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[yujrioz]

Lun8 ★ Super Power MV

[landoughnut]

My Girlfriend

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♡ pairing - charles leclerc x fem!reader

♡ summary - at first you were worried about going with charles to the paddock for the first time since you got together, you didn't want to make a bad impression on anyone, what you both least expected was for everyone to like you more than him!

♡ warnings - somewhat possessive charles, lots of fluff

♡ w/c & a/n - 1.07k | ahh im so excited this is my first for this account! please please send any requests you have cause I cant really think of ides ahaha xoxo

"Charles are you sure, they'll like me? I just-"

"Mon amour, they will love you," he kisses your forehead, "I promise". Walking hand in hand with him towards where everyone is, he feels you squeezing his hand.

Charles and you have been dating for a while already, but you'd kept it a secret from almost everyone else due to how harsh people can be. He wanted to protect you from all the nasty comments people may make, but now you are making your first public appearance.

You weren't a well-known figure or model like the other wags, although Charles has told you many times you can most definitely be one if you wanted to. He met you when he went to buy flowers for his mother, Pascale, and claims that it was love at first sight.

Finally, you get to where hundreds of fans crowded behind a gate, they start yelling when they see you two.

Charles wraps his arm around your waist as you two get closer so he can sign some stuff as he's passing by.

"Charles! Charles, who's this?"

"Is this your girlfriend?"

"She's beautiful, Charles!"

People shout many things along those lines making you blush and Charles smile. He kisses your head again as you give them a shy wave, cheeks pink.

Charles finishes a hat he's signing as introduces you to the crowd, "This is my lovely girlfriend," he speaks and is shocked at how loud the crowd was. Clapping, wolf-whistling, and awing. He hadn't heard one nasty comment, not that there was anything to hate on you for, but it's shocking to see the overwhelming amount of positivity.

"Hi, everyone," you speak, smiling at the people.

"Here! Take this!" a little girl yells holding out a bracelet.

Charles steps forward, "Thank y-"

"No no!" the girl takes her hand back, making him furrow his eyebrows, "for you, miss! You are very pretty."

Your eyes widen, "Me?" She nods and you crouch down to her, "Wow! It's gorgeous," you beam. It was a red beaded bracelet with Charles' initials and number on it. "I love it, thank you so much, sweetie!"

Charles' heart races and his stomach flutters watching you with the young girl, and then when you interact with the others, who seem to be giving you heart eyes at this point.

His eyes narrow at some men looking a little too intensely, so he catches up to you and puts his arm around your shoulder. You lean into him as he waves bye to the fans. You blow a kiss, making them get loud once again, and then walk with Charles to where the drivers were hanging around.

"You see, mon cœur, they adored you," he brings your hand to his lips, kissing your palm.

You let out a happy sigh, "They were a bit louder than I thought, but it was such a relief."

Arriving where the others were, Lando was the first one to spot you two. "Ah! Look who we have here! Charles and the girlfriend who he told but not showed," he grins.

You smile and lean a bit more towards Charles, "Hello," your voice quiet. These were your boyfriends friends, if they didn't like you-

You feel Charles give your waist a light squeeze, taking you out of your thoughts.

"Wow, no wonder Charles didn't bring you here yet," Lando grins and puts his hand on Charles' shoulder, "you've got yourself a stunner. Scared someone's gonna whisk her away, are you?"

You laugh and feel yourself relax, "Oh hush!"

You look behind Lando and see Daniel, Oscar, Max, Carlos, and Lewis coming over.

They all greet you and for the next few minutes all of you are having a great time together, laughing, making jokes, and it's as if you've all been friends forever.

Charles frowns as he watches, none of them even glances at him, too engrossed with you telling some stories from your floral shop. After a few more minutes he decided he had enough and walks over to you.

"Mon amour, why don't we head to my drivers room, I'll show you around," he smiles, though it didn't quite reach his eyes.

"Alright, love. It was nice meeting you all! I'll see you guys soon!" You smile and they reciprocate it as you walk off.

Lewis and Max whistle in sync, "What a woman."

Charles huffs and hits his shoulder, "My woman, you mean."

Carlos chuckles, "Awh, is little Charles jealous?" Lando and Oscar laugh, glancing at each other.

"I'm not jealous," he frowns, crossing his arms. "It's just everyone we've seen today is fawning over her and it's like I'm not even here! Some of these people are ogling her like I, her boyfriend, am not right next to her!"

Danny shakes his head smiling, "Well, mate, she's a real sweetheart, what did you expect?"

"Well- I don't know! But she's waiting for me so... I'll see you guys later," he rolls his eyes as he hears his friends whistling as he walks towards you.

His eyes light up when he spots you chewing your lip, seemingly lost. "There you are!"

You turn towards him, "Thank goodness you're here! I was scared to ask for directions," you laugh.

"Good thing I'm here to be a guide then," he takes your hand gently and brings you into his room.

The moment the door is closed his lips are on yours, one hand cupping your face and neck and the other around your waist.

It took you a moment but you were kissing him back with the same passion. "I've been waiting to do that," he whispers, lips brushing yours.

You smiles, kissing him against. The rhythm of your lips together expressing your love without words.

He slowly walks back until he hits the bed, then sits down and grins as you straddle his lap.

"You're my girlfriend," he whispers, tracing your face, "my love, my angel."

You study his face as he admires yours, "I love you," you whisper, kissing him gently.

"I love you more, I don't know how I got so lucky."

You smile and hold his face in your hands, kissing his cheeks, nose, forehead, chin, and finally pecking his mouth, which was swollen from before. "I'm the lucky one, you are everything, darling," you smile.

He twirls a piece of your hair, "Alright, now how about I show you around the garage before people start wondering where we are?"

[toerrishumansodontbeone]

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Everywhere else seems too shameful to share(though I did anyway) & elaborate on, because those places are full of legitimate knowledgeable pros/artists, but uhhhh,

so I think I want to become a tattoo artist?

But seeing as I am the person that I am, living in the place that I am, knowing the language as badly as I do and having the anxiety that I do that makes it appear even more basic, I don't think I really can go the traditional route of studio apprenticeships.

And the loud majority of studio tattooers will of course tell you to never ever how even dare you try to do ANY tattooing on your own!!!! To the point of actively discouraging even buying a machine at all, even just for practice skins. Just draw a lot and go spend 1-3 years in an unpaid grueling apprenticeship where maybe they'll let u do something in a year or so uwu (tho there are also ppl fighting the gatekeeping) ( n some apprentices Ive seen whove started doing serious practice within a few months)

But yea so,,, thats why tbh it feels embarrassing to even mention me wanting to, even though on the other hand thats also.... the way to put any sort of attention on you, to garner interest from prospective mentors and amass future clients....... but also god its nerve wrecking thinking some local pro is looking at my stuff with disdain and mockery.

It just sucks how much language is a barrier for me. I'm not confident enough to just barge in talking in english even if they prob know the language fine enough.

Ontop of that its kinda sad I had all this sustained motivation for several days in a row but then I made the mistake of posting some little designs online. Because I was excited about it I of course expected excitement back. A response! A showering of praise and acceptance!

But the need for social validation is a poisonous pit and it never gives back quite what you give it. I knew it would not give me the validation and would ruin things and make me doubt myself and still I was hopeful and wanted it to be different and maybe a little bit more like the old times,,,

Its so hard to keep up my own confidence, as essential as it is to human psychology. I cant even create those little wins to sustain any real growth in myself. I just keep regressing and becoming worse. Im a hermit but one that doesnt even have any real community to turn to even online..........ughhhhhhh.

This is a very unstructured ramble, but its felt so fruitless having all these thoughts clogging my brain and nobody to talk to about them.

I dont know. Now I suddenly got back into writing and making more significant progress on my story/possibly novella.

and inbetween I thought more and more of how tattoo artist is the antithesis of me. I cannot pull my own clients, I cannot talk to people and make them want to keep coming back for my company, I could not do the receptionist duties for an apprenticeship, I do not even have an appropriate space to tattoo if it ever came to that AND renting even v small offices is stupid expensive at first glance. So I could not start doing that without already having a steady stream of clients.

Tattooing feels like a level of responsibility I could handle, it feels like it would be an interesting new craft to explore, w techniques to master, a different kind of self expression........ but thats all idyllic theory. No career path really fits me and it comes back down again to me being so unable to change my social ineptitude. Its such a waste how I had some modicum of comfort and progress in that sphere my last few years in Latvia,, and it fell apart just because it was so unsustainable financially......... N now that Ive been comfortably settled for a while in austria, just being financially stable and comfortable isnt enough...

Insanely Ive been wondering if the economy has evened out some in LV that I could come back.......but theres no way I would even physically *survive* through some unpaid apprenticeship there.....

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

MICKEY IM PICKING U UP AND SPINNING U AROUND i dont even know where to begin this made me INSANE….

like ok first of all…. the morning after. I CRIED THEYRE SO WHIPPED . THEYRE SO REAL. i melted. them just STARING all lovesick and the light in the room is illuminating reader’s features the curve of their waist etc etc (i started drooling TRUST I WOULD BE RIGHT THERE W THEM)

I DONT THINK SUGU IS OOC AT ALLLLLL this is canon to me actually. i think he is a loverboy at heart like theres NOTHING he wouldnt do for his beloved yknow… all domesticated and ready to service them in any way possible MICKEY WE’RE SO IN SYNC i love the idea of him being so pliant and sweet w reader and THEM TURNING HIM …. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 we’ll get to that later. (but it did make me jump up and down in what i can only describe as mania so ty for that <333)

OH AND AND AND!! UR A GENIUS the bite helping sugu out of a bad place…… i wonder if he sees reader as his salvation. its so interesting to me and also kinda twisted bc vampirism should be a curse right?? so for him to see it as a blessing….. i need to dissect him mickey hand me my scalpel

AND GOJOOO YES I WAS THINKING EXACTLY THAT TOO like he’s just so eager so ready to please?????? reader just tilts his chin up w their finger and gives him a smile and they have him like a dog at their feet ….. insanity

but okay. mickey we need to talk abt this because u are genuinely making my brain rot from the inside and i fear i cant take it anymore 😔😔

"mary is the girl that leaves you to rot" maybe the reader is a bit of a collector? both of the boys wanna impress them so much bc they're a little afraid that they'll leave them behind and find new toys to play with?

^ HELLO?????????? THIS …. JUST ……. have i mentioned that i love you that i am in awe of u etc etc etc THIS IS THE TASTIEST CONCWPT EVER MY BRAIN IS . EXPLODING i was thinking of reader when i mentioned that lyric too hehe we are LINKED

NONO bc this is just so genius …… i def picture reader being like . just a little twisted yknow. especially if theyre the only pure blood vampire in the group (if thats even like . a Thing in this au phdjfhjd) like gojo is human, geto has been human… and then there’s reader.

THIS IS RLLY JUST ME SAYING WHATEVER COMES TO MIND PSBJD so it might not align w ur own thoughts but !! i am just so excited to talk to u abt stuff like this <333 like i wonder if reader really does see human beings as a form of entertainment whether their food or something else…. maybe choosing only to turn humans that theyre particularly fond of. calling them a collector is soooo sick and twisted mickey but its also so good i fell to my knees whyyyy are ur readers always so interesting …..

and!!! sugu and gojo being a little afraid that reader will leave them behind…. oh its SO angsty im so invested u dont even KNOW. the idea of suguru in particular maybe being a little jealous of the attention gojo is getting (while also obviously being enamored w him cmon now)….. him being so sickeningly devoted to reader……… acting calm and collected and assured but if reader even hints at leaving him behind he just crumbles into dust STOP NOW UR MAKING ME THING ABT ANGST 😥😥😥

like. i really do feel like reader loves him since they call him their beloved husband and so on but !! idk its so interesting …….. like im so excited to hear ur thoughts on vampires and how their emotions maybe differ a bit from humans?? IM JUST . yeah. this made me insane it also made my day i LOVE u mickey ty for feeding us all <333

MICKEY this came to me in a vision and i need to hear ur thoughts but…. for the vamp!geto x human!gojo x vamp!reader au………. 👉👈 mary by alex g. what r we thinking ;;;;; IM JUST. 

mary is the girl that i wanna kiss // she’s got big red eyes and big red lips // she’s got big sharp teeth and big fat hips …….. give it to me, baby, i feel good // i wanna feel whatever you think i should ………. AM I GETTING THE VIBES RIGHT ARE THEY THERE…… mary is the girl that leaves you to rot …………. they have consumed me genuinely

HIIIIIIIIIIII ARIII!!!! omg i love that song................ (alex g oughta start paying for my therapy smh) at first i had more darker songs in mind cue closer by nine inch nails and glory box by portishead and keep your eyes peeled by ultra sunn BUTTTTT when i this i immediately thought about their 'morning after' - i can totally see it playing in the background when gojo AND geto are lazing on the massive bed and the reader is getting ready and both of the boys are just staring at them with hearts in their eyes just absolutely awestruck

i think in geto's and reader's relationship the reader takes more of a lead yk they bit sugu anyway too. geto acts tough AND HE DEFINITELY CAN BE TOUGH but when it comes to the reader he can't help but be soft, let them do whatever. "she's the only girl i wanna love" i'm also thinking that reader helped geto out of a bad place with the bite too

with gojo it's definitely the "give it to me, baby, i feel good // i wanna feel whatever you think i should" he's sooooooooooo bewitched for him at first it's so much about the curiosity and the pleasure and the fun of it and he's ready to do whatever the readers wants

"mary is the girl that leaves you to rot" maybe the reader is a bit of a collector? both of the boys wanna impress them so much bc they're a little afraid that they'll leave them behind and find new toys to play with?

[askaborderline]

one of my friends got diagnosed a while back with bpd and has recently told me im their fp. theyre ghosting me right now—im wondering whats the best way i can support them as a fp?

i know that relationship boundaries are important and thats something ive been working on with this person and others for a while now but i was wondering what kind of do’s and don’t would you list?

(im okay with being their fp i know its not voluntary or a choice and id just really like a clear answer on how i can best help this person out. thx so much in advance!)

Hi anon,

This is a tricky situation, first of all, but I want to thank you first of all for demonstrating that you've made an effort to understand BPD and aren't treating your friend poorly over it. You're already on the right track doing that, and it's really important that you keep letting them know that you aren't judging them for this disorder :)

As for everything else... If they're ghosting you, there's likely a reason - it may not be anything you did wrong, they may just be splitting, but it does happen. I think the best thing you can do is message them every so often, even if they don't reply, just to remind them that you're excited to see them again and gently remind them they can take as long as they need to work through whatever they need, etc. (Do not do this if they asked you explicitly to not talk to them or give them space, however, in that case it's best to do as they ask)

Whenever you're talking to them again, I think setting up very clear boundaries is an important first step. Have a talk about what makes them feel lonely, what makes them feel jealous, etc. They may not be super forthcoming at first, as trust issues are a huge part of this disorder, but should you stick to your word they'll likely begin to come around and be more open with you about their struggles. It's important to hear what they have to say and do what they ask you to do (unless it's completely unreasonable, obviously, but that's beyond the scope of a BPD diagnosis). A lot of things that trigger splitting or catastrophizing often have causes that seem small to people without BPD, but for us they are very real and major, apocalyptic issues.

In general, just be very kind, do not mitigate their feelings in any way, try to be empathetic and understanding, and keep an eye out for things you say that may upset them.

There's a great post I read also about navigating a relationship w/ someone with BPD, so I'm going to share that here because it's very good:

Hope this helps!

Cheers, Jane