#in the jungle opening.mp3

[dryeyed]

shota and general body hcs.

* his elbow is the most prominent scar on his body, and even if that wound been 'fully' healed it's never really been the same. if he holds his bent arm in one position for too long, he has to crack it, moving in a very specific motion so the crack doesn't hurt. it tends to get locked in place like this, probably the effect of a weakened joint. as as result of this, he tends to lose circulation pretty quickly in his right forearm and hand, nerve damage and all playing a big role in general hand discomfort.

* hacking off his own leg with the extreme slashing force of a large dagger is something that viscerally plays in his mind over and over again. it's a haunting scene and feeling, reimagined and relived every time his cruel brain decides to play through it once again.

shota definitely experiences phantom limb pain, usually in bouts that occur for just seconds or minutes. he does have those days where he can't so much as stand look at his leg without 'wigging out', sensation and imagination too mixed to be distinguishable from reality. it plays hell with the mental shit he already has to deal with, but couple that with actual bodily sensations and it's led to a full breakdown. it's gotten better recently, but it certainly has not gone away. he absolutely refuses painkillers whenever he can, whenever possible.

* due to the nature of his quirk, shota's always been a little queasy around eye horror or eye gore. it's freaked him out since he was a teenager, and while it's not particularly something that comes up in conversation or is presented the opportunity to be known, he usually does not have strong outward reactions. that is, until he comes close to losing his eye. until he actually loses his eye function from a nail scratch.

now he can't even so much as stomach eye horror, and then nausea makes him even more anxious and then in turn more nauseated from emetophobia. it's a great loop. he stays away from anything to do with the topic, including the graphic injury to his own eye.

* i imagine he also has insane control over his eyelids on the battlefield. little ways to keep them lubricated by never quite committing to a full blink, but some things in between. he probably spent many days as a teen at ua, staring in a mirror, focusing all his willpower on mastering the muscle movements of his eyelids. bitches be squinting.