#imagine having to deal with a 4ft precocious motherfucker in a jinglefit who's majorly abnormal about your lolo no wonder he's suicidal | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

roomba-mangga · 3 months ago

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going back and forth on the notion of writing this thing as if it were actually aimed at a younger audience versus writing for an older audience who might resonate with experiences of liminality... so far leaning towards the latter... which means i can probably lean further into the heavier elements if i wanted to... much to consider

#technically violating the restrictions i set for myself during Writing Break but baby steps...#i'm not Writing TM i'm pondering it...#'target audience' options: me as a teenager or me now #yaad's life is a special nightmare he is a little gingerbread man in a little gingerbread house #imagine having to deal with a 4ft precocious motherfucker in a jinglefit who's majorly abnormal about your lolo no wonder he's suicidal #yaad the Designated Grownup... poor little old man...#and thistle tries so hard to position himself as the adult when he has no real business doing that #so we get this interplay of responsibility and deference going which is sad but also. kind of funny #just two-way 'why is my future in your hands you are a Baby' and 'no no i'm the grownup it's my turn to bear the horrors'#where moments of vulnerability have this added layer of discomfort due to that dynamic #main reason i set this in an au aside from heehee fairytale framing is that tbh if yaad was adamant that thistle can't be reasoned with #and he's been living under the guy's foot for centuries...#i mean he's got to be a competent enough diplomat to hold the fort for laios postcanon and he's shown enough compassion towards thistle #that i'm convinced he's tried and failed before. probs couldn't get him to care abt anyone beyond their relation to delgal #including yaad himself #au where thistle isn't directly involved w the family though? distanced enough that he's actively trying to secure his place? leverage <3 #^ all of this COMPLETELY unrelated to the main body of the post skjfhk just a bunch of rambly sticky notes #haven't actually talked abt the heavier elements uhhh idk. derealization. passive suicidality. you get it #maybe some subtle trans + aspec coding just for me. it's about The Liminality #roomba writes #i should extend my break i think all that counts as violating the restrictions na SHKHFSJK

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