#it made me believe in miracles. i gusss i'm begging for a new one this time. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

knifetoheart · 10 months ago

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i owe so much to my friends, i truly believe none of us are supposed to go through anything alone. yes there are moments where we need to grieve and no one else can do it for us, but just having someone there to text or call or even hug can really help with processing.

i lived most of my life so alienated so now having these people here means the world to me.

i might not know where i belong but i am so thankful that they keep a space for me here. that they let me occupy space and even want me to have it.

having them here feels right. they love me and i love them and we keep each other afloat. i still feel like something's missing but they are part of the puzzle i'm trying to slowly piece together

#i just keep thinking about one other person. who fit so perfectly into the space i was the most scared of untangling.#she slotted into her place so well. i didn't quite believe it. i kept checking the edges thinking it must be a fluek #*fluke #but it wasn't. she really fit. i wanted to keep her there for as long as i would get to. no one fit so well before #no one even came close to fitting that well. she is truly someone i've boped i would meet in this lifetime #i was supposed to meet her. i just don't know how much time we get and if we can make the time spent together #functional. if we can make it not become turbulent. if she ever comes back that is #i hope she does but that will also raise some new questions #that i can't somve alone. i will need her to be there to want to solve it with me #*solve #anyway. life is weird. people come and go. but she felt different. i couldn't put my finger on it #but i felt so drawn to her. she felt right. it scared the shit out of me.#it made me believe in miracles. i gusss i'm begging for a new one this time.#khm. anyway. i'll let the world decide. we'll cook with what we have #as a saying in my native language goes #p.txt

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