#im out of weed but idrc it's time for a break anyway

[girltomboy]

My headphones arrived yesterday, I like them, they feel comfy and sound good and the battery seems to last forever. The only thing I'm missing and wish they came with is a case or at least a little cloth bag to carry them around. But most of the time they are on my head if I have to be away somewhere so it's not a big bother. Above all, I was able to fulfill my planned aesthetic today 🙏 so that was a sliver of satisfaction in my otherwise grey and exhausting day. I feel so tired and numb this evening, I don't have the energy to move from my bed at all. My bf told me he might actually come here next week, which - and I hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad partner or something - is simply great news. Not only am I relieved of the stress that would otherwise have spoiled my rest this weekend, but I am also able to work from home next week.

So last night I saved this post to my drafts because I didn't have the energy to continue it anymore. Then right before going to bed I discovered that my thermostat batteries went out, which is a devastating experience because my thermostat is right next to a light switch, so I have to pull that out in order to change the batteries. And next year I had to call my landlord about it, and he sent his. Well, my neighbor to help me with that. But this time I really was so pissed off about this chore that I didn't want to deal with that again. So I slept in the cold and decided to take matters in my own hands. I even dreamed that a professor from my uni - WHO didn't even teach my generation!! I never even met this guy!! - came to my apartment for some reason and judged and mocked my no longer functional heating. And I was so mad and shouted at him for his oblivious privilege. Then when I woke up I turned off the power and pulled the light switch out like I saw my neighbor doing, and replaced the batteries in my thermostat, turned the power back on, the heating went on, and the light switch was functional too. Then because it's a gorgeous day and the sun is shining for the first time this week, I put on some nice and warm clothes, put a bunch of stuff in my cool tote bag that my manager gave me for Christmas, put on my headphones and went outside. I got myself 2 hot dogs and went to the forest, I took some photos of the snowy forest warmed by the sunlight, sat on a tree trunk, ate a banana and read my book. I walked some more around the park next to the forest, sat in the sun, and had a lovely time listening to the playlist that Apple Music made me which is full of bangers back to back. However I'm a little more than a little upset with my boyfriend for not texting or calling me at all today, and not even reading my excited texts I sent him after completing the thermostat ordeal. Even though he appears to have been online. And I don't know if it's because he still hasn't woken up even though it's almost 4pm, or if it's cause he's studying (less likely tbh) but it's a problem precisely because he's running out of time to study and he's BEEN wasting his days by oversleeping. But anyway I really cbf to waste my gorgeous day wallowing in my anger towards him. I'm home trying to warm up cause I've been outside for a few hours and it's like subzero degrees.