#im not sure if this counts as lore or general info hhh���

[yandere-yearnings]

Drop some of your PC's lore, Dar, don't be shy <3

MOTH THIS IS SO CUTE HELLO😭🩷 just bc you asked, i will lore dump abt him under the cut🥺👉👈

His name is Nihil! He doesn't have a very expressive face, and as a result of that, friendly interactions with other people come far and few.

It doesn't help that he's a man of few words — not necessarily by choice, but all his own fault at the same time. Never able to ease into conversation, so choosing silence despite wanting to build connections.

As a kid, Nihil used to just loiter around the others in the orphanage when they gathered, picking apart the more outspoken individuals in his head and trying to think of ways he could be like them. This was largely misinterpreted as Nihil judging them, which in turn kept him isolated.

That's all to say that when Robin first approached him, it was a profound moment in his life. He quite literally remembers it with added wings and a halo on said person. Calls Robin his angel and means it. Also shoulders their payments to Bailey.

On that note, Nihil hates Bailey with a burning passion and the only other person to the same degree is Leighton — he jumped at the opportunity to gut punch him on Sydney's behalf. Skips school a lot because of this dislike, so his delinquency is high despite him not being a particularly bad student.

Collecting lichen became a hobby for him after that science project. Nihil spends a majority of his time alone, either trying to make money or tending to crops. He appreciates nature.

Really wants to cut his hair, but is too afraid to go alone because he's certain he'd make it awkward. Took Sydney to the hairdressers once for this, then backtracked when Sydney made a comment about changing their hairstyle since he likes theirs as it is.

Somehow ended up in Whitney's circle, sometimes visits the park at random hours hoping to find them when he feels lonely and doesn't want to bother Robin. He looks up to Whitney's attitude, just in the sense that it's defining.

In the same way, he's fascinated by Kylar's obsession and Sydney's faithfulness — anyone with character. Nihil has always felt that he, himself, has no substance in his personality. He wants to build a mould to conform to.

Vengeful sadist trait, in part due to his complex of not being able to break away from impersonal relationships, and mostly because he just likes to make people cry.

Although, he's not an unkind person either. His first instinct is to help when someone's in need, and he avoids petty theft where he can. He'll do anything for someone who has been nice to him once, regardless of if they ever do so again.

Sleeps infrequently due to vivid nightmares; they're a lot less intense when Robin's with him. After waking up, he has a 'head empty, no thoughts' state, it takes him a couple of hours to reboot.

Is a good listener — understandably, because that's really all he does. Nihil remembers things well, especially concerning those he likes, so he's surprisingly nice to approach when in need of a shoulder. Although, his words of comfort are a bit curt and robotic, he does as best as he knows to do.

At the end of the day, he has a notebook he always comes back to. Writes about the things he's observed, the people and the plants, the changing seasons, his own reflection in the mirror. The pages fill up. Nihil does it in hope that he can fix himself, and then one day, share all these years of words with someone.