#im in pain I'm in pain. it hurts. I HAVENT STOPPED FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS COSTUMR.

[sparklings-husband]

hi

[boldlyvoid]

Hi Em, i know it’s probably none of your business but i feel like i need to talk about it with someone and i honestly have nobody else to talk to :( i sent you an ask about thinking maybe im autistic like two years ago (late 2020 ish) and i cant find it again but basically ever since your answer i cant stop thinking about it and i honestly havent been to a psychologist bc im scared maybe she’s going to confirm it to me. I have been reading about symptoms and watching people talk about autism and i relate with so many things they say so idk, it gives me so much anxiety and im honestly so scared.

Also i hope this doesn’t trigger you but i talked to my mom about it and she was like ‘lol you’re definitely not autistic, you graduated from college and you’re clever and not incapable of doing things on your own’ and that made me really sad so now idk how to cope with it :( im so upset

the best advice I can give you is that you live in your brain 24/7 you know yourself well. you wouldn't look at your broken arm and think oh it doesn't look like most broken arms so it mustn't be broken. you'd feel the pain and experience it your own way and know that yes, this is broken. you know when something is up. you know when you have nerve pain or when your feelings are hurt. so if you look at yourself and you look at what it takes to be diagnosed with autism and you think, "hey that sounds like me" then that's totally you. you don't need a doctor's permission to say you have a broken arm, you fuckin know when the bone is popped out. so why can't you say you're autistic if you feel so as well?

as for your moms response that's very rooted in ableism but also autism is a hereditary thing, so your parents most likely have some kind of neuro-divergency that makes them see you as quote-unquote normal but that's only because it's their normal too. like my mom thinks its normal to get in her car and drive and not remember how she got to work because she was thinking about too much other stuff... as if that's not an adhd thing? it's totally normal to her... and my dad being able to hear every sound in the house and freak out over the smallest inconvenience is normal and "just man things" and not him becoming overstimulated from his autism....

your parents dont know you as well as you know yourself, if Autism feels like the right diagnosis for you and if you can ease your everyday life with accommodations specifically made to help neurodivergent people, then there's nothing wrong with that. live your life the way that will help you feel the best and fuck anyone who doesn't like it.

if i'm not following you and you want to message me privately, let me know and I'll do that, I'm always here to talk one on one if you need someone

[aphrogeneias]

and what if!!! she changes back while still at his place and he wakes up one day and sees that there's a naked lady sleeping on his floor and she's like "don't freak out, i can explain" 🥹 and then she stays for whatever plot related reasons and that's when they fall in love

YES! I was trying to think about if she changed back in the house, i couldnt think how youd explain their connection but that sounds perfect! ❤

It also crossed my mind, when she learns how to control it, she turns back into her full dog form sometimes when playing with his dog and she laughs cus it weirds him out

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they havent told the others yet and to stop them questioning why the dogs always gone, she stays in dog form around them alot

one day theyre making out, shes on his lap when the party walk in and she changes into dog form automatically without thinking. thats when they have to tell the truth so they dont think steves getting freaky with his dog😭

Leaning more into werewolf! Reader for a second...In my head she can change when ever she wants (or if close to a full moon she can control it?) but shes also ruled by the moon, and because its a forced change into her monster form, it hurts like a classic werewolf transformation

hes stroking her hair while shes curled up/writhing in bed, soft whispers "ssh, its okay, my beautiful girl, itll all be over soon, i love you.. i know baby, im so sorry, such a goodgirl youre doing so well for me"

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A coworker at the shelter is getting on his nerves, so him and reader team up to embarrass them at the local dog show they entered by entering the reader

Reader probably shits in the womans bag for good measure💀

*distant screaming as they leave* "y/n.. you didnt... did you shit in her bag?" "No...must have been that crusty chihuahua of hers 👀"

🦊

i forgot to answer this because i'm the world's most terrible person but i love everything about it especially the hurt/comfort of him seeing her through the pain of transformation!!! i'm thinking about it since i read it fr he's so soft and gentle and attentive i'm gonna CRY

[kelslikedevil]

"Why won't you realize I don't think you're some fucking monster!?"

MGK!NEWT ONESHOT/IMAGINE.

Requested By: @kellysimagines

Well i had one in mind where newt and the reader are together and when it happened when half of his face is damaged he thinks she doesnt love him anymore which she does. And he breaks up not because he wants too but for her. And after a few days when she is alone 2 guys come to their house and newt isnt there because they still havent made up and when he comes back he sees the 2 men with the readef and he fights wjth them and later they make up? ^^

CONTAINS: fluff, angst

WARNINGS: Mentions/portrayal of slight gun violence, and drugs

•••

"I don't want you anymore."

That was the last thing newt said to you in the last three days. You didn't think he'd ment it. he was struggling after the stupid fucking pill incident. But it's been three days since that dreadful statement. The longest you've ever been apart was no more than two. You miss him more than anything. It hurt to have him say he doesn't love you and just leave you after everything you'd been through the last two years. He knew of your abandonment issues, being left in the dirt time after time with words that stung. You never thought he'd do it to you, but it didn't hurt as much as it would. You knew he didn't mean it. His insecurities and pain and anxiety were grabbing a hold of of him faster than he could push them off. You knew that, and you knew he'd come back home.

That's why your heart skipped as beat when there were foot steps approaching the apartment door. Newt, You thought, its Newt.

However the skipping became a dreadful drop when it wasn't. The knock was aggressive, hard. Newts knocks were soft and had a specific pattern when he'd come home.

You hugged your legs on the couch hoping they'd leave.

"Y/N! Open the door goddamnit! Y/N!" It was Newt and he was shouting anxiously shaking the door again, "You in there!?"

The surprise that hit you washed away as you jumped up running to the door. You unlocked and undid the chain without a second thought. The tears that pricked at your eyes flowed over with his figure standing there in the dark. The hood covered his face as his head hung down, he wanted to cover himself and hide from you. You wish he'd understand that what happened to him, the burning, didn't make you repulsed by him.

"Newt," his name escaped from your lips throwing your arms around his waist, hugging and squeezing the life out of him. You felt his tense stature melt into yours as he relished the feeling of you in his arms for a moment.

You felt it wasn't long enough as he pulled away, "Y/N, listen I'm so fucking so-" you cut him off pulling him down to kiss him, he froze hesitating before letting it happen and giving into you. He pulled away holding your face with his rough but unburnt hand. His eyes were still closed taking a deep breath, "We don't have a lot of time you need to hide," he told you, your brows furrowed in confusion as his touch left you as quickly as it came.

Newt shut the door, setting the chain as you began to question him, "Newt what the hell are you talking about?" You asked, heart rushing as he frantically ran around the apartment gathering his shit.

"Fuck why's it so cold in here Y/N?" He asked loading his gun as he zipped up the jacket he wore.

"Its like 80 degrees-" You started, cutting yourself off, "Newt what the fuck!" You grabbed him, steadying him by his arms in front of you. "Stop it!"

He let out a heavy breath, "You needa get out if here, there's some guys coming, I owed them and- and I forgot, okay?" He said quickly.

He never forgets anything when it comes to dealing, but he hasn't been the same. "Newt what-" you were cut off by much more aggressive banging on the door, goose bumps covering your arms.

"Fuck, Hide, Fucking hide!" He told you, grabbing you by the arm and pulling you behind the couch. You pulled away from him, mild terror consuming you, as he held your face. "I love you okay?" He whispered, looking down at the love of his life. He found it unbelievable you even wanted to touch him in the state he was in.

"I love you too," You told him as he pulled away, motioning for you to hide as there was another loud banging and a kick on the door. You grabbed the pistol behind the pillow another kick to the door. You ducked down as another kick hit and it flung open.

For a moment you were completely freaked out overwhelmed at the sound of the shouting. You could barely make out Newt being shot at but missed. However he dropped his gun, the sound of the clattering caused you to peak out. Hand wrapping around the pistol. Suddenly defenseless Newt lunged to the case with the power pills as his last resort.

You couldn't help but shout, revealing yourself "Newt no!" Knowing it'd hurt him. You didn't hesitate to hold out the pistol, flicking the safety off. You just got him back, you didn't wanna lose him again without trying to do something about it.

"Y/N," he muttered eyes widening as you aimed the gun at one of the large men. "Yo! Don't hurt her-" he started reaching for a pill.

"Newt don't," You said eyes trained on the bearded man, glancing to the other who had his gun pointed at you too. "What do you want!? Take it and get the fuck out if here!" You shot at them to give a distraction for Newt, purposely missing. Your heart rammed in your chest as the clicking of the bald one's safety made it to your ears.

"Shoot at us again bitch and you're dead," he spat, "I want the coke or the money now."

Newt grabbed a hidden gun shooting the armed one's hand as causing him to drop his weapon. You ducked fear running through you as the bearded one whipped out a gun shooting it at you. The bullet whizzed by your head, a scream almost escaping from your chest as you couldn't help but sob. You were shaking as the pistol fell from your hand on to the floor. You heard the sound of grunting and a gun against the back of a skull.

"Y/N get the money," He told you frantically, snapping you out of your frozen daze. You scrambled up grabbing the tin lunch box Newt held his cash in. He towered over the men, "Its okay baby," he told you taking the box from you, "Grab the guns."

You did, almost as shaky as he was from his nerve damage while he took the cash out. Your throat swole as you grabbed the last one. He threw the cash at them.

"Now get the fuck out," he spat.

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The clean up was overwhelming to the point where the moment you sat down you immediately zoned out. It was Newt who knelt in front of you that snapped you out of it. "Baby," he said taking your hands in his steadily trembling ones. "I've got to go."

"What the fuck," you whispered, a statement more than a question, "You're just gonna leave me again just like that, Newt?"

His gaze left yours, "Coz you deserve somethin better and i-"

"Bullshit, Newt," you spat at him pulling your hands away. "Why won't you realize I don't think you're some fucking monster!?" You couldn't help the outburst of your words, "I fucking love you and I know you're hurting but you're so full of shit!"

You were sobbing, anxiety rising in your stomach. Newt didn't know what to say. He wouldn't even look at you.

"Why are you punishing yourself- not even just that- you're hurting me Newt!"

"Y/N please-"

You kept talking cutting him off, "You're not leaving," You told him, "You're staying, right here with me, you want to. I want you to."

Newt pulled away, your heart almost shattering and tears welding over. However relief flowed over you as he sat on the couch next to you pulling you into his warm body. "I have no idea why you want me," he whispered stroking your hair, "no fuckin' idea."

You sobbed into his jacket the pain he was feeling was so easily rubbing off to you as he gripped you tightly. "Because I fucking love you," you breathed out, "You're where I feel safe, no matter what."

He didn't say anything as you both laid back into the couch, still clinging onto him for dear life. As you started to drift away your could hear him gently murmur, "I love you"

•••

AHHHHH THIS TOOK SO LONG IM SO SORRY BUT I AM SO HAPPY WITH IT BUT AT THE SAME TIME DESPISE IT. AJDJAKS

AnDY WAYS I LOVE NEWT.

Taglist~

@bakerkells

[piccolozonlyhusband]

1. I can see just fine.

2. Oh? How? Did I force it in their ear and scream at them to believe it? How did I traumatize them. Also if I'm hurting them that bad they should block me.

3. Yeah because I havent Done shit. I've been traumatized by your community and beliefs too. But what do I get? Yelled at. So Im yelling back. It isn't arguing unless theres 2 voices.

4. Nope. We have done some things and Even one in my community traumatized me. But you know what? Thank raid that happened. It messed up me so bad that I have privacy and trust issues with new people and feel like everyone will go against me. So please keep talking about how I'm not a victim when minding my own business and not even interacting with antis at the time. Oh it was also 3 times so I have tripled the amount of trust issues.

5. I do but ok.

6. No. Y'all are literally saying characters that some of us cope with hate us. Saying were all pedos despite our age. Saying well fuck a child when we grow up. Your community fucking threatened my ex gf to the point she broke down. It was a bad rape threat and no. I dont care if it wasn't one of you. Y'all let that shit happen all the time and only freaked out when it was a child. Because it's not like it can trigger rape victims again or anything. ((And Dont come at me with my ships condone it because it doesn't. It only makes me feel in control and rebuild everything to be better))

7. We don't defend the fetishization. We defend the thoughts and coping of ships to suppress urges and trauma.

8. Rapist? Nah castration sounds better. Pedos? What type we talking? Non offending or the ones who do? If the ones who do I think they should be castrated then some painful torture to end them. Non offending? Until they offend they deserve to live.

9. It's not fetishization. Fetishization is when you need something in porn to cum. And you know what? I don't need my ships in porn to cum. So no. It isn't. And I told my family about my ships and thoughts and they said its ok and it's not me but the trauma. So please keep saying that to me.

10. Stop using the word wrong please, thanks. And if they offend they deserve death. Let's say it was fetishization. It's just needed in porn to cum. Kinda disgusting to most but only if it's actually real then that Time is where you lock up people. And we do only if it's fake and not real. Tho I cant speak for everyone.

11. Asked a bunch of people and they said they don't care/just do it safely/what the fuck is a ship.

12.my 11 experiences with your community say otherwise.

13. For what? Oh no, I'm coping and not Harrassing people and doxxing them to black mail them. Also I have and I seem to be helping more then your community has with actual victims. Isn't it Funny how the supposed bad side is helping victims feel comfortable more then your side. The one who wants to teach them they should be killed/do suicide/arrested for their ships.

14. No thats just marginalization and assuming they all offend leading to them doing it because society pushes that idea onto them no matter how hard they try. So no it's not suicide baiting. It's threatening.

Ugh I just saw an anti-anti with a purple Martin as their icon, so:

Purple martins hate pedophiles, necrophiliacs, and zoophiles!

All swallows hate anyone who defends these people

All songbirds hate anyone who thinks it’s okay to fantasize about harming children or animals

All birds hate anti-antis