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katyspersonal · 2 years

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Micolash’s ‘Can somebody, anybody, please look into my eyes?’ and Rom’s ‘I revolt both humanity and the divine, can anyone, anything, please accept me?’. I never realised how they are both absolutely alone in who they are (’: Having no choice but to build a “kind” of their own around themselves (Mico by making corpse marionettes and Rom by rebirthing humans into her spider Kin apparently)

#bloodborne #fandomry rambles #*sets the counter 'X days since I just utilised my pain and existencial trauma to write a BB character better' to 0 again*#i wish i could actually work on my problems instead of escaping into art and pouring my crisis into a morbid videogame character #like i said my priority is to either switch on part time job or go unemployed and literally hunt my food (gov won't help the mentally ill)#days off are just... not enough for me to recover energy at all #let alone having energy for absolutely insane shit like cooking my food or cleaning my room... i've hit critical point recently #i've been denied the light of sun since early july but i am denied the chill embrace of the shadow too now #(good luck deciphering my metaphors)#emptiness. solitude. no way out but to create sort of... conditions that fit my design...?#like misty lake hahaha #i am literally rom #no matter what sweet innocent 'dumb' child you see her as but...#seeing everything and being amalgam of every kind of superior creature in lore does... things to a person #only someone like her would be able to accept so much knowledge and not implode #i think she is called 'idiot' (or 'vacuous' in english version) because like...#anyone else with this sort of knowledge would either go insane or know how to use it to rewrite the universe itself #instead of just 'perceiving' all this knowledge and lay around like a lazy potato #only doing her part by hiding this knowledge from those that aren't ready but her barrier is-#-penetrable because with enough insight you can still see through her concealment #she doesn't mind you see messed up secrets if you want them so much just don't rope unprepared people into it too

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