#initially this was going to be soulmates-verse but I didn't feel like setting it up

[fuckingfinwions]

Groundhog day style timeloop

Celegorm has found his brother hot for a long time. He was jealous at Curufin's wedding, and hoped Curufin would be jealous of all his own lovers. The world would be disgusted if he went for it though, and more importantly their family would disapprove. Celegorm keeps his relationship to his little brother chaste for centuries.

Eventually though, he gives in. Celegorm starts with subtle overtures, deniable if only because no one expects him to act politely. He's shirtless because the castle is too warm. He leans in close because he's excited. He licks his fingers because the dinner was delicious and he doesn't care about manners.

He watches Curufin's reactions. Where Curufin's eyes linger, or turn sharply away. When Curufin leans into him for a moment.

Celegorm kisses Curufin a few months after he started flirting. It's somehow better than anyone Celegorm has kissed before. Curufin kisses back. They don't fuck that night; Curufin breaks away and says "I need to think this through."

But they fuck the next morning.

Curufin had approached Celegorm's rooms to give his answer. Celegorm figures that since he showed his hand last night, he might as well show everything else. He calls for Curufin to come in and latch the door behind him. Celegorm is naked on the bed. Curufin doesn't get very far into his speech - talking about how they have to keep it secret and has Celegorm thought this through, but not refusing - before he's on top of his brother, devouring his mouth and fondling his cock.

They are both lords of a castle at war though. They return to their responsibilities after a few hours.

Celegorm follows Curufin after dinner though, back to Curufin's rooms.

They fuck every night. They fit together perfectly, like two puzzle pieces, and yet every possible configuration fits just as well.

One morning, Celegorm wakes up in his own bed. Curufin isn't next to him, but maybe he had somewhere to be. Celegorm is in his own bed. He gets breakfast.

Pretty soon Celegorm realizes that it's fall, not spring. And from talking to others, he wasn't in a coma for half a year - this is before he woke up.

Celegorm realizes it's the same day he decided to pursue Curufin - or at least within a few, he didn't mark it on a calendar.

Celegorm tries to believe it was just a weird dream.

Celegorm repeats the same strategy for flirting with Curufin. A little faster, as Curufin's reactions match the "dream" but not much.

Again Celegorm kisses Curufin, and can finally have the one pleasurehe's denied himself. Again Curufin asks for time to think. Again Celegorm lets him, and greets him in the morning.

When Curufin asks, "How can you be so sure?" Celegorm answers "I had a vision it would work out." This leads to further questions, as Celegorm has not previously had foresight. But Curufin accepts that explanation.

A week later, Celegorm wakes up alone. He can smell rotting leaves in the autumn air, rather than daffodils he went to sleep to.

Celegorm decides to say nothing.

Obviously this is a sign, and as blasphemous as he is, he's not stupid. If the Valar are punishing him, he won't get out of it by charging ahead full speed.

Celegorm waits and watches. After five years, the mountains burn. He and Curufin and Celebrimbor survive to flee south, but a lot of people don't. Celegorm still says nothing.

They stay with Finrod, until Finrod leaves to follow a Man to his death. A literal half-goddess comes to the city, and finally Celegorm finds someone nearly as enthralling as Curufin. She rejects him though, and steals his best friend, and soon the whole city hates him.

Celegorm and Curufin flee alone. Curufin is hanging on by a thread, and Celegorm admits his love to give Curufin something to hold onto. Celegorm sweet talks Curufin into fucking him anyway under the edge of Doriath, under the eaves of the great forest.

Celegorm wakes up in his bed in autumn years ago.

He tells Curufin everything that happened. Curufin doesn't believe it. Curufin refuses to be seduced by Celegorm, if Celegorm is just doing it because he thinks they have to. (Celegorm has never in his life done something because someone told him he had to.)

Curufin believes when the mountains burst into flame. He demands Celegorm tell him again what happened, though Celegorm doesn't recall all the details of the politics.

When the Man comes to Nargothrond, Curufin insists that this time they can make it work. Maybe they can talk Finrod around - they can't. Maybe they can persuade Luthien, or trap her - she still escapes.

Curufin begs, "Don't make me wait for my son to hate me. We both know it's just a matter of time before he tells me so. I can't keep going knowing I'm going to fail."

Celegorm and Curufin fuck in all three positions they used on Celegorm's last night with his lover before. Curufin wakes each morning in despair. By the end of the week, he's resigned, but mostly enjoying the sex.

Celegorm wakes up in his bed in Himlad in the autumn the next morning.

One where Celegorm doesn't give Curufin time to think, but other wise does the same seduction as the first time. Curufin agrees in a matter of minutes (while Celegorm is groping him)

One where Celegorm kisses him the first day, and explains nothing, and the whole loop is less than two weeks.

One where Celegorm tells Curufin the truth about the loops after they have sex. "So I won't remember this? Why not just drug me and fuck me in my sleep, if you don't care what I think?" "I do care what you think, I want to know so maybe next time we can live together."

One in which Celegorm tries to get the whole city to evacuate before the Bragollach but Curufin won't listen, not until it's far too late. Celegorm and him share one night on the mad journey south, amid the smoke and the ash where they can pretend it doesn't matter, and Celegorm loops before they reach safety.

One in which Celegorm tries again to get Himlad to evacuate, but first gags Curufin and ties him up in the cupboard. "My brother has already gone to Nargothrond to alert Finrod. We're moving." Curufin gets out before the city is packed, unfortunately. It takes annoyingly long years for Curufin to trust his brother enough to fuck him.

Next one where Celegorm realizes that he can apparently keep Curufin tied up for three days, and no one will investigate. He seduces Curufin as per standard, talks him into ropeplay on day four, and doesn't let him out. Celegorm doesn't like CUrufin saying he wishes Celegorm would die and he's an evil monster, but he knows Curufin will forget it soon enough.

One where Celegorm starts things with Curufin by waking him up with a blowjob.

One where Celegorm tries to get a threesome with Curufin and a random elven soldier.

One where Celegorm collapses crying in Curufin's arms on day six after they get together.

One where Celegorm goes out in the wilderness and hunts for a year, then seduces Curufin.

One where Celegorm goes out hunting the day of the Bragollach. It goes worse. The city doesn't evacuate properly; Curufin sends valuable warriors off into the wilderness to search for Celegorm. Celebrimbor ends up maimed and with lungs full of ash and weaker by the day. Celegorm goes to Curufin, and offers physical comfort. Curufin refuses at first, then comes back. Curufin is rough. He only does it once. Celegorm resets the day after his nephew dies.

The next one where Celegorm can't look his brother in the eye for a long time, and Curufin misreads it as attraction. Curufin initiates things with Celegorm this round.

One where on day five, Celegorm slaughters everyone who ever annoyed him.

One where Celegorm doesn't ask at all, doesn't initiate with a questioning kiss. His hands is already down Curufin's pants when his lips are on Curufin's neck. Curufin flinches, but Celegorm says "I know you like this."

One where Celegorm seduces Curufin with the promise it can be just one night

One where Celegorm gets them both roaring drunk and then fucks Curufin

One where Celegorm head out in the wilderness, and then west. All the way west to Hithlum, not that anyone knows. There are reports that the High King was killed by an orcs, here's the poisoned orcish arrow that way in his eye! "I've regained the throne for our family, for doesn't Maedhros rule Fingon by their bond?" "I don't think that's how mates work." "No? Then let's test it." And Celegorm kisses Curufin.

One where Celegorm does the same thing, but tells Curufin they ought to have their first time after Maedhros is acknowledged as king, or at least king consort. So get cracking on the scheming, little brother. (Even though Celegorm knows any sacrifices Curufin makes will be void a week after the coronation.)

One where Celegorm tells a brief lie in Himlad, then rides off with Curufin for brotherly bonding. An afternoon ride turns into Curufin as his prisoner and fucktoy for a week.

Same as above but Celegorm does it during the Bragollach and tells Curufin everyone else is probably dead. (This is the time when Celegorm finds out that the loop resets if he dies; Curufin is not happy about abandoning his son to death/torture.)

The next one, where Celegorm is angry at Curufin and rapes him in revenge. He doesn't bother to flee, and cooperates with the guards who throw him in a cell. Trying the lord of the city in court will take longer than a week.

One where Celegorm seduces Curufin nicely, then kisses him in the great hall the next day. People are disgusted and Curufin feels betrayed, but Celegorm has his fun.

One where Celegorm waits and bides his time, and seduces the day before Maedhros is coming for a visit. He always wondered which of them would win in a fight if neither of them held back. Forcing Maedhros into his bed should be enough to get him to take this seriously.

One where Celegorm tries waxplay with Curufin.

One where Celegorm tells Curufin he'll only sleep with him if Curufin makes him elaborate piercings, and puts them on Celegorm personally.

One where Celegorm asks Curufin to wear a plug for five days straight, with the promise Celegorm will next.

One where Celegorm tries out the more extreme stuff. He always wondered what it would be like to fuck someone as they died.

One where Celegorm doesn't touch Curufin with anything but his fingers and his mouth, in hopes that it won't count. He still wakes up alone in the autumn after a week.

One where Celegorm does his best to drive Curufin out of his mind with pleasure and gentle touches.

One where Celegorm threatens to hurt Celebrimbor unless Curufin pleasures him.

One where he swaps all of Curufin's sheets for silk before their first night.

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5 favourite fics ive written

instructions: fic authors self rec! when you get this, reply with your five favorite fics that you’ve written, then pass on to at least five other writers. let’s spread the self-love 💖 (tagged by @ifmywishescametrue)

this is me trying (stevetony, modern AU, 21.6k)

it's probably a bit cliche to put this on the list bc its also my most recent fic, but i genuinely do love this fic a lot. an unbelievable amount of credit goes to @omg-just-peachy who loves the fic so much more than i do, and without whom, the fic would've definitely just lived in my drafts as an idea that never got completed. so im like double proud of this fic bc i stuck to my initial plan and didn't lengthen it, and i finished it!!

2. begin again (samtony, modern AU, 9.9k)

this is still probably one of the fics im the proudest of, and it was such a genuine joy to write. i never used to understand those author notes about how they were only planning to write X number of words but then somehow ended up w 10k, until this fic. i am famously someone who writes and prefers to write shorter things but this fic just refused to stop at a decent 2k and it was all written in one sitting, because it flowed out of me incessantly. something i'm always going to be proud of.

3. and now my heart's been stolen (samtony, post TWS AU, 5k)

i think the thing that i felt the most proud of from this fic is the number of people who commented saying that they didn't originally go for samtony as a ship, but that my fic converted them and they wanted more - because thats like every author's dream. it's to make the readers see your characters the way you see them, and its kinda special that i was able to do that with this fic.

4. 1000 lives (for you) (buckytony, soulmates AU, 20k)

i was kinda apprehensive about adding this to the list - not bc i wasn't proud of it but bc i feel so guilty that the sequel isn't out yet - but i am extremely proud of this fic. marrying my vision with mcu canon in a way that felt believable and building suspense over multiple chapters is a challenge for someone like me (and i would never have done it well without @omg-just-peachy and @pretty-grim) but this story was like 2 years in the making and im so happy its out there and people enjoyed it

5. the things we tell ourselves in the dark (stevetony, emh, 1.1k)

this fic is another one of those fics that i wrote all in one sitting, and its also my only marvel fic to date that's set in a non-mcu verse. i went down an emh wormhole, and i ltr wrote this fic after watching this episode, like instantly after. i genuinely was worried that i would get the characterisations wrong, so one of the things i enjoyed the most was getting comments where people said they could see this scene be included at the end of the episode!!

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Compiled these asks for readability!

Thanks for sharing and elaborating, anon!!

This is a super interesting concept to me b/c the vibe is... kinda more mundane, without Demanitus' insane magitech in the setting and no evil demon/sorceress running around, but it's also more keyed into the sun/moon lore and magic elements. And it's an intriguing blend/balance!

+ I think an AU like this would be unique b/c it'd make for a story that's really driven by Raps and Cass and their relationship- no true outside factors.

Aside from it being an AU concept tho, honestly I think:

" The twist was that the rocks weren't calling to raps but to cass, because they wanted the perfect person to merge with, raps' opposite."

would be a fantastic twist in any verse, and possibly even a viable interpretation of canon?? I think there's def a lot of value in Cass having no pre-determined grand role in the universe, and making her own destiny by choosing to take the moonstone, but I still dig that idea for a reveal as like... a play on that, maybe?

(Like guiding Cass to the moonstone was what was 'supposed' to happen, or what the greater magical forces in the universe intended, but the girls weren't there yet emotionally/ZT threw a wrench into the plan/something else happened so that Cass being drawn to the moonstone didn't initially pan out and got derailed- before getting rerailed later through hard work and communication. I might be totally off base here from your orig intention, so pardon the rambling lol, but I see potential there for the idea of destiny and soulmates actually being smth you have to actively work on, which is a fav theme of mine.)

Anyway, Raps having a diff relationship w/ the sundrop than Cass has w/ the moonstone b/c she was born bonded with it vs. merging with it later is a fun thought, and I def buy into that! Her needing to become more in tune w/ the sundrop's 'voice' paralleling her leaning to listen to and empathize with Cassandra (or other chars like Var, the Saporians, etc.) is tasty, along w/ the challenge for her of self-reflection and introspection/confronting her own feelings.

I just love the reconciliation/harmonization btwn the celestial forces mirroring their relationship- I wish canon had pushed in that direction more.

I wonder if Cass would be as confrontational/destructive in this AU? Since ZT was largely pushing for her to be more aggressive to unite the drops in canon. I can see her maybe going on the run instead, but if the moonstone is a big influence on her and has a lot of Ziti's personality/traits (or if Raps is being more proactive), perhaps not.

And ofc I think The Brotherhood coming back into play to help Raps w/ this diff sorta challenge would be cool! Like I'd have expected Raps to at least ask Edmund or Adira what they know abt the moonstone and pick their brains, so them helping her figure out sundrop magic based on their knowledge/exp and their kingdom's history w/ its counterpart would be interesting too.

It'd be cool if you decided to do more and develop the idea!! But I def feel you on having fun thinking up AUs and wanting to share them vs. the struggle of act... creating content to tell the story. Esp if you're a visual artist b/c comics esp take so long to draw relative to the amount of info you can convey LMAO. I think discussion and text posts are a happy medium for sure. :>