#im so envious and also amazed

[that-gay-guy-from-hell]

(I couldn't resist)

LIVING TOMBSTONE CONCERT WAS AWESOME!!!! Being surrounded by people getting hyped to hear stuff like Discord and It’s Been So Long was so much fun!! Qbomb and ellyotto were great too!

The difference between Tesla on the right and Armstrong on the left was hilarious Armstrong would just kinda Bob back and forth while Tesla was headbanging and stuff.

Go girl! Give us nothing!!!

[strwberri-milk]

Hello!! I love your writing☺️☺️ you’re such an amazing author.

If it’s okay can I request an abyss walker rafayel sneaking into princess reader’s birthday ball to spend time with her. (It is a masquerade!!) I think he’d totally snatch up every dance so none of her time will be occupied by the other noblemen.

thank you!! im still learning l&ds writing so i hope this little influx im doing helps their voices get a little better

You left Rafayel a note on the railing, hoping that he'd see it in time for the ball. You really didn't have any hope that he'd receive the message with how busy he is. He's got a lot of things on his plate and concerning him with your birthday felt like such a trivial task considering the routine hunt and kidnapping of his people.

You were bored beyond comprehension, staring out into the vast ocean of people, praying that something would break the monotony of the evening. Everybody was here to celebrate you and funnily enough nobody seemed to really see you.

And yet, there he was.

Your eyes widen as you realise Rafayel's arrived, kneeling at your feet and brining your hand to press a soft kiss against the knuckles.

"Sorry for the late arrival Princess. I hope you can forgive me," he says in that ever present teasing tone of his.

"I suppose I can forgive you," you respond in kind, following after him as he leads you to the dancefloor.

"Did you pick the theme specifically with me in mind, Your Highness?" he whispers into your ear as he pulls you into his arms, brushing his nose against your cheek.

"N-no!" you deny, knowing that you did ask for a masquerade ball in hopes that Rafayel could join in the festivities easier.

"I'll let you off easy - just for now," he laughs, twirling you easily in a step that's far more elegant than anything you were ever taught.

You're happy to spend your whole night with him, not even noticing the envious stares the two of you get. Of course people want your attention by virtue of your noble blood but some are also envious of the fact you seem to be dancing with an incredibly handsome man.

You don't know when it happened but you find yourself resting your head against his chest. The music has slowed and you have no idea how much time you've spent holding him. To you, nothing matters but the faint feeling of his heart thrumming against the tips of your fingers as he holds you close throughout the evening.

Rafayel eats up all of the attention, knowing that he could never possibly truly stake his claim on you. Having you like this is all he can ever hope for, imagining a world where nothing else mattered but the love the two of you shared. He'll steal you away for as long as he can, pressing your bodies together so intimately that even air would take pause to come between the two of you.

[akutasoda]

hiii!! Requesting if that’s ok :>

reader who is very similar to a genie? Likes to show off their wealth, being playful and often tricking people, but also being helpful (at times). Their ability is making wishes? (Cause I want some angst..maybe reader is terrified of being left alone and small spaces after being treated like a real genie?)

a wish in a bottle

synopsis - everything about you interested them, but when they dug a bit deeper they wanted to do nothing more than comfort you

includes - chuuya, sigma, oda, verlaine

warnings - gn!reader, fluff, slight angst, mention of claustrophobia, wc - 1.1k

a/n: hello anon! i didn't quite get what fandom you wanted but i assumed bsd, if im wrong feel free to message me and ill do a redo!

chuuya nakahara ★↷

↪chuuya's first meeting with you left him with a mix of impressions. he thought that you were pretty cool but soon learnt about your habits of tricking and messing with people - he was not spared from your tricks. he didn't mind your playful nature, it was just the trickery. he had also held mixed feelings towards your eagerness to show off wealth, sometimes he thought it was just unnecessary.

↪as for your ability, he thought it was amazing. he found it not only interesting but admired how much control you had over what wishes you granted and who to. he knew it could be a dangerous ability, but that control over it that you held showed that you knew how to use it properly.

↪perhaps when you became closer, he would notice how clingy you would become, it wasn't overbearing and he didn't mind but it was curious. he started picking up your small attempts to tag along with him for whatever he planned on doing, he never brought it up however. again he never minded, he had grown to tolerate you and your antics.

↪but that also meant he picked up on your fear of small spaces. at first he ruled it down to claustrophobia, but it seemed to be something deeper than that. he would never confront you about but if you ever told him, he would hold nothing but sympathy for you.

↪he understood your fear, he could relate on a similar level, and so he made sure to never let that happen to you. if you had been treated like a real genie ages ago, he would want to rid you of those memories and hopefully those fears.

sigma ★↷

↪sigma's first impression was oneof confusion. sure he had met his fair share of weird people and while you may be the most sane you definitely had your 'charms'. your little habit of pulling tricks on people and messing around had lead to remind him that you kind of acted like a more sane nikolai. while he didn't mind, he just didn't really want two people like that to deal with.

↪he never understood your show of wealth, sure he owned a casino but he never really flaunted stuff like that as openly as you did.

↪your ability was something he could only admire. he felt slightly envious that such an ability existed, i mean you probably could grant anyone anything. but then he realised you were probably the best person to hold that ability, god forbid some people get hold of it. he also admited how sparingly you would use it, granting only the wishes to people you deemed worthy.

↪when you had become closer, he started noticing how you hung out with him whenever you could. always finding some excuse to be with him, he just kind of chalked it up to you liking hanging around with him which he was flattered by.

↪and then he picked up on your insistence of not wanting to be around or in small places, again chalking it up to claustrophobia. he never pried as he feared it may be a sensitive subject but if you did tell him, he would be so empathetic towards you.

↪he understands why you wouldn't want to be used in that way, he can relate to that in a worrisome amount. he would want to protect you from taht ever coming true by any means possible.

sakunosuke oda ★↷

↪oda had initially had a indifferent first reaction to meeting you, he never was one to judge people by first impressions. he thought that your playful and often teasing behaviour was interesting and certainly entertaining. and your habit of tricking people was also amusing but would stop you if he thought it went too far.

↪also never understood your little flaunting of your wealth, sure maybe you were proud of it but sometimes he thought it was just excessive.

↪he thought your ability was definitely an interesting one. he admired and complimented you on how well you managed it, using it scarcely and only on people that you thought you could trust. this was because he also knew that your ability was a powerful one and in the wrong hands could be problematic. he would always be curious to see how it worked but never wanted you to feel as if you had to use it.

↪and as you two got closer over time, he would notice that you always seemed to want to be around him or someone else you trusted, never wanting to be alone. he would ask but he figured it would be sensitive and the last thing he wanted to do was upset you.

↪also thought about asking you about your presumed claustrophobia. well he presumed it was, you never liked being in small spaces or even near them. but whenever you did come forward to him about it, he swears hos heart broke. he hated the fact that that was a fear of yours, but knowing some people he knew it was warranted and would do anything to prevent ot coming true.

paul verlaine ★↷

↪verlaine's first impression was, yet again, a mix. he found you intresting but your little tricks and insistence on trying to mess with him could easily annoy him. while it never annoyed him majorly he did find it quite irritating. but he very quickly adjusted to your rather eccentric personality.

↪never got why you liked to sjow off your wealth, flaunting it around and taking pride in it. he could get why you took pride in it but anything else was interesting to say the least.

↪your ability however, deeply fascinated him and he very much would've tried to figure out its limits and possibilities if you hadn't stopped him and refused to grant him anything. he thought it was very powerful and definitely dangerous in the wrong hands, but one thing he could commend you for was your control and self limits when using or thinking about using it.

↪he would note, when you two got closer, how you would be near him whenever possible. if not directly next to him you would atleast be in the vicinity or always curious where he was going and asking to tag along. he would also note how you doubled back if it involved small spaces.

↪however he would be more forward about it. well not forward but subtly hinting for you to tell him why.

↪and the reason why made him regret his initial reaction to your ability. what made it worse is that he could somwhow relate, obviously not on your level but a smaller level. and because you two had become so close, he wouldn't hesitate to correct anyone that even thought of doing something like that to you.

[mrghostrat]

Okay I cant -- I need to say it out loud.

I am 100% sure, at this point, you are my favourite artist so far. And I have to honestly thank you for a lot of stuff so let me get to the point before my anxiety takes me back --

I came across you less than a month ago. I don't remember if I saw your art before reading your fictions (Mon Horrible Cherì was my first) or the other way around, but both inspired me so much I can't describe it properly. Art itself is my absolute weak spot. In my past years I always struggled working on that, I was never happy with my results, and mostly had drawn to pay bills than for my own happyness. In the end I hated it at the point that every line I drew was a cut on my hand instead of a moment of joy. And that was horrendous.

But then I came across your art, at some point - and I was amazed. Your style is something I wished to achieve years ago, or very similar to that at least, so I was totally into looking for more, and more, and more. I can't produce art of that quality, but for the first time I wasn't envious of another artist's ability and talent, I was just... Amazed. I felt very happy, can't say why, but your style totally fascinated me. It still do. Anytime you post something new it gives me a shot of serotonine, it makes me feel happy and inspires me to get back on my Huion and draw something too. I started to push it through everyday, and in less than a month I grew a lot. You don't know that, but you pushed me into art with a passion I didn't had since I was 16, and I turned 30 couple months ago. Now it gives me joy everytime I draw. It doesn't matter if the art I produce is no good, or if I change my style everytime (I'm trying a lot of styles right now), the only thing that matter is the way I feel when I sit here and just let my inspiration go. And I feel happy. Happy to draw. Happy to experiment. Happy to share. Somehow I don't feel ashamed of my art anymore, and I was for a long time. I improved so much in these weeks. I watched carefully almost all of your timelapses (I am in love with all of them btw) and followed your tutorials more than once. Your examples, the way you work, is just inspirational for me. I've seen someone was thankful to you for the way you use references and says people out there to do it too: I want to thank you for that too. References was a taboo until last month for me, and I was SO wrong! Those helps so much!

So, well. I am not sure I wrote this all correctly, english is not my native language (I'm italian) and I may have done some mistakes, well, I do not care. I just hope I was able to express you my gratitude for all you did for me - I had to let you know how much this means to me everyday.

Oh also: I love every part of your art, but I could stare at your linearts for days and never get bored by that. And the way you color! Don't make me start on that. I could speak for hours. Not sure you'll want that, believe me.

So, thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for making me believe in myself again. Thank you for giving me back my passion. Thank you for reminding me everyday I can draw for myself, for my own happyness. And thank you for making me happy.

You are a great artist.

Thank you! <3

i put off replying to this because i wanted to draw you something, but i just haven't had the energy after work and dont want u to think im ignoring you 😭

but i dont have WORDS. i'm so fucking proud of you. i'm so happy for you. browsing your blog and seeing the sheer amount of art and AUs you're making is so inspiring. your happiness is contagious and i hope you only continue to grow, and continue to foster all that joy for art.

thank you <3

[just-ice-water-plz2]

💜💜my **personal** reasons to💜💜 🖤 🖤get skinnier🖤🖤 💜

⚠️TW TOXIC⚠️

*** friendly reminder: Summer/June is only 50 days away.***

**notice I said personal reasons meaning only pertaining to me myself and I <3**

🖤to see how jealous my friends get when they see how skinny I am. Remember when she said she was jealous of my legs?! Don’t you want that again?!

💜feeling so pretty and put together no matter what clothes I’m wearing.

🖤to wear my clothes and not have the clothes wear me. I am the main statement piece to every outfit.

💜to make people so envious when they see me enjoying treats and so people think I’m one of those “natural skinny” girls.

🖤to make my bf worry about me.

💜to be noticeably skinnier the next time he holds me.

🖤to look so fragile that people are scared I might break or blow away in the wind.

💜how good it feels knowing I’m underweight. I need to be more underweight. Being a healthy weight is disgusting.

🖤noticing how much women (especially older women) stare at me in envy when I’m just shopping and going about my day in a cute little outfit.

💜to pick the smallest size possible when ordering or trying on clothes

🖤everything looks better skinny

💜to see how people react when they’re in my presence. They’re astounded.

🖤hearing that family members are talking behind my back calling me an0r3xic. They’re just jealous.

💜when a family member says “enjoy your body while you have it. I was skinny at your age too” and now they’re overweight, single with 5 children. I will NEVER look like her. Ever.

🖤being the skinniest person in my friend group

💜the haters want me to gain. Why am I letting them win and feel that satisfaction of seeing me gain. Disgusting. I need to prove them super wrong and be so smoking hot and skinny this summer 💋💋.

🖤 hearing my sister tell me how jealous she is that im so tall and we“naturally skinny” **is anybody really naturally skinny?**

💜seeing how everyone turns their head to look at me at work. Motivates me to look cute at work too.

🖤I just want to be the definition of a dainty, fragile, gorgeous women.

💜when my friend says she wants to be skinny like me.

🖤people telling me I should be a model bcuz I’m so tall and skinny. I need to stop gaining and get back into my skinny grinding era. I’m working on it I swear 😭

💜being skinny is a lifestyle.

🖤**unfriendly reminder** she’s still skinnier than you. Why are you eating for an entire family of 4??! Stop gaining it’s not f***ing cute 😐

💜life is just worth living when you’re skinny. I want to go out and show off my hard work not hide in my house covering my fat rolls. Never again.

🖤knowing how much more attractive being skinny makes you. I was average before but now I’m skinny and gorgeous.

💜knowing I make someone feel bad about their body just by existing in the same room as them. I can tell by people’s reactions when they’re insecure bcuz I’m all dressed up and skinny.

🖤to not be insecure. I was so insecure when I was fat but now I’m skinny so what is there to be insecure about? Except now you’ve gained so apparently there’s a lot to feel bad about.

💜to have a “cheat day” that’s still in a cal deficit bcuz my stomach has shrunk so much I can barley eat without feeling stuffed.

🖤I just love the feeling of knowing I am the one making others jealous instead of me being the jealous one. most of the time. Why not all the time?

💜to wear a bikini this summer and only seeing everyone else’s fat rolls. Not a single one in sight on me. Not if you keep eating like this.

🖤people treat skinnier people better. I know from experience. I love it, it makes me feel so special.

💜if these are my “best years” in life I will have the best body to match these “best years”. And I will have an amazing body still as I age. I will never “let myself go.” Disgusting.

🖤to make my one friend who also has an ed jealous. She always makes me jealous telling me how she only weighs 97lbs. I want to make her jealous. I’m taller than her by a few inches so I definitely can get skinnier than her without going so low. So why haven’t you done it yet?

💜bcuz my so called “best friends” were talking bad about me behind my back so the best revenge is to be the skinniest and hottest one in the group. Talk shit about that you f**king b***h. I always over dress everywhere and get the most compliments as revenge. I have other more real friends who would never.

🖤to make my “friends” even more jealous. I know that’s why they’re talking about me bcuz I’m glowing up so hard right now and they simply cannot handle it. I need to glow up more. I want to see them seeth with jealousy just with my existence.

💜to feel my bones more. I miss feeling my bones like I used to.

🖤to feel how you felt at your LW. Wasn’t that amazing and so thrilling to see the scale say “104lbs.” Why did you stop there? You must get started on losing the f***ing 13+lbs you gained. Gross.

💜 i <3 b e i n g s k i n n y💜

[miiiwu]

i love having multiple headcanons for both transmasc and transfem rick because either way, vyvyan is committing medical malpractice and forcefemming or forcemasculinizing them

(just gets freakier from here…)

censored some stuff in case it causes this to not show up in the tags because i’m pretty sure that happened to the Vyvyan P*nis Post™

this is unhinged and im sorry.

vyvyan closely examine their breast/td*ck growth and other hrt changes in a clinical yet simultaneously leering way.

he tries to make it seem like rick is just a specimen to him, but his fascination and sadism inevitably lead him to crazy t4t s*x

and he likes making rick wear women’s clothes because they feel humiliated (which rick is secretly into) but at the same time either affirmed in her gender or emasculated in his gender.

vyvyan calling rick a girl can either be mean spirited yet gender affirming which makes her blush, or mean spirited and emasculating which makes him blush :3

t4t rick/vyv transhet: rick loves when vyvyan manhandles her, so she acts like a spoiled brat on purpose to provoke him. vyvyan loves groping her chest. he gives her condescending nicknames like ‘princess’ that could be feasibly read as affection or derogatory (to hide the fact he cares about her). vyvyan does up her hair and makeup just so he can make a mess of them. vyvyan is absolutely enchanted by rick with messy hair and runny mascara, especially when she leaves lipstick stains on.. hehhe u know ;) vyv absolutely destroying her pr*state because he’s a doctor, and also her neo p*ssy (might even offer to perform the surgeries for her, though i don’t know if he should be allowed to practice medicine lmao).

t4t rick/vyv transgay: vyvyan is further along in his transition and they both get off on vyv making rick feel like less of a man (masochistic rick my beloved). rick is envious and enamored by vyv’s ph*lloplasty results, and Needs to give him head or he’ll die!!! vyvyan is a bit hesitant at first bc he’s worried rick will find it underwhelming face to .. head… because of the differences between phllo and natal d*ck, but rick is insistent (plus he really wants to tongue his d*ck piercings. rick pratt oral fixation real). vyvyan says he’s gonna f*ck rick like a man, and makes him c*m from just anal +tdick stimulation. Size difference between vyv’s phllo and rick’s td*ck…… the frotting potential…Wrestling/roughhousing as a gender affirming activity (that leads to rutting their hips against each other without fail).

also regardless of which headcanon, vyvyan makes rick worship/hump/lick his boots, and rick is insufferable about the political implications of being a literal bootlicker.

and now for something controversial: cis!rick and trans!vyv

did i say controversial? i meant extremely very normal.

vyv’s phllo d*ck is bigger than rick’s natal p*nis. at first rick is absolutely Irate about this!

“it’s not fair!!! and and and it’s not even real!!!” <-his mindset just minutes before experiencing a mind blowing prostate orgsm

“modern medicine is amazing, that’s a Real C*ck. i NEED him to get me pregnant NOW!!!” <- his mindset moments after just 1 (one) prostate orgsm

and all the same stuff about emasculation applies here too.

honestly though my main headcanon for rick combines aspects of all the rest of these and is a bit tragic: a genderfluid transfem who enjoys both the emasculation and gender affirmation of the previous headcanons, but since he’s living in the 1980’s and he doesn’t feel like a binary transsexual woman, he never actually fully explores his gender identity and just thinks he’s a gay/bi man with a horrible secret ‘fetish’ for women’s clothes (it’s obvs not actually a fetish, but he does find some sexual gratification in a gender euphoric way, mixed with shame).

it’s a shameful secret, which vyvyan exploits to the fullest extent because he can tell there’s something deeper to it and he wants to keep pushing until rick admits it. but rick is incredibly stubborn about it because he’s genuinely not looking to medically transition (but would otherwise want to present as a woman and change pronouns sometimes, yknow, Genderfluid!!!) and just keeps enduring more and more humiliation because it just isn’t clicking. but vyvyan is stubborn too because he knows what he sees is similar to his own gender turmoil pre-transition, and it just becomes this weird vicious homoerotic (sometimes heteroerotic lmao) cycle of lingerie themed tom-and-jerry violence. but they r both getting off on it so it’s not All doom and gloom. and they are both dumbasses so this is all subconscious. from their perspectives it’s just typical vyvyan on rick slapstick funny violence and there’s nothing deeper to it!!!

i’d like to imagine decades into the future (or sooner with pressure from vyv) rick would discover different labels and start expressing his true self even tho he’s no longer A Young One lol.

there’s also the lighthearted alternative where rick isn’t so self conscious about it and just owns the fact that he enjoys ‘crossdressing’ (though he’s not fully aware that it’s in a trans way still, at least not for a few decades) and vyv knows why but also knows rick knows to some extent so he doesn’t push him so hard about it. but angst is fun :p

[tomdarsh]

Katsuki and Izuku character analysis

this is very unformatted and ugly and apart of a larger essay i wrote a while back but i really wanted to share my thoughts on bkdk

this is also largely?? speculation (as i’ve been told by some) but i believe it has a fair bit of canon backing it up

Ok now Katsuki on the other hand had to step into Deku and get closer to grow. He never hated Deku, he was envious of how naturally heroic Deku was. Katsuki hated himself, never Deku, and he felt weak because he was weak, mentally.

Deku just happened to be the physical representation of that weakness because while he was physically weak, Deku was stronger mentally than Katsuki will ever be. That’s why he called Deku useless, it was him projecting. That’s why he was so shaken at Deku vs Kacchan 1, because Deku was overcoming their physical disparity and Katsuki was still left in the dust feeling weak, which is why Deku vs Katsuki 2 happened after All Might fell. He felt his weakness was responsible for the end of All Might and hated himself even more for that, and in turn he fought Deku even more. But at Deku vs Katsuki 2 he learned to embrace that weakness and deal with it WITH Deku, because Deku was the original source of where that initial weakness feeling came from, it only makes sense for him to be the “cure” for it too. Katsuki also doesn’t understand his own emotions or knows how to deal with them, so that’s why he masks it all with anger because he sees anything else as weakness because Deku was constantly expressing everything but anger and he saw Deku as weak (physically) so he associated most emotions with weakness. Thats also why it’s so important his first action of pure heroism with no ulterior motives was for Deku, jumping in front of OFA/Shigaraki’s creepy finger thingies to prevent Deku from being stabbed. Doing this was him getting over that weakness (also why people say Katsuki grew softer while Izuku grew angrier). Him nearly dying for Deku was the ultimate show of character growth because it proved he could get over himself, his mental weakness, and his feelings surrounding Deku to throw himself away to save him. It’s also why Katsuki’s “death” is PEAK KATSUKI. He 100% went into that battle knowing it was most likely a suicide mission you CANNOT TELL ME OTHERWISE, he was completely focused on stalling for Deku because he finally realized he could accept Deku’s help and he didn’t have to do everything by himself. That’s also why he was so upset when he learned Deku lost OFA, because since he was a baby Deku has been the one thing consistent in his life, every major milestone Deku was there watching From The Sidelines (hehe), whether he liked it or not. Deku is his constant, and he kind of has trouble functioning without him. In short he really needs therapy.

also Katsuki never stopped being friends bc of Deku’s lack of a quirk, he stopped being friends because even though Deku was powerless he was still everything Katsuki wasn’t, a true genuine hero, and he took his help as mocking because that was the one thing he could never beat Deku in, or understand about him. That’s also why Katsuki has wet dreams about that god forsaken river scene because it literally changed his life

also he hated Deku at the river scene bc blah blah weakness he hates weakness blah blah Deku was the personification of Katsuki’s own weakness blah blah gay shit inferiority complexes

He LITERALLY needed to get closer to Deku to flourish because Deku is his weakness

And overcoming his “hatred” for Deku was him overcoming his self loathing and inferiority complex

Katsuki is also Deku’s weakness. Deku also really needs Katsuki. For most of his life Katsuki was the dream he could never have, complete power, confidence, and amazing. That is genuinely the only reason he sat watching From The Sidelines (im so funny i know) for so long, despite all the bullying and hurt Katsuki caused him. That’s also why it was really important for him to prove to Katsuki that he could for once hold his own against him in Deku vs Katsuki 1, it was like him coming out and saying “you have to acknowledge me now.” It’s also why Katsuki being taken by the LOV was just literally the worst for Deku, because Katsuki is also Deku’s constant. He’s been watching him for forever, and been in every major milestone in HIS life. Removing Katsuki from the equation is like having carpet pulled from under his feet, breaking all his bones in the fall, and being told to walk again. That’s also why he repeatedly looses control when it comes to Katsuki. First when Monoma insulted him, it was also like insulting Deku because that was someone he looked towards and followed and rooted for, and it was an insult to everything Katsuki stood for and because Deku is the ultimate hero he just couldn’t sit by and stand for that. When he lost control again at Katsuki’s death it was Deku seeing (again) everything he rooted for, strength and victory personified, literally dead. He also relies on Katsuki in the same way Katsuki relies on him, and having that taken away from him was like removing all his bones. Deku is the heart, the lungs, the brain, and Katsuki is the muscle, the bones, the cartilage. They help each other function

Katsuki is Deku’s drive to win, and Deku is Katsuki’s drive to save

Deku’s first true act of heroism was Katsuki

Katsuki’s first true act of heroism was Deku

please be gentle with me this is the first time i’m posting my thoughts like this

[chlorinecake]

GIRL STOP!!! "You're being rough with me" I'M LOSING MY NONEXISTENT DIGNITY. I love that OMFG. I LOVE THIS. WORDS ARE LOST. Can I just say I absolutely love the flow of your writing! It's so good. GIRL IM ENVIOUS OF YOU'RE DIALOGUE SKILLS. "I wasn't trying to be mean when I did that, by the way" ~ "I just couldn't hold bac-" I moaned. That was so insanely good it literally hit perfectly. It's like heavily due to the way you were able to grasp the actual tension of the whole scenario in your words leading up to this. The build up was~ shit I spoke too soon. HE'S WHIMPERING OH LORD HAVE MERCY ON ME. Tell me why I can see his expression😐 YOU'RE REALLY DOING GREAT THINGS WITH THIS FIC ISTG. GREAT WONDERFUL FANTASIC SERVICE ❤️

*cannot contain my grin*

USE ME. RUIN ME.

*deep breathes*

(I don't want to swear here but I'm going crazy, like the curses are singing and chiming in my head)

Dialogue ✨ insane 🤯 I've come to appreciate the things I struggle with, and Dialogue is not my bestie but you're doing amazing that i am so so envious in a good way ofc. And I think this has got to be my favorite part so far | “What? You think I didn’t hear Wonbin and his vocal ass practically singing as you did… whatever you did to him…?,” |

I ended up reading this by chance and I don't regret it not one bit lmao.

─ Hayzie

NO BC OH MY FRIGGING GAHD, HAYZIE ??? … This legit feels like a queen just messaged me, HELP-

My cheeks probably looked like cherry tomatoes as I was reading this… your reaction was just so so genuine and lovely to hear from another fellow writer and briize 🥹

“YOURE REALLY DOING GREAT THINGS WITH THIS FIC ISTG” I’M THIS CLOSE 🤏 FROM PASSING TF OUT bc of you 😩 THIS IS TOO MUCH ADORATION, even for me :’] ~~

Also, you can curse here on my blog if you ever come back lol, but I’m SAUR glad you stumbled upon this fic bc your response literally made my fucking morning

Hugzies 🫂💕✨🌸

[urlocalqueer]

okay unpopular opinion but i don't like how in the new company productions they are framing it like bobby is in some alcohol induced hallucination. i just think it's stupid.

ALSO many of the lyric and story changes are terrible. so much of the new version is soooo bad and it sucks that it's so bad because bobby being a woman could add so many layers but the new version said "what if we did this amazing idea and then buried it with 1000 terrible ideas." and no one stopped them

(i was writing this and it got long so my complaints (me being a whiny bitch) + a few compliments are below the cut)

all were written while doing a company rewatch.

"cleanest of crimes" to "simplest of crimes" makes no sense. like what's the point to that.

"first you make a person hazy" to "you make a person feel all hazy" ENOUGH. and what i think is most fucking heinous is the famous line from you could drive a person crazy. changing "like a lump" to "on her butt" and "off your rump" to "out of a rut" is insane. like what do we accomplish there. who the fuck changed this and where can i find them. and then the ENTIRE SECOND TO LAST VERSE IN YOU COULD DRIVE A PERSON CRAZY. there was no need to change this shit. like kill me now

like how can you change the old lyrics but still use terminology like "square" to describe people. like if your gonna update shit then do everything. do pick and choose because it just makes me angrier.

i also dislike the change in joanne's character. like yeah, she's supposed to be in a switched role so she's a female friend to bobby who is envious of bobby, but joanne is and has always been a unique character in company. she was envious of bobby when bobby was a male character, so it doesn't make sense why her and larry's characters have been so switched. it's almost like they were writing the new changes and they realized that joanne was so unique that it was extremely difficult to change her character. in my opinion, joanne and larry were two character's whose personalities shouldn't have been changed. in have i got a girl for you, i think larry still should've been in that song, not joanne. it makes far more sense. ALSO in someone is waiting, i think joanne still should have been a name said. i know that was never going to happen, but bobby idolizes and loves joanne in a way. idk. larry's name being in place of joanne's doesn't make sense to me.

i also don't like how they set the new versions in modern times. i know it makes most sense with what they are trying to do but like "look i'll message you tomorrow or i'll call to explain" replacing "look i'll call you in the morning or my service will explain" is just. ew.

even simple shit like "pinnacle of life" changed to "pinnacle of joy" is like. what was the point of that. "tragedy of life" to "prophecy of joy" makes me so mad. however, i should point out how amazing matt doyle is in this. the crazed rant after this song is really great and i do think it's fucking hilarious how the ONLY line they didn't change was "having this enormous wedding after we've been living together all these years! it's embarrassing paul! people will think i'm pregnant!" and "IM THE NEXT BRIDE !!!!" i KNOW someone fought to keep those lines in.

"but why watch me die like Eliza on the ice?" being changed to "but why watch me die when i'm only being nice" is actually shattering.

KATRINA LENK'S MARRY ME A LITTLE !!!! this is a highlight of the production imo.

god back to the joanne thing. in the og lyrics it's "he's just crazy about me" and now it's "she's feel exactly the way i do. about everything" like can we get real. can we get sooooo real. joanne as a character was so unique, she wasn't like the rest of the married friends. come on guys.

imo, side by side and what would we do without you are some more highlights but the lyrics changes continue to fuck me up because they are wholly inconsistent. they say analyst here instead of shrink like they do in not getting married. so it's just sooooo confusing. MAKE UP YOUR MIND. i also hate how they get rid of an entire verse?? hello? it feels like they did it to try and make it feel more trippy because of how the production is set up (bobby's in some weird alcohol induced vision?), but it just is so eh.

also i hate every lyric change in poor baby. i just do.

sigh. rip the peter homosexual experience line. you brought so much subtext to the musical and now you're gone :(

can i say something without a red dot appearing on my forehead. i think barbara walsh's joanne is far better than patti lupone's. this performance is so different from when she did it with NPH, and idk what it is but i far prefer barbara walsh.

"clutching a copy of TIME" kill me. who changed that line. what was wrong with "clutching a copy of LIFE"

what hurts the the most is that this musical almost 100% dampens the effect of ladies who lunch. joanne in this musical isn't just a lady who watches. in my opinion patti lupone plays up joanne a bit too much. i can't really explain how but it's the vibe i'm getting. like i know she's playing her more desperate and alcoholic like, but in the tone of the rest of the musical it just doesn't fit. this entire musical has spent time making everything comedy comedy comedy and here comes joanne with a very emotional number but she also has to make it funny but it's not funny. this production does not work.

god the final conversation between joanne and bobby in this one is just so fucking awkward. let me at the goddamn script editor. haha sorry "i think you and larry should make it" ENOUGH. STOP THIS. IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH. this completely changes joannes character and her relationship with larry and bobby. i hate this fucking production im sorry. the problem is with this final part is the tone of the entire musical shifts in the drop of a hat and it doesn't shift in the way cabaret does, this shifts because it's been poorly edited.

these characters aren't being sold to me. the story isn't being sold to me. they knew they needed to make changes and they made all the wrong ones. this could've been an incredible production about the misogynistic marital pressures of being a woman in 70s manhatten but nooo they went down the route of crazy alcohol induced hallucination. they fucked joanne's character, changed lyrics the didn't need to and leaned to far into the comedy. katrina lenk truly is incredible here! but the actual script is shit. i feel like they didn't realize how this musical would need to be changed now that bobby was a woman. the pressures of marriage are different for women than they are men and it's like they didn't take that into account at all. the things things they changed were the wrong things. let me at the goddamn director.

and what's even worse is that this is an amazing cast. katrina lenk (minus the buildup to the final belt) is great in this. everyone is pretty strong. so it sucks that the script is pure shit.

[duahauuoplanh]

To. 2PM members

Dear members, it is the 13th anniversary of our debut. It seems like time has passed so quickly that I don't even know how it went. A long time of 4749 days passed, but I think there were a lot of hard things and a lot of fun things. It's been 15-16 years since we first met, and it's really amazing that we've been together for half of our lives. The six of us grew up in different environments, we think differently, and we all have different tastes, being with each other like this is unbelievable to the point that it's amazing how we care, understand and truly love each other. Of course, I don't think it was all smooth for us from the beginning, but I think we've developed our own bond, friendship, and sense of belonging as we've been doing so many things together. I am extremely happy to be able to be with our members, and I sincerely thank the members for coming into my life. I know there were times that the members who were with me were annoyed, or angry, and sometimes they didn't understand. After meeting the members I am also trying so hard to change, and I will work even harder in the future. The members who understood me and tried to think about things from my point of view, I think that I received the best gift that cannot be exchanged for anything in life. I'm not the type to often express how precious each member is to me, but I want you to know that they are so precious and important.

Our team's eldest member Minjun, I was always and even more recently impressed by your good music and how you're always thinking about the members. I really liked the way you tried to solve the problem through conversation. In the future I will support your heart that beats through your music and 2PM ♡

Our team's angel Nichkhun, I think you must have felt the limit of your patience with the military of the rest of the members. Thank you for waiting, and if you think about it, I think we are where we are today because of the hard work you did to promote 2PM from the very beginning. Thank you always and I wish you all the best in all the work you do in Korea and abroad!

Our team's talented Wooyoung. I think I was able to feel really proud while watching your growth as an artist. It was like that while preparing for this album, seeing Wooyoung who always thinks and acts with 2PM in mind made me look back at myself. I want many people to know the sincerity of the hard work you do for 2PM while thinking about us, and I will work hard for you too.

Our team's hard work Junho. As time goes by, it seems that flower is blooming, so I am very happy. Seeing you always working hard in the visible and invisible places and persevering, I too always think that I should devote myself more. You are doing really well now, and I have no doubt that it will be your time to bloom even more in the future as well. I am proud of you and I will continue to support you along the way!

Chansung, the youngest member of our team. Chansung-ah, who somet imes is like a baby and sometimes like an adult. Thank you so much for understanding me, who is always square and grumpy, and for explaining what you understand to others. You prepared hard since you were a trainee, there were regrets and times you were doing so well, but there were many times when I was envious of seeing you growing up brightly. I will bless your future and the path we take together, you who are like the youngest but the oldest.

Meeting our members is the best thing in my life, and I think it's the best thing we can do together in the future. Always thank you and love you.

-TY

[cheolhub]

It's award season (unconfirmed)! Give some of your mutuals silly little awards.

OHAMSHAHGE OMG HOW EXCITING

award for being the most beautiful and talented person ive ever had the pleasure of knowing goes to🥇 @ncteez !!! HON, my lover, my wife, you are my favorite writer and artist and overall person, i love you so so so much. you’re also always taking care of me and it makes me want to get on a plane and give u a big smooch 🙈 miss u dearly, please come home to me soon </3

BEST YANDERE GOES TO @jeonghantis BRHSH im kidding dbbs. keir, there’s never a dull moment w you, so you get bestest friend award because there is no one who puts up with my annoying ass the way you do. you read over my shit, you laugh at my corny jokes, you let me be h word with u and best of all, u let me read ur heaven-sent work before anyone else — U ARE SO AMAZING I LOVE U SO MUCH

fastest writer goes to @toruro… im so envious of you actually 😭 you write so much and it’s all good content like you’re crazy (in a good way ofc) but i love u and ur work and ur so wonderful to me.

@hwanghyunjinenthusiast gets the award for being the biggest supporter!! RJ I SERIOUSLY ALWAYS LOOM FORWARD TO UR REBLOGS. i love you, thank u for always reblogging my fics with 30 funny ass reaction photos and for making me feel like im a good writer 🥹

kai (@lovelyhan) gets the sweetest person award but also the “im really jealous of u bc all ur works are toe-curling and you make me really nervous” award. i dont think i need to explain, the award says it all 🙊

@baeksbyunny BIGGEST BAEKHYUN/TAEIL/HAECHAN LOVER AWARD AND ALSO THE AWARD FOR BEING THE FRIENDLIEST AND LOVELIEST PERSON TO EVER EXIST. bex, seriously, i feel so taken care of every time we talk and i love u

@agustdiv1ne TWIN AWARD!!! we are literally clone copies of each other, i feel. we are both 5’5, both like choi san & p1h, and we are both obsessed with bf!yeonjun. I WANT TO TALK TO U MOREEEEE, if u have discord, add me 🤬 ill finally be able to send u my txt vids

@majestyjun BEST TXT BLOG THAT THIS APP HAS EVER SEEN GOES TO MILLS. my txt bias is actually millie, i have no idea who soobin is. no but seriously everything u write is so vsgwvevwhw i love it, i love ur blog 🫡

@rubyreduji gets the i wanna be ur friend award bc i always see ur posts on my dash and i wanna interact but i have crippling anxiety and literally dont know how to talk to people first 🤣

@hyuk4ngel gets the best ideas award… u know why… ur brain is massive and all my gyu fics are bc of u. ILY THANK U

@honeyhypen SWEETEST ANGEL BABY AWARD. MY LOVE, HONEY, u are everything to me. i am actually so happy i found you bc u are literally are like a breath of fresh air to me, idk what it is.

@heesbaby BEST SMAU’s AWARD BC OMG?! i usually dont read them but urs?! URS….. omg anyway also love of my life award. like seriously i love u. i wanna talk to u more so bad burgwgwgev i get nervous >< im getting back into enha tho and have no one to talk to abt it ….. so 🙊

[ash-and-starlight]

I was here been super normal about your art as always, and i wanted to say im actually not normal about it at all, it makes me insane, the way you draw faces, your attention to details, the way you combine colors, your absolutely magnificent headcanons that are shown in your art, everything is so gorgeous!!! And then you reblog my dumb art, i think i died a little probably, your are so amazing 😭😭💕💕💕😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🔥🔥

are you shITTING ME first thank you so much i’m shaking like a wet cat 💕💝💘💗💓💕 SECOND your art is beautiful, it fucks immensely. i mean it in the best of ways. i love how Shaped it is, like that takes some serious skill and i’ve always admired (…..and been envious of hehe) artists who have these really stylized and dynamic art styles and yours it’s exactly Up There, and it’s something i always wanted to try out in my own art too but it takes so much work so extra kudos to u for making it all look effortlessly Shaped and full of life. also the way each character is drawn is just so distinctive and unique!!! your sokka and suki!!!!! *explodes*

in conclusion:

[thelonesomequeen]

Pascal; Welcome back! I know you said you had a great time but details! How amazing was Scotland?!? Make us jealous with details!

It was amazing, it really was! Everything in Scotland is so beautiful from the old architecture in the cities to the gorgeous Highlands. We were in the highlands during a sunny day (apparently that’s rare) and it has to be one of the most beautiful sights I’ve ever seen. I’m not sure that anything will ever be able to top the beauty of the country. I didn’t really have crazy expectations for anything when we went, but the views blew my mind. When we drove through parts of the Highlands I couldn’t stop saying “oh wow” every few seconds. The magnitude of their size, plus the vibrant green color and the bright blue skies was really a sight to behold. I had expected that part of the trip to be my least favorite, but it ended up being the best part of the trip for me. It was just so beautiful.

The pictures don’t do it justice, but here’s just a couple of shots from Loch Lomond and the Highlands so you get an idea:

Im truly envious of those of you who are from Scotland and get to live in such a beautiful place! We also visited Glencoe and Loch Ness as well. We did go looking for the Loch Ness monster but didn’t have any luck finding her 😜 We went to Edinburgh and Inverness including castle tours, distillery tours, and cathedral visits, plus plenty of shopping. We also sought out a bunch of monuments and visited some locations where Harry Potter and Outlander were either filmed or drew inspiration from. Yes, I tried the haggis 🤢 but the fish and chips were out of this world. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to order it in the US again after enjoying it in the UK. The Who was also in concert while we were there. We didn’t have tickets, but we did stand outside the castle they were playing at and listened for awhile. It was pretty cool! It was supposed to rain the entire time we were there, but it didn’t. We got really lucky and only had to deal with rain one afternoon/evening so we took that time to visit the National Museum of Scotland since it was something to do indoors. It really is such a scenic country that is steeped in a lot of history and there’s so much to see and do. The trip definitely exceeded my expectations by a long shot. We really packed in a ton of stuff and stayed busy the entire time. My body is still tired from all the walking 🦎

[flustersluts]

motorcycle ride anon: HE MESSAGED ME FRIST THE SAME NIGHT I GAVE HIM MY SNAPCHAT!!! we went last friday and it was so amazing! the sun started going down and it got a little cold but it was so nice holding onto his chest and his shoulder! we kept banging helmets when he would go to break lol.

we’ve been inseparable since! i went and got him coffee earlier and some groceries so he didn’t have to after work!

i’m currently going through a breakup after being with my ex for 3+ years. he’s been so nice and supportive and i honestly have never have anyone match my vibe and understand me than him! i might be falling too hard but he’s falling just as hard if not even harder!

i’m a little worried things are going to fast but i also don’t really care at the same time! it’s nice and he’s so sweet and kind! once i have my own place (my ex and i split an apartment and i now moved out but still pay rent), things should slow down. but that won’t be until january of next year tho :/

sorry this is so long lol but i just wanted to update you on EVERYTHING going on! it’s been so far so good! :)

ahhh amazing oh my god!!! that's so good:))) i think there is always a worry with new people that you're going to fast and things will burn out eventually but idk:) in my experience u can't really predict how things will be after that honeymoon phase so it's best to just enjoy it and have fun and ride the punches as they come! that sounds absolutely awesome anon im more than a little envious, thank u for the updates:))

[silverskye13]

you are the reason I like cowboys, I now listen to country music on the daily and it has taken over my life so I thank you for this. I grew up in a household that literally fucking hated country music(like it wasn't allowed in the house hate) so this is kind of like a awakening for me so ye :]

Welcome to the cowboy fields! Please receive your standard issue six-shooter, hunting knife and cowboy hat. Make sure all horses are picketed with access to their necessities.

You hit like, a major nerve about country music. Probably because it's 1am. And I just ran down the longest rabbit trail of nostalgia. So even though you didn't ask: here's a LOT of country music recs under the cut.

As someone who was raised on super patriotic post 9/11 pop-country music and then spent most of their adult life running away from it, I'm really envious you get access to it now that it's diversifying itself again! If you want some older (90s) recs, Shania Twain, LeeAnn Rimes and Keith Urban used to be favorites of mine. Rascal Flatts was the only "boy band" I ever obsessed over, and their cover of "Life is a Highway" is always a banger.

Keith Urban's "Somebody Like You" and "Who Wouldn't Wanna Be Me" still make me think of sunny days gunning it down the highway on the way to visit family in North Carolina. "Would You Go With Me" by Josh Turner is a love song I'm still hoping I find a love worthy of. It's also really hard to go wrong with Carrie Underwood. "Before He Cheats," is terrifying, amazing, powerful. "Blowing Smoke" by Kacey Musgrave is A Vibe. Miranda Lambert makes me think of my sister. She captures the same powerful-woman-murders-her-husband vibes as early Carrie Underwood, and "Mama's Broken Heart" was a favorite Im-having-a-mental-breakdown song for a lot of the girls in our high school. Reba McEntire's "The Night the Lights Went Out in Georgia" is epic and unforgettable. "Suds in the Bucket" by Sara Evans is also very very good.

I'd also like to honorable mention: "Rain is a Good Thing" by Luke Bryan because I'm from semi-rural Indiana where we grow... A lot of corn. You understand a song about corn and whiskey would make every Indiana resident unironically turnt as hell. "I Loved Her First" by Heartland was played at every country wedding for a solid 5 years after it was released. "Going Through Hell (Before the Devil Even Knows You're There)" by Rodney Atkins was very inspirational the first 50 times I heard it on the radio. "Alright" by Darius Rucker blew me out of the water, because when I heard it first we used to watch the country music videos channel every day before school, and it was the first time I'd ever seen a black man singing country music and I cannot tell you how cool I thought he was.

I don't listen to much modern country music [does "Call Me By Your Name" count??]. After the early 2000s super-patriot-party-womanizer flavor of country took over, a lot of what I listen to instead is what's currently called "Folk", "Folk Rock" and "New Age Rock". Kinda captures what that sound and atmosphere of music used to be like before it got pop-ified. The Crane Wives, The Wailin' Jennies, Lord Huron, Colter Wall, and Barns Courtney are the closest I get to "Country music" these days.

If social justice is a thing you admire I Highly Highly recommend The Chicks. They pioneered the idea of disassociating country music from its southern pride/racist roots [and demonstrated it by dropping their very popular brand name, The Dixie Chicks]. They also pushed back against the uber-patriotism movement in the country music genre after 9/11, for which they were dropped from many, many venues and brand deals. They basically disappeared from the media overnight, because they took a stand against what they deemed to be an unjust upcoming war, and continue to work for social justice currently [you might've heard their song March March making rounds during the 2020 BLM movement. If you haven't, go listen to it, it's a bop.]

I hope you have fun exploring the genre! There's so much nostalgia for me there, and while there's definitely some controversy in it, there's also so many good people working to turn the genre back to something admirable again [imo]. :3

[breitweisergallery]

okay so i saw that you're not really into gahan and i just want to know why bcs im really curious. you've written some of THE greatest gahan fics & to think that comes from a place that's not too into them has me a bit amazed.

The short answer is that I'm a rarepair lover at heart and I have been since my early fandom days.

The long answer is that I have a soft spot for dynamics that aren't often explored. With TDJ, Yohan/Gaon is the short answer and the easiest answer because it is canon, and to me, there's only so many times a canonical dynamic can be explored without a change being added to it to make it interesting. You'll probably notice most of my fics are some form of AU, and that's because canonical takes on Gaon/Yohan just... got boring to me.

The dynamics that aren't explored that often - Yohan/K, Yohan/Sunah, Yohan/Jinjoo, Yohan/Isaac, Jinjoo/Gaon, Soohyun/Gaon, Jinjoo/Sunah - those are so so much more interesting to me because there's so much less on them and it makes it such a ripe pick for fun character analysis and writing.

I also just... don't like Gaon as a character all that much. Part of it is that he is the audience insert and we're learning things alongside him in the show and that just gets dull for me. After a while, I want to see takes where Gaon knows more than Yohan (the recurring death of innocents and stillness) or where Gaon is approaching the learning from a very different angle (envious of the musical sounds of my name from your tongue, whispered in the folds of being), and then you get the AUs where Yohan is still an enigma but Gaon is learning from different places (owed grief and promised IOUs and voices stolen and people borrowed).

If you pay attention to which fics I actually still talk about and work on, they're generally the ones that have a very different Gaon (as I'm rewriting imagining the integration of our images and working on the sequel to envious that focuses very heavily on Gaon, his idol group, and the idol groups he ropes into being his own team rather than on Yohan).

And lastly? Fandom is a community and social based thing for me, and when you look at the stats for Yohan/Gaon fics versus any other ship, they're vastly different. I'm lucky if I get a comment or two on a Jinjoo/Yohan fic, versus 5 or 6 minimum on a Yohan/Gaon fic. And it makes it hard to write when there's no form of social interaction with it. I've got a degree in creative writing, I write professionally, and I always seek out the interaction with my writing, and it's hard to generate motivation when there's no return to the act itself. So I write a lot of Yohan/Gaon because it's what I know will allow me better interactions with fandom, even if it's making people upset with some of my takes (honestly? I would love to see some pushback and conversation for some of my takes! it'd be fun).

I rambled a lot, but I hope this answers your question?