#im just going to glue him back together. I'm still going to have to get some clay and model the claws because it seems they are just missin

[batsydoodle]

I am completely desolate... just received one of the Eaglemoss figure i bought off ebay and my beloved 90's batman not only lost both ears in transport but also his claws... my goal to acquire more guys for my collection is going to have to be put on hold because it seems the cold canadian weather is just not hospitable for such conquest

[bookskiver]

Tmr characters going trick or treating together (HAPPY HALLOWEEN):

(This one's been chilling in my drafts waiting for spooky day so here we go)

Let's start with the obvious, thomas and newt ARE DOING matching costumes.

Tbh I think they'd do something very basic, theyd get white sheets cut holes out and be ghosts but they'd wear some colourful fluffy socks and pull them up and wear blackout sunglasses over the sheets

And if minho wanted to do a trio they'd do alvin and the chipmunks (minho as alvin, thomas as simon and newt as Theodore (in my humble opinion))

If not, then I feel minho and brenda would go as those two from Subway surfers, tricky and jake, bc they both thought it was cool (they would both bring real spray paint cans and may or may not dabble in some vandalism, but shhhh)

Gally (being gally) didn't want to go, but when he saw everyone getting excited, he felt left out

"FIIIINEEEE if you insist, I'll come with you all"

"We didn't say anyt-"

"NONO it's fine, too late to apologise, I'm going now"

He would either just wear all black clothes and a scary mask (one of those light up purge ones probs) OR, he would still wear all black but put a police cap on and be the policeman from subway surfers to go with minho and brenda

If the girls did a group costume they would be the victorious girls (teresa as tori sonya as cat brenda as trina and Harriet as jade YES PLEASE!!!!!) (I would say they could do that one improv episode with the sleepover at sikowitz's but trina isn't in it 😔)

Alby would be there to babysit these CHILDREN

He would be the angry dad tapping his foot at the end of the driveway waiting for them to get their sweets

He's the one chasing down minho and brenda if they use their spray paint

Give my guy alby a break 😭😭😭

I can picture teresa as coraline, cute outfit she's wearing the blue wig yellow raincoat and everything

No one goes as a character from coraline with her but she's chill slaying alone. She stays back chatting to alby, trying to calm the poor man down from sprinting after gally because he jumpscared a group of children.

CHUCK GOES AS A CREEPER

He wears full green and paints a box to put over his head. Thinks it's really cool until SOMEBODY (gally) starts repeatedly smacking the top of his box

(Gally has been smacked in the back of the head by alby so many times he may have a bald spot at this point)

Harriet and sonya go as jake and finn from adventure time (sonya as finn harriet as jake) or if aris wants to go (I feel like he wouldn't care for Halloween but sonya bribed him with the promise of sweets) they'd go as kenny Stan and kyle from south park. They'd go as this is because aris DEFINITELY has that big orange coat kenny wears and you cant tell me he doesnt bc he does (he goes as kenny Harriet as stan and sonya as kyle)

Fypan (wanting to make chuck feel better) goes as a minecraft zombie with a box on his head (live laugh frypan 🥹🫶)

And if they did a whole group costume they'd go as SIMS!!! They'd print out print out those plumbob crystals and glue them to headbands. They'd all be green accept for gally who was given a red one and alby who's red plumbob was very much forced upon him

And yes, they do walk around talking simlish :)

(This was so all over the place im so sorry i had alot to say 😭) HOPE YOU ENJOYED HAPPY HALLOWEEN MY LOVELYS <33333

[chucktaylors]

This whole storyline has been consuming my brain, so im just gonna spew about it because I'm sure someone will enjoy it

I have a couple good theories/ideas, i'll just jot them down in a bulleted list before i start talking

What if Don Callis had been talking to Trent way before he turned, slowly driving him further and further and brainwashing him until her turned.

What if Orange was actually toxic/pushed the others down to get the spotlight, and so Trent finally had enough and turned, like he said, and Chuck knew and understood why Trent turned, but he was too scared to turn against Orange too, and stuttered up. Or, he was too brainwashed to turn with Trent and listen to him. In their garage match, you can see Chuck hugging Trent, and Trent begging him to stop. And then when Kris and Orange came to check on Chuck, Trent kept looking behind him while he walked out, looking almost sad

Ok now, random spew time. Rocky has been very 2 faced in this whole situation, back and forth between Trent and Orange, focusing more on himself and getting himself up, which is good. But it's very confusing to tell what side he's on at all, is he a face, is he a heel, he's kinda really just fighting to prove himself right now so theres not really much info on him so far, as i know of, but then again, I don't check up on him much.

I feel like Chuck is kinda like the glue of the group. Trent was always there because of Chuck, Orange was always there because of Chuck, and they worked together for him. But when he got injured, Orange and Trent slowly started driving apart because Trent was too hyper focused on winning the belts, and Orange didn't have a reason to care enough, given, we've never really seen these two as a solidified tag team. Chuck got injured, came back as a manager for a little at the end, but it was far too late and he couldn't save it now.

I think Trent still expects Chuck to come back like he always does, and that's definitely a great way to show the toxicity of Trent. He knows Chuck, even though he's hurt mentally and physically, will come back. And unfortunately, Chuck isn't putting up with any of it anymore. But for some reason, even after all the no's and beatings, Trent still wears "Chuck" on his wrists, and he just now changed his entrance from the "Bestfriends: Trent & Chuck".

I think it's significant, Trent joining the Don Callis Family, because, and I may be reaching, but he went from the Best Friends to the Don Callis Family. Friends to Family. It would be cool if they did a "Family comes first"/"Family before friends" type storyline with this. He could say they actually believe in him like a family, the help him like a family, blah blah blah. When really, all along, his "family" is Orange and Chuck.

I definitely think Kris and Trent know something about Orange that we don't, and I'm pretty sure it's something bad. I might be a bit biased, given I love Trent, but I feel like this could all turn out with Orange as the bad guy in the end. Right now he's showing he's going back to being a bit more sad, using his old theme, barely any effort, always paranoid for Trent. With Chuck gone and Hook doing whatever tf he's doing, Orange has no one. Orange always had at least someone all of his life, and now he has no one. He has no social skills, and he doesn't put effort into talking to people because he's so used to these people that Trent ripped away from him. It'd be cool to see maybe Orange going a bit too far too get his friends back, but ending up making it worse cause he looses his true sights.

Another small detail, I may be reaching, but on Trent's shirt, its a picture of Orange with green tape over his eyes. Green represents Truth and Growth. Maybe he's saying there's no truth in his eyes, or he's once again showing how he's grown to despise him. He can't stand to look in his eyes

Last thing, it's all about Chuck v Trent garage match. I think Dustin knew that was his last match and he wanted it to be against Greg, just like they started it. If you look at the small details of that match and compare it to the other matches of theirs in that stadium, it's so sentimental. Chuck wore a shirt with their actual names and a picture of them on it, basically showing Trent that he still cared at least a little bit right after he just broke his heart by saying no and turning against him.

I may be insane, no clue. Why is a group thats called The Best Friends causing me so much torture and pain

[jennay]

Ex-Husband

You Left me

Rory Culkin x reader

An: im debating if this will be a short story with a few chapters or just two parts.

Words: 2k

Warnings: Angst?

You arrive at the front door of Kieran's house and bring your hand up to knock. You stop midway, wondering why you agreed to come to this gathering in the first place or why Kieran thought it was a good idea to invite you to his wife's birthday party.

Kieran was mostly oblivious and probably thought it would be acceptable and harmless, like old times when you all hung out together, stayed up late drinking, telling hilarious stories, and caught up with each other's lives.

He probably didn't realize how awkward and painful it would be for you.

Now, you were Rory's ex-wife, which wasn't exactly making the situation easy. You can't even remember the last time the two of you were in the same room.

However, the memory of how it ended still haunts you.

The deafening shouts, the cruel words that cut deep and left the most brutal scars. The wounded pride that made you lash out. The rage and betrayal overpowered your love and convinced the two of you to break the vow you swore to keep.

You take a deep breath and bounce your knuckles against the hard wooden door. Shit, why didn't you just turn around and leave?

The front door swings open, revealing Kieran. His brown eyes sparkle with joy, and his smile shows you he's happy to see you. Kieran's arms wrap around you tightly, and he rocks you side to side. "I'm glad you made it!"

You hand him the bottle of wine you brought for the group. He gladly takes it, waving you to follow him, but you can't. It's like glue is on your feet, and you're completely stuck.

"Are you coming?" He asks with a gentle smile.

You shake your head, "I don't think I should come in." You quietly say. "Can you tell Jazz I said happy birthday?"

Kieran sets the bottle of wine on the small table to the left of the door frame and steps outside, closing it behind him. He rests his hand on the small of your back, guiding you to sit on the stairs with him.

"Listen, nobody holds a grudge and nobody hates you for what happened, it was a freak accident it wasn’t you’re fault.” He briefly pauses, “Honestly, some days, I miss you more than I miss Rory." He jokes attempting to lighten the mood.

You nod, smiling weakly as you hear the voice in your head telling you it was ALL your fault. "I just feel weird." You admit. "Like, do I talk to him? Do I pretend we didn't just go through a divorce last year? Do I avoid him and pretend he doesn't exist? I don't know how I'm supposed to act."

He squeezes your shoulder reassuringly. "You don't have to do anything you're uncomfortable with," Kieran says. "Just be yourself. That's all we want from you."

Your head tilts and your eyes widen with disbelief as you stare at Kieran, "Be me? Have you met me?" You roll your eyes and put your elbows on your knees, placing your face in your hands. "Everyone in there knows me as Rory's wife. I'm getting anxious just thinking about it."

He rubs your back soothingly. "Not true, Jazz, and I knew you before Rory. Jazz misses you. Can you try for her? All I'm asking is for twenty minutes." He reminds you. "You can do hard things even if you feel like you can't."

You nod, knowing he's right. "Ten minutes and I'm out."

Kieran smirks as he stands up, brushing the dirt off his pants. He reaches his hand out to you, and you gladly take it. "I'm going to regret this."

He ignores your comment as he opens the front door, grabbing the bottle of wine.

You can hear the cheerful chatter and laughter of the guests in the kitchen as you follow Kieran down the hallway.

Your eyes widen with awe when you enter the living room and see all the decorations. The walls are covered with colorful streamers and balloons, creating a festive atmosphere. A large banner that reads "Happy Birthday Jazz" hangs above the fireplace.

The coffee table is laden with gifts wrapped in shiny paper and ribbons. The couches and chairs are arranged around a low table.

The cake is decorated with white frosting and pink roses and has a number 40 made of candles on top. The room smells like vanilla and chocolate, making your mouth water.

You smile warmly when you see Kieran's daughter, Kinsey, race towards you, screaming at the top of her lungs with her arms open. She's wearing a pink dress and a tiara, looking like a little princess. You scoop her up in your arms and spin her around, making her giggle. She hugs you tightly and kisses your cheek, making you forget about your nerves briefly.

You greet Kinsey with a cheerful smile and hug her tightly. “Hi, sweet girl!” You say, admiring her, “You look so pretty today!”

She snuggles into your shoulder, wrapping her arms around your neck. You feel gratitude for the little girl who adores you unconditionally. You also feel relief, as if she is the human shield that will protect you from awkward encounters.

You carry her with you as you walk to the kitchen, where Jazz talks with her friends. You see her holding a glass of wine in one hand and gesturing animatedly with the other.

She looks radiant. You put Kinsey down on the floor and ruffled her hair. “I’ll see you later, okay?” You tell her softly. “Go have fun with your friends.”

She nods and runs off to join the other kids, leaving you to face Jazz. You brace yourself for the inevitable hug and kiss she always gives you, no matter how long it’s been since you last saw her.

“Babe!” She screams, spotting you from across the room. She pushes through the crowd and pulls you into her arms, kissing your cheek loudly. “You came! I’m so happy to see you!” You hug her back politely, feeling a bit overwhelmed by her enthusiasm. You’ve always loved Jazz, but sometimes she can be too much.

Especially today, when you’re feeling nervous and out of place.

“You look amazing!” She gushes, pulling back and scanning your outfit. “I love your dress! And your shoes! And your hair! You’re such a babe!”

You thank her for the compliments, feeling a bit self-conscious. You don’t feel like a babe at all.

“So, how are you?” She asks, taking your hand and leading you to the counter. She pours you a glass of wine and hands it to you. “How’s work? How’s life? How’s everything?”

You sip your wine and try to answer her questions as briefly as possible. You tell her that work is fine, life is okay, and everything is normal. You don’t want to get into details or share anything personal.

Jazz nods along, but you can tell she’s not satisfied with your answers. She wants more from you, more than you can give right now. She wants you to open up, confide in her, and be her best friend again.

But you can’t do that. Not today.

You start to feel claustrophobic and anxious, surrounded by people who know too much about you and expect too much from you.

You need some air, some space, some peace. “I’m going to step out back for a minute.” You say abruptly, interrupting Jazz’s rambling about her latest project.

Jazz looks at you with concern, but nods understandingly. “Okay,” she says softly. “But don’t be late for cake.”

“I’d never be late for cake.” You joke weakly, forcing a smile. You set down your glass and walk over to the sliding door leading to the backyard. You slide it open and step outside, feeling fresh air on your face.

You sigh long and close your eyes, resting your elbows on the deck's railing. You feel the sun on your skin and the breeze in your hair. You’re glad it’s a nice day, sunny and warm. You need some sun to cheer you up and chase away the gloom.

You open your eyes and look around the backyard, searching for a quiet spot to sit and relax. You see a table with some chairs under a large umbrella, away from the crowd. It looks inviting and peaceful. You decide to head there and enjoy some solitude. But then you stop in your tracks when you see him.

Rory.

He’s leaning against the railing on the opposite side of the deck; his back turned to you. The wind slightly tousled his brown hair, giving him a carefree look. He looks handsome and casual as if he doesn’t have a worry in the world.

He doesn’t notice you at first, but then the deck squeaks under your feet; he turns slightly to see who’s there.

His eyes meet yours, and your heart skips a beat. The person you wanted to avoid at all costs was now standing right in front of you. You put yourself in a trap, and there was no escape.

“Sorry.” You mumble, feeling your face heat up.

He shrugs his shoulders lightly. “It’s okay.” His voice was calm.

You don’t know what else to say, so you walk past him and head to the table. You pull a chair and sit down, hoping he’ll leave you alone.

You take out your phone and pretend to check your messages, avoiding his gaze. But he doesn’t leave. Instead, he follows you and sits across from you, making you feel even more uncomfortable.

You can feel his eyes on you, studying your every move. You wonder what he’s thinking, what he’s feeling, what he wants from you.

“You look nice.” He says suddenly, breaking the silence.

You put down your phone and look at him, feeling annoyed. “Do we have to do this?” You ask quietly, “It’s awkward, and I’m not nearly drunk enough to kiss and make up.”

Rory chuckles softly, shaking his head. “I was just trying to be nice.” He says, pausing for a moment and sheepishly says. “The last six months haven’t been easy for me either.”

“Okay, well, you left me, so I don’t feel sorry for you.” You snap back, not intending to be rude but not wanting to hear his excuses.

He flinches slightly as if your words hurt him, but before he can respond, Kieran steps outside.

You stand up, clutching your phone, and make a beeline for the door. You don’t want to stay here any longer, not with Rory sitting across from you, looking at you with those eyes that used to make you melt.

You don’t want to talk to him, or listen to him, or feel anything for him. You just want to get away from him, this party, and this whole mess.

You walk toward Kieran, who looks at you with a puzzled expression. “Am I interrupting?” He asks, glancing between you and Rory. “I can go if you guys need to talk.”

You shake your head quickly, forcing a smile. “Nope, I was just going in.” You lie, hoping he won’t notice the tremor in your voice. “I need to use the bathroom.”

Kieran nods, accepting your excuse. He steps aside and lets you pass.

He gives you a friendly wink and says, “Don’t fall in!”

You nod back, but you don’t say anything. You don’t plan to return for cake or anything else. You plan to leave without anyone noticing.

You walk through the hallway, avoiding eye contact with anyone who might stop you or talk to you.

You make it to the front door and reach for the handle, ready to escape. But then you hear a voice behind you calling your name.

“Hey, wait!”

You turn around and see Rory looking at you with mixed emotions. Surprise, confusion, hurt, hope. He walks towards you, his eyes pleading with you. “Can we just talk?” He asks softly. “Please, I wanna make things better between us?”

You feel guilt in your chest. You know he wants to talk to you, explain himself, and apologize. You know he still cares about you, maybe even loves you. But you also know it’s too late for that.

Too much has happened, too much has changed, too much has been broken.

You can’t go back to how things were or could have been. You can’t forgive him or yourself.

You shake your head firmly, fighting back the tears that threaten to spill over.

“No,” you say firmly. “We can’t.”

You open the door and step outside, leaving him behind.

You walk to your car, feeling his gaze on your back. You get in and start the engine, feeling relief. You drive away from the party, from Rory, from your past.

You don’t look back. You need to move on.

Part 2

[soft4gguk]

Miss Tessa 😖 this is so frustrating but also so good.. i can’t even complain about jk’s actions (or lack thereof) because he and soori has been through so much in a small amount of time and whatever hesitations he had in the past and currently i can’t blame him.. he just want to live inside their bubble but i get the feeling it will pop soon 💔

I get oc’s feeling too because she’s downplayed her emotions so many times and the feeling like you’re only a placeholder until the right person comes back is a sucky feeling. Coupled with the fact they’re still hiding that there’s more to it than being employer-nanny 😭 and all this is soori. She’s like the baby glue keeping the three of them together, and whichever way they go she’ll be the one who gets affected 100%. Love how she is with jk and oc, and im just waiting for the time when she will slip and nana will become mama 🥹 idk if my heart will burst with happiness or sadness when/if the time comes 😭we haven’t read about jk’s pov about all this, what did he think about oc’s revelations? Is it true that he’s not expecting Ira to come back anymore? What’s really holding him back 😖

Anyway i love the friends dynamic. I love how they dont gossip about each other like Joon not knowing about jk and oc when half of their friend group knows. I love how Tae gives jk the realtalk and Mai calls him out on his bs 😂 I love Mai! Such a boss girl 😂

The only thing im not happy about this is why is Mingyu friends with jk lmaaoooooo because he seems like a good guy and if im oc (im not bummer 😣) i’d totally tap that 🍑 🤭

When i saw the chapter is 17k words girl are you okay?? You were sick and you’re able to come up with the chapter so good. I hope you’re feeling better though!! Dont get sick ❤️

hiii <333

I totally agree with you! it's so frustrating because I have so much empathy for him and everything he's gone through but at the same time I'm like well yeah but how much longer can oc hold onto all of this?? :((

and yeah it must be hard for her now that ira is on her mind and she keeps comparing herself to her, feeling like she's under her shadow, or like you said, a placeholder. but a lot of this I do believe is just a matter of miscommunication!! because to answer your question, jungkook really does not want her to come back. there's nothing left there and I think his actions do show that much. he's left with hesitation, yes. but it's not because of her, more so because of what she did. also, in chapter thirteen (I think) he says how he didn't acknowledge the I love you because he thought she hadn't meant it. lmao. he's so DUUUUUUMB 🤯

I looooooooooooove their friendship dynamic sooo much, too. I love writing it, I'll never stop yapping about this lol. and yeah, they're all pretty loyal and wise towards each other. and mai is the BEST. Taehyung bagged fr fr fr. I also love how she bosses him around lol.

MINGYU AND JK ARE NOT ONLY FRIENDS. THEY'RE LIKE, best friends 😭 went to high school AND college together like. oc really is off limits to him but poor baby Mingyu doesn't know!!!! oc is better than all of us from what I can SEE. LMAO.

tbh I did have quite a lot of time to write it hehe. but yeah, the last couple of days I really locked in. it was originally supposed to be maybe 12k... but then I got carried away. specially with the smut and the Mingyu thing lol. but im so glad u enjoyed!! I loved answering this ask sooo much. iluuu <333 xo

[akaikali]

Hello! I just finished reading "Are You Mr. Schadenfreude?" on Ao3! And dare i say it is the best fic I've ever read yet, LIKE I'M NOT KIDDING the amount of suspense, thriller and horror.. I was at the edge of my seat and not to mention how well written the whole story is and the lore itself is just so 😩😩😩.. I am not familiar with vocaloid and even the music video (sorry!) itself but I did watch it just after reading the fic and how impressed I was that you came up with your own version and even wrote it in a MONTH 80k words and all, kudos to you <3.

I was having goosebumps throughout reading the fic! I LOVE the dynamic between wonhan and especially I've been addicted their 'This Man' album since it was released and how they were stuck together like glue and the moments they share together was adorable and as a jeonghan biased myself (i have 6 biases actually hehe) i love every bit of it and I fell in love with the characters and the fic itself. Another thing I'd like to point out is the way you portrayed their relationships that can be interpreted as romantic and/or platonic so that readers can enjoy more of the story. Aside from wonhan, i also adored the dynamic each members have with each other and then there's verkwan VERKWAN FOR THE WIN! I was devastated when both of them died and I was awestruck to find out that seungkwan did it to avoid vernon from suffering the same fate with the others and that my friends is love and if that's not love I don't know what is. I was saddened that all of them have met their deaths whether they were murdered or have ended themselves BUUUUUT HELLO THE PLOT TWIST??? I was clearly not expecting for wonwoo to wake up and then it goes back to beginning but then I understand it was his turn to break the cycle like wonwoo was the real mvp here, basically the whole story was supposed to be in hoshi's timeline but man's was sidetracked and ended getting killed earlier in the story (still love him tho but a huge facepalm for him). At the beginning of the fic I was caught off guard that jun had died immediately like it was so sudden but I was pleasantly surprised to find him still alive the end and was working below the church to try and help his friends and speaking of the devil... I really can't put my finger on it but since the beginning I've been very suspicious of minghao, but I did suspect either jeonghan or wonwoo to be the devil but I was more suspicious of minghao and the scream I let out when it was actually him who the was the devil though I have to admit it was pretty conflicting but in a good way lol.

It was fun spotting easter eggs all throughout the fic that connects with gose and for real though the fic was definitely a mix of bad clue, don't lie and ego as the og lore is similar to a mafia game and I absolutely ADORE how you came up with your twist. I'm gonna be honest it was the BEST read, I've been so invested in a fic before like how invested I was in the fic and not to mention the endless roller coaster of emotions I've read throughout, you really did pour all your hard work on this one and I really really appreciate it!!! ('appreciate' is an understatement) There are a lot more words to say but I think I'll stop here, I've been rambling too much lol. Please excuse my English as it's not my mother tongue.

HELLO???? OMG THIS IS SO SWEET IM GONNA SCREAM

I'm so flattered oh my lord I was kicking my feet and giggling as I read this you're SO sweet

I'll be totally honest, there was one specific scene that really made me want to write this and I actually drew it here. This was the catalyst for this whole fic I saw this scene and I was like "wonhan. i need to draw wonhan like this" and yeah here we are. honestly I was NOT expecting it to be like 88k, I thought I'd have barely enough for 30k 😭😭

Wonhan has been a new recent obsession for me (same as you, This Man really made me go OH HELLO WONHAN) their dynamic reminds me a lot of a ship I like (wangxian from MDZS, jeonghan reminds me of wei wuxian and wonwoo reminds me of lan wangji). I actually wrote a wonhan fic based on wonhan (and I'm gonna add a chapter to it soon as well ehehe)

Writing their relationships as ambiguous was so nice as an aroace person who feels strong feelings that aren't entirely romantic but not platonic either. Jeonghan-biases unite, as I was writing it I literally went "if I'm in love with him, everyone is in love with him". Verkwan are sooooo they're so soulmates (in whatever way)

Wonwoo being the one to figure it out is kind of like him in Ego because he figured out almost everything but he just got caught by the time limit. If it weren't for that, I think Wonwoo could have figured it out.

As for Jun, I really love seeing his caring side because he cares SO MUCH for the members. That's why I wrote him quietly helping his friends because that reminds me of him in the early days, even when he couldn't communicate, he was always silently helping everyone.

As for Myungho, I wanted to channel the energy he had in Bad Clue because the final confrontation between him and Mingyu was sooooo like it had me SWEATING. But at the same time, I couldn't make him ACTUALLY want to hurt his friends, Myungho would never do that. Hence the binding ritual ending I came up with. But I'm so glad you like my plot twists!!

The Easter eggs were my favorite part everytime I wrote one I was giggling a little bit.

Thank you so much, seriously, I'm so glad you enjoyed it so much, especially since I think this was probably one of my favorite fics I've written, so it makes me so happy that you like it so much!!

(Idk how much svt I will write other than my ongoing kpopfic Only You and adding a chapter to my wonhan fic, but I'm glad you enjoyed this!)

[musubiki]

omg omg omg i'm gonna geek out about writing quickly but the time skip redo is actually really cool??? like mochi feels like the glue keeping them all together is so it makes sense that they kinda scatter but still stay in touch kinda after she leaves,,,, also the idea of getting the gang back together one by one just feels kinda nice like its the ✨found family✨ vibes that the guild radiates that just has me🤧🤧🤧🤧 LOVE THEM SO MUCH

YES AAAH IM GLAD YOU THINK SO!!!!!!!!! i feel like this version is better exactly for that reason and also its a better driver for the growth lime goes through when mochi isnt there!!!

PLUS it also aligns better with what (in my head) seems to be normal around "grown" witches, which is that after that period of time where a witch is learning and coming into her own, she no longer has need for a guild and it effectively breaks up (which is why tiramisus guild as well as other older witches dont have their full guild with them. maybe 1 or 2 members stuck around because theyre friends but otherwise most witches guilds dissolve after said witch is done training and her power is in full)

the only thing that makes me sad about it is that i wish lime and the others were close enough friends to stay together as a guild after mochi leaves, like their friendship with each other isnt SOLELY dependent on her, but since there only 5 of them (and taffy is new), once mochi left, lime was the only other person who was capable enough to lead the guild. and since he took such an emotional blow i dont think he had it in him to essentially babysit the other 3. so with 2/5 members (and essentially the core of the guild) out of action, it makes sense that neither coco or oscar could ever "lead" the guild the way lime potentially could have (and taffy feels like he has no right to even try to fill that role). that being said, i do like the idea of them hanging out every so often to do side quests!!!!!

(essentially i think of this period as lime shifts into the "main character" role and it turns into a genshin style of adventure for him-- where he just travels around (lowkey searching for mochi) but mostly training, doing side quest/side quest chains, becoming stronger, and every so often he runs into a quest that requires you to bring along/interact with other major characters like coco, oscar, taffy, the merchant, other witches mochis met during her journeys, etc, but afterwards goes back to a solo journey. as a consequence once the guild gets back together it turns out lime has a bunch of connections in a bunch of different places)

and also!!! i maybe have mentioned this, but in my heart it feels unfair to have them all just.,.....waiting around for her. like obviously we all know she comes back to them, but from their POV shes essentially gone forever with no end date, and having them accept the mindset of potentially waiting around forever feels like a shitty thing to do, so im going to let them move on!!!!! (at least superficially. i dont think any of them would ever truly move on after mochi leaves. how would you ever just spend 2-3 years in this magic world of action and adventure and then just suddenly drop it all and go work a 9-5??? impossible. they all tangentially stayed in the magic community and would be ready at the drop of a hat to rejoin mochi if she ever came back and asked them to!!)

[maria-eve-falcon]

Its hard to watch Taylor like this. She knows it's over. The feelings still linger you know to the point she is okay to accept any affection from any man who could take her mind off things,make it a bit easier to sing songs about joe when she feels like death singing them. Even if he is able to help for a small time.

I don't think she has had the time to process any emotions substantially and tour is actually her only personality and the glue holding her together. She isn't even showing how much she is going through.

Post a life altering breakup she picked up a huge injury and then one of her closest friends from school died unexpectedly. She did the attending and singing the show-funeral-show-memorium -show in three days☹️ She has this new fling but she can't stop talking about her ex. This is the worst part that she is hurting and just using very unhealthy coping mechanisms to get by.

The trying to find a part of me you didn't touch and that is before time in 2016. The 180 because she did everything to protect him and the relationship for it to fall apart too. She is really idgaf stage publically because even working tirelessly for 7 years everything just fell apart adjusting fir everyone's needs brought her back to still utter personal collapse. Going to be hard to see her continue making stupid decisions that hurt her and make herself hate herself even more just to get by.

thank you anon! you're right. tbh she needs to give herself time instead of thinking bout the tour anything. like joe was a huge part of tay's life (yes vice versa) she needs to process it without these shits going on.

Im afraid like when touring is over she'll regret a lot. like a lot. and there'll be no coming back. it'll be to late to realize. she needed to process all these before she got together with another person and matty for fs sake is defs not the type of guy you get together with while you're going through this type of heartbreak. this is gonna make it harder and harder for to be over this.

she is trying the get where he wasn't there. because she (imo) must feel like she did something different but didn't work either so.

she'll spite herself for a while too ! (imo) (maybe I'm projecting but I've seen this film twice in my own life. not with me but omg I have soo many thoughts after this ask)

I just hope they both heal soon. idk who left but it doesn't matter. they broke a family of 6.5 years and they both need to process this. but it's really really hurts to see her like this.

[shipwreck-letters]

hi sorry for disappearing for weeks i was hibernating

i just wanted 2 ask how you'd think the monster manor story would progress (like how'd the characters develop, how u think it'd end and what u think of the character that was teased but never released)

im kind of losing hope ab MM ending or even just having a good story because of the recent announcement adydhwnbehdisjcm

Long, long post incoming. I ramble a lot, my brain is like Campbell's Chicken Noodle Soup. (I missed you, though! Nice to see you again! How have you been?) (Also swearing,,,swearing- Edit: There was much more swearing before I read over this and took out the Dorian shit, because I really wanna shake them by the shoulders and-)

I honestly think about this question ALL the time. And by the end of this, I do have an idea for an ending!!! It's down below. It's just a lot of rambling beforehand.

ERYTHEIAAAAAA- Am I spelling her name right?? She's really pretty, really strong, her character design speaks, but I wish we had more.

I don't have much I can really say about Erytheia, because I always get stuck on what Lynne said about "sounding like a Greek chorus" That always stops me from trying to write her myself, because ???? WHAT- I do not know enough about Greece, or Greek mythology, to even begin to do that. I am an Indigenous country bird. I feel so bad, though- Maybe I could try again and get back to you on that. No promises, though 😭😭😭 That would honestly, in my opinion, need to be something that maybe some more people can talk more about and come to an agreement on.

I wish we could get just one line, one sentence, one paragraph of dialogue or set-up. I miss her, and I only saw ONE sketch of her.

The way Sage's story took a crazy turn, and how he ended up 6 months during the new war; I would have never predicted that at ALL- So it's like,,,I wonder if a crazy twist would happen with MM-

But it doesn't seem like there would be a whole "Upright/Reversed" thing, because MC is clearly competent enough to not have Casimir or Rainier fall back into their vices again. That would be so dumb for them to establish this change, and then say "haha whoopsie yes Casimir become the beast- Yes Rainier, break out and raise hell as a dragon on Earth" like,,,that would be dumb-

I'm talking out of my ass, I think, because Casimir and Rainier aren't my OCs, but it seemed like we already met them during their arc? During that time of change and sadness, and hopefully it would be a story of change for the future.

Surrounded by people that are in the same boat as him, he'd have a new focus on getting to know these people, MC, and have an outlook of fixing these rooms, sharing his story and his own knowledge about things! Getting to know them, too. Maybe his curse was like a self-fulling prophecy, because the only times he transformed with MC is under intense stress or emotions. He never transformed when Rainier lost control, he was perfectly fine.

So I think...Casimir's rooms/arc were semi-complete during those chapters, and that tale. In general, very very very general. It gave me enough to hypothesize, and Rainier is the same. But...Still not enough. It's not Lynne-approved, Lynne-directed, Lynne please come back and swipe your story-

Maybe during these times, he'd have a few transformations that he can't help. He'd be really nervous, because now he has access to hurt others, not just himself or the House. But but but- I think....that MC or Rainier or maybe even Erytheia stands up to the beast enough times that it starts to change. It begins to go away, and Casimir doesn't even realize- He still has the traits, and the abilities that comes with it, but I think that Casimir wouldn't even realize until MC mentions the beast and someone is like "you transform?" and Casimir is like "....Now that you mention it-"

I think it would come to a head with MC, honestly- This character that is unwavering, the glue that holds everything together...There's gotta be a moment where they're like "Well now everyone is together, I guess my job is done here" But they try to leave and it's like,,,,No, actually. MC deserves to be cared for, as well. They (you, the reader, too) need reassurance and repair beyond just being looked at as the fixer-upper, the sunlight-

I think once MC has a moment where they realize for a moment that they can also accept that this home isn't just for the characters, but for them, too- They can stay, or go, maybe with Casimir to the modern world, or with Rainier to Almithara, but there will always be a home, here, a refuge.

That's what it was always meant to be, right? I think that would be an ending that I would like to see, anyway. Not too personal, not too vague, but being able to leave or stay with the character(s) you romance, augh. I want to see Rainier's home, I want to show Casimir the world 🎶, I also want the fade to black scene I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT-

It wouldn't be chaotic crazy like LL, where there's war or death, but those topics do come up in terms of Casimir's past, or Rainier's jobs regarding the Magister. But the past is not an end-all-be-all, and the House was meant to be a place where you can get help, be helped, and then be let go again. (I think- It had to be, no way did the House intend to just keep them there forever)

Casimir couldn't leave, because he couldn't see that. Rainier couldn't (can't) leave, because he couldn't (can't) see that. With a group of different minds, it's a cycle of helping each other, helping yourself, and also....Being able to romance or have a great friend and support because of that.

That's what I think, anyway. If I was a Fictif Ambassador (which I do not ever want to be tbh), I wouldn't have much to say regarding any completed stories, or even Into the Mist, but for Monster Manor? I fully believe that's a good ending. That's what I would bring, and I will milly rock someone for saying it needs to be darker, or grittier, or whatever.

I know that it would be different, working under such harsh conditions, and Dorian....Ugh. What a shitshow.

What was the point of the whole Ambassador roles, they approved the Asra tale??? That was so lackluster- Who wrote and approved that shit- I just want to talk, Dorian.

There's still much that I want answered and it makes my eye twitch that Dorian is pulling this horseshit buffonery...

But I might do that in another post. Here's a little brightness that I've been thinking about lately:

Bendy and the Ink Machine. The Dark Revival. It came back! It's so fantastic, it's beautiful. I hope that LL and MM can get the same treatment- A revival. A good ending to beautiful concepts and aesthetics. Sage, Anisa, Felix, Casimir, Rainier, Erytheia, and even Fin- They fucking deserve it. Maybe the devs can bring them back, slightly redesigned, with a different name, but ultimately the same plot and vibe.

I won't ever "drop" Monster Manor, it's gotten me through some stuff, and still does! It brought me Finch, it brought me friends and a fandom! I owe it a lot, and I hope we can see it to a completed end.

But...Do make sure to record the story, screenshot it, what have you. Prepare to prepare, is what my uncle says about tough situations.

[emmacreatures]

Considering a deal..

IM BACK!! Ngl, i'm a little doubtful about this next one!! Some parts I like, but its- RGHDJNF despite I'm mostly obsessed about Ka'am and Quaritch, especially after his update, they're so difficult to write, but I hope you guys enjoy despite i'm still doubting about it hsjdbd, I might tweek some things here and there but, we'll see! this is a follow up on PET PEEVES! Absolutely Ka'am x Quaritch focused, with some Ter'ran and lyle in there! Enjoy

FOLLOW UP ON THIS: https://www.tumblr.com/emmacreatures/712710128372252672/pet-peeves

For Ka'am had gotten into the woods with his thanator.. Lyle and Ter'ran had caught up.. Until it hit Ter'ran, who quickly stood up after clinging onto Lyle like the strongest glue. "We need you to get the hell out of here" Ter'ran said for he cut open Lyle's robes that had tied him up when everyone was gone for a bit.. "Woah hold up?! I just fucking found you. It took me awhile to even realize its you. So nah. No way I'm leaving. Especially without you" Lyle said cocky but serious, seeing Ter'ran seemed nervous. It made Lyle walk up to him to shake him out of it. "Doesnt it occur you for a second i'm right infront of you" Lyle said for Ter'ran breathed in firmly, wanting to hit him, but at the same time never let go of him anymore.. But then his most important thought of now got into his mind. "Did your boss ever find out about us.." Ter'ran asked seriously, holding Lyle's face for he looked him right in the eyes, feeling the hold of Lyle. "Why do you ask that out of all things?? no why. Who do you think I am, I aint letting that slide like that." Lyle said confident.. For Ter'ran was still thinking.. "is he back.. like you are. With the whole program". Ter'ran kept asking, for Lyle frowned, noticing he got more tense. "Why are you so tight up. Cant we enjoy this for a second.. You've been all thats on my mind.." "And then it takes you a bit to realise its me?-" "Hey I got KIDNAPPED" Lyle said for Ter'ran looked around eventually, letting go of Lyle as he realized Ka'am went into the forest. "Hey whats the actual matter with you?" Lyle asked direct. "I saw Ka'am's glare. Our connection made him frown.. if ka'ams out there and they cross paths they might have a big gathering and i'll know he'll mention it" Ter'ran said, for Lyle frowned. "who says they'll get along. Quaritch stepped back from him actually.. Surprisingly. Which made me take my own decisions. He never got scared or pulled back from things" Lyle said for Ter'ran got silent. "Did you said quaritch..." "Yeah- Did you hear me stutter?" "Shut up" Ter'ran said as his ears folded. "Then they will get along, which means you have to get your ass out of here" Ter'ran said absolutely dead serious, noticing Lyle was rebelling through this.

"What on earth are you talking about?!". Lyle stood serious, glaring at Ter'ran who knew this was going to end rough if the two so happened to meet in person. "That boss of yours doesnt happen to be the same quaritch who so happened to let out a navi years ago" Ter'ran said as Lyle got suspicious now. "How the hell do you know about that" Lyle said for Ter'ran tilted his head in a movement. "guess with our luck who that was." Ter'ran said as Lyle finally got the links. "Fan-fucking-tastic. Of course it had to be like that. But that doesnt mean jack shit. You should know I can stand my own damn ground. If he has some.. 'odd' connection to a navi then so can I." "Arent you understanding this whole problem?! Big chances Ka'am will eventually talk to him, if not your boss would, and if they found out about us by putting the dots together its going to be game over" Ter'ran said worried, knowing if Ka'am would find out the man dated and.. did more with just a human. . He'd be pissed to say the least. especially now that he was shaped the way he was. "So.." Lyle eventually said.. "So?" "Yeah.. So what. Let them find out" "And you think they'll be so easy about it?" "Why are you so worried, I dont know Ter'ran being afraid of things.." Lyle said honest, almost sounding dissapointing. "I'm scared of him at times. Okay. He used to be my best friend, but he shaped himself to be something to be feared.. Try to at least show some compassion for me-" "As much as I like to, and as much as Quaritch can get tired of my shit as well, he wont hurt us.. Maybe he sometimes thinks about it.. but he wont"

"And what if my leader will.. He almost killed you already.. I cannot loose you again.. I can barely believe you're here" Ter'ran said eventually.. Making Lyle sense Ter'ran was afraid of that of all things.. "Your friend would be a sore loser if he'd try to kill the one joy of yours.. Instead of focusing on what can happen, maybe we should focus more on goddamn us. Because man. I missed you so fucking much.." Lyle said in his own ways, for Ter'ran made the eye contact at last, feeling he got hold again by Lyle.. Which made him melt into the man's hands.. Taking his head into his hands, a happy tear flew down his cheek.. Just letting it sink that he indeed was back.. "took you long enough.." Ter'ran eventually said, making Lyle smirk to see the Ter'ran appear that he so desperately loved. "Thats my cowboy."

Meanwhile... Ka'am was going through pandora, in sync with his thanator who could be as silent as the night, trained by Ka'am that way.. It was slowly becoming day again as the majority of time was night.. Which made it almost impossible for most to find Ka'am is he was out in pandora at night. The mix of his nature, along his colors and paint he wore at times made it impossible even for animals to notice him.. but with daylight it was still a big hassle.. But more easy to have luck in finding him. After a long search, Ka'am noticed to see the group of Quaritch out there again, possibly searching for the idiot they had captured.. Making him slide off his thanator, telling it to go around the group, as silent as can be. "Mansk. Zdog, go to your left. And be careful, like we experienced last night, you never know whats in these woods" Quaritch said as he held his own weapon in his hands, telling the others to spread around.. Ka'am tilted his head before getting closer, crawling over the ground like it was the easiest thing. The man had some knives with him hidden, but he had left his bow behind.. Feeling like it wasnt nessesairy. His aura was intimidating enough already... To say the least. quaritch frowned as he looked around, watching his own back as he kept circling to check every corner of his eye.. Ka'am however got closer and closer, slowly raising his body from the ground as within seconds, he appeared like a shadow, close behind Quaritch..

In the exact moment, Quaritch felt a familair but cold chill down his spine, but just as he wanted to turn around, Zdawg yelled "JESUS CHRIST- COLONEL WATCH OUT". As every recom pointed at Ka'am, who didnt move a single muscle or eye, Except Quaritch, the man seemed to recognize the man immediately, but instead of just seeing his eyes, he finally saw the shape, the scent.. Seeing the energy, the glare, from upclose "HOLD YOUR FIRE-" "COLONEL ARE YOU NUTS?!" One of the recoms yelled, as they still held up all their weapons. "I WILL NOT REPEAT MYSELF" Quaritch didnt really yell, but his volume was up high and extremely dominant. By that.. Hesitantly, the recoms lowered their weapons with dissaproval.. Ka'am's head was slightly tilted at Quaritch, the left side of his face showed more than the side that had some scars.. Only his tail moved slowly, as if he was awaiting what Quaritch would do... Watching very closely.. But Quaritch slowly caught up too.. "No bow.. No visible weaponry. Am I that inviting to you?" Quaritch said low and serious, as he watched him back, seeing no sudden threat to him.. But he could almost sense that Ka'am was no fond of the others.. And as he expected.. as soon as one of the recoms tried to talk to Quaritch, Ka'am's ears folded, and just by that small detail, Quaritch knew it was a life or death situation. "Leave.." Quaritch all the sudden said, making Alexander smirk. "Hell yeah colonel, thats w-" "All of you. Leave" quaritch said in a way he wouldnt repeat himself with, noticing doubts of the group for they didnt expect it was focused on them, but as loyal as they were.. They slowly backed off.. ka'am's glare was still there, staring right at Quaritch as after a while..

He could sense the group had left or at least kept his distance for now. "Colonel.. We're not too far away, just give us any sign.. incase things can happen" The microphone at Quaritch' neck started ongoing, which made Ka'am's ears fold again.. Feeling betrayed for a second for the fact his group was disloyal... hating it. Without much of a second thought, Quaritch pressed onto the button to speak back. "Go back to bridgehead. Thats my final order" He said threatening, clicking the device off for Ka'am kept silent and his eyes on the man that now seemed serious in their interaction, as alone as it could be.. "you gonna stare at me or will you actually talk now that they've left.." Quaritch said as he pushed his own gun to his back.. Standing still as he watched this predator like navi infront of him watch every move.. Quaritch sensed Ka'am waited until the recoms would be far gone.. But Quaritch felt like continuing their conversation after watching the man a little bit more, daring to do so. He felt his mind was surprised but almost struggling to.. see and feel this same level of dominance from both men. He had never met a match like that before, nor realized this man possibly matched him on more front and visa versa.. but it didnt nessesairly intimidate him, it definitely was more of an inside battle.. But Ka'am was experiencing the same despite it didnt seem like it.. Staring directly at Quaritch, he knew for sure.. it was the man he had met before, but how... How on earth was it possible that he was back. He knew the skeleton. The ampsuit.. But through all the silence, not one of the two had stepped closer.

"Any reason you decided to surprise me" Quaritch said low, seeing Ka'am look up and down at Quaritch, listening close to his voice. ".. I remember you. You might've not said a word back then, nor did we say anything to each other, but you've heard everyone around you, knowing exactly what they said. I know you know english" Quaritch said eventually, knowing 100% it were the same eyes he met 16 years ago. "that is, if i'm willing to speak it" Ka'am finally said, in english, as he tilted his head more the other side, which revealed the scars on his right side better.. Now slowly moving a little bit, but Quaritch kept standing where he was, looking at Ka'am.. He still felt that rather strong chill down his spine, but oddly enough he could tell despite the danger this man's aura showed.. that he would be in no danger right now, unless he'd make a wrong move. Watching Ka'am slowly come closer with a threatening look.. Quaritch got a better and closer look at what the man had become.. Without much of a warning, Ka'am walked around Quaritch slowly.. Taking his tail in his hands for a bit.. Go along his rather muscular arms like a direct inspection. Before taking a sharp bone from his hair to poke Quaritch, who glared in a rather warning way... but seeing the man take it to taste him.. Made him silent. He had heard from Jake, the mother of the clan had done it to him before.. as he immediately could sense it was a test to see if he maybe was... pure? he noticed a slight twitch in the man's ears of having tasted his blood.. For Ka'am got curious.

For quaritch couldnt know.. Ka'am's mom was a Tsahik, and from her he had specific things learned that for most were almost uncanny. But it were things he did in order to be the man he was now.. It was sinister, but powerful. Meanwhile as Ka'am stood so close, the mix of his own scent in combination of the things he at times smoked.. Made Quaritch silent to analyze it. He had never smelled anything like it.. The whole navi man infront of him was something he had never seen.. And therefor took different steps than usual.

For Ka'am tried to puzzle out what exactly the man infront of him was, his scent was unlike anything he'd smelled.. his blood tasted young.. It was like a real navi, but something powerful was in the mix, it might've explained why the man at a younger age was so well trained.. For he didnt.. seem to be 20 in their age with the way he handled and mentally communicated. But his body as well, seemed to be more than what most could achieve. Some developed things that only showed there had to be a reason why he was what he was. "Who are you." Ka'am said direct, standing inches away from Quaritch who looked right back at him. "I know you remember me." Quaritch said almost confident but he was careful in his own dominant way. "You have changed" Ka'am said right afterwards, glaring as it didnt make sense yet. "So have you" Quaritch said almost cocky but serious, before Ka'am took the man's wrist rather direct, which made Quaritch a bit more forward in behavior by grabbing the other arm that Ka'am had. glaring as he was about to hit him somehow, though he watched Ka'am's behavior closely.. Seeing how Ka'am felt the man's heartbeat in the wrist, which was surprisingly a little high.. But secure, steady... And very strong.. Sensing he wasnt an avatar, he could just tell from that.

It made Ka'am's expression from dangerous to wandering. He watched the man's wrist before turning to him.. Glaring, but wanting to know.. "How can you be navi. you died". Quaritch watched the man, pulling his wrist back for he wasnt sure what to say as he hissed while pulling his own wrist back. How did the man figure it out. He could just sense ka'am wanted to know. The voice that came from the navi was for some reason peeking his interest more than he expected. Despite he had met ka'am before.. he had never heard his voice yet, and it was only getting worse from here. ""It seems we might've started on the wrong foot. I know you had the intention to kill me, perhaps I always have done the same to your kind. We can do it differently, but not just for nothing" Quaritch said as Ka'am stepped back just a little, trying to figure what Quaritch was.. His curiosity hadnt been this bad in ages, which made him handle differently. "I have a feeling.. You have one of ours." Quaritch said trickily.. Seeing Ka'am looked up and down at him again.. Actually for once answering Quaritch. "We have him.. But he seems to have a very close bond with one of mine.." Ka'am started to say, making Quaritch now slowly dare to approach the dangerous navi for he tilted his head at what he heard.. "As if they met before. My question is.. How" Ka'am said as his ears twitched as he felt bothered.. But surprisingly, it seemed Quaritch was too. But as he heard Quaritch come closer.. The man breathed out.

"just like you." Ka'am ended up saying, looking directly at Quaritch.. But his glance had changed, there was a mere curiosity but it was almost as if he personally had to punish himself for becoming more eager to know this man.. Figure him out. Wanting to know, due reasons he couldnt explain himself yet. The colonel noticed the change in sight.. Making him curious himself, also to what he just heard and decide to make use of it.. also so he could have a more steady, closer look on the navi... "How are you possible... What are you" Ka'am eventually said, glaring at Quaritch who eventually stood close.

"You really want to know.. I can tell you.. But only if you bring him back.. After we both found out how they got to know one another" Quaritch decided to go for a daring decision.. knowing he took the risk to follow this navi into the deep forest, on his own without backup.. but something told him this dominant leader, like himself.. Was peeked in someway, making it a safe bet for now, as his own curiosity was pulling at him unlike anything else.. All he received was a glare from Ka'am.. "I dont do deals.." He said angry.. Making Quaritch look with a tilted head. "Then I suppose you will not hear more of me or my kind" He said trickily, seeing the man hissed as Quaritch almost felt the need to hiss back. They both wanted something... and not just for nothing, as their dominant behavior was fighting to have met their own reflection.. Quaritch recognized this one detail precisely. He was a man that normally would never delve into making deals either.. It was almost uncanny of how alike they were.. For Quaritch never expected to meet someone.. So much on his level, especially Ka'am was struggling with it. He was SO curious about everything, yet felt like it was a curse.. But as the two kept glaring at each other.. Ka'am hissed lightly before turning away from the man, calling his thanator.. which made Quaritch realize the man's curiosity about him, decide on going in on the deal... Making him smirk once before watching every move the navi made.. as so did Ka'am.. It was going to be quite the journey with the two, starting now.

TO BE CONTINUED

[blackshadowswriter]

bestie I'm so late to finally reblogging, but this still hits as hard as the first time I read it, Matty my poor baby 😭😭

You would go anywhere he goes, even if that meant following him to the end of the earth and jumping into the abyss with him; you would do it. You would do it all if only you could stay with him forever. At times, it’s sickening how deep your love runs, and how attached you are to him, but no one has made you feel this way before him. 

This actually makes me SO SICK like the devotion, the commitment, the deep fucking love they have-they literally make me want to jump off a bridge by Matt baby deserves sm of this and also i want this plus the way you write this bestie, I'm just-alkdjfasfdsdfa ITS DRIVING ME INSANE I LOVE IT

You look at him and you see a beautiful vase. A vase that was dropped on expensive marble floors and shattered into a million tiny pieces. Now, someone has to glue those pieces back together because the vase is too precious to let go to waste. You see a man who has been wearing a mask all day, every day, and all night, too—an invisible one that has nothing to do with the physical battles he fights for Hell’s Kitchen after the sun sets.

THIS-THIS-THIS IS ART, and this has to be the most tragically beautiful descriptions of Matt ever and it fits so well that it's so heartbreaking 😭😭 the vase may be broken but the pieces are still beautiful, I LOVE THIS ANALOGY

The muscles in your shoulders protest when he digs his fingers in with such force that it almost makes your knees buckle. This is the storm he so often keeps from you because he’s afraid it might hurt you, but you can weather it. You can weather it for and with him. The pain is worth it if it means that he gets what he needs. If he needs to cling to you like a lifeline, you will stand still and bear it. Your love for him knows no bounds. 

Reader is stronger than me bc I would've gone down like a sack under that man 😔✊ like ALL THAT MUSCLE in that man I could never- ok we're supposed to be sad I need to stop these thoughts

You shush him. He’s crushing you under his weight, but that is exactly what you wanted. Your arms are his shelter, his solace, and everything he needs to survive.  The tsunami of emotions wrecks him, and he cries like he has never cried before. Through all of it, you are his unwavering pillar of calm. His lifeline. The one thing that remains consistent, and the only thing he can always count on. 

NOW IM CRYING bc Matt crying never fails to make me cry, just the image of him crying, his lips trembling, his chin quivering, and his eyes welling up THEY ALWAYS MAKE ME HURT AND SO DOES THIS BUT HE HAS THE COMFORT HE NEEDS SO BADLY, THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS MAN A HUG BESTIE ILY FOR THIS 🙌

If You Need To Be Mean | Matt Murdock x Reader

PART 1 of The Vault

See this post for more information on my Valentine's Day Special & Follower Celebration

Pairing: Matt Murdock x Reader

Summary: Matt can't take another step, but you won't let him fall apart on his own. And if he needs to be mean, he should be mean to you.

Warnings: Angst, self-loathing, hurt/comfort

A/n: This is the first installment of my follower celebration and Valentine's special. This is a more recent fic I wrote, but it's been in the vault for a couple weeks. I just wish I could hug him as Karen did because the one hug he got throughout the show was not nearly enough. I wrote this because of the scene captured in the gif below and got inspired by a certain set of lyrics in the song I Don't Smoke by Mitski. Enjoy this, and Happy Valentine's Day, you lovely people! Go hug someone you care about. Spend time with friends. Be nice to each other. And don't forget to love each other.

He’s so fucking soft.

He doesn’t look like it—this muscular, stoic force of a man who carries himself with a confidence that leaves the people around him speechless. 

He doesn’t look like the kind of man who would be soft. But you know him, and you know that no man could possibly be more gentle, more caring, and more vulnerable than Matt is when it comes to the one he loves and trusts more than anything in this godforsaken world. 

His undying devotion for you has turned him into an open book. Your fingers read the scars on his skin like Braille. When you look into his unfocused hazel eyes, analyzing the specks of forest green inside them whenever the sun hits his irises just right, you see the man behind the iron mask he wears to shield his fragile heart from the world. 

You’re well aware of the hurt he has been through in the past, the hell he walked through to get where he is now, and you have never admired someone more than you do him. You have never felt more willing to surrender your entire being to another person because, in return, he offered you all of him. He did not do so from the beginning; it took Matt a while, but when his facade finally cracked and he broke down at your feet, you were more than willing to catch him.

On broken knees and bloody palms, he would crawl home to you. He would walk the same path Jesus walked with the heavy cross on his back if it meant holding you one last time. And he would die for you. 

He proved that time and time again, and you had never been so scared as when you thought the love of your life would never make it back home to you. That you would never get to see his smile again or feel his arms around you. You knew then that what you two have could only be true love. 

Whenever he touches you, your world is set on fire. It’s his way of seeing you. Feeling your pulse, feeling your skin, touching your face—he wants to memorize every inch of you every day, embracing all the changes he finds along the way and loving you even more for it.

You would go anywhere he goes, even if that meant following him to the end of the earth and jumping into the abyss with him; you would do it. You would do it all if only you could stay with him forever. At times, it’s sickening how deep your love runs, and how attached you are to him, but no one has made you feel this way before him. 

He makes you feel wanted, cherished, and desired. He proves to you how amazing you are every day, and when he forgets—when he pushes you away or gets lost in his head and you have to pull him back from the edge he doesn’t fall off again, he repents for what he believes to be the greatest sin he could ever commit, which is hurting you. Breaking your heart. But you have not left him, and you do not plan on doing so. Ever. You told him as much.

Matt Murdock is as endlessly devoted to you as you are to him.

You get to his vulnerable—his shattered—side in different ways on different days. Sometimes, he needs to cry, and sometimes he just needs to be mean. He needs to be mean, and he needs to beat someone up, but there come days when beating up someone else isn’t enough, and he takes it out on himself. Those days are the worst. 

He’s not infallible, and he’s not perfect, but you can’t stand to see him hurting. He doesn’t deserve it, no matter how badly he insists that he does. 

You can tell that he just wants to scream sometimes. You fight, you argue, but never when he’s feeling his worst. When he’s feeling his worst, Matt bottles it up. He bottles it up to the point he beats his fists bloody at Fogwell's Gym, needing you to patch him up after. He doesn’t even cry when you kiss his knuckles. He doesn’t cry when he accidentally opens them back up and it burns so badly, his cheeks turn red from the sheer agony.

Sometimes, we all need to cry, but Matt hates doing it in front of you. He hates taking it out on you. And he would rather blame and hurt himself than drag you down with him, which is something that you wish you could take away from him, but you never know how. All you can do is react when he finally spreads himself open for you. All you can do is hold him when he lets you, but more often than not, that is more than enough for this broken man you feel honored to be able to call yours. Only yours.

You’re standing in the doorway to his bedroom, wearing nothing but his shirt. The fabric carries his scent, mixing with yours on your bare skin.

It’s not a sexual thing. Not tonight. Not most nights, either. You wear his clothes and use his shampoo because you know how sensitive he is, and whenever you’re with him, you want him to be comfortable. When you smell like the both of you instead of the world outside of the four walls of his home, he can melt into you. No distractions, no limits, just the two of you, together.

Matt walks through the front door, dropping his bag by the door and his keys in the bowl. He tears the glasses off his face, having left indentations on the bridge of his nose from how long he had been wearing them all day. He has a black eye, and without his glasses, he fears that their clients at Nelson, Murdock, and Page might feel discouraged to come to them if they saw him purple and bruised.

You understand where he’s coming from, but he’s suffering. You want nothing more than to ease that suffering. To be good to him. For him. With him.

You look at him and you see a beautiful vase. A vase that was dropped on expensive marble floors and shattered into a million tiny pieces. Now, someone has to glue those pieces back together because the vase is too precious to let go to waste. You see a man who has been wearing a mask all day, every day, and all night, too—an invisible one that has nothing to do with the physical battles he fights for Hell’s Kitchen after the sun sets.

Matt feels like he is losing all control. Your concern only adds to his mental load. You try to hide it, but he is a bloodhound. He can smell, hear, and feel everything. Every little change in your behavior gets noticed, and you can’t hide how you feel about him.

The grabby hands of the outside world refuse to let him go. He can’t tune it out. It’s written all over your face. And you feel so utterly helpless, you could cry. You want to cry for him.

You exhale a soft sigh when he approaches you. “Matt,” you murmur. 

He sniffs. His eyes glisten in the soft yellow luminance of the Billboard outside, projecting a tragic beauty onto your beaten hero. 

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” he answers, his voice cracking halfway through one simple word. 

“So, everything?” you ask. 

“Yeah,” Matt nods, “Every-fucking-thing.”

His invisible mask falls to the ground, and with it, his defenses crumble. 

“I, uh…I can’t–” He steps in front of you, and his bottom lip quivers with the weight of a thousand different emotions that flicker like a burnt-out candle. “I can’t do this alone anymore,” he says. 

Your heart breaks. He’s towering over you, yet all he wants is to fall into you. You have to catch him before it’s too late. 

A tear rolls down his cheek. “I don’t know what to do. I can’t...I can’t take another step.”

“You’re not alone,” you whisper. “And you don’t have to–you don’t have to take another step if you don’t want to. You can take a break. You can breathe. It’s okay, baby. It’s okay.”

Matt falls into your open arms. You close them around him instantly, chest-to-chest, heart-to-heart. His sobs reverberate in your ear, and the salt of your tears mingles with his on the skin above your collarbone. 

Your fingers tangle in his hair and ball into a tight fist. You can’t let him go. He would fall apart if you did. “You’re gonna be okay,” your voice remains barely above a whisper. The cadence resembles a soft wave of vibrations that shake him to his very core. “You hear me?” you say. “You’re gonna be okay. I’ve got you, and I’m not going anywhere. Ever.”

He grunts. 

“You always think that you have to function, but you don’t. The city may need you, but you need yourself even more. You can take a step back.”

The muscles in your shoulders protest when he digs his fingers in with such force that it almost makes your knees buckle. This is the storm he so often keeps from you because he’s afraid it might hurt you, but you can weather it. You can weather it for and with him. The pain is worth it if it means that he gets what he needs. If he needs to cling to you like a lifeline, you will stand still and bear it. Your love for him knows no bounds. 

Feeling you flinch, Matt’s grip on you loosens. You’re not having any of it. You pull him closer by the waist, and you say, “If you need to be mean, be mean to me.”

“Stop it,” his words resemble a strangled groan. 

“No. Let it out.” You sound so earnest, the truth becomes hard to miss. “I can take it.”

“Please.”

You shush him. He’s crushing you under his weight, but that is exactly what you wanted. Your arms are his shelter, his solace, and everything he needs to survive. 

The tsunami of emotions wrecks him, and he cries like he has never cried before. Through all of it, you are his unwavering pillar of calm. His lifeline. The one thing that remains consistent, and the only thing he can always count on. 

He’s so soft. The world doesn’t deserve him, and you will spend the rest of your life trying to protect his heart with your own.

Tag List: @littlenerdyravenclaw @yarrystyleeza @etanordoesbullsh1t @thychuvaluswife @harleycao @schneeflocky @imjustcal @pipsqueakkitten @merlinbtch @sya-skies @amberritonicole @thatonegamefish @norestfortheshelbywicked @mattkinsella @itwasthereaminuteago @linamarr @gpenguin666 @acharliecoxedfan

[radiant-reid]

okay now im curious how did spencer and reader’s “breakup” go when red came out? thank you darlingg 😍

something like this. also, only slightly related but how is JJ the only one with blue eyes ??

You never wished you didn't have Spencer as your boyfriend. He was everything you ever wanted...but that didn't negate the fact it would be better to listen to Red TV while heartbroken.

"I think we've got to break up." You tell him one night, scrolling TikTok and seeing the excitement of all the heartbroken people.

Spencer chuckles, not taking you seriously at all. "Really? Did Morgan put you up to this?" He asks, still reading. "Again?"

"Nope. Taylor did." You reply. He looks up from his book with far more concern at that unisex name. "Taylor Swift." You clarify before he can freak out.

He breathes out overdramatically, relaxed again. "And how did she do that?"

"You know her album getting rereleased?" You start. He does know since you've talked about it nonstop. "Well, there are lots of sad songs, so I need to be heartbroken."

He laughs even more at that, reaching out to grab your thigh and pull your legs onto his lap. "I like seeing you happy, though, because I love you."

"How am I supposed to sing my heart out to I Knew You Were Trouble, We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together, All Too Well- which, by the way, is getting a ten-minute version-, The Moment I Knew, Sad Beautiful Tragic, The Last Time, I Almost Do and Red when you're telling me that?" You ask him flatly.

He shrugs. "If you need a fire sign with blue yes, you could always date JJ." He offers, smugly grinning.

You know why, and you hit him on the shoulder for sneaking the comment in. "Just because we made out that one time, huh?"

"Yup." He agrees. "Wait, what about Holy Ground? I mean, aside from all the good stuff being written in the past tense. Oh, or Treacherous." He grips your thigh tighter, fingers splayed out across your skin. "'Cause, you'll do anything I said if I say it with my hands."

"You're so unhelpful." You sigh. "I could always break up with you."

He shakes his head. "Not if I don't let you."

"So I'm stuck with you now?" You joke, pouting as you lay your head on his shoulder.

"Like glue." He answers. "I'm sure there's something I can do to convince you that's a good thing."

[dandelionpixels]

Hi!! I just saw your blog abt making x reader hcs? And i would reaaaally really love one! I had a bad night last night, so i'm shooting my shot ( ˃̣̣̣̣̣̣o˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ) I'm like hugging my Iron Man plushie as i'm typing this haha. One of my comfort characters is Bucky Barnes from Marvel and i'd love to request an romantic hc with him! i really really like him as well as the actor who plays him (*��̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑ ♡

a small info about me,,,

well considering my bad night last night, i'm just a tad bit sensitive? i got upset last night for certain reasons and told basically the air that "im not a bad person. i don't get why im treated this way."

i have trouble sleeping, i get nightmares when i sleep early or at a normal time and wake up in the middle of the night. i had one nightmare that was the scariest and got so scared i had to wake my older sister up then cried.

i like cute things! i love, love, love plushies. i'm 18 but i often get insecure bc i feel like im not the same as ppl my age? like i do babytalk with my family, even my two older sisters bf know (im the youngest in our family and they're basically family anyways since they saw me growing up) but normally im just a softspoken person. there was one time i was upset and my sister was in a call with her ldr boyfriend and told my sister that it was his first time hearing me without baby talk.

i get jealous? like im not when i see someone like my crush or something i get all war freak and all 'back away! he's mine!', im more of a silent one? like i get sulky and stuff. when im upset im just silent which you'd immediately know bc im usually all fun and outgoing.

idk why and what energy i radiate to people but i find almost everyone of them 'babying' me. or like has a soft spot for me? last year around October when i had to meet up with my teacher and classmates for our grad pic, i was told to remove my socks bc it was colorful. my teacher then said i was their baby in the class.

i like to drink milk and i like sweets ! i like to do my hair a lot too, and! i like big clothes. mostly jackets or hoodies. which if i get a bf id wear his.

last thing is i don't really like physical touch? bc of trauma. but i know if i get a bf someday and be comfy w him id get clingy and such. id basically glue to their side and cuddle with them and all. id also love some petnames, ppl call me petnames and that's something i actually love too. (ღ•͈ᴗ•͈ღ)

im sorry if some of it was tmi, but that's some info abt me!! thank you in advanced for reading this and for doing this! it means a lot. (╥﹏╥) have a good day!! < 333

omg okay first off you sound AWESOME!!! im so sorry you had a bad night!! i tried to get this one out as quickly as possible, i hope it’s what you’re looking for!! feel better!! <33

- i wanna start with the hoodie thing. bucky definitely loves when you steal his jackets and hoodies and stuff. he thinks you look so cute and honestly hes so embarrassed bc he’ll full on blush just seeing you

- i feel like even before you guys were together he’d sleep on your couch, just in case you had a nightmare or couldnt sleep. like you’d wake up suddenly and within two seconds he’s knocking gently at your door going “hey, are you alright?”

- he definitely understands feeling like the world is treating you poorly, even though you’re really a good person. and anytime you feel like talking about it he’s always such a good listener. like genuinely entirely focused on you bc hes so honored that you trust him

- also omg he likes that you get jealous. not in a creepy way but bc its still so crazy to him that someone actually loves him. so like you guys are lounging around on the couch together and he gets a call from some lady he met at the store right? you stop whatever you’re doing and kinda sulk where you’re sitting next to him. he notices it immediately and without missing a beat, puts his free arm around your shoulder and kisses you on the cheek

- he loves the way you talk. like genuinely he’s so glad you feel comfortable with him and he thinks its so sweet

- sometimes he goes to the store and comes back with barely anything he actually needs and instead he’s got a bag full of various sugar-y stuff because he thought it’d make you smile

- he always tries to let you initiate physical touch first, just to make sure you’re never uncomfy :)

- i also feel like you guys absolutely have lots of movie night dates... with snacks and pillow forts and the huge wolf plushie he bought you for valentines day

- he obviously knows how to braid and stuff from his long hair days, so he def loves when you let him help with your hair!!

- omg last thing sorry! sometimes you’ll fall asleep on him and he’ll just stay there for hours, because hes happy you’re not having a nightmare and he thinks you’re so cute when you’re asleep

[itgirlgyurecs]

[by your side 100% of the time you cannot get rid of him.]

okay why do i feel like I would hate him ( proceeds super glue our backs together 👀)

[cooks for you !!! tries to make your food as interesting as possible so you won't get bored, without adding things that will make you feel worse or aren't good for you]

THIS THIS THIS OMG I HAVE THIS THING ( not me everyone) where I would literally not any shit like nothing at all except water and hot drinks. he is so real giving it his twists and making it eatable 😢😢😢 lemme wife u up 🤧

[infact don't even speak, he'll learn morse code so you can just beep him whenever you need]

SHUT UP THIS IS SO FUCKINH HILARIOUS BUT ALSO SO YEONJUN CODE HE'D BE LIKE BABY BAT YOUR LASHES ONE TIME FOR KISS ANS TWO TIMES FOR A MAKE OUT SESSION!!!!

(he's ontop of you so much he probably catches whatever you have)

he's so real for this!!!! I NEED ME A WIFE LIKE YEONJUN ASAP MY LIL QUEEN IN HIS LIL APRON!! 😔

[1. because it's gross 2. because he hates seeing you in pain but mainly because it's gross]

ik he is real for it but I would also use the clothe he's wearing to wipe my nose EVERYTIME

[you're not staying in his bed i'm sorry he's gonna come over to your house to take care of you during the day and go home to his snot free blankets at night]

fuck soobin but this is literally whenever a family member gets sick like OK imm a take care of you in YOUR room.

["sorry guys yn's still dying i can't come to work today"]

im sorry but he's so FUCKING BLUNT YES DEFINITELY WORD It THAT WAY it's the sagittarius mercury we be suffering 😩🤷🏻‍♀️

[but then it starts getting worse and he comes home to you falling over yourself in the kitchen because of your dizzy spells and nearly has a stroke]

BRO IMAGINE YOU FAINT and he faints after seeing you faint and after you wake up have lug around his half dead boy lmao with your weak ass

("mom they just took a really deep breath does that mean something")

This is so ducking funny ik literally slapping my thighs ( mentally bc im laying down)

(i know practically everyone in moaville would say he'd tease the shit out of you but in my head he'd be the most worried for you)

bro literally he'd be near deaths door with how worried sick he'd be, he's hella sensitive like that

SNOTTY BABY STFU! I JUST IMAGINED HIM GOING HAHA SNOTTY BABY AND THEN HAVE A PANICED BROKEN LAUGH

[surprisingly good at negotiation like you're being stubborn because you don't want to take your medicine and he's like "if you drink the cough syrup i'll let you listen to the demos for our next comeback" and before you know it you've sold your childhood home to him for 3/4 of the initial price ]

THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD IM SO ENTERTAINED HOW DO YOU THINK OF THEM OMG

[his first instinct is to take you to the doctor to figure out what's wrong but gets into a fight with doctor for charging him 19382928 won just to press his hand to your forehead and tell him you have a head cold (terry is against this capitalist society]

it's LITERALLY Canon TERRANCE AGAINST CAPITALIST ( imagine in a few years he gets exposed for buying idk a penguin in a bikini nft)

ok tmi im hella against of going to docs but I'm sure they will give me small dose meds to get me admitted to hospital that's why i try to wait it out bur my sister is opposite so I hid from her and thats how I ended up taking an iv at home lmao

[changes your entire lifestyle to the maximum efficiency so you get better as quickly as possible and makes sure you stick to it]

THIS IS GIVING ME WAR FLASHBACKS WHY IS IT ALWAYS TERRY?!?!

("how'd you know i wanted water?" "you looked thirsty") bro it could go two ways...

taehyun is such a cute little tsundere my younger child I love him so much omg but the way you write him he's such a boss baby I LOVE HIM

(probably calls his sisters too) men with only sisters >>>>>>>>

("wow yn!! i can't believe you ate all your soup!!! you're so cool!!!")

tell me why this mf would pull a stunt like here comes the airplane vrooooooom and you'd have to comply bc you don't want him to feel embarrassed

(probably lies and tells you they're all super rare and he's the only one in the world who has them)

I just let out thr biggest sign I want to laminate this man in a air tight package and protect him!!!!!!!??

(taehyun asks you to get sick more often if it means he doesn't have to fight his way through the ironing board and bike to get to the sink)

and now taehyun. pretends to get sick to get the same effect and hyuka is like: wdy want me to do?

this was so freaking hilarious omg! you're a comedic GENIUS I WAS LITERALLY CACKIMG LIKE A GODDAMN WITCH EVERY TWO SECOND AND DURING EVERY LINE!!! and i love your characterization of txt so so so much in these like I could literally imagine all of them here that's literally them!!!! and I have this thing since I was a child where I was like yk would you'd s/o do the things your parents do when you get sick like won't you be a burden to them? this kinda helps ease that thought a bit, like maybe you'd not be a burden to them. this wa so so so incredibly soft and cute and also hilarious!

hi love I HAVE A RQQQ- TXT OR ENHA WITH A SICK S/O PLEASE!! i have a killer cold and the worst dizzy spells ever nd i would love some comfort 😞😞 thank u sm

★ ✯ ☆ TXT WITH A SICK!S/O

★ pairing. txt x gn!reader genre. fluff, comfort warnings. mentions of food wc. 100-300 each

✯ synopsis. txt with a sick s/o!!

☆ a/n. firstly i am so sorry this took 4 months 💀 writers block is the bane of my existence. i do hope this manages to bring you some comfort though :( please do take care of yourself and get well soon! (even though you are most likely not sick anymore 😭) also how ironic is it that i'm currently sick... :')

YEONJUN | 연준

by your side 100% of the time you cannot get rid of him.

he's over your bed when you wake up in the morning, waiting outside the bathroom door for you, laying right next to while you're sleeping. everywhere you are, so is yeonjun

will bend over backwards to get you anything you need

water? medicine? soup? more blankets? less blankets? he's on it before you can even ask

cooks for you !!! tries to make your food as interesting as possible so you won't get bored, without adding things that will make you feel worse or aren't good for you

you're bedridden. don't even try to fight him

he won't let you lift a finger, he wants you to get as much rest as possible so you can get better as quickly as possible

infact don't even speak, he'll learn morse code so you can just beep him whenever you need

if his schedule allows he'll stay home with you and be by your side every second of the day, if not he's texting you every free moment he has to make sure you're okay

would definitely call in sick if you were feeling particularly tired and need his care that day

has multiple reminders to make sure you're taking your medicine on time, will scold you if you're even a second late

he'll never tell you but he secretly enjoys you being sick . . .

he love love loves to take care of you, especially when you call on him to do things for you it makes him all giddy knowing you need him (he's not a creep i swear)

he's ontop of you so much he probably catches whatever you have

atleast you're sick together

SOOBIN | 수빈

hates to see you sick

1. because it's gross 2. because he hates seeing you in pain but mainly because it's gross

you're not staying in his bed i'm sorry he's gonna come over to your house to take care of you during the day and go home to his snot free blankets at night

gets your medicine mixed up all the time and complains it's the doctor's fault for prescribing ones that look so similar

low-key takes advantage of this situation so he can skip work and spend some quality time with you LMAOOO

"sorry guys yn's still dying i can't come to work today"

at first it's fun because you just have your average head cold so he doesn't worry too much

but then it starts getting worse and he comes home to you falling over yourself in the kitchen because of your dizzy spells and nearly has a stroke

panik

he starts stressing like a mad man after that

probably gets himself sick just with how stressed out he is it's a problem

definitely calls his mom for help he doesn't know what to do

updates her on every little thing you do

"mom they just took a really deep breath does that mean something"

buys the entire pharmacy

wants to kick himself for not taking it seriously when you first got sick he feels so guilty 😭

although you did enjoy his company and the endless marvel marathons so all is well

will not leave you alone. you have to shit with the door open.

will do everything for you even if you're perfectly capable of doing it yourself

from brushing your hair to fluffing your pillows he's gonna do it all

he'll even clean for you, that's his ultimate declaration of love

in the end he didn't really do much to nurse you back to health but A for effort

BEOMGYU | 범규

i know practically everyone in moaville would say he'd tease the shit out of you but in my head he'd be the most worried for you

googles every single one of your symptoms and then cries himself to sleep because myonlineclinic.com told him you have cholera and 6 days to live

the only reason he'd tease you is to mask his worry

he'd watch you go through 60 boxes of tissues and be like "omg my snotty baby" but on the inside he's freaking out 😭

your pain is his pain, the way you feel affects him and his mood drastically

he's irritable when you are, he's tired when you are, your appetites probably sync too

puts a curse on whoever spread their nasty germs to you with ginger roots and vinegar

i think he'd also be the most sympathetic since he gets sick a lot more often than the others

so gentle and understanding compared to his usual self it's a little scary 😭

surprisingly good at negotiation like you're being stubborn because you don't want to take your medicine and he's like "if you drink the cough syrup i'll let you listen to the demos for our next comeback" and before you know it you've sold your childhood home to him for 3/4 of the initial price

will whip out his guitar and sing for you in a heartbeat if you ask him too

obviously tries to crack jokes and make you smile so you don't feel too miserable, he feels so accomplished even if you just scoff at him 🙁

gets back to his usual annoying self once you're better though

TAEHYUN | 태현

ironically, he doesn't know what to do

he rarely gets sick and when he does it passes in a day or two, so when you've been coughing like you have bronchitis for the past week he feels so lost

his first instinct is to take you to the doctor to figure out what's wrong but gets into a fight with doctor for charging him 19382928 won just to press his hand to your forehead and tell him you have a head cold (terry is against this capitalist society)

also buys the entire pharmacy

changes your entire lifestyle to the maximum efficiency so you get better as quickly as possible and makes sure you stick to it

strict like a prison warden, sometimes you wonder if he actually loves you

which he obviously does, but it's hard to believe so when he avoids any unnecessary contact with you as if you have the plague

takes you outside every once in a while to get some fresh air, he feels stuffy just watching you sit around

it also keeps you active 💪

he's always pestering you to wash your hands

will not let you touch him otherwise

makes sure he keeps your space clean, always has tissues and anything else you might need within your reach

at your aid 24/7

you take up a colossal space in his heart he's so soft for you

flying to your side before you even say anything

you don't even have to tbh he can read your mind

"how'd you know i wanted water?" "you looked thirsty"

if he notices you're feeling extra miserable he'll sing for you to cheer you up

swallows his pride because he's down bad and pulls out his best southern accent when you ask him to sing country music

he will be teased for the next millenia but it was worth it for you

he's like an overbearing mother but you get better the fastest when he's taking care of you

HUENINGKAI | 휴닝카이

another mama's boy

probably calls his sisters too

hiyyih would tell him to soak your pills in vegetable oil as a joke but he'll actually do it because he's just that hopeless

he's unable to think straight he just wants to do everything in his power to make you feel better 😭

although he gets the hang of it pretty quickly, he's a fast learner and genuinely enjoys taking care of you

always praising you !!

"wow yn!! i can't believe you ate all your soup!!! you're so cool!!!"

tries to distract you by showing you his entire collection of pokemon cards

probably lies and tells you they're all super rare and he's the only one in the world who has them

does his best not to cause you any stress, he just wants you to focus on resting

the things this man does because he loves you istg

he cleans the entire dorm because it's a breeding ground for bacteria and he doesn't want anything making you more sick

the guys come home to the house spotless they're just like 🤯🤯🤯🤯

taehyun asks you to get sick more often if it means he doesn't have to fight his way through the ironing board and bike to get to the sink

he even lets you play on his DS he's down bad

side rant: i feel like kai is secretly a neat freak, he abhors the sight of filth but is just too lazy to do anything about it so he forces himself to deal with it 💀

anyway he's such a sweetheart :( does his best to keep the mood up even if you're feeling miserable because your nose is so filled with so much snot that you can't breathe

his positive energy definitely rubs off on you!!!

he actually does a good job taking care of you, he's a bit stressed at first but you're back to good health in no time !!!

© OX1-LOVESICK ── all rights reserved. do not copy, translate, alter, or repost my work without my explicit permission.

[buckyjamess-archive]

𝓻𝓸𝓼𝓲𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓲 ❁ 𝓫𝓾𝓬𝓴𝔂 𝓫𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓼

chapter seventeen • a/n: thank the sudden burst of inspiration for these chapters coming out so fast. Feedback is appreciated! • wordcount: 1.5k+ • warnings: kids, parenthood, nothing more?

summary

going through  rough years after losing your husband, you try to raise your daughter the best you can. With the help from the wilson's you make the best of it but the road is bumpy when sam introduces you to his friend.

masterlist

F O U R M O N T H S L A T E R

"I'm running a little late today, so I won't be home in time but I asked Steve to be there to open up–" a heavy sigh "for the love of god, try to be nice buck, that's all I'm asking, okay? Also, can you let me know if you're staying for dinner so I can pick up something extra on my way back– thank you. Okay..bye, love you." 

love you. Bucky never expected to keep hearing those words falling from your lips but he does– after every call, every voicemail, every goodbye and see you soon. It makes him smile yet he doesn't deserve those two words. 

you had assured him that morning after that you would always love him no matter what; that he's still the father of yet another gift in your life. The best months of your life after a shit show of years prior– you'd always love Bucky even if he broke your heart in a million pieces, he seemed to be the only one to put it back together..or steve. Steve did a pretty good job of glueing shattered parts of your heart back together.

It angered bucky. Coincidentally; Steve rogers marriage came to an end not two weeks after you'd moved into your own little place with the kids and for a split second Bucky had wondered if nothing ever happened between you and Steve during the time he suspected something. But he believed you. Nothing had happened, never and though Bucky still had to get used to Steve being around more and more each day, he knew he could trust the blonde. 

You seem happy with Steve and unlike you and him, things between Steve went slow, taking time. No moving in three weeks after or by each other's side everyday and you certainly didn't let the man straight into Rosie and JJ's life.

A break..of sorts and maybe he'd gotten his hopes up and believed it actually could get better with time; get back together and be that little family again but as time passed by, it became all too clear– you really didn't plan on getting with him again and Bucky couldn't even blame you.

But you still let him into your life, let him be a part of your life. A part of Rosie's life..of JJ. You let Rosie stay with him whenever she wanted to, let her stay the night or a couple of days until the girl wanted to get back home again. Got to see his son nearly everyday and have him all weekends. 'I'd never take away your kids, buck'

Invitations to stay for dinner or spend the evening or to tag along with one of your day outs– all too eager to spend all the time he could with what once was his family,  even if it meant spending time with Steve.

You still took care of bucky, you still loved bucky because the man who broke your heart made you believe in love again, pulled you out of your shell after years of wanting to be alone. Took care of you during your darkest days, stayed by your side when you needed him the most. Gave Rosie a father figure she never had the opportunity to get, gave you another little soul to take care of. Bucky Barnes stole, bruised and broke your heart and till this day manages to glue it back together. 

It took you a while to forgive him, you're still not sure if you actually have. With the loan you got from your new part time job at the store around the corner, you managed to get yourself a small two bedroom apartment not too far away from bucky– following most classes from your new study online and still being able to be there for your babies; if you were being honest, life was good. 

The family wilson being back in your life being the icing on the cake. Sam being to eager to apologise for everything he'd said and done although 'I told you so'– first flight to Brooklyn and before you knew it the family stood in your apartment, unpacked boxes and painted rooms as if their lives depended on it; be there for you like they were after riley– family. Hailey even spent the better part of her summer in Brooklyn by your side to catch up while in all honesty, she got tired of her dad and needed some time alone.

Life was surprisingly good after everything.

"Dad?" 

Snapping out of his daydream, Bucky looks up and meets the eyes of the little girl in the rear view mirror. The braid bucky had managed to braid that morning an untangled mess, hanging from her shoulder. Left overs of a chocolate cookie still visible on the corner of her mouth. Yellow shirt covered in dirt, paint and what else she'd been playing in and with at school.

Bucky hums and types a quick text to you, telling you he'd stay over for dinner "What's up?" 

"Can alpine come with me sometime?" Rosie asks seriously, a hint of hope in her voice. 

"I wish he could sweetheart but mom's not allowed to have any pets," Bucky chuckles "He misses mommy, right?" 

"I don't know, he can't talk silly." 

"Really then why does alpine talk to me every night?" Bucky quips back "he tells me how you steal the last cookies from the cookie jar." 

"That was JJ– when are mommy, me and JJ coming back home, I want my own bedroom again." 

Bucky clears his throat and quickly gazes to the little boy fast asleep in his carpet on the backseat and back to Rosie, Bucky swallows the lump in his throat. 

You tried to explain it all but the 4 year old never seemed to be able to understand any of it; the two times Christmas, two birthdays not working.

"I don't know princess," Bucky admits "whenever mommy is ready." 

which is never

Heavy footsteps echo against the grey stone walls of the short hallway,  doors with small white numbers glued onto the wood– Steve isn't much taller or shorter, maybe a bit broader but nothing to be afraid of and yet bucky finds himself tiny next to the man, intimidated to say the least- black leather jacket over a simple grey shirt clung around his biceps, long legs...intimidating but with the softest facial features, christ bucky didn't have any reason to feel this way around someone You deemed important. 

If anything, Steve was as awkward as him.

Twirling around the hallway, her pink and purple colored bag bouncing up and down her back and her messy braid flying through the air, Rosie stills at the sight of the men walking their way 

"You're late." 

"I know, kid," Steve chuckles lowly "tried to be faster." 

"Well, you should be faster next time." Rosie simply states. 

Steve nods his head towards bucky with a slight smile which bucky returns and without another word, Steve twirls the keys out of his pocket and unlocks the door with the faint 9 on it. 

Rosie storms in, nearly tripping over her own feet as she pulls her backpack off and throws it in the corner with all other shoes, bags and umbrellas. 

The man nods again as Bucky pushes the stroller with JJ through the door. The familiar smell of you lingering in the air and fills his nostrils. He ignores the footsteps behind him. Bucky pushes his son further into the kitchen where he picks JJ out and sets the little man on the floor. Bucky's not even able to say another word, his son zooming off on all fours, going straight to the box filled with toys near the couch in the living room. 

"I was told to hand you the keys." Bucky's eyes shoot up to Steve, your keys dangling between his thumb and index finger– Steve clears his throat. 

Casually folding the stroller back before standing up straight, bucky nods and holds his hand out. 

Your keys, not Steve's. Great, he's not at that base yet.

"y/n asked if you wanted to bathe the kids," Steve clears his throat once again and shifts his weight from one foot to the other "so she can start with dinner when she's back." 

"Yeah, sure." Bucky mumbles almost inaudibly, calm and collected, through his stomach drops as Steve nods and strides his way to your bedroom and comes back out with a black overnight bag hanging from his shoulder; rogers printed on the fabric. 

so, he's at that base already

"So, yeah– I should head back out. Work and all." Steve breathes out a laugh. 

Placing both hands on his sides, Steve looks back to the living room where Rosie and JJ crawled and played around the coffee table. 

"Bye rosie," Steve waves awkwardly and with no answer back, he looks back at bucky with a slight smile and nervous chuckle "kids, right." 

"Yeah," Bucky deadpans, not batting an eye at the men in front of him "kids." 

Bucky doesn't have the right to feel jealous, he screwed things up and not you but he still loves you with all his heart and he'll be damned if he didn't at least try to gain back your trust and maybe even woo you back in his life– Steve stands in the way of just that.

Taglist: @farfromshawn @Nicollettemarie @wooya1224 @felicityofbakerstreet @agentmstark @sierrax023 @lilyevanswhore @qhbr2013 @buckybarnesobsessed @themaddies-obx @aloserwithoutacause @aanngie @sebby-staan @sweetth1ng @starrystarkey93 @libidinexx @dontputyourfckingdrinkonmytable @gasly-kvyat @brown-bi-beautiful @peter-laufeyson @im-squished @meshlababy @lindseyrae20 @cb97skies @qwccrr @ssprayberrythings @yougottalovefandoms @jbcalway @realgaytrash @natyvwe @poetryazenth @winterberryfox @ahahafudge @okiegirl24 @0moondoodler0 @why-wait-4-eventually

[cyrillean]

today, in "things literally no one asked for": all of sasara's verses in every song and drama track, ranked from worst to best

disclaimer that if you know enough about rap to be able to actually discuss and compare this sort of thing, uh, i have to warn you i don't so you might take psychic damage from reading this. but I TRIED

(also, this does not include the stage plays songs, sorry about that. it also does not include the curry thing, because i refuse to acknowledge it, thank you.)

ALSO OBVIOUSLY THIS IS JUST MY OPINION and if you disagree id love to hear why. this is just for fun and because the funnyman lives rent free in my head

14. sasara's verse with rosho in Aikata: deep sigh... im holding myself back from ranting for 10 paragraphs about this, but i genuinely think this showcases all their flaws as partners. it's not atrocious or anything, it's just. their styles cancel out in a way that reflects all their fears come true. it's cute tho

13. Survival of the Illest: Maybe I just didn't like the live performance, so I won't be able to rank it for sure until we get the official version of this and the BAT ones, but given Dotsuhon live performances tend to be even better than the studio versions, I'm inclined to say I straight up don't like his verse here lol?

12. Wara Osaka: ......yeah this is just thoroughly meh to me. Gives me the same vibes as his verse with Rosho in Aikata. Just not interesting. At least the song itself is really fun for something to vibe with without demanding that much attention.

11. Summit of Divisions (the bit from the leaders section in the trailer): Literally the most forgettable verse in this part of the song. Not bad, just thoroughly unremarkable both in the context of Sasara's verses and in the fact that all the other leaders have STELLAR verses here. Structure wise it makes sense going into Kuko's final verse, which probably only hits AS hard BECAUSE sasara's bit passes right by you, but still.

10. his parts in N☆PS: This song is fantastic, but Sasara is really just here as the glue to tie things together- the real standouts in this one are Rei and Rosho. Still, special shotout to him counting down in a speech.

9. sasara's solo verse in Aikata: perfectly standard sasara rap. this is like the baseline of what should be expected from this clown imo. the lyrics are kinda toothless but the way he delivers it doesn't disappoint

8. Joy for Struggle: It's only just a bit above The Sasara Standard Of Quality. Real good, real fun, takes advantage of the fantastic instrumentals of the song, and his confidence carries him a long way- but let's be honest, Ichiro sort of wiped the floor with him on this one

7. His first verse in Summit of Divisions: Judged solely as rap his bit here is nothing special, but in the context of the song itself, it's one of the most fun parts, he really leans into the vibe of the song by giving a little breather that's still genuinely fun and keeps the energy going into Rosho's verse.

6. Helter Skelter: much like everything else about sasara in helter skelter, his verse here is INTERESTING... he drops a lot of his usual flair and instead delivers a very, hm, i don't know enough about rap to describe it; it's very technically impressive compared to his usual stuff? I wouldn't be surprised if this is a peek at what he sounded like in Ikebukuro. If he'd carried this energy into Joy for Struggle it would have at least been a more interesting fight

5. Division Battle Anthem +: ...I think Sasara may well be the ONLY person who perfomed BETTER in Rap Battle than in Battle Anthem. I still prefer his verse here, but it's very style over sustance. That in no way means it's bad tho because absolutely NO ONE has a bad or even mediocre verse in this song, and I appreciate his kanto-ben joke its cute

4. Division Rap Battle +: I don't actually like his verse here much, but relistening I have to admit it's actually very, hmm... it's sasara going all out with style, he does SO much in just 20 seconds. In Tragic Transistor he calls himself a southpaw rapper, and I don't know enough about rap to know if he's bullshitting or not, but this verse makes it hard to argue with him.

3. Tragic Transistor: He does not shut up for a single SECOND in this entire song, and lets none of that time go to waste. The song itself barely changes at all, and the choruses are relatively speaking very short, so he carries the whole entire three minutes by himself without it EVER getting boring. He manages to rap for a whole song about himself, without actually SAYING anything meaningful about himself, and yet STILL asserting dominance WHILE being a clown. this song is a joy to rap

2. Aikata(s): Unironically fantastic, which goes for rosho's parts as well. in many shonen Fights Between Allies (tm), i feel like even if they SAY they're not holding back, they end up being like "oh it doesnt matter who wins, what matters is that we're enjoying the battle and giving it our all" etc. well this is NOT the case here, they are HONEST TO GOD BOTH FIGHTING TO WIN, and sasara genuinely throws out some lines i wouldn't have thought he'd say to rosho. just a great battle imo

Tragic Comedy #1. Osaka Dreamin Night: talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before, COME ON EVERY PART OF HIS VERSE HERE IS ICONIC. HAI DOMO DOTSUITARE HOMPO DESU. TAMUKETARO KA HIGANBANA. IM A TRAGIC COMEDY NUMBER 1. THE BIT WHERE HE PUNS AROUND HIS NAME FOR LIKE FOUR FULL LINES. this is such an addictive verse to rap it's just so fun and bouncy with just a dash of threathening. HONA NEEEE