun Y/N. It's not like this opportunity'll come 'round again." Your aunt wags her eyebrows suggestively, and Lance tilts his head towards her, wordlessly agreeing with the cheeky grin on his lips still very much prominent.

"You've definitely had more to drink than I have." He laughs, successfully helping you stand up and guiding you to the dance floor. He moved to the rhythm of the music, already grooving as he walked.

Suddenly, he tugged on your hand, causing you to turn towards him. Your eyes locked as his gaze swept over your body before returning to meet yours. With a playful smirk, he lifted your hand and drew you closer, his arm wrapping around your waist.

As the beat pulsated through the air, he began to shimmy his shoulders, a glint in his eyes. A smile adorned his lips when you instinctively started swaying your hips, matching his energy.

"I don't know where I belong, I don't know where I went wrong, but I can write a song," Lance sang along with the words, his voice as silky as butter. Oblivious to the effect he was having on you, he seamlessly continued on to the chorus, his energy contagious and captivating. You struggled to keep up with the whirlwind of feelings surging through your veins.

A genuine smile graced your lips as Lance playfully tried to engage you in the dance, guiding your arms and encouraging any movement. Laughter bubbles forth as he effortlessly twists you every which way. In the midst of the moment, the encounter with your mother fades into insignificance, and any lingering irritation dissipates.

You're overwhelmed with appreciation for the lengths your 'boyfriend' is willing to go to keep up an appearance.

Lance extends his arm, spinning you around before pulling you close, your bodies meeting. Your forearms align with his chest, and his hands firmly hold yours against his body as he continues to sing.

The lyrics escape his lips, "I belong with you, you belong with me, you're my sweetheart," and in that moment, everything else fades away, leaving only the two of you entwined in a dance that feels like pure magic.

You're already breathing a little heavier after the song had ended, beads of sweat trickling down your forehead but the man who'd constantly been spinning and twirling you around looked effortlessly handsome still. The perks of being fit, you supposed.

"I love this song." You listened a little closer then laughed when Lance began singing again, but messed up the lyrics a little.

"It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something stu- dumb to do." The note way off-key meant you couldn't help but chuckle, finding his imperfection endearing. Your head naturally found its place nestled in the dip of his collarbone as he joined in with your laughter.

Moments later, you lifted your head, resuming the dance with him. Once the chorus had begun, he quickly found his rhythm, the music guiding his movements flawlessly.

As the DJ continued to spin songs perfectly suited for a lively and exuberant wedding reception, a few guests eventually broke off from the floor to take a break or grab another drink.

However, you and Lance showed no signs of faltering. Fuelled by the atmosphere, you both remained in sync, undeterred by the fact that it'd been a while you'd been dancing. The music seemed to invigorate you, carrying you both through the night as you danced with unwavering enthusiasm, creating sparks of energy and joy on the dance floor.

As you settle onto a stool by the bar, your now sister-in-law taps you on the shoulder, holding a drink filled with clear liquid in her hand. Leaning down to ensure you hear her, she whispers, "you guys look great together."

Despite mustering a smile, a sour feeling comes over you. On one hand, it feels amazing that you and Lance have managed to convince everyone of your relationship, but you know it's not real. Your feelings for him are genuine, but he remains your colleague and friend — nothing more.

"I don't know how much it means coming from me, but he seems like a really good guy." You look up to meet her gaze, she tugs her dress closer to her legs to sit on the stool opposite you. "Can you tell my mom that?" She smiles, remaining cautious but you understood why. That is her mother-in-law now.

"I don't get the ex thing. The way you look at Lance, I don't know, you never looked at Thomas that way." She leans in to add convincingly, she was only dating your brother during the brief time you were seeing your ex, but the fact that she sees right through you makes you wonder just how obvious your attraction really is. To Lance especially.

You smile appreciatively nevertheless, at least someone's in your corner.

When you feel a presence come up behind you, you don't hold back a grimace when Thomas steps forward. You mouth 'save yourself' to your sister-in-law who chuckles, giving you a small hug before being whisked away by your brother, her husband, as he invites her to dance.

He takes her spot on the stool and you move to get up but he grabs your arm, "five minutes." You shrug his grip off of you and sit back down, pushing your stool a little back to maintain some distance. "Two."

"You're not serious about the F1 bloke, are ya?" You sigh, wiping the tip of your nose with your thumb to catch the tiny drop of sweat.

"I don't have to explain my life choices to you but just so you know, yes, I am serious about him." You state as if it should be clear, although maybe it was. In another reality far from this one, nobody would bring their partner to a family wedding unless they were truly committed to them.

"I know he's not your boyfriend, Y/N," Tom stares at you intently as he finishes his sentence, clearly anticipating any change in your demeanor or facial expression, causing you to suppress any visible reaction. But you're quite certain that your internal organs momentarily ceased functioning.

"What're you on about?" You question him.

He scoffs, as if you're just prolonging the inevitable truth. "At best, he's a friend. There's no way that dude's your boyfriend." You want to ask him how he caught on but didn't know how to word it so you chuckle instead, albeit a little nervously.

"You're funny." You say bitterly but Tom shrugs, a smirk on his lips, oozing confidence and surety in what he was saying as if he was aware this wasn't alcohol talking but the facts he'd built up since this weekend began.

"Come on. The air mattress in your bedroom, obviously has been slept in. On top of that, I haven't even seen you kiss the guy, just hugs and hand holding. People manage that with their mates."

You're beginning to get angry and you wonder if the two minutes you'd allowed him had grown to pass, "perving on my bedroom are we?" You suggest disgustingly through gritted teeth and Tom rolls his eyes, knowing you were stalling to gather a possible answer.

"I went to the bathroom, door was wide open. It's not like you tried to hide it." The smugness in his voice made you want to slap him but out of the corner of your eye, you saw your sister-in-law tap Lance's arm and point in your direction. You hid the relief washing over you, and swallowed your words.

"I couldn't give a shit about how you feel about my relationship." The anxiousness settling into the pit of your stomach caused you to feel a little nauseous.

"Mm-hmm, 'relationship'," he says, using air quotes with his fingers as he takes his hand off of his glass, followed by a playful wink directed at you. The feeling of nausea grows stronger, but you distract yourself when Lance places his hand on the small of your back.

Without wasting another moment, Tom leaves when Lance glares at him, leaving the two of you alone. He immediately redirects his attention towards you, his gaze fixed, wordlessly asking if you're okay.

"He knows," your voice shakes as you meet his eyes.

"Who?" He asks.

"Tom. He - figured it out. He knows we're not dating, he knows about the extra mattress in my room, he knows." You find yourself repeating, your mind in a frenzy as you whisper whatever you recall of the situation to the man currently hovering over you.

Your eyes glance behind Lance's body as you watch your ex go over to Kevin, interesting him in a conversation that you have no doubt is about his recent discovery.

"He's going to tell my brother, he's going to tell everyone-" You cut yourself off when Lance pushes his hand into your back, forcing you to meet his eyes again. Though this is not the time for it, the contact causes somersaults to erupt in your body.

"No he's not. He's not going to do anything, don't let him fuck with you." He reassures you, advising you to try and forget the encounter but it's all that is playing on your mind. You can't have him unwrap this entire weekend like a present waiting to be opened and showcased to everyone.

"Come on, it's the slow dance." You huff, finding right now a pretty stupid time to join your date for a dance. He sensed your hesitation, pulling you up by the hand much like he did a while ago.

"Isn't now a good as time as ever to convince everyone we are in love?"

You think about his question for a while then realise he had a point, you nod and let him guide you back to the dance floor, in a crowd full of many other couples doing the same thing.

You interlock your fingers around his neck, his hands finding their rightful places on either sides of your waist. You both begin to sway and you can see Tom standing just off of the floor, his eyes obviously trained on you and the F1 driver.

Lance looks down into your eyes to break your concentration, there was a subtle softness in them that you knew you could only claim as your own.

"What if he does tell everyone?" You whisper to him but he only smiles, contrasting you massively. One thing that differed between you was the lack of anxiousness in him and the load of it inside of you.

"A mattress can easily be explained, and he has nothing to prove that we're not dating." You swallow, remembering the other point Tom made in the short conversation.

"H-he said we haven't-" Lance's eyebrows furrow as your speech falters so you decide to rephrase it. "We only hug and stuff, to him couples do more than that."

"And to you?" You meet his lingering gaze, "what?"

His eyes fall to overlook your expression before catching your stare again, "what do you think couples do?" You subtly shrug when Lance tugs you closer to him. "I-I don't know. Traditional couple stuff." You curve around the obvious answer and he chuckles, nodding his head.

His eyes flicker to your lips and you could swear your heart skipped a beat, or maybe multiple beats. Your heart was fluttering vigorously within your chest, its rhythmic pounding so intense that you wondered if Lance could hear it if he focused hard enough.

You gazed at him, momentarily lost in admiration without any specific thoughts occupying your mind.

He observed you attentively, analysing you with deep contemplation. There was obviously something playing about his mind, but you couldn't decipher it, he'd never been one to read easily. He tucked in his bottom lip.

No words were exchanged but your chest was conveying more than enough, just as Lance's was. His emotions seemed to be a mix of nervousness, anxiety, and perhaps even panic. He couldn't understand why, this would only be a justifiable favour.

His gaze again shifted from your eyes to your lips, and the agitation in your body reached such a level that you felt your ribs may explode from the sheer feeling pent up inside of you. Raw emotions surged, unearthing feelings that perhaps you hadn't been sure about before. They were springing to life, blooming ever so confidently.

But so were you, every new sensation coursing through your veins made you feel alive, but frightened you too. It was powerful, overwhelming and a sensation that had never quite been matched with previous boyfriends.

You noticed the bob of his Adam's apple as he swallowed, the rapid rise and fall of his chest. In response, you leaned in closer. You didn't want him to retreat from this proximity, despite the anxiousness gripping you.

You couldn't help but wonder the potential consequences that could arise. Any platonic friendship you'd built up until this point would be shattered. Lance sensed your distraction and squeezed your waist in response, "how's the knee doing?"

You sigh out an unsteady breath, "g-good." Your gaze was darting between his eyes, barely formulating a clear response to his question, obviously lacking confidence. You knew the song was only a couple of moments away from ending, though there was no countdown, everything felt perfect enough for it to happen now.

Your face began to warm up, "I-I'm not the only one who's having all these feelings, am I?" You asked ambiguously, half-fearing his response.

Lance knew exactly what you meant, it seemed a little inconclusive to make assumptions on such an open-ended question but the breathless look on your face and the glint in your eyes both served as hints.

"No," the ends of his lips curve slightly into a smile, only to serve as assurance that he wasn't answering for convenience but because he was telling the truth and he too was sick of having to hide it.

Lance moved maybe a centimetre or an inch closer to you, his proximity was so close that the tip of his nose brushed against yours, causing your eyelids to flutter. His hands slid slowly from either sides of your waist to your back, interlinking.

Your lips parted instinctively, your mind becoming clouded, and any trace of logic vanishing from your thoughts.

His bottom lip skimmed over your top one and you could've sworn your body had turned into jelly, you could feel him smile faintly before his mouth closed around yours. For a moment, neither you or Lance breathed.

Perhaps to give the other ample time to process this was really happening. A blush crept on to your cheeks, his lips began to move, enticing you to join him in an illusive dance.

You released a content sigh through your nose which only offered Lance more assurance, continuing to kiss you with eagerness you didn't know he had. You toyed with a few strands on the back of his head, gently tugging at his neck to urge him closer.

He hummed in response, happily complying with your unspoken command. You pulled away to catch your breath, he allowed you to step impossibly closer to him as people began curving you to go back to their seats as the next song began.

You took the minute you had to appreciate just how good he looked, his eyes light, his lips pink, and his fair skin glowing even under the DJ's overhead spotlights.

You met his lips again, remaining there for a few seconds before he moved against them, kissing you a few times. "God, you're amazing." He whispered when you detached for the final time, blushing but making no effort to conceal it anymore.

...

Part 7

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[windup-dragoon]

I'm sorry for being less active lately. Life is always hectic and I just haven't really had a desire to play xiv since DT. So for the last few weeks I've been playing Love and Deepspace just to get out of my head for a bit lmao. Maybe with the next patch I'll be active again and catch up on things.

Also! I have a bsky!

Windupdrg.bsky.social !

I've been posting old stuff over there so check it out!

[msmargaretmurry]

Different anon, but who noticed your grad school exhaustion comment on my feed - I FEEL you, I'm at the tail-end of my grad school journey and it's only in the past few months that it's finally let up, and if it's any comfort, I've written three new fics in those few months after writing absolutely nothing over the previous three years, and they're some of the stronger things I've ever written (and my grad school course had absolutely nothing to do with writing!) You have my utmost sympathies right now, and it DOES come back!

thank you anon, this is such a nice message, and it DID get me a little choked up ❤ extremely nice to know i'm not alone and that the grad school exhaustion does not last forever!! this past year was especially hard because a) i took a summer class, so i only had a few weeks scattered throughout the year where i wasn't in a class or preparing for classes, b) for reasons that mostly boil down to administrative incompetence on my department's part, my fall semester especially was WILDLY stressful and had me doing about 30 hours of schoolwork a week for like six weeks straight on top of my full-time job, which c) was really busy because our marquee event is in early january and because of the stupid calendar this year it was RIGHT after new year's which was SO hectic!!!! so my semester ended and i didn't even get a break because the work thing meant taking VERY little time off for the holidays 😭 there are not words for how burnt out i was by the time i got home last week. like i got home last monday and still haven't left my apartment because i am still just too tired. but i have been trying to be gentle with myself and slowly getting my life/apartment back together (i had not like. cleaned my room. or gone grocery shopping. or put laundry away. or done any life maintenance for about two months, lmao), and i took all of next week off work so i can be well-rested and well-prepared going into the spring semester and HOPEFULLY have a better school-work-life balance. we have fixed the administrative incompetence problems and i just feel like i have a better handle on grad school in general now so i am tentatively optimistic. and also owing folks fic for team lift fest gives me a real reason to prioritize writing a little bit 😊

anyway. i just needed to complain a little i think 😂 but thank you so much for your understanding and encouragement, anon. and congrats on being almost done!! you're an inspiration!!! ❤

[weavingdelusions]

In a Week

Gale x GN!tav fanfic :)

Includes: Angst (they both die), Marriage, other companions (referenced)

imma be honest i wrote this instead of sleeping, so no beta read we die like Gale-

i never write fanfic so i am very sorry if it reads weird LMAO

oh yea and this is a Hozier lyrics omg i love hozier so much, Gale is so hozier coded :,v

Short Summary:

Gale uses the orb and Tav insists on dying with him-

that's literally it.

~~~

Gale tried to push Tav away, tried to save them from inevitable death.

Yet Tav insisted, insisted of not leaving Gale when the explosion happens, they wanted to be with Gale even in his final moments.

on one hand it flattered Gale, made his heart feel full and warm that Tav deeply cared.. cared so much they were ready to die with Gale.

"why.. Tav you have your whole life to enjoy, free of tadpoles and the absolute"

he questioned one night, possibly their last night together.. well, their last night together before they enter the land of the dead hand in hand.

They promised themselves to get married one day, when they are free of the Tadpoles and when the hectics were over.

Tav was so excited to meet Gales mother, to meet Tara and to walk the streets of Waterdeep proudly holding their lovers hand.

Gale suggested a beautiful pair of rings, describing it like he had put thought into it.

"it would be two golden rings, purple swirls would delicately decorate it and a glistening dark purple, almost wine red gem would be embedded into the ring. Our names engraved in each others ring"

Tav repeated those words to themselves almost every night, the image of a small wedding in nature, friends and family all enjoying each others company on a day of love and devotion.

"because I could never allow myself to love again, knowing my true love is blown to ashes"

Tav sighed, leaning their head on Gales shoulder as they both watched the campfire crackle quietly, as if it was trying to soothe them.

"I couldn't live with myself knowing you're gone."

Gale sighed.. there was no getting through to Tav and convincing them to live and in some way, it made Gale feel a little save.

~~~

They had let the moment rest, told no one around camp and tried enjoying their last days or weeks alive.

It was never anything fancy, visiting whatever was left of the shadowcursed lands and reading long into the night under a single oil lamp in Gales tent, cuddled in each others arms and each had a book in their hands.

Then it was time, the heart of the absolute infront of the team and everyone knew.

They all knew what was going to happen.

And without a word spoken, they all hugged, sighing deeply and everyone was holding back tears, even Lae'zel and Astarion couldn't hold the threshold anymore.

Gales hand moved precisely, magic swirling around the others and just like it was planned, everyone was send far away, further than waterdeep, further than faerun, further than any population.. in safety.

everyone, except Tav.

~~~

Tav walked over to Gale and despite the situation there was a soft, reassuring smile on their face.

"I thought we would have a few more days.."

Tav said in a solemn voice, taking Gales hands in theirs.

I've never known peace,

like the damp grass that yields to me

Gale tried so hard not to cry, but despite all efforts he had to blink away a tear or two, looking at his lovers face he felt like the world stopped. It had always been like that, Gale felt completely devoted to Tav, so in love he could simply watch Tav for hours.

"I know this may be a bad moment, but.."

Tav sighed, letting go of one of Gales hand to grab something from his pockets, a small sound of jewellery jiggling followed.

"Gale, my love. Even if death is one breath away, would you marry me?"

I've never known hunger,

like these insects that feast on me.

Tav's gaze and words were flooded with love and sincerity, in their hands, two golden rings.

two golden rings, a pinkish purple swirl decorated the rim and a wine red-ish purple gem sat on top.

Gale could only whisper a weak "yes" with a nod, he feared that if he spoke any more his voice would break and cause this beautiful moment to end early.

Tav smiled, tears welling up in their eyes and they slid the ring onto Gales finger, Gale imitating the gesture on Tav's hand gently.

A thousand teeth.

And yours among them, I know

our hungers appeased.

Our heartbeats becoming slow.

"we're Husbands now"

Gale chuckled through quiet sobs and intertwined their fingers, sharing a soft kiss before placing their foreheads together.

They knew it was time, they wouldn't have much longer.

Standing beside each other they looked ahead, hands still locked tightly together.

Soft "I love you"'s were exchanged, soft glances and caresses and a few little kisses before Tav sighed.

Brushing a hand through Gales hair and releasing the man-bun he wore, letting the others hair fall ever so softly, the deep brown and grey stands encapsulating Gales features so beautifully.

We lay here, for years or for hours.

Thrown here or found,

to freeze or to thaw.

If the moment wasn't so dire they would've laughed, mainly at how cheesy and lovey dovey they acted combined with the groups chuckle.

Which was missing, it was quiet except the ambient noises of the heart of the absolute.

They fell into each others arm and closed their eyes.. and it was over.

So long, we'd become the flowers.

Two corpses we were,

two corpses I saw.

It didn't hurt and for a split second that in the moment felt like a lifetime they remembered their time, their love and their friends.

remembered all the trials and errors, finding magical artefacts and helping whoever came across their path of their own saving.

When the weather gets got.

After the insects have made their claim.

Happy memories, Sad memories, Angry and every possible emotion they endured and worked through. it was all gone, all quiet.

They expected to be cold, but in their embrace all they felt in their last breath was love.

They didn't care if their bones survived, if their rings survived..

This was their last moment, loved, warm.. and content.

I'd be home with you.

I'd be home with you.

~~~

song:

In a Week - Hozier

[eldritchsurveys]

1263.

Were you alone today? >> I was/am. I usually am when Sparrow is busy with work/school, which is six days out of the week.

Who was the last person you saw today? >> I haven't seen anyone.

What do you need to let go of? >> I think I've let go of a lot, actually. As far as whatever I'm still holding onto is concerned... it happens when it happens. The process of releasing what needs releasing is not a process I'm willing to rush. In fact, rushing it is just a solid guarantee that it will backfire.

What movie are you looking forward to? >> Robert Eggers's Nosferatu does sound amazing and I'm looking forward to seeing it -- hopefully in theaters.

Have you played the lottery? >> Aside from the occasional scratch-off, I have not. I restrict my gambling to Jumbo Cactpot in the Manderville Gold Saucer, thank you very much.

What recently happened that made you proud of yourself? >> Recently it's usually something like being vigilant about taking care of myself or recognising when something is activating my nervous system and taking care of that instead of trying to ignore or push past it.

Who did you see the most today? .

How much is gasoline per gallon? >> It vacillates between $2.90 and maybe... $3.60? regularly. Apparently, one of the gas station franchises that's popular around here has this particular daily-roller-coaster effect on the local gas prices.

What was your horoscope today? Was it accurate? >> I don't read your average daily horoscopes.

What are you most afraid of? >> Incarceration.

What’s the biggest thing you have going on? .

What did you accomplish today? >> I made the decision to skip an outing I was going to attend so I could rest a little more. I finally got Marazhai in my party in Rogue Trader (aka the whole reason I started playing that game in the first place, not knowing you don't even meet him until almost 30 hours in, lmao). I made some progress in catching up on my job quests in FFXIV. I made coconut rice. I buzzed my head and took a shower.

Did you act your age today? .

How busy was your day today? >> Not busy at all, which is needed. Next week is going to be a comparative whirlwind.

What is your address? >> 1313 Mockingbird Lane, Mockingbird Heights, state unknown.

What do you wish there was less of in the world? .

What is stopping you? .

What were your chores today? >> Today is a light-load day for me, so I just did small things like putting away those dish towels that have just been languishing on the island and making rice for the next few days, as well as showering.

What was the last thing that made you laugh out loud? >> I don't remember.

Who did you eat dinner with? .

How did you make a difference in the world today? . What is one thing you take with you everywhere? >> I don't think this applies to anything. I don't even take my phone everywhere -- I went to the bodega yesterday and didn't bother taking anything with me except the money I needed for what I was getting. But to be fair, I do usually take my phone with me when I leave the house. Usually.

The last gift I’ve given was __. >> An hour at the cat cafe for Sparrow's birthday.

Ever wake up early on Saturdays to go Garage Sale shopping? >> I have not done this.

When was the last time you got a nose bleed? .

Do you have any picture frames without a picture in them? >> I do not.

Do you keep magazines by your toilet? >> I do not. There isn't even any space for that.

What did you last take a picture of with your camera? >> Something on my laptop screen. It was quicker and easier than any alternative method.

The last time you got dressed up, where did you go? >> I don't remember... it's been a while.

Are you proud of who you are? >> I suppose? I just don't think "pride" is an important feeling for me to have about myself.

If you were a waiter/waitress, would you make good tips? >> I would not be a waiter, this kind of hectic, unpredictable, socially demanding, highly customer-facing job isn't suited for me. Most jobs aren't, lol, but definitely not one like this. Forget about toppings. What type of CRUST do you like on pizzas? >> Excellent question. I like thin, crunchy crusts or kind of air-y crusts, I guess? Like when a crust has a lot of those big air bubbles in it, lol. I don't like thick, doughy crusts. This applies to other foods, too (why I prefer yeast doughnuts to cake doughnuts, for example).

Have you ever stolen a road sign or traffic barrier? >> I have not.

Captain Crunch vs. Count Chocula: Who makes the better cereal? >> I don't like either one, so.

Would you prefer an ice cream sundae or an ice cream cone? >> Cone. Is chapstick a necessity for you? >> It is not, but shea butter and Vaseline Lip Therapy is.

What are the best kind of Girl Scout cookies? >> I really like the lemon shortbread ones.

Do you constantly doubt yourself? >> Honestly, I just don't have anything much to doubt myself about. Like, I know my abilities (and my disabilities).

Do you like to have ice in your drinks? I like having cold drinks, but I'm not a huge fan of having ice in my drinks. It's admittedly somewhat of a dilemma, especially at places that don't chill their drinks in the fridge or something, haha. <- This exactly.

What did you eat for breakfast? >> I had Maruchan yakisoba instant noodles. What song are you most likely to sing in the shower? >> I don't sing in the shower. Teenage!me is aghast at this, lol, but I think nowadays I'm just focused on getting the whole experience done and over with, which doesn't leave much room/time/energy for anything else.

Can you cross your eyes? >> I can. Weird fucking sensation, that.

When was the last time you went to the dentist? >> Couple of years ago.

If a color represented your mood right now what color would it be and why? >> Like a periwinkle, maybe? That's just what came to mind, so I'm trusting it.

[tao-lay]

hello my beloved. just a few life updates below the cut, but tldr i just want to say thank you for the lovely thoughts and positive energy (my mom is doing tons better), and i miss hanging out with yall!

my mom is doing great. she can now walk albeit slowly, but progres is progress right? 💖

she started her physical therapy last week. so far its ≈$17 per session and she already had two sessions! AND IDK the best part is that her therapist's name is Jenna!!! i think thats so fitting that a woman named Jenna is helping her recover (same as how Jenna is helping a certain internetduo manage themselves and their super hectic schedule)

next week tho, she is being referred to another doctor and hospital (awww bye Jenna) and that one would be free bc its a public hospital! so im pretty excited for her, since she had been wishing to be there instead (mom has a crush on the therapist lmao). hope her little crush helps her be more motivated to do well and to recover faster🤍

send some more lovely and healing vibes our way!!! we can literally feel it, i love you guys so much! ✨

[acrosstobear]

Hi, I visit your page from time to time and I am not sure if you follow Mick as much, but incase you do, have you read or come across any news/rumor or speculations on why Mick wasn't there for the race in Hungary and doesn't seem to be in Belgium?

i absolutely still follow Mick!!!!! still 100% a Mick blog, it just so happened that Goodwood happened on the weekend i was in Toronto for INDYCAR and so I couldn’t really enjoy it/take most advantage of it. and then he LITERALLY disappeared off the face of the earth lmao. so i don’t know why he hasn’t been at the last two races!!!!! it’s very peculiar, i’m going to go look at his last diary entry to see if there’s anything of note that he said about the next few weeks.

i know he’s done some sim work at Williams and McLaren, in addition to the obvious work he’s doing for Mercedes. HOWEVER, and take this with a huge grain of salt — we know summer break is when silly season really ramps up. we know that just before the last two races, there was a shakeup on the grid. i wouldn’t be surprised to find out that he’s putting time and effort into finding himself a seat on the grid right now, and therefore falling a little bit more off the map.

that’s obviously what i’m HOPING for, and it doesn’t seem impossible to me that that’s why he might be otherwise occupied, but it could also just be that he’s tired and needs a breather from being in the public eye! Callum said his year as reserve was the most tiring, hectic year of his life, and it wasn’t helped by the uncertainty and the act of having to hope and pray that they’ll pick you. so i think it’s important to remember this is a tough year for him and give him a little space to figure it out.

alright that’s me over and out but pls remember that i loveeeee my babyboo Mick even when he’s not giving us anything to work with lmao 😂

[boba-beom]

Taehyunie's eyes smiles... his eyes... it's not at all fair... he's so beautiful and his Boba eyes are what that make my day😭❤️ shit shit I've been watching for numerous times now.

Smiles! How are you doing these days? I'm sorry for popping up now as I saw you updated now but you've been not here for a while. I thought you went on holiday and didn't bother in between. How are you enjoying comeback? Okay, all the songs are so so so amazing for me who finds happiness and comfort in txt's songs. Im a baby moa, the songs are always too good for me. I enjoyed them. I'm also catching up with the other stuff txt has been posting, I really love how they are posting so much and I always feel like I'm close to them as I get to know them more. For real, staring at their pictures, videos and all washes all my frustration, negative feelings away. Truly, they're all healing and so comforting. How has the comeback been for you so far? How is life these days? Are you doing well? How is your cold now? Please do take care, you're one of my favorite writers and people, I can't bear to watch you like that. You'll feel better, I know. The smiles I know is strong and a person I'd learn so much from. I know, I never said these but actually this is what I feel, when I see you here. You're truly like a sister to me, I didn't and don't lie about it. Know that I'm always here to pop up whenever and just remind you I love you!❤️

taehyun's eyes are one of his cutest features ever :') the way his eyes shift from deep in charisma to all sparkly eyed omg I saw someone had made a compilation video of taehyun doing that, and turns out he does it more often than we think hehe

also thank you for checking up on me! I wasn't on holiday, I came back on the day of the comeback but it's been hectic with birthdays and celebrations etc the past two weeks. the comeback has been feeding moas well! I think I'm now caught up with everything! I'm just waiting for the recent apartment 404 ep to have subtitles so I can watch actor yeonjun :>

the comeback's been so fun and I'm so proud and happy that txt managed to get plenty of wins for deja vu on music shows, though they didn't get 1st place on yeonun's last day of inkigayo, they still managed to win hottest stage :') I'm doing okay these days, doing more reading books than writing on here. I also spent some time away from going on tumblr (other than the times I came on to scream abt beomgyu) just so I could give myself some time to miss this platform lmao the cold is gone! but I had a sore throat lingering the last few days, but I'm feeling so much better now!

thank you for your kind words as always noulli! how have you been? anything new? and lots of lovee!!! 🫶🏼

[kathrinesadventures]

As Dj Khaled once said: Life is Roblox.

So, I know the past month has been hectic, sickness, being hit by a dog, but good lawd, today I almost got bitten by a dog 💀 BUT

This week has been the MOST productive from last month, which is a good sign that this whole month will be productive (hopefully)

So! Without wasting your valuable time!

FEMBOY DATING SIMULATOR

The goals that I set out to complete were completed (Thankfully I only had to pull 1 all-nighter to write (The other two were to study cause exams) )

Edited a few hundred words to make the things flow smoother, Ula's a bit more magical, and beautiful now Added a few lewd options that'll get you punched or scowled at (I'm having way too much fun lmao) The option to Harag's house is still being implemented and worked on, I still need to work on the different choices that'll get you on the path and also give you a good reasoning other than "Haha! Anarchy time!!"

That's pretty much it! As of now, the book stands at 30K words, My goal for next week is 33K words, (Hopefully)

Lost In Your Eyes:

Introducing a new character! Good lord, This one’s friggin hawt He’s kind, he’s soft, but by god, he’s a MAN. Romancing him will be rough since he’s close to 30 (I won’t reveal his true age due to spoilers) But since you’re in your early teens (Idc if he’s “Daddy material”) He’s going to be reluctant to engage with you UNLESS you’re EXTREMELY persistent. Also, yer vampires, so age doesn’t matt- siren noises AGE DOESN’T MATTER UNLESS YOU’RE BELOW 18. EVERY CHARACTER HERE ISN’T JUST ABOVE 18, THEY’RE ABOVE 20!!

Feet content added. Some of ya’ll will love this Just kidding :trollface:

a lot of things were deleted and removed. A lot of things were changed. 3k words were additionally added.

As I said before, the game won’t care if you’re shy or dominant. If you choose a shy route with John (Yep, that’s the character’s name.) things will be a bit more spicy if you’re dominant. Lots of internal monolouging. I wonder if you guys will catch John’s symbolism. I wonder if you caught every character’s symbolism and what I want to portray through them XD

That’s pretty much it! As of now, the book stands at… drum roll 169K (I need to grow up.)

Plans for next week is to take it to 172 and tell of the world without it being an information dump. You’ll SLOWWWLY know of the world, but only what you’re supposed to know at a specific time. See you guys next week!! <3

[liyacreate]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last ten people however many you want who reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals & followers!! <3

Hmmm... I'd say rn I'm really happy since I recently went to a con and got to meet one of the creators of Trese and bought 2 signed copies, books 4 and 5 since I already had 1-3. It's a short read but it's deff a fun one. I highly reccomend reading Trese. It's like a noir detective comic with Filipino culture mixed into it. It's fun seeing Filipino mythical creatures I know and love and learn about ones I haven't heard of before. It's also a treat to see places I've been to in the books and be like 'Hey I was just there!' esp since I mostly consume foreign media and it doesn't happen that often to me.

Another is Changing History and its aus on Quotev. I'm not really in the MHA fandom anymore and I haven't really watched or read the anime and manga for years now but I love the story of CH. It's not canon compliant and it's a multiple x reader but I reccomend it if you're into that kind of fic.

I've also been playing Baldur's Gate 3 with my uncle which is a very fun and different experience for me since I'm a I will bend over backwards to make sure my companions do not ever dissaproved of me while also making sure I never act rude to a character or else I'll cry (unless it's funny or the character is a bitch) kind of player while he's more of a lmao Imma be a massive asshole to everyone and be the most evil piece of shit for the lols kind of player. So I kinda end up becoming corrupted lmao.

I've also always had an interest in the sea. Sea creatures to be specific. I love learning about them and sometimes just watching them. My mom used to find it funny how I would just watch the aquarium channel on the tv. I started off just reading about fishes and the like on those big encyclopedias. For some reason my family gave me a lot as a kid and I favored the ones about animals. I also read the ones at our school library. Nowadays, I like to watch those deep sea exploration streams and I'm actually currently studying to become a marine biologist!

Last but not least, my friends and family. It's been a rough couple of years especially the last one. My mom just died from cancer last December, a few weeks before my birthday. I wish my mom had been there on my bday but I'm at least grateful she got to see pictures of my early celebration with friends--We celebrated a month early since it gets too hectic during December. It's nice to see my friends supporting me and recently I've been getting closer with my family. I rarely interacted with my family that much, perhaps only during the December holidays and rare family get togethers, but I suppose they sensed that I really needed to get out more often and reached out to me more often. It makes me happy.

[bonesandthebees]

Weeks have been hectic, but I caught up on the latest Glass update and oh my god.. maybe I was in the right mood to read it, but the writing in this one was so emotionally charged? I really felt this one and it was awesome!! And I love, love, love how, for that one, fragile moment, The Pythia refered to himself as Wilbur. Such a powerful scene!!

Also, bit unrelated, but since you said repeatedly that you really like Glass Animals, do you have any playlists with their music that you could share? Maybe only theirs or mixes with others? I haven't been able to stop looping "How To Be A Human Being" since yesterday and I need more lmao.

-🌹 <3

oh I'm so glad to hear that!! it was so emotionally charged to write, especially that last bit with the very fragile moment of wilbur calling himself by his name again. just aaaa so satisfying to write.

also this is your lucky day I read this ask and immediately just decided to make a playlist myself of every glass animals song I like (tbh I like nearly all glass animals discography but I tried to limit myself at least a bit lol so I didn't include a few songs even if I liked them. I was just going off of what I listen to most from them)

(also I decided to put the songs from how to be a human being at the end since you said you've been listening to that a lot, and then while i was adding them I realized i just. added the entirety of the album. how to be a human being is one of my favorite albums of all time I love every single song on there and listen to them all so much so. oops.)

hope you enjoy!!

[poohbea]

Hey Pooh bear how you been honey,

Hope everything going ok. I just wanted to check up on you and to also start simping for Uzui tengen from demon slayer even though I haven't seen the show or read the manga but that man is fine. I hate that he has 3 wife's because I barely like to share in general so what makes you think I want to share my man but idk. Anyways hope everything is going good or night. ( Plus birthday because I think I seen on yours or someone else's that their b-day is coming up or is already or maybe even past but I hoped everything worked out)

Hi my angellll!! Oh I’ve been so busy 😂, the last few weeks have been hectic but I’m hereeee and alive I promise!!

OH MY GOODNESS BECAUSE THE WAY I DO TO 😭😭 never ever read or watched the show but that man is my maaaannnn. Hahaha, honestly same with the wives lmao, they fine as hell too but I ain’t the biggest fan of sharing 😗

You tooo, and my birthday is long gone mamas 😭. I had mine back in the middle of April (you could probably guess the day 👀), but my birthday was good! Went to South Africa (where I was born) to see family and Singapore which was fun (walked my butt off in Singapore omg 🫠).

But I hope you’re going well too, with whatever you’ve been up to. Staying safe and looking after yourself 🥰💕

[shhthesecretdiary]

Sunday, December 8, 2024

Potek lunes na naman bukas.

A lot has been happening recently! Idk where and how to start and I had a lot of new experiences but since very hectic, it's kinda a struggle to sink everything in so here I go attempting to.

Starting from where we left off.

Around second half of mid Nov 2024. I became a finisher of 5km marathon!! Though I walked lang naman but stilllllll. I even had a finisher's medal! Sakit sa calves lmao. Then I was trying to get closer to r4w4ah but for some reason i dont feel like i can also fully trust her. I even met the peeps i met from chk chk boom (my first dance workshop sa dream center) and had good convos with ruth and bhagya. Soon uli. Then nanood kami ng hello love again kaso alang sounds sa burjuman cinema during the first few mins amph.

The week after that I met with Shyr4 from sfc. I feel like we're kinda not aligning but it was a good time as well. Sponty.

Then it was Ms. 3ve bday at kitchen 6 the food was great lalo na yung steak!!!! May entertainer don so i swore i would go back and i did a week later

I also participated in Dubai run na photoshoot lang wITH FAMILY HAHAHA thx kay shy for the shirt

THEN I ALSO INDEPENDENTLY ATTENDED A NETWORKING EVENT with cp4 aus and met a good chunk of people though i rly need to work on topircs as well and my knowledge

So yon kinabukasan non bumalik nga ako kit6 with deer pero tumawag nanay nya at need bya magmadali umuwi kasi may prob sa apt apateu nya hahaha

Funny exchange gift because i gave her spaced out cat pillow and she gave me loopy plushie.

THEN

Uae national dayy. Within uae lang so gala like omg first time ko nakalabas ng dubai and auh so we went to sharjah rak church uaq kumain sa barako grill then nakita pa namin si jaya na opm singer and went to the beach near uaq kite beach kasi crwded sa kite tapos kinabukasan nag khorfakkan naman kami then sa waterfalls has seafood for lunch then by the last day ng off nag mamzar beaxh kami

Tas nagmeetnuli kami ni deer nagAYA universe kami and super saya ng ball pit, then went to burjuman for photobooth and then cotti coffee na tig 13 aed na libre nya nagustuhan nya yung grapefruit americano and i had trad brown sugar oat latte

TAPOS first time ko rin nagcamping. Muntik na ako di sumama pero anyway i still went.

Medyo overwhelming and op AND NAWALA YUNG TICK TOCK HIKAW KO NA REGALO NIANTE SAKIN NUNG GRAD HUHUHU GOLD PA MAN DIN AND IT IS MY DAILY WEAR :( chineck ko pa naman earlier

Tapos ang lamig ng campjng had a sleeping bag and sabog kasi namaingay sila at 2 hrs tulog. Great experience din

I was also handing polaroid pics and i felt like disappointed yung keaexc gift shahaha sinunog nya agad haidilao paperbag wrapper q tas nilagyan ko cat sticker yung message ko sa gift

Kanina nung pauwi na from camping nakatulog sa kotse ni ate rochelle then paguwi ko nakabihis na sila mama dahil sunday mass daw kami dali dali ako naligo at nagbihis at antok lang ako sa simbahan

Then festival city mall heavy lunch sa ihop ng applebees then ikot konti at nakaidlip ako sa lounge bg mall

Dami tuloy missed call ni ate

So ayon nagsukat lang din ng shein order and returned some. Nagpahiwatig kay mama na punta ako someehre na may snow kasi kasama sa binili ko yon

Ala naman sya sinabi

Pero ano magagawa nya e teo weeks nalang huhu and booked na kazakhstan

Shame na need ko madaliin entry na to kasi papasok na naman bukas hay

Overall i am happy to get to explore more and experience more that i never couldve inagined years before. I will still need to work on myself though but glad to have a lot of good people around and meet then lalo na at di rin naman ako lumaki sa dubai so it is great to have company

o sya corp slave uli bukas 11:11 na sana good health and better lifestyle for not only me but fam as well

AND FINANCIAL INDEPENDENCE

ayon

[neonmeron]

火曜日　2024/09/17

It has been a very hot minute. I want to deeply apologize for not updating since February. My life got hectic and I couldn't make time in my schedule to make consistent updates. I fr was living day to day. If you still care, I'd love to briefly summarize what has happened since the last update, as well as some of the drafts I made. 

The next post draft (2/9) started with me talking about how i was watching kung fu panda and how it was my #1 favorite movie in the world (still true)

Did not pass the tryouts for my dance clubs vocal team

Draft from 2/12 included me talking abt the superbowl and how much I hate patrick mahomes and the chiefs. Also my friend cried after it.

Draft from 2/13 included me talking about valentines day and how i didn't have one but i didn't need one. I bought (fake i think) flowers to give to my japanese teacher. Imy M-sensei. Playing Genshin seems to be a recurring occurrence.

Draft from 2/19 included me saying how i had the best weekend ever 🤪 (you'll learn why soon). After my dance practice, B-san (remember him?) picked me up and we went to mcdonalds, had a snowball fight, walked through some woods, and built legos together and then he dropped me off at my house at 5 am LOL.

Draft from 3/18 starts with me talking about after my dance performance, (seventeen pretty u) B-san picked me up and took me to dinner. That's when we started dating :3 (we are still dating btw) then i went on to complain abt studying lmao. I then mentioned how I submitted an application to study abroad at Nanzan University in nagoya!! (that's actually where i am now…🙊 surprise! (been in japan for a few weeks now! I'll make a separate post on that later. AMA!) Next, lizzie freeman aka yanfei va aka my queen came to my college but i forgot to buy tickets (i eventually bought them off someone else and now i have her autograph and picture so whos really winning here) and then i bought a ticket to see a small indie band i like for june. It was so much fun. I really can't wait for them to come back to my city. The crowd was so small I was nearly at the stage!!). 

And that was basically my semester. I passed all my classes (some with better grades than others..) grinded the heck out of studying for my stats final. i think i barely passed the final which actually made me mad cause i studied so much lmao.

Uhhhh,,,,, i spent my entire summer working as a cashier for a state park near me that was fun i guess

i actually wont see B-san until january :|

Anyways no grammar lesson rn i actually have to grind out genki lessons 20-23 cause I cooked too hard on the placement test and got in a higher class than I was aiming for so…. That'll be the next post. 

I'm actually hungry af rn so i'm gonna find somewhere to eat

I'm gonna try to keep this updated regularly considering my load this semester seems pretty light (fingers crossed) and it's strictly japanese language and culture. Slayyy anyways goodbye for now (p.s. I lost every Japanese language skill I had this summer. I genuinely don't remember anything. I actually can't talk with my host family. Oh yah, i have a host family i love them

As compensation for being awol, here's one of my favorite j-pop songs. It literally got me through last summer. It gets me so hype. 

If this post gets 50 likes ill post all the drafts i mentioned

じゃあね～

今日の歌はOFFICIAL HIGE DANDISMーTattooです。