#im still not over gugu's death

[ailawritesfics]

Just finished watching To Your Eternity. I was left emotionally destroyed. I sat down and told myself to watch a light-hearted anime, picked To Your Eternity thinking it was wholesome and ended up bawling my eyes out. Thanks :')

[standtcgether]

✦ ▓ AND WHO GOES THERE? oh, it’s just [ ROSLIN FREY ]. some say [  HER  ] resemblance to [ GUGU MBATHA-RAW ] is almost uncanny, but the [ THIRTY-NINE ] year old has been in the capital for [ TWENTY-ONE YEARS ]. many suspect that they are the notorious [ ASSOCIATE ] of the [ TULLY ] family: perhaps that has made them [ CYNICAL ] && [ UNTRUSTING ] of late, when they used to be so [ LOYAL ] && [ AMBITIOUS ]. during the daylight hours, [ ROSLIN ] can be found working as a [ PROFESSOR ], but when night falls over king’s landing, they are best remembered listening to [ ROYALS, LORDE ]. may the gods be with them in these dark streets. 

tw: death of a parent

HISTORY

you come into the world with the rise of the sun, a quiet cry escaping your lips. “a girl,” the doctor says, and your mother weeps with joy. she has so many sons- and stepdaughters a plenty, but you are a girl just for her. 

walder frey is the butt of many a joke, but only behind closed doors and out of ear shot. married more times than most can count, his wives have a habit of falling ill- or in one case disappearing without a trace. 

roslin grew up in a large family- she had nieces and nephews closer in age to her than her eldest siblings, and it seemed there was never a quiet moment in the frey home. even as a child, roslin valued her solitude. a quiet child, she would rather spend time in her room than watch her brothers play-fight in the yard

she was four when her mother passed; a car accident. her father remarried less than a year later.

she found her voice via musical; a talented singer, she took lessons in piano and guitar as well. 

after graduating, roslin moved to the city to attend university- she studied hard, getting her degree in music. 

she spent a few years trying to get a foot in the door; singing in lounges and bars, renting a recording studio to make her own album- but never manages to get signed to a label. a few of her songs do well locally, but none enough to be considered a hit by any means.

after a few years, roslin decided to return to school- getting a masters in music production, finding herself in a TA position for one of her favourite professors. perhaps, she thought, if she cannot be a musician, she can help the future of music. 

after completing her program, she found a position at the university- first teaching private lessons, until she worked her way into a lecturing position.

still, despite enjoying her teaching job, roslin would still spend time writing songs. she hopes that since she was unable to “make it” as a singer, she might be able to get recognition as a songwriter.

PERSONALITY

loyalty is one of the most important, if not the most important traits one can have in her eyes. loyal to friends, to yourself, and most importantly to family. 

seems every bit a sweet and kind girl; quick to smile and laugh, and help where needed- but she is nonetheless her father’s daughter. 

it is hard to gain her trust, and if you do break it there is no chance of getting it back.

CONNECTIONS

im heading out in a few, but will be posted here when i get a chance

[lorenaluvusforever-blog]

To begin is the end, I decided to do it backwards cos I know I should start off sad and end on a happier note. This was the worst flight ever taken, this was the worst day ever, the worst phone call to ever recieve. My grandfather forbaded me to come back but I did cos I knew my uncle would want me to be there to see him last. Til date I really miss him alot. Getting a call while drinking and eating with friends saying "Eric GuGu is in ICU met with accident" and "He is im critical danger" and "He passed away" all within the spand of minutes after returning back to our airbnb. Emotions was like a rollercoaster. All my friends were with me but they gave me the silence I needed the space to cry. I called for help to book tickets and even got angry. I told myself such a young age why you? why not me that has been hoping for death for so long? He passed away due to heart attack and arteries being clogged up. He knew his health was depleting I knew it. He suddenly talked to me about how I should really go get my license and how I should stop my bbt intake and fastfood (i did and im proud) How I should eat more fruits and veggies :) Words are still just words. I cried the entire flight from Jeju to Seoul and Seoul to SG. Transit was worst. I didnt know what to do I wasnt hungry I wasnt tired I just felt drained. I wanted someone to just hug me and say he is alive. I dreaded the walk to the last gate of the entire korean airport it felt like people were just staring at me. I cried cos i feel lost. I hated that day. I miss you alot :( I have dreams about you asking me to drive you around the places you told me you wanted to bring Ah Ma to. We failed you when you said you wanted to go Australia road trip. I failed you cos you didnt manage to see my graduate, to take a family photo of my graduation gown, even doing this is making me cry. But Im grateful to have you as my uncle and I loved you alot tho you did alot of weird shit. I miss fighting over duck drumsticks and chicken parts :( Now is just a void an empty void that cant be filled in all our hearts. Can you come back to us :( Is there a time stone out there I want to borrow :( Or Hermoine Necklace? https://www.instagram.com/p/BvUxTW7nziJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1tv2v86beb0hd