#inspiration: Monika's guilt... with my own ending

[slimyalienfreak]

Sonic.EXE Self Insert/OC:

Back at it again with another oc but this time it’s sonic. I don’t know if you guys remember but if you followed my previous account before I accidentally deleted it I had a Sonic.EXE self insert but I didn’t provided much detail on it besides a sketch. Now I decided to go more in detail in it and create it as a self insert/OC. This was mostly inspired by Monika from Ddlc since I actually had the idea from when I first played Ddlc back in 2020/2021. Hope you like it. ~Blaze/Dawn

Name:

- Dawn The Cat

- Dawn.CIH

- Chernobyl

+ Meaning:

- One of my online name (I didn’t want to name it Blaze so people don’t confused with the actual Blaze The Cat)

- One of my online name + CIH (another name for Chernobyl)

- Named after the computer virus with the same name

Pronouns:

- Dawn The Cat + Dawn.CIH = Any Pronouns

- Chernobyl = Technically none since he doesn’t have a gender (but gets referred to as male due to his preferred form)

Height:

- Dawn The Cat = 4ft1

- Dawn.CIH + Chernobyl = ???

Weight:

- Dawn The Cat = 40kg

- Dawn.CIH + Chernobyl = ???

Personality:

- Dawn The Cat = Pretty much like me in IRL

- Chernobyl = Chernobyl is pretty much known for being a surprisingly calm and collected character. However he kind of loses himself when things aren’t going his way which is rare. He always thinks about his choices, considering the advantages and disadvantages to each situation making sure it turns in his favour. He’s also very sadistic but he isn’t outright about it (compared to other EXE characters who are also sadistic). He has an extreme hatred for humans. This mostly stems from his views on his creator but now he just assumes everyone is the same. He’s also very manipulative and surprisingly very convincing. Able to convince even the most stubborn characters. He also isn’t afraid to blackmail or guilt trip people, often using people’s own words to get his way or when he is losing control of said person.

Powers:

- Dawn The Cat = Martial Arts + Magic Arts

- Dawn.CIH + Chernobyl = Empathetic Manipulation + Teleportation + Telepathy + Text Manipulation + Batterfield Removing + Body Control, Perception Manipulation, Transmutation, Sound Manipulation, Time Paradox Immunity, Malfunctions Manipulation, Data Manipulation, Technology Manipulation.

Weakness:

- Chernobyl pretty much relies on the game he originates from. He can go onto other games he just prefers the one he was created from. He relies on the files provided in the game of not just him but other characters that are in the game. So if the characters files have been deleted or tampered with he pretty much loses control (unless he was the cause of it). It’s especially worst if his file is the one being tampered with or deleted. He can be deleted but it’s not temporary for now.

Likes:

- Sonic Series

- Dawn The Cat (Kind of like Lord X obsession over sonic)

Dislikes:

- His creator

- Humans

Backstory:

- It all started with Chernobyl creator Mary and her friends. Mary as well as her three other friends had just recently graduated from college with a degree in coding. At first she didn’t know what to do like everyone who just graduated from school. So she ended up playing some sonic games to get her mind off of it. That’s when it hit her, she should create a sonic fangame. So she ended up calling up her friends and told them her idea. Eventually she managed to convince them and headed on their way. However at some point along the way Mary ended up creating an error in the code and created Chernobyl. She figured there wouldn’t be any harm having him there so she ended up using him to finish off the game but disguised her true intentions. Eventually though Chernobyl figured it out and decided to kill her inside the game as well as her friends who were somewhat unaware to certain extent who Chernobyl was. He decided to finish the game himself and pretty much kill anyone who comes in contact with him and his game through the characters provided in the game (characters: Sonic, Tails, Knuckles, Amy, Dawn [Main host], Eggman).

Appearance:

[worangetravellertravels]

The Man Who Finally Got Named...

The Hollow man, haunted for his selfishness, manipulations and lack or humanity had began preparing a boat right next to a beach. The boat was quite small and got no space for rations or water. The Hollow man was preparing the boat... cause he was sure he wasn’t coming back.

During years after leaving his “hero” life behind, he had travelled the world. Seen mountains, seen cities, seen forest, seen rivers. He meet people there, most of them became friends. But the Hollow man just “pretended” to be friends. He felt nothing for any of them. He needed something for so long, but no one was able to give what he desired to him.

While preparing his boat, the Hollow man got a visitor. A woman from the mountains that he meet in his travel. The woman wasn’t there really to talk, just to observe. She was quite curious of the Hollow man’s future and actions. On the mountains he opened up to her, they even got into a relationship but before they could go too far the man ran away since he knew it would end up horribly, I mean, right now he also is in a horrible place but with the woman’s company he would have been doomed quite earlier. The woman’s name? Despair.

From the city nearby came another girl. She wasn’t hollow like the man, but the encouraging words that she was trying to use to talk out the man from finishing the boat felt hollower than the man himself. She was helping just out of duty, for her mother asked her to go grab her bastard father and save his soul. The girl was there just because of her mom’s wishes, but neither child or bartard parent truly knowledge each other. The girl’s name? Indifference.

There was a priest who meet the Hollow man in the forest. He had done all he could think of to “save” the Hollow man’s soul. But the Hollow man REFUSED to get help, refused to get saved, and while the chip on his shoulder called hope was still resonating each time the priest spoke... the Hollow man just kept his work. He wanted not salvation, he wanted not comprehension, nor pathetic pity, what he wanted... no one would give it to him, SPECIALLY a priest named Faith.

And so. Early in the morning the boat was ready. The expectant despair, the unsure indifference and the useless faith were all staring at the Hollow man who was getting ready to leave the beach, leave this sea, leave this... world...

“Goodbye you useless people!” at this point the Hollow man had lost his chill the same way he had lost his hope “I’m tired of being hollow! i’m tired of being pitied! im tired of being me! So please, go away and forget you met this excuse of a person with no real name... it’s for the best... so with more to say... go--”

“YOUR NAME IS MISTAKE!”

The Hollow man (Mistake?) and the three hopeless people look at the end of the beach. The little kid came running very ungracefully, very clumsily, you could tell they had been running from a long while. Their look was weaker than their determined run would make you think: Skinny legs and arms, messy hair and marks on their face that showed they have cried for so long their tears have formed a mark on their face. Mistake (?) left the boat and approach the kid who inmediatly punched him in the stomach, to the kick him and make him drop to his knees.

“Enough with the selfpity act man! You honestly think you’re atoning for anything trying to leave this world? I get you feel hurt, but think of those that you wronged! And no feeling bad, sorry or down on yourself does NOTHING to them! You don’t remember my dad but he sure remembers you... he is the person you told him to jump of a bridge so many years ago. He has lived his life blaming himself for giving you the wrong idea and being so blind to do whatever you said. You made my father feel like a monster seeing your life crumbling down. I hate you for that... but also... you can’t even pretend you will make things BETTER by not being here, so please grab what Im about to say and record it in you dense skull: YOU’RE NO GOD! YOU’RE JUST A HUMAN! YOU MAKE MISTAKES! YOUR NAME IS MISTAKE! but as a mistake... you can be fixed... you will never stop existing... but you can fix what you did wrong... and maybe yourself... if you want” - the kid said all this while slapping Mistake constantly, until at the end the kid stopped, began to cry and just hugged the man who had all that time being deadstaring into nothingness.

He felt it... the hollowness inside him filling itself a little... filling with shame, with sorrow and strangely? with peace... finally someone had gave him what he desired. Someone actually felt anger at him... someone saw him as a human... someone got a NAME for him. The man now called Mistake began to hug the kid “thank you” he whispered. “Don’t, not until you truly are able to mean it” replied the kid trying to sound angry... when in reality they were truly relieved.

Later that day, with the boat still at the dock. The 5 characters went to the beach, just to relax for a while, why? because truth be told the 5 are just one person. The same person in fact. YOU. Yes all this aspects are in you, in me, in everyone. Sometimes stuff can get out of hand and your mistakes can run and ruin your life. But if we keep our despair at bay, use our indifference in what truly deserves it, keep faith close but not get blinded by it, we can make peace with our mistakes and keep growing... 

“It’s weird you know” said Mistake when the day was ending, with him looking at the sea. Sitting in, at the time, comfortable sand. “I now got my name, but never knew yours... and I know you’ve been around all the time. You are who I hurt the most, inside and out, can’t truly explain it... just know it, so kid... what’s your name?”

“It’s what we all need more than hope... TRUST” - said the kid with a broken smile, that hopefully with time will become more honest.

Notes:

Had to do this in a hurry just for well... selfish reasons I guess. I’m waiting to see what Renn’s story will give us and based on those feeling I got inspired in making this a three parter (or two stories and a poem) to make my story that while not perfectly reflects Monika’s guilt story... is how I see it. But the key here is that the “ending” Renn will put is unknown to me, this is how I think it can go, but truth be told... I’m hopelessly hopeful in this situations. In a more real world scenario Sayori SHOULD have felt Monika go a LONG time ago (and even that is not totally accurate, nothing is that easy)

Whatever her outcome is, I will be here to enjoy it (and/or suffer from it because yes xD)

Now read the story again but listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSS7qsRTSoA  (That Distant Shore, Steven Universe | Pian instrumental)