#it be one disordered bitch telling another disordered bitch we're normal

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roman roy is actually normal

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LIVEBLOG: Wakfu Season 4, Episode 13 [PART 1]

I wonder what Joris's opinion on Tristepin abandoning post is. It'e either "thank god I don't have two Iops to wrangle" or "well at least the the one that's less likely to be killed is here" or "FOR FUCK'S SAKE NOT THIS FUCKING GUY"

Stealth mission with an iop by your side sounds like a whole new type of hell on earth.

It's very brief, but at this moment (5:50 in the episode), we can see Joris and Goultard going up the stairs.

The demons in my head are, once again, telling me to keep screenshotting him.

Trying to get her out is a pretty delicate balance, considering his strength. Joris is probably quite aware of the possibility that he might accdentally hurt her.

There's no fucking way Joris doesn't want Goultard to die a gruesome, violent death.

He's imagining Goultard's face instead of the rock... Seething and malding in silence.

GET SCARED.

DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE TIME TO DODGE. HEHEHEHE

at least he's a good teammate, when he's not calling Joris slurs as a joke.

Not him looking down at them. BITCH WORK!!

Once again, I am compelled to take screenshots. It cannot be helped.

I will be honest, the sudden influx of content where Joris and Goultard are portrayed as friends — like drinking together, or going on missions together — in the fandom has been very weird, because I think what became very clear in this season is that Goultard is an iop who treats people in an iop way (for iops it's just normal to roughouse each other) while Joris is a man who has been infantilized for 600 years, doesn't want to be friends with anyone except people who never question his intelligence (like Yugo and Amaliaa), and wants to kill himself whenever his height is pointed out. and also has 2 drinking buddies already (who shower him in praise at how righteous and heroic and smart he is).

Literally fundamentally incompatible personalities. Joris can barely stand to be here, and the only thing uniting them is "we're immortal and don't want the world to end". If he could, Joris would slip rat poison into whatever Goultard is eating or drinking — because he knows that while it will not kill him, it will make him feel Bad. 😭

Maybe I'm weird, but I don't really like it when characters' discomfort of being treated cruelly is taken as something cute or funny or a Friendship thing...

(Attention: I am not bashing anyone, but expressing my personal opinion)

DFGJSDFKLGHSDKJFGHDSFKJG

you can tell that Joris is not having a good time. he's at his fucking limit. first he let loose with a "if you only knew :) how many people :) have degraded me the same way :) for all my life :)" and now an explicit "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!"

I really do think he's imagining Goultard's head here.

:)

As someone insane enough to have drawn maaany comparisons between Nora&Efrim and Joris this season, I think he has a soft spot for her by now. She's been through a lot...

And I think Joris understands what it's like, to feel guilty, because of something horrible happening — even if it's not necessarily your fault; besides that, I think they both have very closely matched temperaments — they're both introspective and a bit embittered.

In a kinder universe, Nora and Joris could have been besties. And Nora could have gone to his house for tea. The two of them could probably speak very quietly to one another about some interesting, sad things.

And then Kerubim could have a post-divorce stress disorder-related heart palpitations due to seeing a pink haired woman IRL inside his house unannounced.

Basically, I NEED NORA&JORIS FRIENDSHIP FANART HI?!

Basically: I have crazy levels of brainworms about this (and about Eva trying to sacrifice herself for her family, but there are so many screenshots in this post already...)

Of COURSE he'd stand guard for her.

I'm fucking CRAZY and INSANE.

HIS SMILE HERE!! HE'S SO PROUD OF HER!!! HE BELIEVES IN HER!!!!!!

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CAN'T ADD MORE IMAGES SO I'M ADDING NEW GOOBERS HERE

Daisuke:

Chill. Knows about his death now. HATES JIMMY He/they #Daisuke

Nexus:

Werecat who looooooooooooves to flirt with anyone they are involved with (only our partner). This explained a lot about our brain when we discovered she existed because most of us are the "get flustered" type, not the "fluster them" type. She/it/they #Nexus the werecat

Angel:

Yes, from hazbin hotel. He is another one of the flirty ones. His name is Anthony but he doesn't go by that. He/him #angel

Alastor:

Also from hazbin hotel. Doesn't hate Angel, just heavily dislikes him. Aroace. Hates the idea of this blog. Hates the internet in general He/him #alastor

Symmeth:

The dragon. Despite the fact Jinx can shapeshift, there is another dragon here! When they front is the only time we get dragon shifts (therian style) They/it #symmeth

Blitz:

Wow, a lot of us are from the same universe. Very sarcastic. Not nearly as many issues as in the show. Misses Stolas. Terrified of hellfire (not regular fire, it can't hurt him) "why should I give a shit about pronouns?" @ask-blitz-withthesilento #blitz

Nova:

The fox! Just like Symmeth, we only experience fox shifts when Nova fronts! They're very playful and cuddly. They hate typing because it feels weird to type with the body's human hands. They/it #nova

Dipper:

Anxious wreck. Misses Mabel. Smart. Hates Bill, obsessed with ford in the "Wow my grunkle is AWESOME!" He/him #dipper

Stolas:

LOOOOOVES STARS!!!!! And birds. Gets very sad when talking about Via. Hates talking about Stella. Loves Blitz. Literally almost died for him. He/him/star #stolas

Toby:

Came back bc we were tired and pissed. Has memories of being active at around 10-11 (a time of a lot of fear for us). IS THE SAME BASTARD FROM THE 2013 CREEPYPASTA. Has the memories from the story (maybe a bit different but we don't know bc we haven't read it in a while) Anger holder. Does not have all of the disorders as in canon (except ADHD and tics not linked to Tourettes.) HATES THE OTHER CREEPYPASTAS. You call him Ticcy Toby and he will kill you. He/they/it #toby (#???)

Lacey:

Lacey from Lacey's games. Formed when we were 10 (before Lacey's games were a thing so they've shifted between forms) Is traumagenic like toby (same reason too :3 It was ROUGH) She/her #lacey

Killer:

The fuckn undertale AU, first of the bunch. Not traumagenic. Mostly a silly guy but can also get very defensive. That's not hate or determination leaking from his eyesockets, those are his eyes. He/it #killer

Geno:

Constantly annoyed and sarcastic. Likes calling me out for stupid shit. Constantly dying. He/him #geno

Horror:

The bitch in our ear telling us to eat. Makes sense though, he's always starving. He/him #horror

Dust:

Quiet. Doesn't do much unless provoked. Does talk to Phantom Paps sometimes. Not even Jinx can see him. I don't think he minds being called Dust or Murder but he responds to just "Sans" more often He/they #dust

Error:

Like Cyn, Spamton, and a few others, he does move around a lot. He jerks our head around and shit but it's never intentional. He's normally around when we're watching or participating in drama. Does not have a typing quirk (he doesn't care to type out his glitches) He/glitch #error

Nightmare:

Used to be the boss of Dust, Horror, And killer but is not anymore bc of headspace stuff. Very... Creepy sometimes. He/it/void #nightmare

Sunny:

Like from Omori. Very quiet. Not as depressed as in the game but you shouldn't bring up his sister. The flower in his hair is from her. It's fake so he can keep it forever. His timeline is after the good ending, despite knowing the general vibes of the bad ending. We haven't fully played the game so he may form more when we do. He/him #sunny

[thelostgirl21]

JFC!

As a fellow victim of medical gaslighting, I can't tell you how sorry I am to read that.

The sad (but hopefully validating) part is that I'm 150% convinced that what you just wrote is the absolute truth, that this happened, and that the psychiatrist is that much of an idiot!

No need to remotely convince me!

I saw 24 different doctors over 7 years before I was finally diagnosed with my condition, and got access to treatments, and I used to work with doctors as a nurse clinician.

I've seen the way some of them speak about their patients "behind their backs" with their coworkers. And, when I fell ill with a chronic multisystemic illness that they couldn't diagnose, I experienced first hand that sort of "if I can't find the answer, then the patient is obviously making shit up and it's all psychosomatic!" attitude that sadly so many of them seem to have.

That shit truly does happen. And it happens way too often.

To be fair I've also met quite a few empathetic gems that are truly good at their profession and behave the way a medical professional should.

But there's a stigma around certain medical conditions that is really insidious and has become sort of part of the culture that is often deeply troubling.

Oddly enough, the best experience I've had has been with a psychiatrist. I was desperate to be bipolar because I was hoping I could then get treated and solve the energy / crushing fatigue issues I kept experiencing.

I was insisting "I must be depressed! I'm crying all the time!"

And he looked at me and said "If I suddenly found myself with a body refusing to cooperate and do the things I want to do, I'd be crying all the freaking time, too! You're not depressed, you're mourning. It's normal. It's what we do. We're sad when we suffer and are faced with limitations."

He was convinced that the alternance between "being extremely active and trying to get too much done in one day l" and then "crashing and not being able to do anything" had nothing to do with anxiety or a mood disorder!

Each time I started getting a bit of energy, I was just so happy and excited to be able to do something that I'd naturally try to catch up on everything I'd been forced to put off when I was exhausted and my body was refusing to collaborate.

That psychiatrist was awesome. And he kept bitching about lazy neurologists with an inflated ego that kept sending him patients trying to blame very obvious complex symptoms on "anxiety" and/or other mood disorders; when anxiety tends to be the symptom of an underlying biological issue, not the cause!

And that most mental health issues and disorders are highly treatable and manageable.

So if you have a patient with "atypical depression" that doesn't get better on antidepressors and is still exhausted, instead of saying that the depression is "resisting treatment", how about considering that you've got the wrong diagnosis?!

And the most awesome part was that he treated and spoke of the patients he had that suffered from anxiety and mood disorders, etc. with absolute respect as well. Like there genuinely would have been no shame in me being bipolar, but this simply wasn't it.

Seriously, I wish I could refer you to him, because I've never felt as good, respected, listened to and empowered as a patient.

I'm still heavily traumatized by the other arseholes, and each time I see a doctor I now brace myself for the worst and wonder they'll fall into which category.

But knowing those few good doctors exists, and having also experienced their support, helps give me hope that I might be in the presence of another as well. So, when they do seem to fall into the category of those that listen and understand our struggles, the trust is then easier to build.

I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that the next one you meet will fall into a similar category and will treat your trauma respectfully without dismissing your experience the way that one just did!

Before suggesting it's psychosis, how about getting to actually know your patient? Just saying!

I still can't believe that I went to a psychiatrist starting with "I am heavily traumatised and am a victim of medical gaslight which mean I have a hard time trusting doctors, please don't doubt what I'm saying." And she was like "ok noted but are you sure it's not psychosis?" Yeah that shit actually happened.

[ilovetosmilepleasemarrymepi-blog]

For information and my safety and their sainity,

I do not own any pictures, art, drawings, or epic pieces of art in this story.

All ponies pony names, names of pony songs, pony songs, or any thing else that could get my ass sued. Also all chacters, locations, phrases, items, names of spells etc... They belongs to Hasbro, Hasbro entertainment, and Hasbro productions.

Witch will inevitably be bought by Disney like everything else. So we can get a pinky Deadpool ship!

FINALY!!!

Hello . My name is...well I guess I.. well how about you can just call me Dayrl for now. You see my story ... It is true, very true well the beginning is any way. Oh though how I wish this was a true story. The true story though has not yet occurred. If I'm to change my life would to change my life and find the one I was destined to meet. I'd have to find the one the cupcacake of my eye that for years or more I might of gone without noticing. I'd have to go through hell to find true love. I'd was going to be sent through life's emotional hell.

But that is later

This... is where my story began...for now...

My pony life started in high school. I don't even rember much of it, and I know I did not know about fan fictions back then. What had happened is that I saw this kid with really cool shirt with on and it something really cool on it with a rainbow maybe ?

Yeah that it defintaly not the design that was on the shirt but it is 20% cooler

So I asked the dude about it his shirt I mean he said it was from a short about ponies now at I was uncertain but I'm really open minded and also I was in high school so i think that was at the time where I was more use to watching cartoons so theres that by the way it may now be important but I really love to brag ... So you know the really famous season four tirek episode where twilight had the power of four Alicorns and when she when to battle tirek the stated exchangeing blows and beams energy waves throwing rocks at each other having a good ol time well I watched as .... It ... Aired ... Which alot of people can say that they did that to but ya know like I said l love to brag

#overlyadzaderatedartparody

So now ya know how I came to the fandom that's well and good and I really don't remember alot after that other than ya know watching the episodes now and then but if knew then what I know now ...... Well I often say don't it's not got look at the past unless your looking to learn

Now apparently ..... Very apparently I seem to have falling away from the fandom at sompoint and I think it it a fairly simple reason that I faced a problem that all us bronies have to and will learn to over come if we want in this fan community

Prejudice

Mockink, taunting teasing

Rejection

Eventually if you can't get over something like that and face your problems your fears and lack of self confidence you become ..... Lost alone ....unhappy you will be unable to move on with life... like...

Now eventually after a while I found the fandom again I don't really want to say ... Hoooo....huuummmm I guess if I'm going to be telling this story I'm going to be honest with you

#apples

#honesty

#elementofhonesty

#applejack

So any way here it I'm not what a normal person would call normal ...or at the very least average I have these psychological disorders there called autism, ADHD, ADD, OCD, and plethora of behavior probelems you see growing not the best behaved i had a lot of social issues and trouble making friends on account of my autism and the fact my dad had passed away when I was two and technicaly speaking im still not the best behaved or social

any way I was in this assisted liveing home becaus my mom need a break from me a person with less .... Metal advantages sometimes just can't handel you all the time and one day i was watching tv in the day room nothing on as per ussaul you know I did have my phone back then too and hardly ever watched TV when I did alot of it was Steven universe and any one else who watches that can tell you that hiatused are a Bitch so basically steven universe was hiatuse and there nothing on and I found my self watchin TMNT alot but ya got know there nothing on there's nothing on but one day there was...

Now one thing you have to understand about me is I absolutely love my music all music any music any at and I'm not that picky

#octaviamelody

#vinylrecordscratch

I don't really have that many thing I won't listen to most of the time I only have one rule and that is that I won't listen to anything where I can't understand the lyrics I feel like what the point in music if you can't apeel to everyone and if one person can not what your saying that's one person you did not reach but the point of the matter is that I like and appreciate a lot of music what I'm realling to say is that the music is a big part of why I loved in Steven universe so much like comet, giant woman, it's over isnt it and I will straight up right now say that show deserves ten Grammy's (not to mention the Annie award, animation award, it deserved deserved deserved for best episode paraphrasing the name of the award Mr. Greg instead of that dumb ass adventure time vr episode) but I'm getting off toppic now I like music and what is my Little pony without alot of music

So I'm pretty sure no I'm beautifuly one hunldred percent sure on who I have to thank for saving me from when I was down in my funk the it was none other than the cuti mark crsaders let me explain it is definitely not the first song iv heard in the series but damn shur if it's not one the best I was watching mlp one day and ya know I thought here go just another friendship song ... Fuckin ass then out of no where I was blown away the kiss makeup , the lights, the crashes, the danger, and rock be e de de e dew

All I have to say right now is I don't know where I'd be if it weren't for you the cmc

#imnotzecora

so from the bottom of my heart for as broken and shattered it gets every day thank you

You help me so much

Now let talk about something really serious do you believe in simplicity that things just simply happen an that they are all coincidences maybe you believe in faith it can come from strangest places in apparently very ummm... If you believe in faith how far does that faith go how long are you willing to let the Signs just pass you by ignore faith some people get second chances but some never even get a first and if you do nothing if it something ....or someone that is a greater power or forces .... why not at least play along Just to see where you end up

Ok im a guy so naturally I do what guys do I watch porn and please just stay with me for one minute here because this is probably the most important part this is where I the divine intervention made it's first move it a very crucial part to this story so please just stay with me who know here what the rule 34 is ... Oh come on...

#sweetibellohcomeon

Shut you all know it is everyone knows the rule is it's states if exist it can be sexy and there porn of it

so me being the very lonely guy that I was never had being been in a relationship and alwase watching porn I knew for a fact that they did not show porn on YouTube so showering pornsites for pony porn and finding none (or not look hard enough not find what I wanted or worse just being internet lazy) went YouTube and they had ..... Somethig

Clop

Right now I challenge you to go to someone who is not a mlp fan and ask them to watch clop then ask a brony the exact question and compare just their face reactions yeah I had no idea what it was I did after though

So I got my fill of clop now at that time I was also a big anime fan this is the second event that seems to line up just perfectly to be some kind weird divine intervention I was watching frieza react to the video where pinkie pie beats up all her friends to the theme of the smile song and I'll give you a thousand Guesses what video was in description

cupcakes

Now yeah it was a weird video but I did even here it was a fanfic till way later the next couple of web searches we're mostly fan made songs untill ...

My first fan fiction by scribbler of course

#scribbler

#scribblerproductions

#subcribetoscribbler

Scribbler i dont know who you are but if could only realize what a monumental difference youve made in my life I have goals now because of you on I've found love and pepol can say they are fictional chacters all fuckin day I ve got more than that I want to and need to

So let's go back where all began

Rocket to insanity my first mlp fan fiction ever butt you know I think I've told you quite a bit now so ill save some for next time

That where really interesting ...

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

Children of the 1980s and 1990s

Approximately 15,000 girls born between 1983 and 1994 were injected with a form of mercury and plastic

They have amnesia and always will have a some form of short term and long term.

These are the only ones we have found. So please please understand there is nothing we can do at this time. There's a cure. Called a new body. Not rebirth but a resurrection like a ghost, basically. Removing the soul and escorting it into a new and improved human form. Which they have began on these 15,000. With permission and emails of course

We plan to update all human bodies to a stealth mode at a particular time in the future. Which has not been determined. But they can access these due to the Great Tree. So it's been expidiated to help them.

That said.

There's more out there. They did other shit and did stuff to boys, also. We just hadn't found it.

So please when you're feeling like you're saying shit that You're not... Like you're curious and it feels important but its not important enough...

Just let it go.

Like i wanna know shit but i don't want to fight about it.

But I'm possessed. I've known I have had listeners for a long time, most especially Denise. So i can notice it.

Its from an implantation of amobea. Electricity can kill them. But they will Just come back.

But usually there's a feeling of pressure in the body and it usually makes people feel lazy and also changes moods.

So music helps a lot. Especially if the "lead control" can't hear it like if sharing the same car. So I like to not play music i like around other people. In cars im 'll we will listen to what you do. Plus if i hear a song that played in the car with them, im more likely to remember that person or moment than if wr listened to what i always do.

If it's with some one you hate, put it on a channel no one listens to and you wont listen to with anyone else. Music you hate is good.

That's what i always did when I was a kid.

Otherwise just loudly say "go away" or "please stop" or "I don't feel good" or "this isnt good" or "i think a ghost is here"

And usually they will stop. But if you bitch at them cause i will tell Denise the Hell off. She argues back!! So i have to threaten to tell my Uncle Dad because that's the only thing that stops her. Because he will punish her. She gets giddy over her crimes.

So just try to recognize it. Try to stop it.

Don't blame the possessed person -- Do NOT say you're saying that because you're possessed!.

Mark used to say "you're yelling at your mom not me"

No bitch. I am fucking yelling at you. Because i didn't know he was dead, you know.

No if something comes out of our mouth -- it my been planted there but usually were actually curious or we do actually feel that way.

Now add in the brain issues like me calling A dog a Cat or vice versa. Just overlook it as a brain disorder, like you would dyslexia or another type of issue.

But don't be all you're possessed. Because we aren't stupid. We actually know. That's why we're moody bitches. And we mean what we say all the time.

But if two people have amnesia sometimes you're gonna have to say "you know what? IDK baby let's do something different"

And you will need a tremendously huge amount more rest than the normal person.

So change the subject but acknowledge and communicate why.

Or EAT or Sleep. Eating is huge!!! It makes the brain focus on something other than communication and so it actually cleans up the brain area and allows more space and privacy and good stuff.

Going for a walk is also a good head clearer.

Also allowing more time to communicate.

Realize they may be thinking about how your question is phrased, comparing it to the evil ex or their dad or an old teacher. It may spark a memory or sometimes they don't know the answer on a dime stop. Or in my head I repeat the question exactly the way my kid says it and then i pause and let it sink in then I answer and my kid has said it 3 fucking times. So then I yell and answer.

Which by the way i got a memory -- we used to wrestle in John Force's living room floor -- a whole bunch of us like 13 to 20. Who was all that?!?! I bet i taught yall to fight like a girl!! ;;)

But yeah. Let it be what it is. DNA4U reminds you you should be together as lovers and so that is your goal and it won't change because you refuse to get along or one of you is possessed by an alien something.

Sorry, your heart and soul must be actually evil to get a new soulmate for your current soulmate. So work on giving that love away.