#in my rps w/ my haurchefant haur rly wanted to marry aym && was trying to assure him that they'd be alright if they went through w/ it. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

akumeis · 4 years

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sometimes i think about how i hc that aymeric loved haurchefant so dearly, had grown up with him through the friendships of their parents, && they had been together in secret. how afraid aymeric was of admitting to their relationshp && proudly showing it off despite wishing so much that he had the courage to do so. he was too afraid of any harm coming to his beloved if he were to, could never shake that fear despite nothing to prove that it’d even occur.

so now that haurchefant has passed away, not only does he have to live with the guilt of hiding him, of denying him their right to showcase their love for eachother, he has to live pretending that he wasn’t as close to haurchefant as he truly was. he has to pretend that he isn’t so devastated by his death. he has to pretend like time will heal those wounds. he has to, when the wol speaks of how close they were to him, say “ i know you were, you must be so pained “... unable to ever say “ i understand exactly how you feel, he && i were close too “.

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#⌜♚⌟ ┈ 𝖊𝖍𝖚𝖊 𝖋𝖚𝖌𝖆𝖈𝖊𝖘 𝖑𝖆𝖇𝖚𝖓𝖙𝖚𝖗 𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖎. ( ooc )#⌜♚⌟ ┈ tfw your playlist puts on some of your post death hauraym songs && u just bawl. wanna know what's even sadder ??#in my rps w/ my haurchefant haur rly wanted to marry aym && was trying to assure him that they'd be alright if they went through w/ it.#now that he's gone aym kinda considers haur his husband despite not getting to make it official but he'd never ever admit that to anyone.#but yeah this is also my explanation for why in haur's death scene aym is just.... really quiet && barely emotionally reacts ??#because imo he's holding himself back && forcing himself to be numbed because the second he starts getting upset he's gonna #fucking shatter there && then && just end up shaking && howling && sobbing. probably then would be expected to admit why it #impacts him so much && why he's more attached to haur than people would assume. :^)))))))))))) I H ATE FEELING THINGS.#don't ship hauraym guys not only is it in rarepair hell w/ next to no content despite having so much potential it's just.....#sad in its own way. my heart hurty.#I STAY UP ALLL NIIIGHT TELL MYSELF I'M ALRIIIGHT BABY YOU'RE JUST HARDER TO SEE THAN MOST....#I PUT THE RECORD ON WAIT 'TIL I HEAR OUR SONG.... EVERY NIGHT I'M DANCING WITH YOUR GHOST.................#AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.#death mention cw #ask to tag #local elezen has to hide all of his pain bc if he doesn't act like he doesn't feel any of it he straight up wouldn't be able to function.

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