#it's actually like 12.05 but I woke up a short while ago LOL

[sevicia]

This one class I took in my first semester of last year was like, a giant group project so we were stuck with the same people for all of it, and I got put in a group with this one guy who was like a giant to me (I was actually so jealous LMFAO like why can't that be me ?!) but he was so nice to me. One time we were coming out of one of the library study rooms (which had a temp. regulator thingy inside) and they'd all agreed on lowering it cause it was really hot outside except I was literally fucking freezing like shivering & all that, so we go outside first while the other two guys are packing their stuff and I (trying to be normal and make small talk) was like "I was actually freezing in there it was so cold...!!" and he just went "? why didn't you tell us though?" and I had to pause like damn... why DIDN'T I tell them??? so I settled on "oh I didn't wanna be a bother while we were working haha" to which he laughed and told me to just say smth next time and I was like OK 👍 and it was probably annoying to deal with someone like me all the time but he was able to be kind about it still which I really appreciate T_T

Also one day we were all working through last period and since we all had to take the metro / bus, we walked in the same direction and just separated wherever, so at one point it's just him and me and his bus stop is before mine, and it's right next to a stoplight so we paused and he just sort of lifts his hand in the air and I look at it for an inappropiate amount of time (like 3 seconds when it was meant to be a 2 second interaction) and decide on raising my own, like mirroring it yk, and he just laughs and takes my wrist and makes us high five and I was like OHHHH OK lol and then we said goodbye and I went home.

Like sometimes I think Maybe we could've been friends... but then I remember 👆 that he already had a group of friends and they were all pretty outgoing and not necessarily LOUD but they were always laughing & stuff yknow... like friends do.... and I realize like man I would NOT have fit in at ALLLLL it would've been so awkward for everyone involved. sobbb