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arteacactus · 7 years ago

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pFF okay these are going under a cut-

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

Honestly I’m not confused at this moment so let’s go for like.. confused in general

I?? would date females?? they are cute? i have crushed on females before??? and yet i still like.. feel more attracted to men and feel like im straight? idk if this is???? a thing??????? i know my mom is attracted to some females romantically too so i just assume its a thing for straight people idfk sexuality is so fucking confusing ajhflkjsl

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

Nope!

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

Yeah, I think I would? idk it makes me uncomfortable

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?

Honestly? I feel like i shouldn’t but i do anyway

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

Falling asleep to Full House on the hotel tv ^^

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

Probably some stray cat I picked up along the way and claimed as my own

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

It would probably be really heartbreaking to be perfectly honest. Like, putting your love and trust into this person, willingly placing your heart into their hands, and they toss it away as if it had no real meaning to them. Idk what I would do, probably cry? Break up? im not sure what one would do in that situation

8: Are you close with your dad?

Yee!!

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

Nopeo. Unless we’re talking on the cheek. My mom is very affectionate. She attacks us with hugs.

But if you’re talking romantically, I have never had a kiss, ever

10: What are you listening to?

Right now? The fan on my laptop and the clicking of the keys on my keyboard. I have no music on lol

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

Water. OOOO or bubble tea. prolly bubble tea

12: Do you like hickeys?

Noo ive never gotten one but nooo

13: What time do you go to bed?

Usually? 4-5am

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

Not really??

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

Nah. I’m half-speed with just one thumb

16: Do you always answer your texts?

Sometimes I don’t know how to reply, or don’t have the energy to, so no ^^

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

The person I fell the hardest for is Thomas Sanders

take a good look at my profile and tell me if that seems like hatred to you

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

Couple hours ago ^^

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

Yes!!! I don’t see them physically but @fandergecko, @an-anxious-acquaintance, y o u, @underagecatnip- yeah im not gonna list them all that would take far too long but if ive ever spoken to them, i get so happy to see em

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

I dunno. i was singing along mentally to Bubblegum Bitch, so

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?

I mean... Not physically. I hope not

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?

Im gonna be perfectly honest when I say i have no fucking clue what this saying even means

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

No, not really?

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

Yeah.

25: In the past week, have you cried?

I?? think????????? maybe. i got chlorine in my eyes that made me tear up

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

Black! (and gray and white and green and red blue-)

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?

Nope

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?

mmaybe? I guess I wouldn’t know lol

29: Do you have a best friend?

Ye!! Multiple!

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

I have never kissed anyone. so. no-

31: Who was your last call/text message from?

Like proper text message? I havent had one in months

Last call was from my mom

32: Are you mad at anyone?

nnno? I mean, sean is being a little shit and mark is putting his health in danger so im kinda salty but thats the usual

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

nopee

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

i dunno my dude

35: How many more days until your birthday?

aHHH

-googles it-

317

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?

Yep! Fourth of July party, tubing trip, Graduation party, possible trips to my grandmother’s, that’s about it

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

Ummmmmmm

I believe? I’m gonna be totally honest and say males do tend to freak me out a bit. I have an irrational fear of guys, so i have no real irl friends that are dudes

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

i dont think so?

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

i just thought of one, but then i realized, nope, i told it to my friends, dammit

i cannot keep secrets to save my life, i had an anxiety attack the last time i tried to hold a secret. Lasted maybe a month before I broke down in tears because of my guilty conscious. I cannot keep secrets

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

still never kissed anyone my guy

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

YES

42: Are you available?

I am available in the sense that i am single, but not in the sense i am looking for anyone lol

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

Im still in it my dude

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

I already have ear piercings so-

Probably like.. nose piercing? or eyebrow? idk

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?

Yeah!!! My divorced parents are living proof of that! My mom, her husband, and my dad just got back from a vacation together. Everyone’s very close!!

46: Do you regret anything?

I regret how I handled some past things.

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

Multiple things, lemme list em-

1. The cheetos i have next to me

2. How I really wish I could be less of a fucking douche all the time

3. Katy Perry’s song ‘Peacock’

4. Thomas Sanders

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?

No ^^

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?

I mean.. it wasnt anyone-

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

WELL FRIEND

1. He’s 29

2. He’s gay

3. He lives in Florida

4. HE’S 29

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

i feel like a lot of these are not for me considering ive never kissed anyone

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

technically i last kissed the spoon of crofters in my living room. no

53: What was the last thing you ate?

Cheetos!!

54: Did you get any compliments today?

Yep ^^

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?

Tubing trip bitches im ready to see my family get drunk at 12 in the afternoon and push each other in the river while blaring country music

56: Do you own anything from other countries?

I mean. All my items are from china, basically-

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?

Girls ^^ But I have a lot of non-binary friends too!!

58: Where have you lived most of your life?

Michigan, the Lake-y Hell(tm)

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

Roughly six hours ago

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

Nopee

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

Nuh-uh!

62: Who do you text the most?

@underagecatnip ^^

63: What was the last movie you saw?

Oof, um.. I think it was Black Panther

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

The fact I never had one is a pretty huge thing

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?

2011..? Let’s see, I was.. what, 8 years old? so none

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

its a spoonful of crofters-

67: Do you curse around your parents?

Nah, not allowed to curse until I move out ^^

68: Are you happy with where you live?

Ye!

69: Picture of yourself?

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

I believe in open-ended relationships!! Why not?

71: Have you ever been dumped?

Never dated, so nope ^^

72: What do you most like about making out?

Picturing it being done very angrily between Roman and Logan-

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

Nop

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?

I mean it’ll hopefully be me when it does happen, I hate not having control in situations-

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

Hair? Usually??? like if they have floofy hair im like n i c e and if its purple im like n I C E and if its swooshy and soft-looking im like N I C E and if its on the head of thomas sanders im like N I C E

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

My dad, cause he was the last one awake in the hotel room lol

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

Boi, I’ve never dated,, never kissed,,, im 15- do you really think i’d have sex

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?

n o p e

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

logince-

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

I mean?? idk?????? maybe

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

Actually yes!! But after it was long gone lol

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

I love to announce it and ramble on about it, yes. I love bringing it to attention. i’m like Roman

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?

Yes he was a very good bunny i loved him sm his name was Swiss Roll

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?

never have

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?

Nah

86: How can I win your heart?

Don’t be a little bitch-

87: What is your astrological sign?

Pisces! I’m a fuschia blood!!

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Sleepin

89: Do you cook?

Nooo-

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?

Nope

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

Not really? I guess it would depend on the person, if we’re talking in general then not at all, but if it’s someone I have crushed/am currently crushing on, then it’d be great, cause I know them and their personality and yeah keep in mind he’s 29 and gay, me

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?

Idk??? never done eITHER-

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?

Brown eyes cause I’m weirdly attracted to people with brown eyes

94: Name four things that you wish you had!

1. Sleep

2. Motivation

3. Intelligence

4. a pair of socks would be nice

95: Are you a player?

Yes I play a lot of video games, such as Minecraft-

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?

I once kissed my mom on the cheek and then my cat’s head

97: Are you a tease?

I tease a lot about future fics yes

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

No!! and that makes me sad!!!! i wanna meet themmm

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

Apparently I was in genuine love with Thomas Sanders, idfk i cant identify these things

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

I have listed these before but like.. crankgameplays, markiplier, therealjacksepticeye, thatsthat24, tallykat3, thejoanglebook-

101: Hugs or Kisses?

Hugs!!

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?

Oh yeah i would be 10000%

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Hair, usually

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

Personally I find it creepy unless said in like.. a joking kind of way

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

No?? why would you even

106: Do you flirt a lot?

I’ve been told I do unintentionally. i’m sorry

107: Your last kiss?

My cat’s fuzzy lil head

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?

I’ve kissed so many cute animals dude

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

My cat!!

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

Are we talking real people cause I would love to smooch a newfoundland doggo

I mean, probably thomas cause ive fallen pretty hard for him

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?

My cat-

112: Does someone like you currently?

I?? dunno?????? like i really do not know nobody tells me s o

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

ThOmAs SaNdErS (HoNk :o))

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

serious relationships preferably

115: Ever made out with just a friend?

nopeo

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?

I’ve only ever been single, sooo-

117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.

You didn’t give me a question to answer, so i’m just gonna say I love Thomas Sanders fuck the world

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viralhottopics · 8 years ago

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39 Cheaters Confess Why They Did It

Found on AskReddit.

1. I was horny, end of story.

I was horny, end of story.

2. I was amazed that guys wanted me and selfishly let myself enjoy it.

I was amazed that guys wanted me and selfishly let myself enjoy it. Until I was cheating for months at a time and realized that if someone told me about a girl doing what I was doing, I’d think she was the scum of the Earth. Broke off both relationships that day and worked on feeling good by myself.

3. Why the fuck do you think? Because I was a piece of shit who wanted to have sex.

I cheated on my first serious girlfriend with another girl for a period of about four months, even after she found about it. She fucking called me or whatever almost every night and screamed and cried and whatever and I still kept doing it.

Why did I do it? Why the fuck do you think? Because I was a piece of shit who wanted to have sex. Everyone in this thread is going to have long, drawn-out explanations about their mental state or whatever, but the fact remains that it’s fundamentally about a lack of self-control. It’s like someone who drinks too much, eats too much, whatever. It’s just being a greasy piece of shit. It’s not that complicated or interesting.

I ended up dating the girl I cheated on my girlfriend with for about 5 years without cheating, then she dumped my ass and was engaged about 6 months later (so, she was probably cheating on me in other words) in case anyone wanted to get some karmic justice out of this story.

4. Because she withheld sex for a year and a half.

I cheated on my ex for a long time because she withheld sex for a year and a half. Obviously, she has a right to say no to sex, as does anybody, but she purposely withheld it for a year and a half because I forgot to clean the shower one day. I don’t know why I stayed with her to be honest and Im not even sorry about it.

5. After five years without a woman’s touch, it does get lonely.

I cheated once. I put myself through the wringer for months. I’ve never cheated on anyone since. I had right too during a bad marriage, I never did. After five years without a woman’s touch, it does get lonely.

6. I love meeting new women and making them orgasm.

I really wish I could settle down with one woman. I have cheated on every single GF I have ever had and two wives. The only woman I never cheated on was married! It lasted 2.5 years and her husband never found out. I am not a sociopath and I feel guilty as hell but I love meeting new women and making them orgasm. After all the practice, I have gotten quite good at that. Still, wish I could stop…

7. I cheated because I like sex, and my husband is not always around to provide it.

I cheated because I like sex, and my husband is not always around to provide it, being away with work (USMC) for months at a time sometimes. I don’t deny being weak willed. The same reason I’m a smoker I imagine.

8. Because I was a terribly selfish person.

Because I was a terribly selfish person. Why I am that way is presumably a combination of genetics and upbringing. Now that I’m older I’m a much better person with much more self-control.

But basically I was young, attractive, and women would basically just offer to sleep with me. Honestly I’m not sure unattractive men can appreciate how hard it is to resist women when they purposefully make themselves available.

9. They were boys and I needed a man.

I cheated on both my boyfriends before I met my husband, who I never cheated on. Why I cheated on the two first ones? They didn’t give me what I needed, despite me asking for it. They were boys and I needed a man. Found someone who fucked me like a man and went for it. Then I met my husband and never looked back.

10. It helped my self-esteem enough to give me the confidence to leave my abuser.

Woman here, was in an abusive relationship that I was frightened to end. Confided in a close friend and we had a short-lived intimate relationship that showed me how kind and respectful people can be and helped my self-esteem enough to give me the confidence to leave my abuser.

I am so thankful that I slept with that friend, it turned my life around for the better.

11. I lost all attraction to my ex (little to begin with).

I lost all attraction to my ex (little to begin with). Didn’t brush his teeth, didn’t want to work out with me, cried a lot over nothing, didn’t shower sometimes or forget to wear deodorant. Then wanted to cuddle or have sex and get mad at me for being disgusted by him because his dick would smell bad.

So after 2 years of that I met my current boyfriend we were friends at first but the attraction was definitely there. At first I just really wanted to fuck him but then I fell for him. Tried to suppress that shit given my ex tried to kill me for talking to my female friends but thought … fuck it.

We were talking one night and I guess he got me to admit that my ex was abusive. He at first didn’t want to be a home wrecker but the fuck it I want you though was his too and holy shit… I knew I wasted 5 years of my life but my current boyfriend showed me everything I was missing.

Then I planned out to get my shit together and leave, he tried to kill me again and stalked me for a while but I think he’s stopped. We are hundreds of miles away so I feel better about it.

Was it right? Probably not, do I care … nope.

12. I was in a bad marriage.

I was in a bad marriage. He refused to get a job and was an emotionally abusive man and always blaming me for the problems we were having. (the big problem was we didn’t have enough money) I suffer from depression and due to all of this fighting it was getting worse.

Out at a gathering of friends I meet a guy and he’s funny and we have lots in common and it was a start of something. And I cheated. I told this guy that I was married and that I was conflicted but he said he wouldn’t push me and that he was interested in me, but wouldn’t do anything I wasn’t comfortable with. But I did it and he was so different from my selfish husband.

This guy helped me get the guts to leave my husband. I told him that I wanted a divorce soon after and this new guy helped me in any way he can. I’m still with him over 4 years later.

I know that what I did wasn’t the best way to go about it. I know I hurt my husband when he found out that I had been cheating, but finding the right person to get me out of the situation and finding someone who really cares about me is the real story.

13. I have come to understand that I am not someone who can be happy in a completely monogamous relationship.

I have cheated in previous relationships. I have come to understand that I am not someone who can be happy in a completely monogamous relationship. And there’s nothing wrong with thatas long as I don’t make monogamous commitments to others that I know I won’t keep.

So while I don’t think I would cheat again, I also wouldn’t enter into a monogamous relationship again. Monogamy makes me feel trapped and anxious and amplifies all my desires to stray. The idea of it (for myselfit works just fine for others) honestly makes me feel sick. When I’m in an open relationship, I feel much more relaxed, and I don’t actually pursue other partners very often. It makes me happy just to know I could if I wanted to.

If you’re looking for an “excuse”I guess I forgive myself for my past cheating partially because it’s so ingrained in our culture that relationships be monogamous. When you’re growing up and starting to explore sex and romance, you’re never encouraged to stop and think about whether monogamy works for you or makes you happy. It’s just the way things are. So I can understand why it took me a while to figure out that it didn’t work for me, and that that didn’t mean I was broken or immoralI just needed a different type of relationship in order to be a good partner. Yes, it would have been better for me to figure that out without cheating, but I honestly don’t know if I would have. Still, I do accept some responsibility.

14. I cheated on my last partner because he was a piece of shit who didn’t let me break up with him.

I cheated on my last partner because he was a piece of shit who didn’t let me break up with him because if I did he would have committed suicide and I didn’t want to feel like it was my fault.

15. I started cheating because I felt trapped.

At first I simply didn’t think about it, when I first started early high school. I was always real nerdy and awkward. Girl showed an interest in me? I jumped at it because it was so rare. Then I grew into my head a little bit more, got some coordination and confidence, and more girls showed interest. So I jumped at those chances too. I didn’t get caught, so I never saw the hurt it could cause. I guess it was just the innocence that I didn’t know what I was doing.

Until I did, I got caught, and I’m sure it hurt her. She became paranoid and eventually abusive and toxic. I’ll never know why we didn’t end it there. I started cheating again because I felt trapped. She threatened to kill herself when I tried ending it, it was my only way to feel like I still had control over my life. This continued for years. I cheat, she gets paranoid, abuses me, I go out and cheat again to reassure myself that I’m still my own person.

I finally got tired and left her and figured that if she killed herself… Well at least I’d be free. She was bluffing though. We went our separate ways.

Now I’m with someone I consider to be the love of.my life, there’s no urge to cheat anymore, but I’m still forever paranoid that karma is going to rip this away from me. But honestly tldr I just didn’t have self-control, and I think that’s what it boils down to in the majority of cases.

16. Took me a long time to learn that monogamy wasn’t really my bag.

I’ve cheated on multiple partners, multiple times. Mostly just because I wanted someone and I could, sometimes because I was lashing out at problems in the relationship. Took me a long time to learn that monogamy wasn’t really my bag. Then got into an open relationship and didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would. So basically I’m now pretty confused about what I want.

17. I just felt like I was trapped.

I cheated on my ex of three years. It was a toxic and abusive relationship. He got me to move hours away from my family and I had no one. He had cheated on me before and put me down the whole time, like I just felt like I was trapped. I started confiding in a friend from back home and got very emotionally attached to him without even realizing at first what I was really doing. Then it became obvious I was a lot happier when interacting with said friend than the boyfriend I lived with. I finally ended the relationship, moved back home and started dating him.

We’ve been together for almost 8 months now and let me tell you, it feels so great to even breathe without someone yelling at me about it.

18. I ventured towards a friend that gave me attention, and it was refreshing.

I take full responsibility for cheating and fully understand what I did was terrible and poorly handled. My boyfriend of two years was the center of my family’s whole world. I was severely ill during this time and felt as though his attention and the attention of my family should have been on me, selfish I know. So I ventured towards a friend that gave me attention, and it was refreshing. Our relationship became intimate and lasted for a few months. I ended up telling my bf and we split shortly afterwards.

19. Primarily because there is an instinctive urge to.

The same reason people eat. Not because they need to do that to survive and have energy, but primarily because there is an instinctive urge to. The amount of urge to eat, and cheat, is different for different people.

Cheating in all forms can give someone an advantage over others.

In males, sperm is cheap and it leads to more offspring being left behind.

In females it can allow you to create offspring with the traits you find attractive, while having someone else provide for you or the child that is more capable at that job.

Is this what goes through peoples heads? Of course not, people use contraception. But just as you don’t eat food to stop yourself from dyinginstead because it’s an impulse with an urge and a rewardcheaters are acting on an impulse with an urge and a feeling of reward.

People that feel that urge greater than others might end up overweight, or more promiscuous, and if asked to explain why they do it, they’ll probably try and rationalize it, and maybe there are some real triggers, but it boils down to the feeling they get from it.

That feeling has been naturally selected for. Other social animals cheat, too.

Part of cheating in a social group that remembers faces and gives them reputations is to not be caught. It is advantageous to not be caught. It makes sense you’d get a rush from knowing nobody knows what you’re up to; it means you’re doing it right.

What it’s not is a conscious decision to hurt someone and be selfish. Does it hurt someone, and is it selfish? Yes, but that’s not it exists or people do it. Just as obese people don’t eat to destroy their bodies and the lives of their enablers. They do it because it’s an impulse that they don’t control, for whatever reason.

Other animals without the capacity to think in the capacity we can about concepts like ‘hurt’ or ‘selfishness’ do it too.

20. Sometimes because of crazy attraction, sometimes because of the thrill of it being ‘wrong’ and perverse.

I’ve done it multiple times. In each case, there was someone else that I met and had sexual energy with (But not much energy of any other kind)sometimes because of crazy attraction, sometimes because of the thrill of it being ‘wrong’ and perverse, sometimes because of something elseand we acted on it. Never prolonged, usually just a few times at most. Multiple times, the other party was also in a relationship and cheating as well and in every case, they knew I was in a relationship.

In all cases, no one ever told anyone and no one ever found out. In all cases, it had literally zero affect/impact on my existing relationship and didn’t alter the way I felt about my SO or how we interacted. It just happened and myself and the other party would move on and go back to our relationships and be happy.

Given what I had read and seen in media and online and elsewhere, I kept waiting for some kind of crushing guilt to come down on me or for it to come out or blow up or something. It never did. Didn’t even alter my existing sex life with my partners. Life moved on, it felt good, and then…nothing happened. The reality, which I think most here would find it hard to swallow, is that most adulterous relations are probably like my situation and not like the ones you read about. I think most people who cheat completely get away with it, they keep their mouths shut about it and never bring it up, and nothing ever comes of it.

21. Emotional protection. But it backfired.

Emotional protection. But it backfired.

I had been cheated on by two different people in my life, I got bitter and thought Every woman cheats. So I got into a new relationship (with the best-looking woman I have ever dated) and decided to cheat so that WHEN she cheats I can just be like, ‘ha-ha, I cheated a long time ago.’ So about a month into an “exclusive” relationship I got together with an old GF, then drive right to my new GF’s house and had her do oral on my still dirty self.

She turned out to be he girl of my dreams. I fell in love and got engaged. Things went south 2 weeks before we were to get married.She found out, then cheated on me with her ex-boyfriend2 weeks before I was moving to her city (120 miles away) and getting married.

More and more I realize how amazing of a woman I lost.

22. I like validation and pulling intimacy out of people.

I like validation and pulling intimacy out of people… After a while I know enough about the person I’m with that I get bored and find someone else for fresh validation and intimate knowledge.

I’ve had three long-term relationships that lasted four years each and a lot of experiences (single time, week duration, even months in a few cases) within those three big relationships. Only one of the three do I regret messing up.

Having matured some, I can recognize I’m better off not in a relationship. So far I’ve been good at avoiding getting into a new one for the last 11 months but I know it’ll be easy to slip into old patterns when I reach a lull in life. It’s also exciting to juggle more than one person at a time. I tried an open relationship once, but that gutted a lot of the enjoyment of it. Kind of rambling so

Tldr: manipulative asshole with habitual cheating tendencies 10/10 would do again. Felt bad once, still haunts me 0/10.

23. I was feeling neglected and angry with my boyfriend of three years.

I cheated once, and will probably never do it again. I was feeling neglected and angry with my boyfriend of three years, so I went out and had a fling with some guy I met online to feel empowered instead of doing the decent thing and breaking up. I still cared about him and wanted to make it work but was too scared of being alone.

I felt bad about it for a while, but four months later we did break up, and it came out that he had been cheating on me for the last eight months of the relationship. She thought she was his girlfriend and confronted me, not knowing that I had the prior claim to that title. She dumped him for a week and then took him back.

24. I wasn’t getting his attention because he just discovered and spent his whole time on that.

I cheated on my partner after being with him for a year. I think I did it because I wasn’t getting his attention because he just discovered and spent his whole time on that. Me and this other guy just flirted through texts and msn but then we ended up having sex after 6 months of talking I would texted him when my partner had left my house and mum was out. I regretted it and only happened the once and I cut off contact with the guy a few days later. My partner knew something was going on but denied it all. The guy knew nothing could be said but yet he told his ex who lived 8 hours away and she looked me and my partner up on MySpace and told him everything… it turned out the guy had made a bunch of BS up about us which worked well in my favor because I got to deny it all. I hated myself for what I did I still do. It was a stupid reason to cheat on the guy who I love and who I now have a beautiful child with. I know in the back of his mind he knows what I did. But he got me back kind of by flirting with so many girls but never going to far well that’s what he says but how do I know look at what I did and covered up but we were kids then now we are adults with a child, a house and a wedding coming up. It was 9 years ago now but I think about it and question myself what if this blows up in face. Sometimes I blame my partner sometimes I blame my mum and sister who both cheated. But all I have is to blame myself and my stupid teenage actions. I hope one day I can him what I did that I hated every moment of it but he would never forgive me. I know I could never forgive or forget if he did it to me.

Wow I feel better after bottling it up all time. Thanks.

25. I wasn’t physically attracted to him and I didn’t think that mattered, but in the end, surprise! It does matter.

I cheated on my ex for a lot of reasons. We were engaged and things moved really quickly. I wasn’t physically attracted to him and I didn’t think that mattered, but in the end, surprise! It does matter. My ex drank a lot and refused to help around the house. He was constantly talking to his ex-girlfriend. He never cared about me. We moved to a town that I completely and utterly hated. It just became a prison. I was unhappy all the time. Then I met someone at work who gave a shit. Or seemed to, anyway. I only technically cheated once. Then I felt so bad that I ended things.

26. I have poor self-control and a lack of respect for his feelings and I’m a coward.

Why did I cheat? I have poor self-control and a lack of respect for his feelings and I’m a coward.

The long version is that we’d known each other for years through an online game, I was 16 and attention starved, quite an ugly duckling. He was funny, he made me laugh and I liked him.

We start dating, but it’s long distance. Through the years we only saw each other twice. The first visit was at my place; I wasn’t a social butterfly but I did like to go out and do things. Go to the occasional bar. Go for a picnic. He had anxiety and didn’t want to do much. Whenever I asked it was “I don’t know” with a lot of reluctance. So we stayed inside all summer playing games.

Sex was near impossible, I think it was his anxiety medication but he had a lot of trouble maintaining an erection. I was immature and not very understanding, I took it as an insult against myself.

The second visit was at his and it was just more of the same. I was in university at this point and studying, he was four years older than my 18 and had never had a single job. His life consisted solely of playing video games all day into the am, repeat. No license, no job, no drive.

His personality was a reflection of the limited media he consumed. Everything just went stagnant.

Months passed and I stopped making the effort to talk, he never initiated a conversation, always had an excuse for not even trying to look for a job. I was bored.

But I didn’t do him the courtesy of telling him this and breaking it off. I just cheated and waited till he found out. I couldn’t even bring myself to regret it, I still don’t.

27. I used cheating as an excuse to get out of a relationship instead of just dumping them.

I’ve cheated during five of my seven long- term relationships.

It wasn’t right but I used cheating as an excuse to get out of a relationship instead of just dumping them. I’d cheat, tell them immediately, and then I could just disappear from their lives with little confrontation. Why fight to keep a cheater around?

It was always with this girl I had loved since I came out as a lesbian in grade nine and I couldn’t let her go. This summer while I was single, I made out with her at a party and for the first time in almost 8 years I felt absolutely nothing for her. I’m in a relationship now with someone who treats me way better than she ever did and hopefully I’ve grown up enough that I can talk about relationship issues with my partner instead of just falling into bed with a long-time ex.

28. My ex-husband was a lazy guy who cared more about games and comics than me, the dog, paying bills, etc.

My ex-husband was a lazy guy who cared more about games and comics than me, the dog, paying bills, etc. On top of that, I am an extremely monogamous person, yet he told me I could have sex with another girl (bisexual here) and I could pretend to be a couple with a male friend for cosplay, including kissing.

5 years later I met a man who I could not stay away from. From the moment I met him I was in love, and realized I hadn’t been in love with my husband for years, we just existed in the same space. I became friends with the other guy over a half year period until one night I cheated. The next day I left my ex and have been married to the guy I cheated with for 7 years. I am extremely insecure and while I regret the way I ended my marriage, I would not have left otherwise. I still feel like I just met my SO and love him more every day. I no longer feel bad about it.

29. Because somebody else was also appealing.

Because somebody else was also appealing. There are different things that I was attracted in people, but only with age/ learning about myself/ choosing/ being with a great person I understood that there will always be some small thing I’m attracted to in someone, but I have this great guy at home that satisfies me with sex better than I could have imagined. So now I realized that I was very sexually curious and was looking for different people to satisfy it in different ways. Now, I can just tell my partner that I have this crazy idea or scenario, and I want to try it, and he is totally cool with everything. Communication is the key. I’m open to his offers as well.

30. I simply was bored with them and loved the attention of other guys.

Until my current relationship, I cheated on pretty much every guy I ever dated. I simply was bored with them and loved the attention of other guys. I had a serious problem with being alone. I would have rather been with someone, even if I didn’t like them at all, than be alone. There was only one other guy that I ever dated that I adored. Never cheated on him. He was a total shit bag who cheated on me very frequently so I got everything I deserved for what I did to others. Then, when I met my SO, everything changed. He made me want to be better as a person. I was never bored, I felt loved and just completely content. I can’t even pinpoint what changed. I just know that I have never felt a desire to cheat on him. I’ve never looked back. I was just a piece of shit, attention hungry cheater. No real reason. I was just awful.

31. The thrills, the suspense, but mostly bored and the exciting feeling of conquest.

Why? The thrills, the suspense, but mostly bored and the exciting feeling of conquest.

32. Since he had such little faith in me, I did it anyways.

He told me, I know you’re going to cheat on me. I just know it. Even though I had NEVER done anything to make him think I was. So since he had such little faith in me, I did it anyways.

33. I might lack some basic emotions.

I’ve cheated on all of my girlfriends with multiple girls. Excuse? None really, I enjoy the hunt and succeeding, the sex part is pretty cool too.

I never feel bad, either. I might lack some basic emotions.

34. Some of it is about rebellion, unable to accept love, want validation blah blah blah.

I’ve cheated on probably everyone. I have issues, naturally, some of it is about rebellion, unable to accept love, want validation blah blah blah. But getting caught up in the moment is a thing, often I’m so in the here and now that really nothing else exists.

35. I have antisocial tendencies, which is why I pick up, use, and drop women so easily.

I have cheated on multiple partners in the past without care. Its almost as if when a girl gives me a bit of attention I feel I need to see how far I can go with her, even if I have no feelings or genuine intention of being faithful. This has led to me picking up multiple partners at once, convincing them all that we are soul mates, promising them everything they’ve ever wanted, then manipulating and using them for various things. I realized when I was very young that I do not feel guilt for my actions unless I know there is a strong possibility I could get caught. Even then, its not really even guilt, its just kinda anxiety about getting caught. I have looked into things like Antisocial Personality Disorder, Conduct Disorder, and have read up on Psychopathy & Sociopathy because I feel like am able to relate to those disorders with my thoughts and feelings. I have never been diagnosed with anything but I, as well as some close family have suspected I have antisocial tendencies, which is why I pick up, use, and drop women so easily. It would make sense, because ever since I started dating it just felt natural to hide the real me in relationships, and put on a front of a perfect lover in an attempt to get as much out of the partner as possible.

36. It honestly scares me that I’ll just never be faithful.

I’ve cheated on pretty much every girlfriend I’ve had other than my first adult relationship. I have no clue why I do it. It isn’t some power thing, or control, or just a want for something new, I just do it. I’m always on Instagram or some other site where I see nothing but pictures of women all day and I slowly start liking all their pics, they’ll like mine, then starts the DMing, and eventually turns into, Oh let’s just chill and smoke, and then the rest is history. I don’t enjoy doing it, and since my most recent breakup (due to cheating) I’ve been trying to avoid relationships for this reason. I really hope it’s just a phase or something because it honestly scares me that I’ll just never be faithful. So I guess I never answered your question because I don’t really know. It just happens.

37. I’m afraid that she’ll do it first.

I’m afraid that she’ll do it first. So I do it as a sort of insurance that if something goes wrong or she lets me down, I can always be like, Yeah but I didn’t care anyway. But I do, meh.

38. Why should I stop having sex with new people just because I have a girlfriend?

Because why should I stop having sex with new people just because I have a girlfriend? I would say 60-70% of the guys I know have cheated. I strongly believe the other 15-20% would if they could pull it off. I also know a lot of women who have cheated multiple times on their boyfriends but not nearly as many as the men.

39. The relationship was dead in the water.

I cheated once when I was 19. We’d been dating for almost a year. It got very serious very quickly. He wanted to talk about kids and marriage, where we would live after graduation. We fought about this quite a lot because I felt we were too young and too far away from those things to talk about them. He’d picked out names and wedding venues. He was very introverted, I’m very extroverted. Over time we just stopped going places or talking about anything besides TV shows to watch that night. The relationship was dead in the water, but he was such a sweet guy and he worshiped me. I couldn’t quite pull away because there was nothing really wrong. I’d been in a miserably abusive relationship prior to this so in my mind if he wasn’t hitting me or screaming at me, the relationship was great and I needed to buck up and deal.

I spent the summer traveling around and interning for an NGO, and then one day while laughing and talking with friends over breakfast, it hit me: I was feeling happy. And I had not felt this happy in a long time. This weird glow-y, free feeling was because for the first time in months I was actually enjoying my life.

I kind of glossed over the realization. I had a loving boyfriend back at home who was ready to put a ring on it and call it a day at a moments notice. I decided I just needed to see him again and I’d feel better. We’d work it out and go on.

Then to celebrate at the end of our trip we went dancingand rum happened. And not a little rum. The quantity of rum that makes you beg for the sweet embrace of death the next day. A guy on our trip and I started dancing and one thing led to another. We didn’t have sex, thankfully. But we were making out pretty hot and heavy for a while. The next day I knew that I’d crossed a line and I felt awful. But I also felt all this clarity. Not only did that relationship need to end, I didn’t even feel sad that it was ending. I didn’t love him anymore. We were never going to work out and I’d let it go on too long as it was.

So when I got back to town, I went to his house and explained all that to him in person. Not the cheating, but what led to it. He wanted to jump behind that white picket fence so badly and keep me as close to home as possible, and unfortunately it took me doing something I said I’d never do to realize how much I resented that plan.