#im just filling the void w this don't mind me

[mpsansy]

So to get back into Casper's Spectral Spectacle,

I just came up with something. And it's simply about Elizabeth wanting to kill J.T.

I'm almost certain that the thought circled her head any time she was around him. Thinking of all different ways she could do it. Many of those did involve her dying, but she didn't care. Just as long as she didn't have to be married to him any longer, she'd happily take death.

But when she was expecting a child, the thought began dwindling away. Now replaced with a maternal instinct to care and shield her dear child from J.T

[sage-lights]

hello, this is the final update from the sword af closure anon that has also been on a dread journey. things have been so stressful at work so i haven't had time, but decided to spend the past 2 days just watching smosh vs zombies. and it's perfect.

dread, i love u. smosh and shortform ttrpgs, u were made for each other. 😔💔 i love dread. it's got EVERYTHING- queer coded courtney, queer coded amanda, amanda having palpable tension w spencer, spencer misogyny but for haha hehe, and the return of reuben?? WHAT MORE COULD A GIRL WANT??

even the recent sponsored dread- that was so silly goofy- arasha lalani in ttrpgs is so fun, fresh, innovative, and sexy. arasha pretending she knows what afk is? iconic, showstopping, genius, brilliant, life-changing. trevor being a brooding leader despite being the silliest goose in the pond? an awe- inspiring choice. trevarts from hezekiah's beautiful ur mind is sooooo vast i wanna know how it works.

idh anything smart or retrospective to say other than dread was such a good and fun series that filled a void for me. and i also enjoyed george's smosh mouth episode! glad to know he cared ab sword af, too!

i do agree w you though that i'd love to see more gms on dread other than george, but i do really like him! i'd actually love to see aabria iyengar on it! ik she did something w smosh during the pandemic but she's such a delight and i'm genuinely so fatigued by smosh's videos lineups lately being SO man-heavy because i think arasha and angela should be in EVERY video. any time it's all boys, it de-yassifies trevor and i hate it. but anyways, yes, aabria. smosh is also in DESPERATE need for more than one woman of color in a room at a time. (unrelated: idk why no one wants this as much as i do or at least no one's talked about it- i know that she's white but elyse willems and angela NEED to do a video together. i NEED it. elyse is delightful, even tho she's white lmao im kidding i love white ppl 💖😬🤭)

whoever on smosh games pitched dread deserves to get their ass ate. not by me but by someone who'll do it.

hello again!! happy to hear from you 🤗 i'm really glad you're liking dread and decided to give it a shot! smosh vs zombies was super duper fun, but i think aliens could've been longer and they could've explored the world more. i think three eps is a good length for dread. i haven't watched the sponsored dread all the way through because i haven't had time and i kept missing details and rewinding it. but i hope to finish it soon!

love george!!! he's hella fun as a dm and is a wonderful story teller. and yes, it was nice to know he was involved and supportive of saf! AABRIA WOULD BE WONDERFUL (you also just gave me new info to update my agcu with LOL because i didn't know she'd been on smosh before)!

i don't know much about elyse and james willems besides what they've done on smosh, but i'm manifesting elyse and angela for you 🫶🫶🫶

[lightburnsyou]

respond to the following prompts out of character, then tag others you'd like to get to know a little bit better.

roleplayer name: sky!

roleplayer pronouns: she/her

muse name: anakin skywalker

preferred communication: tumblr dms or discord!

experience: over fifteen years! i started on neopets (doing "gifted vs government" rps if you remember those. it was basically just x-men ocs lmao) and started on tumblr doing groups when i was about 14? discovered indie rp around a year or so later. moved to discord and wrote 1x1s sometime during lockdown. rped exclusively with one friend for like three years. (still write the same two rp threads w her!) recently came back to tumblr with this blog! have been in many many fandoms.

preferred roleplay type: as long as there's something to work with, i am content. i'm very story focused. i don't care much for threads where it's just two characters chatting about nothing, unless it's giving us juicy character exploration. i prefer threads with some kind of conflict, whether it be internal, between two characters, or a third party/impending doom/secret/whatever. it doesn't have to be action based, but i think all stories do need something going on. as long as there's something, i'm happy. i'm not very good at this, but i also really like threads with strong environments! i suck at remembering to describe places, but i like a nice setting. i think it makes it more fun and vivid, and you can do cool symbolism and metaphors with a good setting. trying to get better at this bc sometimes i feel like i write characters in a void rather than a solid, grounded place. so if my partner is good at establishing setting, it makes me happy bc i feel like i'm learning lmao

pet peeves & dealbreakers: ooc dramaaaa. it is my biggest dealbreaker. also this is a minor pet peeve and hasn't really come up here, but i must warn you all that i am not a hayden simp. please don't assume i am just bc i write anakin. love him as anakin! great actor! but idrk him and i don't want to talk for hours about how hot he is. i'm a lesbian, and i'm just not interested in talking about the hotness of men really at all, let alone in excess. i won't stop you from talking about it, but i just can't sometimes. a boundary i have. i'll talk about my love for anakin all day any day tho.

plot or memes: both! i will say that memes can sometimes get the ball rolling faster, especially if the characters have an established dynamic or common setting! that being said, i do love plotting just as much! never feel scared to reach out to me to discuss a plot or dynamic! i'm down. and unless otherwise specified, you're more than welcome to continue any meme without asking! i try to write them with potential continuation in mind

long replies or short replies: i don't really mind length, but i do gravitate to multi-para. one-liners are great starting points, but i naturally expand. i don't vibe with blabbing just for the sake of matching length, though. anakin is a talker, so a lot of my replies do have a bit of dialogue! however, whatever i feel the reply needs is what the reply gets, and i hope my partners do the same! there's no pressure to match length, as long as there's something to work with, yk?

best time to write: it really depends! my work schedule fluctuates quite a bit. for me, as long as im (a) not tired, (b) have a quiet environment, and (c) am in a somewhat good mood, i can write something. the thing that hinders my writing most frequently is stress or sleepiness.

are you like your muse?: i think we all are in some ways. there is a reason we chose to write or create the characters we did. my writing is obviously rooted in how i see the world, and through that, how i see ani. there will always be a part of me in the way i write anakin. we have very different life experiences, reactions, and perspectives on things, but i love that boy.

tagged: @petitsdieu

tagging: anyone who sees this and wishes to fill it out! tag me! it's good to get to know one another

[cosmic-drift]

just a little thing here gonna put it here and not on the #ventblog cus this is pretty private yano, like I love my bf but am bit worried im maybe just using him to fill a void or somethingg yano? Like, the only thing we have in common really is a shared interest in mind altering drugs, like how did we end up together ygm? I love him, pretty sure, he makes me so happy and i want him to be happy in life, always, but I don't feel comfortable if I'm maybe using him to fix myself idk. Like, am lonely and was feeling very deprived of love and support, esp watching friends (incidentally who are very far away) be in good happy relationships and felt ready/wanted that myself. Just wanted to love someone and be loved back in a romantic way ygm. And I keep thinking abt what one of my friends said, it comes into my mind quite often, she said he isnt right for me in the sense that maybe it is importanf to be in this initial relationship now in my development, but I latched onto it bc he was the first person to show me any real affection and love, And she doesn't want to push or anything but that I can go wider if u know what I mean, bc she said I am an extraordinary person with an amazing mind and I'm a certain type of person who she's never met before (still don't fully understand what she means by this/why). also said my creativity would be dampened which I definitely feel, and tht i would thrive with someone with a much more open mind and that is definitely not my bf atm. Potentially my creativity is being stifled maybe, or not stifled but definitely not nurtured. I need someone with a mind big and open like the ocean, we would be good for each other. Potentially, narrow mindedness and excessively analytical is not something I need and something I find sad and frustrating/irritating. Also all my thoughts and feelings manifest in certain behaviours and mannerisms and habits N when I do/say things sometimes / act/behave a certain way its not me trying to be "edgy", am just doing what makes me happy and what I want to do. Not gonna change myself or deviate from the path of becoming who I want to be. Am a very big mess and need a lot of comfrt and reassurance aBout a lot of things. Like whether u are happy, are u really happy.And am not fishing for complements, im genuinely insecure I don't like how I look and it's neurodivergency that makes me not believe u when u say I'm pretty/not ugly. And a genuine reaction from me when I say "lies" when u say I'm hot because that's what I really believe. Just a bit 'oh' when that's perceived as fishing for complements, I don't do that it irritates me too. If I was fishing for complements I would say complement me bitch. Just very sad and frustrating being kind of misunderstood in that way. And sometimes spending a day together And I come home and feel unfulfilled u know, mentally and emotionally and I don't think it should be like that. A bit empty. Idk its just a bit of thing I don't really know how to deal with or what to do. Am also a bit plagued by the thought of his ex, like, an insta post that made me uncomfortable when we first got together, and he asked me if it was okay and I said yeh BC I didn't want to be that kind of girl/gf ukno, idk how to feel about the fact that they still talk bc this is totally new situation to me, but I definitely don't like that his whatsapp background is s till a photo of them, or that there's a heart emoji next to her name on snapchat, that makes me uncomfortable. And little stuff comes into my head as well, like, she's prettier than me, and sometimes I look at my nails and it makes me remember that she always has perfect manicured nails w gels/acrylics. And idk whats normal to think about these things, idk whats stupid and an overreaction about any/all of it generally, if at all.I just don't know about anything . The sex is good tho.