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aribeez · 3 years ago

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Forever Yours

read part two here

pairing: xiao x fem!reader

theme(s): enemies/lovers, jealousy, SFW

synopsis: tasked with watching over xiao at the inn, you two argued like cats and dogs. was this relationship doomed from the start?

Warnings: childe makes an appearance (mans is my number one i don't wanna hear anyone complaining), ganyu shows up for a hot second, reader is blunt, slow burn, violence (swords, weapons in general), blood, NOT PROOFREAD

notes: SORRY IT'S LONG LMAO. i modeled the reader after my own personality because i'm funny. also idk how i feel abt this fic but i love angst. storytime: xiao decided to come home 77 pulls AFTER i lost the 50/50 at deadass hard pity. i'm not f2p but i only buy welkin and bp so primos are still scarce:( now i'm saving for my boy kazuha (still mad at myself for starting genshin after his banner). ALSO SORRY BUT I LOVE A GOOD JEALOUSY TROPE SO I USE IT OFTEN... anyways, hope you love our little tsundere guy. <3

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"I don't like you." Xiao spat, glaring into your eyes. For a man who barely talks to anyone, he sure isn't afraid give you the most piercing stare ever. It even made you uncomfortable.

"You tell me everyday." You sigh, placing the plate of almond tofu on the little wooden table beside Xiao. You didn't really like Xiao. You don't want to say hate, as he is an Adeptus, but you strongly disliked him.

He didn't really like you either. Since Verr Goldet and Huai'an were off doing some business for the Liyue Qixing, she instructed you to watch over Xiao to make sure he gets his food and to get whatever he needs. This abode was built for him, after all. That was three weeks ago.

Xiao hated being watched over, especially with someone as talkative as you. You really only see him for a few minutes a day, but the ice cold stare he gives you drains you of any happiness you had. The rest of your day is ruined.

You push your hair behind your ears as the wind glides along your body. It was freezing. "Do you really have to make me bring your plate out here? How aren't you cold?" You scoff, crossing your arms together to attempt to bring a little warmth to your frame.

Xiao didn't even react. He continued looking off onto Liyue, one knee up to his chin, the other hanging off the railing. He didn't even move his hair from his eyes. What a weirdo.

"Verr does not pay me enough for this." You mutter to yourself, looking down at your bare knees as they become red with the cold. Working for the Qixing did not have "take care of Adepti" in its description.

Verr instructed you to wait until Xiao was at least done eating so you can take his plate back down. Could the man really not bring his own plate down?

You sigh as you look at the food, untouched. "I'm going to wait just outside the porch," You started, your hand already opening the door back inside. "The least you could do is tell me when you're done so I can grab your plate." You wait a beat, hoping maybe Xiao will actually mutter a word to you other than 'leave me alone'. Alas, nothing.

You huff angrily, closing the door a little too loudly. You didn't know much about Xiao, only that he is an Adeptus and that he is the conquerer of demons, but not much else. Verr just warned you to be gentle with him, but your stubbornness couldn't allow you to do that. He was just so cold!

Minutes pass as you watch the grandfather clock tick in front of you. How slowly time went when there was nothing to do. Growing rather antsy, you open the door, peaking an eye out onto the porch. On the table lied an empty plate, and no sign of Xiao.

"Seriously." You groaned, pushing the door past you so you can collect the plate. "Couldn't even bring it inside." You huffed, trudging back into the inn.

And the cycle repeated for weeks.

Xiao didn't like to talk. The mortal act of 'conversing' seemed rather insignificant to him. However, every time you complained about him or your job in general, he couldn't help but open his mouth. No one, in the thousands of years he's been alive, has ever been as foul mouthed as you are towards him.

"Have you mortals no respect for your Adepti?" He asked through gritted teeth, still not even giving you the decency of looking at you. He just stares off, though his facial expression is that of disgust.

"I will give you the same answer I give you everyday, Xiao. No!" You threw your arms up angrily. You didn't mean it, you did have respect for the Adepti in general, just not this one.

"Adeptus Xiao." He snarled. "Absolutely despicable. You are much too insignificant for me."

You slam your hand on the table, causing the almond tofu to shake. "I can't do this anymore!" You shout, brows furrowed right at him. "How can I respect you if you don't respect me?!" You run your fingers through your hair.

And of course, no physical reaction from the mighty conquerer of demons. "Then leave." Xiao said, as monotone as ever. "I don't get why you're still here." He didn't understand how his words gave you such a reaction. All he said was that you were insignificant, which is the truth! A mere mortal is not special in anyway, especially in the eyes of an Adeptus.

"Maybe I will leave! Who will bring you your precious tofu then?!" You scoff, tearing the plate away from the table. You're not a violent or angry person, but Xiao brings this fire into you that you just can't seem to shake off. The way he ignores you only fired you up even more.

It's like he liked pushing your buttons.

You turn around so quickly, you didn't see the rare occurrence happening just behind you. Xiao was looking at you, and he watched as you stomped away with his full plate of tofu. He never quite understood why he felt the need to argue with you. Was it maybe because no one has treated him like this before?

People seemed to be scared of Xiao if they ever had the chance to cross paths with him. He was intimidating and not that friendly. Most stay clear of him, which he preferred anyways as to not infect them with his karmic debt. Not you, however. You aren't afraid of Xiao, you actually are so unafraid that you even yell at him. He's not saying he likes getting yelled at, but the fact that you were so brave around him made his stomach jump.

He didn't like to dwell on these confusing feelings, because if he did, he might accidentally admit to himself that making sure he was back at the inn by five wasn't just for routine sake, but to make sure he saw you.

Xiao knew you would come back. You had the same fight everyday, and the next day you always returned.

Until you hadn't.

Xiao grunted to himself as he watched the Liyue sky turn to nightfall. His eyes glazed over the empty table with no plate attached to it. Where were you? He rested his chin on his knee, his anxiety slightly heightened. You were never late.

Maybe his karmic debt had finally gotten to you. Why have you not listened when he requested you leave him alone? Human souls are weak and fragile, it could not keep up with the physical and psychological torment that has tortured Xiao for years.

He sighed, removing himself from the railing and into the inn. A wave of heat brushed Xiao as he entered, not even realizing he was cold from the snow outside. He looked down when he walked, but snuck little glances inside each of the rooms looking for you as he made his way to the front desk.

It's been a while since he has been at the front desk. The whole front was decked out for Lantern Rite. Was that today?

He grunted to himself as he made his way into the kitchen, hoping you were there waiting for his tofu to be made. Maybe the chef was just late?

"Adeptus Xiao?" Chef Yanxiao questioned, almost freezing up at the sight of Xiao. "Is this about your almond tofu?"

Xiao stared at the kitchen, no sign of tofu at all.

"Apologies, but Y/N never requested it to be made. I assumed you didn't want any." Yanxiao continued, placing the plate he was just cooking down.

"Where is she." Xiao demanded, a growing worry becoming prominent on his face. Would you even know to call his name if you were in trouble? He never told you he could do that. He silently cursed at himself for withholding such information.

"Y/N?" Yanxiao tilted his head, thinking it over. "Umm... I haven't actually seen her today at all." He walked toward a button on the side of the kitchen. "This button alerts when I need someone to come downstairs to grab food when it is done. Let me see if she comes down."

Xiao anxiously awaited your footsteps, but the only footsteps heard was that of another worker, coming down to grab the food Chef Yanxiao prepared.

"Apologies, Adeptus Xiao." Yanxiao frowned. "It seems she is not in today."

Xiao simply walked back up the stairs, his heavy footing causing dust to fly down from under the staircase. He was angry. Angry you just disappeared without telling him. Angry that he was angry about you not telling him. What was wrong with him?

Hours passed as Xiao watched the outside from the railing, hoping to catch you, hoping that you were okay. He listened attentively to the wind, searching for your voice calling out for his name. Maybe if you were in trouble, you would think to call for him, even if you hated him.

Xiao had never given you much thought until this moment, and his mind wandered to his fellow Yakshas who would look down on him for a mortal consuming his thoughts. You weren't all bad, though annoying, you still had a caring bone in your body. You made sure Xiao was fed, and even during one of his karmic debt episodes, you brought him extra tofu. He didn't realize it then, but it was your way of comforting him.

Did you even know of karmic debt? Xiao had a million questions swarming through his head, that he almost didn't hear the sound of laughter- your laughter- downstairs at the front desk.

Eyes widening, he quickly jumped down from the railing, rushing inside. You were laughing, so you had to be okay, right?

"You're too funny, Y/N." Another voice laughed. Xiao stopped in his tracks, only steps away from being in view of you. Who else knew of your name? This wasn't a voice Xiao recognized.

"Am I now?" You laughed back. "Well, thank you again, Childe. For taking me to the Lantern Rite festival. I know the Fatui and Qixing have their... Differences, but I'm glad it didn't stop us from hanging out."

A strange pit formed in Xiao's stomach, one he is not accustom too. His eyes glowed as his expression changed from worry, to anger. Pursing his lips together, he made his way back to the porch, not wanting to hear more of your conversation with... Childe.

"Mortals..." Xiao scoffed to himself, picking at the snow with his finger, lightly bringing some of it to his tongue. The cold soothed his hot tempered reaction to you and Childe together. No longer will his thoughts be plagued by you, a mere inconvenience, but instead by the duty bound to him. Protect Liyue.

His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of the door opening, and mistakingly, he looked over.

You froze at the sudden eye contact. Usually, Xiao wouldn't even bat an eye when you walk onto the porch.

"Yanxiao said you were looking for me." You stated, slowly walking over to the railing. "He said you looked worried." You placed your hand next to his, silently hissing at the cold that radiated from the railing. "Were you?"

Xiao swallowed hard as he saw your hand so close to his in his peripheral vision. "No." he stated coldly.

He expected you to lash out again, but was wrong when he heard a slight chuckle escape your lips.

"Normally I would yell at you, but right now, I'm happy." You smiled to yourself. Seeing Childe always made you happy since you don't see him often. You've been best friends for years. "So instead, I will just apologize for not telling Yanxiao to bring your tofu up. That is why you sought me out, correct?"

Xiao wasn't stupid, and quickly moved his hand to his side when he figured out why you were so happy. "Yes." He lied, being more cold than ever towards you.

"I figured. I shall bring some up for you now, if that is what you request." You turned around, already prepared to have to go back downstairs to get Xiao's tofu.

Xiao closes his eyes, thinking back to when he thought you were in trouble. He felt sick at the fact that you would not call for him to protect you.

"Y/N."

You froze in your tracks, your blood running cold. Never, ever, has Xiao said your name before. You turn back around only to be met with golden eyes staring back at you. They were not angry, like they usually were, but concerned. You were honestly a little freaked out.

"I lied."

You swallowed as you linked your fingers together, fiddling with anxiety. "Lied?" You questioned.

Xiao bowed his head down in response. "Yes. I did not look for you because of the tofu." He confessed, his eyes not leaving yours. "I thought you were in trouble."

Your heart sank a little as you realize what has happened. Xiao was worried about you. Guilt ate your insides as your gaze left Xiao, unable to look him in the eye now. You would have never imagined he was worried about you, you honestly thought he would be happier if you were dead.

"I'm sorry." You mutter shyly. "Next time, I'll tell you if I leave. I didn't mean to make you worried."

"I wasn't worried." Xiao corrected. Ah, there was the Xiao you knew. "But if you ever are in serious trouble, just say my name, and I'll be there."

You chuckle slightly. "Is that it? Just say your name?"

"Yes." Xiao cocked his head to the side in confusion. "What is so funny about that?"

"Nothing! I just never thought you would bestow such a privilege onto me."

Xiao looked back past the railing, onto Liyue. "Well, I am. Unless you don't need me, that is." He shifted uncomfortably in his seat, thinking back to how you're friends with a literal Harbinger. Not that Xiao couldn't crack his skull into two, but maybe you prefer his saving over his own.

"Not like I have an abundance of Adepti waiting to save me." You laugh. "Thank you... Adeptus Xiao."

Xiao straightened up at the name, his face becoming red with embarrassment. "D-Don't think you can just call me whenever you please!" Xiao stuttered, slamming his hand onto the railing, turning back to you. "Only if you are near death."

You simply giggle at the sight of the conquerer of demons being bashful towards you. "Of course not, see you tomorrow."

His eyes widen as he watched you go. "W-Wait!"

You turn around. "Yes?"

Xiao looks down, almost disappointed in himself. "Tofu." Was all he said. "Please."

You really did think for a second that Xiao had changed, especially after your conversation that night. But boy, were you wrong.

Xiao has been even more distant, giving you one word answers for everything you say, not even meeting your eye anymore. You grew tired of it, and simply, you couldn't deal with it anymore. He almost made you feel unneeded, even if he didn't outright say it.

"Xiao." You say, pausing for an answer, even though you know you won't get one. "I can't do this anymore." You state, looking down. The bags under your eyes were proof of how tired you were.

Sleepness nights haunted you every time you tried to get some shuteye, your thoughts consumed by why Xiao hated you so much. Yeah, you admit you could be annoying, but ever since that night he seemed to really hate you. Truth be told, you wanted Xiao to like you, even if your relationship was a bit strained.

Xiao was in the same position as he always was, and this sudden confession did not change anything. He continued to look out onto the mountains.

You sigh sadly. You were exhausted. "I told you I would tell you if I was leaving, so this is me keeping my word. However, I will not be back." You look up at Xiao, hoping for even a little reaction.

Nothing.

You slug your shoulders down. "Verr Goldet will be back tomorrow, but I shall take my leave tonight. I told Yanxiao to bring your tofu up at five." You wait again.

Nothing once more.

"Goodbye, Xiao." You say softly, closing the door of the porch for the last time.

Xiao waited until he knew you were back inside to relax his being, taking in all the words you just said.

All he wanted to do was bring you back, to argue like you did before he found out about Childe. Though it has been weeks since Lantern Rite, Xiao could not shake this feeling of you laughing with another guy. You never laughed with him. It made him so... So... Xiao couldn't even think of the feeling he was feeling. So he did what he knew best, and shut everyone out.

Xiao also knew his karmic debt would plague you sooner or later, and he didn't want that for you. It hurt him to let you go, but he knew he had too.

That night, Yanxiao brought up Xiao's almond tofu. Xiao did not eat. He only sat, watching as you rolled your suitcase out of Wangshu Inn.

His heart hurt, and it wasn't karmic debt this time.

"Xiao!" Verr smiled, opening the door onto the porch. "Didn't think you would be here. Are you okay? Having an episode?"

"I am fine." He states coldly. Verr always thought the worst above all else. "Was your trip satisfactory?"

"Yes, the trip was good, though I did not mean to be gone that long! Apologies, both to you and Y/N." Verr looked around, confusion arising on her face. "Where is Y/N?"

Xiao's face sank at the sound of your name. "She left."

"Back to the Qixing already? That girl is a hard worker." Verr opened the door back up to head inside. "Let me know if you need anything!"

Xiao bowed his head down in response.

Alone again. Just the way the archons intended it to be.

Days pass as Xiao fell back into his normal routine before you arrived. Now, he doesn't feel the need to make it back by five. He slays demons, battles out his karmic debt, and eats almond tofu. Granted, that's exactly what he did when you were there, but the differences was he actually had something to look forward to: seeing you.

Now, he thinks of you often. Were you okay? Were you happy? Though thoughts of mortals should be shunned away, Xiao couldn't help it. He wanted to see you, just one last time, even if you yelled and screamed at him.

You fell back into routine too. You quickly made it back to the Qixing to start normal work once again. It felt good to be around people who actually want to talk to you, though every time someone brought Xiao up (to be fair, it was mostly Ganyu and how tough of an instructor he was to her), you felt sadness creep its way into your emotions. Did you... Miss him?

You shook that thought quickly away.

You did not miss Xiao.

"And then, he told me my aim was still bad!" Ganyu groaned. You nodded in response, trying to do both your work and listen to Ganyu's ramblings. "Honestly though, I feel bad for him." She sighed.

You stop your work and look up at her in confusion. "Why? Because he's like a demon conquerer?" You sounded a little stupid, but you've never heard anyone say they feel bad for Xiao.

"Well- yes. But no. Did... Verr not tell you?" Ganyu questioned.

You shake your head no.

"Oh. Well Xiao is succumbed to karmic debt for slaughtering demons. It's pretty brutal. It's a mixture of physical and psychological pain that extends to people he hangs out with as well. It's kind of why he has no acquaintances."

You stare at your paperwork, swallowing back sadness. Is that why Xiao pushed you away? So you wouldn't be brought into his world of pain?

"Y/N? Are you okay?" Ganyu brought a hand to your forehead. "You feel fine, no fever." She breathed out a sigh of relief.

You suddenly stand up, startling both Ganyu and yourself. "I-I have to go." You say quickly, gathering your things. "Please tell Lady Ningguang I'll be back tomorrow!"

"W-Wait- Y/N!" Ganyu shouted, though you were already out the door.

You don't know why now you decided you had to see Xiao now, but you didn't care. You were always an advocate for following your heart, so even though you were confused as to why you wanted to see Xiao, you didn't run from it. You ran towards it.

The Qixing was a little far from Wangshu Inn, so you knew you were bound to see a few monsters. Nothing you haven't seen before, though it was best to keep away from them as you were visionless and not the best at wielding a weapon.

Though Hilichurls tended to not bother you unless provoked, treasure hoarders were a different story. They actively hunted people, especially people alone.

So it really should have came to no surprise when five strong treasure hoarders surrounded you.

"Just give us your bag." One sneered, his weapon now coming closer and closer to your chest.

You felt like you were going to faint. Everywhere you turned was another hoarder about to pounce on you. You quickly grab the dull blade you carry just in case, though you knew you were no match for the very skilled people about to hurt you.

"Please..." A tear rolled down your cheek. "I need this bag. I-"

Slash.

Red quickly stained your clothes as one of the hoarders brought a blade to your arm and sliced it. You breath hitched as all of a sudden, hands grabbed you and brought you hard to the ground.

Your back hurt as you cried out in pain. You shakily hold your blade out, though that was discarded right away as another hoarder kicked it from your hands. They laughed in your face.

Tears fell hard as they towered over your frail frame, weapons gripped tightly.

Was this the end?

"No..." Was all you could whisper, fear encompassing your thoughts. Your eyes widen as the biggest hoarder brought his shovel up, right above your head.

Fuck.

"Xiao..." You say softly, nothing more than a quiet whisper escaping your lips.

As if in the blink of an eye, a figured appeared by your side, startling the treasure hoarders, and you.

"What the..." One said as they all faced Xiao.

Xiao, spear in hand, looked down at your injured body, a fiery explosion bursting in him.

A piercing gaze washed over all the hoarders as Xiao quickly sped towards them, hurting them in every way possible.

They had no time to escape.

Your attention was quickly brought to your arm as Xiao fought. You were losing a lot of blood. You attempted to put pressure on the wound but winced in pain, dropping your arm to its side.

"Ah!" You yell as you felt strong hands lift you from the ground. Your vision was hazy, but you were sure it was him. "Xiao?" You asked softly. It was the last thing you muttered before passing out.

Waking up to a room that wasn't yours brought along quite a scare, but feeling your injured arm startled you even more. You wince in pain as you attempt to bring yourself up, but fail to do so when a force pushed you gently back down.

"Stop getting up." You look up and see none other than Xiao.

"W-Where am I?" You stutter, your anxiety heightening.

"Wangshu Inn."

"Why?"

Xiao gestured to your bandaged arm. "You called for me."

"I did...?" You look over and see your arm neatly wrapped up, a little red staining it. You look down in disappointment. "I'm sorry, I should have-"

"Why didn't you call earlier." Xiao interrupted, his sharp tone making you widen your eyes.

"Excuse me?"

"You called for me only after you were injured. You should have called for me as soon as you saw the treasure hoarders." Xiao was leaning against the wall, arms crossed and eyes closed. "You should know how fragile humans are. You could have died. What were you even doing alone?"

You were speechless. "I-" What do you even say? "I didn't think you'd want to see me." You admitted, your voice dropping. "I was... Coming to see you."

Xiao turned his head sharply at you, almost as if he heard incorrectly. "Why." Why come to see him if you thought he didn't want to see you? Humans were odd.

You shifted uncomfortably in your bed, another sharp pain shooting into your arm, causing you to wince.

"I said stop moving." Xiao growled. "You'll only make the pain worse. Now, why were you coming to see me? Did something happen? You could have just called for me."

"Y-You said not to bother you unless near death. My situation for coming to you was not life or death."

"Then what?"

Xiao didn't mean to sound so cold, and he felt a little bad about it, but it's just how he is.

"I don't know." You admitted. Xiao looked at you, obviously not satisfied with that answer.

"You... Don't know?"

"Well. I guess I missed you. So... I was going to come just to ask Verr Goldet how you were. I wasn't actually going to bother you." You sigh, turning your head to face Xiao, who was now as red as a tomato.

"I... See." Xiao looked away embarrassed, bringing a hand to his mouth. "I do not understand. You dislike me. How do you miss me?" Xiao was really trying to comprehend the feelings a human has, but it's so difficult when they're so complex.

"I don't know."

Xiao sighed. This was going nowhere. "I will take my leave now." He stated, opening the door into the hallway.

"Xiao?"

He turns his head to face you.

"Thank you."

The next day was much easier for you. Though your arm was throbbing with an uncontrollable pain, you could actually get up. Verr checked on you every once in a while, bringing you soup and pain killers, but no sign of Xiao.

You trudged your way up to the balcony the next morning, hoping he was there.

You stopped in your tracks as you opened the door to the balcony. Though you always brought it up for him, never have you seen Xiao actually eat the almond tofu. This was probably the happiest you've seen him.

"Xiao?"

Xiao stopped chewing as he looked up at you, mouth full. He kinda looked... Cute. You quickly wipe away that thought. Xiao would actually kill you if he heard you say that.

He coughed nervously as he placed the plate down. "Y/N. What are you doing? You should be resting."

"I wanted to see you."

"Hmph. Mortals. For what service could I be to you?"

"No service." You walk up to the railing he sat on, looking up at his glowing eyes. You smile to yourself as you watch him burn up. "I just... Want to apologize."

"A-Apologize?" Xiao asked, flabbergasted. Have you done something wrong?

You nod. "I'm sorry for making your life difficult. I didn't know you were dealing with such... Demons."

"I am the demon conquerer. I always deal with demons."

"No. I mean inside." You point to his heart, the sudden affection making Xiao stiffen up. Never, has anyone touched him. "I didn't know you were plagued with such pain..." You hold your hand flat on his chest, feeling his heart rate quicken.

Xiao could only stare at your hand touching him, his breathing becoming rapid. He was too stunned to speak.

"I know you don't want to see me, but I still want to thank you for helping me... So..." You look up at his face, and him to you. His lips were slightly parted as a feverish blush wore itself on his cheeks. "Thank you, Adeptus Xiao."

Xiao swallowed nervously as you removed your hand from his chest. "Y/N." He breathed out, still not recovered from the touch he received. "You're wrong."

You cock your head to the side in confusion. "Wrong?"

"I-I-" Xiao breathed out heavily as he looked away from you. "I do want to see you." He finally choked out, though he could not face you when he says it. "I have felt weird since you left, and seeing you hurt like that..." He swallows. "I'm mad at myself for being unable to protect you."

You frown. "Xiao, you did protect me. It's not your fault I called for you after the fact." Nothing you say will make him think otherwise though.

"But, how can you want to see me? Do you not have another?" It hurt Xiao to ask about Childe, but he couldn't help himself. Why should he even care? He honestly doesn't know why he does.

"Another?" You question. "Xiao, are you asking me if I have a boyfriend?" You slightly tease.

You see Xiao physically tense up. "N-No. Well... I saw you. Talking to a Fatui member. Laughing. I assumed..." He huffed before he could finish his sentence, his face becoming an even deeper shade of red. "N-not that I care..."

You blink a few times before you let out a laugh. Xiao looked at you with straight confusion.

"Oh, Xiao..." You laugh, wiping tears with your non-injured arm. "Of course you don't care."

"W-Well, I mean I do- Kind of-"

"It's okay, no need to explain yourself. Childe is my best friend. Nothing else." You bring your hand down onto his, causing him to jerk it away on instinct.

"S-Sorry." You hug your hand back. "I didn't mean to..." Why did you just do that?

Suddenly, you see his hand slowly fall back down to the railing, his face completely opposite of you. "It's okay." Was all he said, not wanting to sport the permanent blush on his cheeks.

You smile warmly as you gently grab his hand. You didn't want to make him uncomfortable, but you knew he secretly liked being touched.

"You know, you could be infected with my karmic debt if you continue coming to see me." Xiao faces you once again, looking down at you with sad eyes.

"I know." You say softly. "I don't care."

Not letting go of your hand, he slowly brings himself down the railing to stand next to you. "I do."

"Xiao..." You whisper, letting go of his hand and bringing yours to his face slowly. "I don't want to leave you again, even if we argue, I..." You became lost as you stared at his face. He truly was beautiful.

His breath hitches as you trail a finger along his jaw line to the strands of hair falling over his eyes. You gently bring them behind his ears, cupping his cheek.

"Y-Y/N..." He stutters slowly, his gaze not leaving your face.

No more words had to be spoken. Xiao gripped your hand on his face gently as he bent down to your lips. As if by instinct, you started to move up to him as well.

Xiao ignored every fiber of his being telling him this was a waste of time. He did not think of you as a waste of time. Not after you almost died. It brought a realization to him. He wanted you by his side. He didn't care how selfish or how out of character it was for him.

He needed you, even if he didn't know why.

Your breath hitches once your lips touch. You wait a beat, seeing if Xiao wants to move away.

You yelp when he is the one to close the gap harder between you two, kissing you as if it were your last. You close your eyes, melting into his kiss as he strokes your hair and brings you closer.

The two of you gently part, still feeling each others breath on one another as a string of saliva connects your lips.

"Xiao..." You whisper. "Please don't push me away." You plead quietly. "Let me help you..."

He grips your hand, touching your forehead with his.

"If that is what you desire." He breathes out.

"I am forever yours."

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morvaris-archive · 2 years ago

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okay because yesterday i was sick, and i didn't make much sense on the post abt my fledgling, i am redoing it

so my vtmb fledgling thoughts under the cut

her name is still logan, still without a surname bc i am bad with those;

before the embrace she was a journalist still, but she wasn't big or anything, she was just starting her little crusade;

which still was bringing corrupt people in power down or at least exposing them a little bit, and to help people who were wronged by them, but she was young, idealistic, stubborn and very very careless, but she was laser focused on the goal-- logan wanted to help, wanted to do something;

so she thought she'll jump onto someone big immediately, because something wasn't right there. little did she know the man she was investigating was a vampire, and she is too nosy, too stubborn and rebelious, she wouldn't stop and quit unless someone made her to do so;

and even if someone is insignificant in their connection and power, if they're stubborn enough they can still pose enough of a threat;

so maybe someone ordered someone's ghoul to take care of the young and noisy journalist who may soon be a masquerade volition, and they shot her in some dark alley, because things are weird in santa monica so no one would even question it. no one would care abt some person who thought themself some kind of truth seeker. it would simply look like someone tried to rob her and failed, shot her in panic;

and i still think that some vampire took pity on her, dying on the streets slowly, and they embraced her. maybe they didn't understand the gravity of their actions or maybe they didn't care. but that night logan saw the truth finaly and her life changed forever;

and i'm gonna stick with brujah for her anyway, because there's that fire in her and upon her embrace it only burned brighter and even more destructive now;

and i imagine she would be just so confused-- her quick temper made even worse, and she'll make even more reckless decisions, but she still wants to fight, not for others anymore, but for herself, because now she's stuck with camarilla that is also a very corrupt system full of kindred who are quite delusional in their power;

i think she'll struggle with her humanity a bit because of how upside down her world is right now;

i also think she'd spend a lot of time in clubs (that post abt vampires in a leather jacket in some sleazy underground club that’s playing electro industrial/goth rock music lives in my head rent free, and it's logan after the embrace right there);

and if she does decide to be the voice of the people again (or of the other kindred more like), i think she'd take different approach, because when she tried the previous one literally got her killed;

and this is a really cool concept i think, because like she's hardened now, but she still cares, and there's a LOT to think abt still.

#it's way better now besties #and it's more like.. believable of a story for her i think #so here we go #nico.txt #my oc: logan

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m4ycrowave · 4 years ago

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OKAY THAT'S IT

listen fellas I am fed up with this it's time for a quick rant

WHY'D YALL DO THIS TO MY BOY TOMMY

(Before I begin I'd like to clarify that this is talking about the characters btw, not the real people, I love them all to bits! But this is abt their characters in the SMP)

Listen, this might seem like I am about to shit on Tubbo and the rest of the smp BUT IM NOT SO HEAR ME OUT

Do I think tubbo was right to exile tommy?

Yes, but also no. Let me explain.

So I think we can all agree that tommy burning down george's house was stupid of him, yeah? Yeah.

(Although, the fact that the house could be rebuilt that WAS NOT worthy of an exile. But okay, whatever, it happened anyway)

Tommy acted selfishly by burning down George's house, Tommy DID deserve greater consequences cuz Tommy IS the vice president, Dream is not. Which is why Tommy's actions have greater concequenses than the green bastard's, and by logic almost everyone else's.

The discs are just discs. Like, literally they are.

But to Tommy they're not. We all know that Tommy's discs mean a lot to him emotionally and we've established that the reason dream wants them is to have power over Tommy. To Tubbo, I believe they're not just discs, either. He just doesn't have as much emotional attachment to the discs like Tommy does.

Tommy thinks emotionally, he's impulsive. Which is why he did what he did.

Tubbo thinks logically, and to him, the most logical thing to do was exile tommy. To him, the discs were too insignificant to decide the fate of an entire nation.

Tommy acted selfishly, however, he is NOT selfish. He does care about L'manburg(berg? Jfc idk) and THE ONE TIME he decides to go "okay, enough nation for a day, it's me time!" HE GETS FUFJFKIN EXILED.

Like he's said, he's put the discs to the side EVERY SINGLE TIME, it's just that his way of getting them back was incredibly stupid.

I might be getting confusing, but basically,

I agree that Tommy had the right to get the discs back for himself, I just believe he should've gone about it differently. and while the exile seems like to severe of a punishment, Tommy is the vice president, and he did fucking put the nation at risk Because of his selfish actions, so people have the right to be mad at him.

Now, that must mean that I DO agree with tubbo exiling him!

And you'd be right! Exiling tommy was the best thing Tubbo could've done for the nation, BUT, the way I'm which he did it was HORRIBLE.

Tubbo didn't want to exile tommy but he did it for the nation, and I can respect that!

WHAT I DO NOT RESPECT, HOWEVER, is the fact that Tubbo did it in such a way that he really DID BETRAY TOMMY

again, hear me out, Tubbo exiling Tommy was for the best, I agree! But he could've just done that from the start instead of cowering out of the god damn plan at the last second by going "WAR!" "n..nevermind..EXILE!"

He should've VOICED to the others that he WAS NOT on board with this plan instead of doing it in the moment, because those kinds of decisiones CAN'T BE MADE IN THE MOMENT!

I Don't CARE if he says he didn't know he was going to do that, you agreed to a plan to take down dream, YOU SHOULD'VE STUCK WITH IT!

Those kinds of decisions CANNOT. BE. MADE. IN. THE. MOMENT.

So okay, Tubbo exiled tommy in exchange of peace, that's great! Isn't it?

No.

Because afterwards he literally WENT ON WITH THE PLAN TOMMY HAD SUGGESTED FROM THE START.

Are you KIDDING ME?

you exile your best friend for peace and then proceed to do the one thing you ended up exiling him for. What the hell?

Literally nobody seemed to be concerned to have exiled Tommy and left him alone. The only one who actually seemed to care if just a BIT was QUACKITY AND RANBOO.

"do you think tommy's okay?"

"Tommy..he's not here anymore."

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!?"

"I can't be there with you right now, but know that if you ever need anything, I'll be here."

Listen to be, they are just kids, I understand. I am upset with tubbo, but not because of the decision he made! Just how he went about it, but I still want what's best for him.

Now, more about Tommy and why I made this post in the first place,

Everyone, or at least from what I'm seeing, keeps shitting on Tommy for being hurt, UH, WHAT???

I've seen so many posts of people complaining about how "Everyone else is in the right and Tommy is just being a big baby" LIKE-

I don't like to say "they're all right" because they're not. So I like to phrase it as, "they're all wrong, in their own ways." Because they all did something wrong, wether we want to believe it or not.

What Tommy is NOT doing wrong, however, is feeling HURT and BETRAYED.

Like I've explained earlier, we all know the discs mean something more to Tommy than just "oh lmao this is a kick-ass song", I don't think they mean /power/ to him, because while Tommy does like power, he seems to value something more,

Friendship.

Whoops we're going into mlp territory-

Okay, but really, he seems to value his friends more than almost anything else,

He'd rather stick by his friends and die, than have power. Which is why I truly believe that he wouldn't have exiled Tubbo if the nation depended on it.

He cares about L'manburg, however, he cares more about his friends.

Now, who's Tommy's best and closest friend?

Tubbo.

The discs, I believe, are a symbol of friendship between him and Tubbo, which I think is the reason he values them so much.

Tubbo saying the discs don't matter to Tommy was basically screaming at him that their friendship doesn't matter to him.

Tommy cares about friendship more than L'manburg, which is why he can't seem to understand why Tubbo cares more about L'manburg than their friendship.

Throughout the wars, Tubbo has been the one and ONLY person to stick by him, not even Wilbur did that (ghostbur did but that's another post for another day)

So it's understandable why tommy would feel HURT over Tubbo exiling him.

Because by Tubbo exiling him, he's made it clear that he doesn't care about him or their friendship, at least to Tommy.

And I'm not even mentioning the fact that Quackity and Fundy were so damn quick to blame him and put everything on /HIM/ when everything wasn't going according to plan

Or how his whole family basically betrayed and then left him.

So,

No, Tommy being hurt isn't him being a big crybaby, he has a REASON, many reasons to be.

Let's stop calling them crybabies and horrible people and just accept the fact that they all did something wrong

#poor tommy he does not deserve this.

#tommy innit #dream smp fandom #dream smp #tubbo wtf #tubbo #tubbo myct #tommy mcyt #im sad and hurt #what the FUCK #Dream smp rant #rant

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linphd · 5 years ago

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husband!toshinori x wife!reader | beans and rice [angst]

toshinori yagi x reader

female reader

At All Might’s funerals, his wife gives him a speech, as a farewell.

warning : death, angst, y'all gonna cry like I did.

spoil desperate housewives S8 : totally inspired by Mike's funerals episode, hence the video at the end of the story

if you watched it I hope you thought abt that when you read the title

notes for the story : (S/N) is son's name, you're in your 40s and you have been married to all might for 15 years, your son is roughly 10 years old.

'Heroes always get remembered, but legends never die'. That was what was pronounced on TV when the All Might passed. It was not long enough after his students graduated from Yuei. The Symbol of Peace just wasn't anymore, and All for One had came back to avenge himself, once more. Deku, the 'new All Might' arrived to fight the villain, finally defeating him after all those years.

But his mentor died a few minutes after. Journalists were there -they were always there- and recorded the whole scene. Oh, how sad it was. And how much Toshinori had talked about what his wife, his child, and Deku meant to him. All for One had actually came for his whole family, but even with his quirk almost totally gone, Toshinori had fought until he couldn't anymore, to protect his wife. Thanks God, (S/N) wasn't at home.

(Y/N) had run to her husband once she was sure All for One couldn't do anything anymore. He was bleeding, so much. Most of it was coming from the wound the villain had made during their first fight. ''MIDORIYA ! DO SOMETHING !'' She screamed, holding her man's body close, pressing at the wound like it would prevent the blood from falling. But he couldn't do anything anymore, except joining her to listen to the man's last words.

Many many people came to the Symbol of Peace's funerals, but only his family and friends were allowed to assist to it. (Y/N) had a speech, of course she had one. She didn't prepare it, but she knew she was going to say some thing at some point. And she finally was able to walk to the microphone towards the end of the ceremony. She waited for a few seconds to catch her breath, and sighed heavily before starting.

''I... didn't prepare anything, actually. I mean, you don't prepare yourself to assist to someone's funerals, so...'' (Y/N) wasn't crying, no. She wasn't going to cry in front of everyone. 'Don't forget to smile.' Toshinori had taught her. She wasn't going to disappoint him now !

''You know, when you're the number one hero, you don't think that you can have time to take care of your family, and to take care of the citizens at the same time. But, Toshi managed to find a balance between those. Of course, we waited a bit for him to weaken before having a child, because I wouldn't have dare disturb him during his Golden Age, right ? He was so busy.''

She had to blabber about his hero life a lot, since he was mostly known for that. It had always been his dream ; to be the number one hero. His existence itself decreased the attacks of villains ! She couldn't skip this part.

But the part (Y/N) really wanted to talk about was the Toshinori Yagi's part. The man behind the hero. ''I loved him. Even when he wasn't smiling, even when he was weak. I still love him, and I think that... I'll love him forever. How many times I saw him exhausted, spitting blood, but still changing our baby's diaper, and helping me out in the house. He was also working on his teacher's job, and I really don't know how his organs didn't just stop functioning at some point.''

That made some people chuckle, and that was a good thing. You need to smile, All Might said it. ''And for that, I'll be forever grateful. We'd been married for 15 years, and I think I saw him fully relaxing like 5 times only. And I was worried that he was always overworking himself, but it was to do all the things he loved.''

People were crying, though. They managed to crack a smile every now and then, but almost everyone was crying. All of his students were there, and every single one of them were admiring him. But those were silent cries. The speech was the only thing that could be heard.

''I know that he had a good life, and he had nothing to regret. For some, he was a hero, someone to admire, and an example. For some, he was a friend, a parent, actually a human that could show weaknesses and feelings, and wasn't only this machine that could destroy any villain. But every single one of you knew about his family, about (S/N) and I.''

The woman's eyes were wet, but it didn't look like any tear was going to fall and roll down her cheeks. ''And you told us 'don't be sad for him, he is in a better place'. But, I'm not sad for him. I mean, I am sad, but I actually believe that he really is in a better place.''

That was weird how she liked beans for some reason, and how he liked rice because of it was the easiest meal to find in a hurry where they lived. But they both used to mix it so they'd both be happy with what they were eating. She stopped, thinking about this meal, wondering if she'll ever mix those ingredients ever again now. It's weird, how insignificant things travel your mind when the person dies. It was so natural you weren't even noticing it, and now that you won't do it anymore, you remembered the existence of that special thing.

But, (Y/N) needed to focus on her speech, and kept talking instead. She still couldn't cry yet. ''I believe that he's fighting some villains, citizens everywhere, cheering for him. He's eating with his family, eating too fast so I have to tell him to calm down, because there's no need to rush, and (S/N) is laughing, wearing his All Might onesie. He's training his students, encouraging them. He's hanging out with his colleagues, telling me everything they talked about during those meetings once he's back home. And he's also on the beach, with 'Young Midoriyaaaa' to talk about his quirk.''

She chuckled when she imitated him. He was surely yelling 'I WAS HERE' to those villains he was fighting, doing some poses if he was ever spotting a camera. ''And because he's at all those wonderful places, I have to tell him goodbye, now.'' She approached the coffin, it was still open. She put a hand on her heart, and the other on the coffin, looking at her husband for the last time. She sighed heavily, once again, before telling him her farewell.

''I love you once.''

For his hero form, the Symbol of Peace, the All Might.

''I love you twice.''

For his normal form, vulnerable, that he only showed to people he trusted.

''I love you more than beans and rice. Goodbye, All Might.''

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I actually wanted to write this story with Shouta or Shoto, but I made them die once already djdjsk and the I love you once I love you twice was really fitting with Toshi's forms, so yeah

I also watched his fight against All for One again and got emotional

I'M CRYING SO BAD WRITING THIS BC IT'S 4AM AND I DON'T WANT HIM TO DIE OOF

This gif didn’t help and I oop

can we note that in every anime books I have, I put desperate housewives references ? I love this TV show so much omg

#bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #all might #toshinori yagi #yagi toshinori #toshinori x reader #all might x reader #angst

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