#it was ahdkdk a big part of my life i sorta just

[moss-sprouted]

you know something that breaks my heart is i Just realized how much mlp was a special interest for me

i got sucked into the fandom and making and adopting and adopting out pony ocs on deviantart and eventually watched the show and it was quite literally my favorite thing till i left because a friend accused me publicly without coming to me first of tracing art of my own character that they had done for me and after that i just sorta abandoned the whole thing, moved on with a new dA for a bit till i got more focused on tumblr and i hadnt even wanted to think about mlp since

but now i just saw a sound on tiktok and people talking about their ocs and sonas and art of the characters and even videos where people are using the tiktok filters to help them design a random pony and my heart Swelled with the idea of just getting to draw cute colorful horses again even though i have like 100 sitting in one big file stuffed away so i dont lose them all forever but

then i found the mlp drama on tiktok, and it seems like its everywhere and still present, all the tracing accusations and the stealing design accusations and the actual art stealing and the fighting and it happened when i was 16 and now its been like 8 years and its still happening all the time and god i just wish i could enjoy the cute ponies again

and i dont think theres any part of the community thats going to be just chill and let people have fun and i absolutely couldn't go back to deviantart with any of it

i could do it for myself i guess but what fun is it to not get to show them off ): thats kinda what i got into art for and its been hard to do any at all of anything without that reason especially stuff i love so much