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koishua · 2 years ago

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yesterday was awful but my dream last night was so genuinely comforting i was heartbroken waking up like not to sound downright delusional but :') i so vividly remember hugging jay so so tightly and him being so warm and kind and loving like oml i need to get a hold of myself

#tp #we were just standing there so cozy hugging in the middle of the empty small street with just a single streetlight #and it was warm but there was a little breeze and he didnt say anything and neither did i #i'd just ran up to him in relief and he'd taken me in his arms so readily and we stayed just like that for the entirety of the dream #i can still FEEL the hug im not even joking i remember so so so vividly im actually so so lonely my god get a grip vie #this whole entire day i kept getting lost in my thoughts i kept thinking about how nice it felt #i almost cried thinking about it #i have never been really hugged affectionately like that and so softly at that #so remembering it feels like torture #who knows if i'll ever get one #the more time passes the more i feel like it's a punishment #it was the nicest feeling ever for a while but now im just trying to cope with the fact that i may as well prepare to die all alone #ill in the head weak in the heart i may never find someone who'll love me like jay does in my dreams #everyone pointing their finger at me when asked who's the most delusional girl to ever exist 🤭🤭

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