#im just filling the void w this don't mind me

[mpsansy]

So to get back into Casper's Spectral Spectacle,

I just came up with something. And it's simply about Elizabeth wanting to kill J.T.

I'm almost certain that the thought circled her head any time she was around him. Thinking of all different ways she could do it. Many of those did involve her dying, but she didn't care. Just as long as she didn't have to be married to him any longer, she'd happily take death.

But when she was expecting a child, the thought began dwindling away. Now replaced with a maternal instinct to care and shield her dear child from J.T

[velvetwyrme]

i beg (bug) of thee . .. more borrower au pleaze.

now you might be wanting more of the existing dynamic/s ive mentioned but @dubia-015 asked me about the other character concepts i hd in mind yesterday and then i sat down and went AHHHHHH into the void and it rewarded me with even more thoughts

yapping under the cut

please consider Ratchet thinking that the tiny person he helped out when he was still in medical school was a fever dream (too much coffee, not enough sleep). Only to get blindsided when a different tiny person shows up one day, loud and obnoxious but clearly worried about his friend who is injured, begging for Ratchet's help. And well, Ratchet doesn't know what to with the fact that Drift is REAL, but he DOES know what to do if someones bleeding out.

Or the flipside of that, Drift returning to his old house that he nearly died in, and finding out that the tiny man who helped him during that time is REAL and not a drug induced hallucination. If you want to get extra tasty with it, Drift almost stabs Ratchet, the blade THUNKING down in front of the borrower as Drift glares down at him. He wasn't even been looking, he just knew Ratchet was there. But as soon as Drift sees him his eyes widen and soften, as recognition finds him and he whispers... "Ratch?"

(I imagine he IMMEDIATELY panics and pulls the blade out because OH GOD HE NEARLY KILLED RATCHET) and can you tell i really want to draw this but also i really dont want to draw People.

And some other concepts!!

Borrower Brainstorm trying to one up human Perceptor while also trying to not be caught. He wants to be NOTICED and RECOGNIZED but he's meant to keep hidden but Perceptor is so brilliant he NEEDS to prove himself.

Human Whirl and his two tiny partners who he tries to scare off,,, or alternatively, Tailgate and Cyclonus and the borrower that they're luring into their home like a stray cat.

Borrower Skids pining fruitlessly over human Nautica!! Roommateless Swerve having a little borrower buddy in his walls who listens to him ramble. I can't decide who but my silly rarepair brain immediately went ULTRA MAGNUS because i have a soft spot for Swagnus hdjdhdjfbjd

And of course you can't forget tired veteran OP who has been passing messages with a mysterious stranger in the library who writes the most beautiful poetry and has a fresh new perspective on life, albeit one that is jaded, hardened by a life of being underfoot, downtrodden and struggling to survive day to do,,,,, like. Ghhhrghg.

im gonna fucking explode so you also get more thoughts abt the various versions ft the Constructicons, J/P and SW

Also if you go borrower!Soundwave and Prowl (Human Constructicons+Jazz) then you get the two of them working together somewhat begrudgingly at first- they have a working respect for each other that gives way to mutual appreciation for each other's logical prowess and intelligence, things that are required when trying to navigate a house filled w/ 5 rowdy guys. In that same version you have Rumble, Frenzy and their like. 8 dads. Since they're human, it's easier for the other humans to wrangle them but Soundwave and Prowl are the real powerhouses there who keep everyone in line.

In the one where the Constructicons are menacing J/P, they all slowly befriend Jazz first, who stays well out of the way of Prowl's investigations- he could tell him, but... this is the most fun he's seen Prowl have in a long time and it looks good on him. Also getting doted on by the pack of borrowers is a nice perk.

i literally cannot create fast enough to keep up w this. Also logically if I did anything I'd. probably cut down the amt of characters so I don't have to deak w/ as many interconnecting pieces but IN MY HEART OF HEARTS THIS IS THE DREAM

[sage-lights]

hello, this is the final update from the sword af closure anon that has also been on a dread journey. things have been so stressful at work so i haven't had time, but decided to spend the past 2 days just watching smosh vs zombies. and it's perfect.

dread, i love u. smosh and shortform ttrpgs, u were made for each other. 😔💔 i love dread. it's got EVERYTHING- queer coded courtney, queer coded amanda, amanda having palpable tension w spencer, spencer misogyny but for haha hehe, and the return of reuben?? WHAT MORE COULD A GIRL WANT??

even the recent sponsored dread- that was so silly goofy- arasha lalani in ttrpgs is so fun, fresh, innovative, and sexy. arasha pretending she knows what afk is? iconic, showstopping, genius, brilliant, life-changing. trevor being a brooding leader despite being the silliest goose in the pond? an awe- inspiring choice. trevarts from hezekiah's beautiful ur mind is sooooo vast i wanna know how it works.

idh anything smart or retrospective to say other than dread was such a good and fun series that filled a void for me. and i also enjoyed george's smosh mouth episode! glad to know he cared ab sword af, too!

i do agree w you though that i'd love to see more gms on dread other than george, but i do really like him! i'd actually love to see aabria iyengar on it! ik she did something w smosh during the pandemic but she's such a delight and i'm genuinely so fatigued by smosh's videos lineups lately being SO man-heavy because i think arasha and angela should be in EVERY video. any time it's all boys, it de-yassifies trevor and i hate it. but anyways, yes, aabria. smosh is also in DESPERATE need for more than one woman of color in a room at a time. (unrelated: idk why no one wants this as much as i do or at least no one's talked about it- i know that she's white but elyse willems and angela NEED to do a video together. i NEED it. elyse is delightful, even tho she's white lmao im kidding i love white ppl 💖😬🤭)

whoever on smosh games pitched dread deserves to get their ass ate. not by me but by someone who'll do it.

hello again!! happy to hear from you 🤗 i'm really glad you're liking dread and decided to give it a shot! smosh vs zombies was super duper fun, but i think aliens could've been longer and they could've explored the world more. i think three eps is a good length for dread. i haven't watched the sponsored dread all the way through because i haven't had time and i kept missing details and rewinding it. but i hope to finish it soon!

love george!!! he's hella fun as a dm and is a wonderful story teller. and yes, it was nice to know he was involved and supportive of saf! AABRIA WOULD BE WONDERFUL (you also just gave me new info to update my agcu with LOL because i didn't know she'd been on smosh before)!

i don't know much about elyse and james willems besides what they've done on smosh, but i'm manifesting elyse and angela for you 🫶🫶🫶

[cosmic-drift]

just a little thing here gonna put it here and not on the #ventblog cus this is pretty private yano, like I love my bf but am bit worried im maybe just using him to fill a void or somethingg yano? Like, the only thing we have in common really is a shared interest in mind altering drugs, like how did we end up together ygm? I love him, pretty sure, he makes me so happy and i want him to be happy in life, always, but I don't feel comfortable if I'm maybe using him to fix myself idk. Like, am lonely and was feeling very deprived of love and support, esp watching friends (incidentally who are very far away) be in good happy relationships and felt ready/wanted that myself. Just wanted to love someone and be loved back in a romantic way ygm. And I keep thinking abt what one of my friends said, it comes into my mind quite often, she said he isnt right for me in the sense that maybe it is importanf to be in this initial relationship now in my development, but I latched onto it bc he was the first person to show me any real affection and love, And she doesn't want to push or anything but that I can go wider if u know what I mean, bc she said I am an extraordinary person with an amazing mind and I'm a certain type of person who she's never met before (still don't fully understand what she means by this/why). also said my creativity would be dampened which I definitely feel, and tht i would thrive with someone with a much more open mind and that is definitely not my bf atm. Potentially my creativity is being stifled maybe, or not stifled but definitely not nurtured. I need someone with a mind big and open like the ocean, we would be good for each other. Potentially, narrow mindedness and excessively analytical is not something I need and something I find sad and frustrating/irritating. Also all my thoughts and feelings manifest in certain behaviours and mannerisms and habits N when I do/say things sometimes / act/behave a certain way its not me trying to be "edgy", am just doing what makes me happy and what I want to do. Not gonna change myself or deviate from the path of becoming who I want to be. Am a very big mess and need a lot of comfrt and reassurance aBout a lot of things. Like whether u are happy, are u really happy.And am not fishing for complements, im genuinely insecure I don't like how I look and it's neurodivergency that makes me not believe u when u say I'm pretty/not ugly. And a genuine reaction from me when I say "lies" when u say I'm hot because that's what I really believe. Just a bit 'oh' when that's perceived as fishing for complements, I don't do that it irritates me too. If I was fishing for complements I would say complement me bitch. Just very sad and frustrating being kind of misunderstood in that way. And sometimes spending a day together And I come home and feel unfulfilled u know, mentally and emotionally and I don't think it should be like that. A bit empty. Idk its just a bit of thing I don't really know how to deal with or what to do. Am also a bit plagued by the thought of his ex, like, an insta post that made me uncomfortable when we first got together, and he asked me if it was okay and I said yeh BC I didn't want to be that kind of girl/gf ukno, idk how to feel about the fact that they still talk bc this is totally new situation to me, but I definitely don't like that his whatsapp background is s till a photo of them, or that there's a heart emoji next to her name on snapchat, that makes me uncomfortable. And little stuff comes into my head as well, like, she's prettier than me, and sometimes I look at my nails and it makes me remember that she always has perfect manicured nails w gels/acrylics. And idk whats normal to think about these things, idk whats stupid and an overreaction about any/all of it generally, if at all.I just don't know about anything . The sex is good tho.